WREN
We talked the whole way to Helena. Raven has grown up so much. She told me how she likes to hunt and she likes helping the women of the pack.
I asked her if she had a boyfriend because that’s what sisters do and she confirmed. His name is Dale Hunter. He apparently treats her right and she loves him. I’m happy for her.
She asked me the same question. I told her about Jayson and how we were in love for a year. When the Blue Moon showed us we weren’t mates, we fell apart. Jayson couldn’t handle it. He was so sure. I never dated anyone else after that.
We talked about my job with the Alliance. I told her all the stories of the events in the last three years. Told her about Torrent, White, and Rennet. I talked about how my friends all found their mates. It was great. Unreal actually. It used to be that finding your fated mate was rare, but when it comes to my friends, they all hit the jackpot and are now riding the fated bond high.
I wish I could have the same. Aside from Jayson, there was only one person I ever loved. He died years ago. Was he my fated? I don’t know. I know my feelings for him were strong, but we were too young to feel the connection. Then he was gone.
As I travel up the highway, I see a sight I never wanted to see again.
Aurora.
My head whips to Raven. “Please, tell me we aren’t going there.”
She laughs. “No. That’s a Dragon City.”
“I know.” I look at her with concern on her face. “I’m starting to wonder why my baby sister is living around a fucking Dragon City.”
I couldn’t help but get my back up. You would think after being attacked by Dragons, the last place you’d want to be would be near a city full of them.
“The Alpha will tell you everything. It’s not as bad as you think.” She sits up. “Get off here.” She points to an exit sign.
I pull off the highway. Raven directs me down more roads. We’re driving on a lonely highway through the thick, old growth forest.
“Where are we, Raven?” I started to get a twist in my gut.
“Helena.” She smiles a big, toothy smile. “Turn there.”
She has me turn my Jeep onto a dirt road that leads into the forest.
The canopy was arched above us. The treetops were thick. The Jeeps headlights came on in the low light level.
I drove slowly on the rough road. “Raven, this isn’t Helena.”
She grins. “No. It’s better. Pull over.”
I stop the Jeep and put it in park. “What are we doing?”
She opened the passenger side door. “We have to walk from here. Your car is safe here.” She shuts the door.
I get out and walk around my Jeep. “Raven, please tell me you’re not living in the woods.”
“Come on. I’ll show you.” She grabs my hand and leads me into the thick brush. We maneuver our way through the giant old trees and come to a clearing.
At its edge, the sun blinds me. I raise my hand to shield them. The clearing is large with two foothills on either side. There’s a dip of a shallow valley in the center.
My eyes travel across the clearing to the opposite edge. I can make out small houses made of what looks like, tree branches. There’s smoke rising from the center.
On that side of the clearing, children play. Chasing each other. Adults lay in the sun, talking.
An eagle screeches across the blue sky.
“Welcome home, Wren.” Raven grabs my hand and laces her fingers into mine.
I stand dumbfounded. Bastian was right. My people are Nomads. Packs living in the woods. Hiding from the rest of society. These are the survivors. Survivors of the Dragons devastating attacks.
“They’re all Helena?” I ask slowly as I’m still trapped by my amazement.
Raven shakes her head. “No. Not all. There’s some who are from other packs that just want to live with us.”
She grabs my hand again. “Let’s go.” She pulls me into the clearing. We descend our hill and cross the valley.
“Ravens back! Ravens back!” One of the kids yells. Raven gets a bit nervous as she sees one of the adults get up and run to the village.
The kids all run to us. “Raven! Did you bring us anything?” A boy no more than eight says.
“Not this time, Finley.” She hugs him and giggles.
“Who’s she?” Another blonde boy asks.
“This is my new friend, Wren. She was looking for new friends and I told her I have great friends here. Do you think you could be friends with her?” She flicks her head around the boys' faces.
Finley smiled at me. “Yeah. We can be friends.”
I nod. “Thank you, Finley. That’s very kind of you.”
Raven shows them away. “Ok off with you all.”
The kids run off. “Bye, Raven.”
“They’re cute.” I smile.
“They’re troublemakers. You’ll find out quick.” She laughs.
We head up the hill the village sits on. The adults on the hill stare at us as we walk up to the village.
We enter the village that is nestled in the tree line of the clearing. It’s dark wood houses are all one maybe two rooms at best. Some have small makeshift fences around them. There’s people washing, cooking, repairing…. doing various jobs all around the main road into the village center.
People stop what they’re doing. They stand. I see some jaws tick on the men. Some women hold their pups. On the other side, men eye me as stop their construction of another building.
My cheeks heat and my mouth goes small. I lean to Raven. “They don’t look happy to see me.” I whisper.
“They’re not used to strangers. They’ll warm up.” She whispers back.
“Raven! Where the hell have you been?!” a voice yells.
Raven smiles big. “Dale!” She runs to the blonde haired, brown eyed man. He looks young and angry.
Raven jumps into his arms and kisses him. She hugged him. “I missed you.” She laughs.
Dale put her down. “Don’t act like you haven’t been gone for two weeks, Raven. I was worried sick!” He grabbed her arm and pointed a finger in her face.
“I’m sorry. But I had a really good reason. I swear.” Raven defended.
I stepped forward. “Please…don’t get mad at her. It’s was my fault.”
“Who the hell are you? Raven, who is this?” He points to me.
Raven pulls him to me. “Dale, I want you meet Wren Miller. My sister.”
He stares at me. “Wren? You…. you’re alive.”
“Surprise!” I nervously try to make the situation less uncomfortable.
He scratches his head. “Um…wow…just…. just give me a minute.” He pulls Raven aside.
They argued low. I could only hear parts. “Are you out of your mind? He’s going to flip out!”
“Dale, she’s, my sister. I don’t care.” Raven responds.
Dale looks at me and forces a fake smile. I raise a brow, crossing my arms.
After more arguing back and forth, Dale steps toward me. “Wait here. I’ll get the Beta.” He grumbles as he walks away.
I look at Raven. “He seems nice.”
“He’s just worried how the Alpha is going to react. The Alpha is very nice. He’ll love you.” She waited beside me.
I kicked at the dirt while I waited.
Then I see Dale come back from behind the village with a man about his size. Black, nicely trimmed hair and brown eyes. He’s really easy on the eyes. His t-shirt presses against his well-built chest. His jeans hug his built thighs nicely.
He stuffs his hands in his pockets and stops at us. “I’m Curtis Miles. The Beta of the village. Raven, you want to tell me what’s going on?”
He looked at me suspiciously. Obviously, these people protect their privacy.
“Curtis. Meet my sister, Wren.” Raven beams.
Curtis' mouth goes small and his eyes widen. Much the same look Dale had a moment ago. “Oh. Wren.” He cleared his throat and forced a small smile. “Welcome to Helena.”
“This is Helena?” I look around then turn to the faces surrounding me.
Curtis looks around then back to me. “It may not look like much, but it’s home.” He stood beside me. “Come on. I’ll take you to my house and we can talk there.”
I nod. “Ok. Let’s talk.”
He leads me to a house that’s slightly bigger than the others.
He pulls back the make shift door and waves me in.
It’s about two and half small rooms. One’s for eating and it looks like ones for sleeping. It’s dark. He walks to the wall and props open a stick window panel, letting in light.
“Sit, please.” He gestures to the furs and roughly made pillows on the floor.
I look cautiously and slowly sit. Raven sits beside me preening and holding my hand. Dale leans against the wall.
“So. Wren Miller. Alive and well." He grabs a couple of cups and dunks them in a barrel of water. He hands me one and sits opposite of me.
“Thanks.” I tilt the cup to him. “Yes. I’m alive and so, are you?”
He takes a drink. Sucking on his top lip. “Where have you been?”
I took a drink of my cup. It wasn’t great water, but it was water. “The Unit. They found me in the destruction and raised me. They told me you all were dead. For years I thought I was the only one. That’s apparently not true. I still can’t believe it.” I smiled.
He took another drink. “Did you search for us?”
I looked confused. My head flicking between the three people. “Um. No. I didn’t. I was told there was no one to search for.”
He nods. “Ok. So, for ten years you never once thought to search out your pack.”
There was an air of agitation behind his words.
“Every day I wished to see someone from my pack. But I was 17, Curtis. The unit said you were dead. I believed them." I held my cup and stared into his eyes.
He nods again. “Did you join them?”
I shook my head. “No. I’d have to give up my title and I wasn’t doing that. I didn’t want to go rogue either so I joined their ranks not the pack. I work for them now.”
He brow ticked up. “You’re Alliance.”
“Yes.” I confirm.
He scratches at his temple. “I have to talk with the Alpha. After, you can talk with him and we can decide what to do from there. Stay here.” He rose to his feet and left the house.
“I bet the Alpha will hug you and welcome you home, Wren.” Raven was practically bouncing on her but.
“Don’t be so sure of that.” Dale says. His face dark.
“Why do you say that?” I ask him.
“You’ll see.” He looks down at the floor.
We waited for what felt like an hour. Finally, Curtis returned.
“The Alpha will see you now.” He says in a monotone tone.
We follow him out and turn behind his house. Following a path deeper into the trees. After a few minutes the trees thin and a house appears. It’s buried in the trunks of the old trees. It was at least three rooms. Slightly bigger than Curtis', but significantly smaller than most Alpha pack houses.
Curtis moves a wolf skin covering and opens a door made of branches.
“He’s in there.” Curtis points in the darkened doorway.
I slowly walk in. Unsure of what I’m about to find.
I step quietly. There’s light from candles. Furs and pillows all over the floors. Weapons and shields hang on the walls.
I search the room and then I see him. He’s lying on the floor with his hands behind his head.
He rolls his head my way and I’m hit with heat.
He sits up with a jolt. His arm draped over his bent knee.
It’s like time slowed. My eyes float over him.
His dark blonde, perfectly cut hair looks soft and silky. His blue eyes like the deepest ocean. They surround me. Like they know every part of my soul.
His jaw held strong and his features were sharp. I felt like I needed to touch him.
His chest was so defined. Rippling muscles. The black ink tattoos made my stomach flutter.
I look into his eyes and my face pains. My heart jumps into my throat.
My eyes well with tears as I suck in a breath. I can only whisper one word.
“Lucius.”
WRENA tear slips from my unblinking eye.“Lucius.” I choke.He rises to his feet as his face twists into anger. His lips turn to a snarl. “Get out.”I snap out of my shock and swallow. “Lucius, wait….”He steps forward, pointing at the door. “Get Out!” He yelled.I look around the room and back at him. “Lucius, please….” I beg as more tears fall.“GET OUT!!” His growl was dripping with Alpha tone.I turned on my heels and ran. I ran past Raven and Curtis. I ran into the village. Sobbing as I commanded my feet to go as fast as they could.“Wren, wait!” I heard Raven call me, but I didn’t stop.I ran out of the village into the clearing.Crying hard, I tried to outrun the pain. I tried to outrun the heartbreak. I tried to outrun the memories.‘One day, Wren. I’m going to be a world-famous rock star. My concerts will be filled with millions and you’ll have front row seats at every one of them.’‘Really. You’d take me with you?’‘Of course, Wren. I love you.’‘I love you, too.’Sounds of
LUCIUSStill rattled by seeing Wren after all these years, I headed back to the village to try and get my head back on to what’s first priority. My pack.Now that she’s gone, I won’t have to worry about her again.I hit the clearing edge and I caught a scent. I put my nose to the air. It smelled like bacon?I walked to the clearing and looked around. The moon was high and bright, but I didn’t need its light to see the small campfire at the edge of the territory.I don’t fucking believe it.I ran back to my house, shifted and put some clothes on.“Hey, it’s almost time for the fire.” Curtis yells.“Not now.” I growl as I stride through the village toward the clearing.I jog across it to find a tent has been erected “I thought I told you to leave!” I yelled as I ran up to Wren sitting on a log cooking food on a fire.Without looking at me she says in a monotone tone. “I thought I told you I wasn’t leaving without Raven.”“I’ll carry you out if here if I have to, Wren.” I warn.She turns
WRENI’ve been camped out here by the village for almost a week now. Still, there’s no sign of Raven. I figured she’d at least come and sit with me. I can only assume Lucius is keeping her in the camp.There’s no way I’m leaving, so it’s just a waiting game at this point.Lucius does seem to be breaking a bit. The other day at the lake showed that. He seemed a tad less aggressive than normal. Don’t think I didn’t notice his arousal either because I did.He also didn’t threaten me in his usual way either. Instead, he just left. I wonder if he’s accepted our standoff for now. It seems like it.As I watch the village from afar, I can see movement. They seem to be in a hurry.I stand and watch as some women and pups hug the men and walk off to a different part of the forest. The men turn back into the village.I’m curious to know what’s going on? Is this some job the women and children can do or is something happening that requires the women and children to leave.I decide to check it out
LUCIUS“Raven? Raven, get your ass out here now!” I yell as I get close to Wren’s campsite.The panel to the tent zips open and Raven pokes her head out. Her face covered in guilt and fear. She steps out slowly and Wren is right behind her.I grab Ravens arm and pull her to me, pointing a finger in her face. “What did I tell you? You weren’t to come down here. Did I not tell you that?”Wren grabbed my hand. “Get your hands off her! This was not her fault! You have no right to speak to her like that!”I look at Raven. “Get home.” I point to the village.Raven looks at me and Wren and turns, running for the village.“You have some nerve…” I growl at him.“Pack your stuff. You’re coming too.” I cross my arms.It takes me a second. “What?”“You heard me. Pack up. You’re moving to the village.” I speak in an authoritative tone.She pulls attitude. “No. I don’t think I want to be around you.”I looked at her confused. “Wren, pack your shit up and get to the village!”“No, Lu. I won’t” She c
WREN“Yes, Luna...I know…But the Alphas helping right?...Ok…Tell you what, call Alpha Duke…Yes…He’s a really good trainer…I’m not sure when I’ll be back…I’m sorry, Luna. This is just really important…Yes…I call you when I can…….Ok. bye.”I hang up with Sam. She’s upset that won’t be coming back anytime soon, but she understood.Now, that I’m in with Lucius, I can’t go now.Sitting on the foothill, outside the village, I put my phone in my pocket and pick up my project I’ve been working on for the last few days.Since Lucius has been adamant on me learning to hunt in human form, I decided to try and revive a skill my father taught me years ago. The Bow.I bend the thick stick and tie the rope I had to each end. I put it under tension and pull on it. Aiming it. I pick up one of six arrows I made. I tried to make them as even and balanced as possible. I put the rope in the notch between the feathers I found from the quail that run around here.On the end, I put some carved bone arrow hea
LUCIUS Seeing Wren at the fire the other night has had my head all messed up. I still hate her, but something inside wants me to get closer. Urging me to get closer. As I walk through the village and pass her at her tent, I turn my head to her and she smiles. I don’t smile back. I don’t want to give her too much. I probably shouldn’t have given her the amount that I have already. As I get to the path to my house, Wren jogs up beside me. “Hey. I…um…just wanted to thank you for the other night.” She fixed her long, black hair that was in a ponytail. “It’s no big deal, really.” I grumble. “It is to me, Lu. I know having me here is uncomfortable for you. It just meant a lot to see how much you love this pack.” She stopped in my yard. I turn. “Seriously, it’s nothing.” I was about to say goodbye when I heard yells from the village. “The hunting party’s back!” Some shouted. I run back to the center of the village with Wren right behind me. The hunting party entered the village. De
WREN“You’re getting pretty good with that thing.” Lucius points to my bow as we walk back to the village.He’s carrying the deer I killed on his shoulder. “Keep this up and we’ll have food for a month.” He quickly smiles.I look down, smiling. “I want to do my part. I like it here. I like the people. I want to help.”He leans in. “Thank you.” He backs off and we continue to walk out of the forest into the clearing.As we entered, we heard shouting.“RAIDERS!! RAIDERS!”Screams rose from the village.“Raiders?” I look at Lucius.“Fuck!” He dropped the deer and ran.With a hop, I ran right behind him.When we got to the village, people were running everywhere.“GET THE CHILDREN OUT NOW!” Lucius yells as we enter the village.Then I saw them. At least fifteen men with weapons. Fighting our men, ransacking supplies. Raiding houses. Women scream as the run with children in their arms.Lucius immediately started grabbing men and hitting them. Throwing them across the village center.I run
WREN“NO!” Lucius yells as he walks away from me.“Lucius, we’re in trouble. We need help!” I follow him out to the spot where he chops his wood.“Forget it, Wren. Not happening?” He grabs a log and places it on a stump and grabs his axe. He swings it up and brings it down on the log, splitting it in two.I sigh in frustration. “Lu. What are you going to do when the rest of the Nomads come down on us? Devlin was right. We can’t fight all of them.”He picks up a half and puts it on the stump. He swings and splits in quarters. “We’ll fight. Just like we always have.” He splits the other half into quarters.He picks up the wood and carries it to his fire. Squatting down, he throws one piece onto the burning pile.“You can’t fight everyone, Lu. You don’t have the fighters!” I flail my arms out to the side.He stands and leans close. “I’m not calling the fucking Alliance, Wren. Drop it!” He growls.“Lucius, please be reasonable here. We have the manpower, the weapons. We can get you anythi
LUCIUS Bastian stood tall at the podium. I still can’t peg this guy, but I’m starting to not mind him too much. River Blake is OK. A bit smug, like Bastian, but tolerable. Luke is fucking annoying after I let it slip that I might like the walking headache, but I think as far as friends go, I could do worse. Jayson is fine. Now that I’m mated to Wren, I think I can let the whole dating thing go. Besides, the dude’s a little stressed lately with pup number two on the way. Twins from what I hear. Speaking of twins. Our newest council member, Grey Andrews, is joining the meeting after his dad retired. His twin, Wes, is salty to say the least. Grey is someone I could do without. He has this whole military thing going on and thinks he’s king shit. He’s trying desperately to get me to let him in and I’m not budging. “No!” I growl. “Why not?” Everyone else at this table has been there? I think I should be allowed to see it.” Grey growls. Wren looks at me. “He has a point, Alpha.” I scowl
WRENWe stayed in the trees a little longer. Holding each other and basking in the moons blue glow.He ran his fingers over my mark. “This is my most treasured possession. I promise to cherish you for the rest of my life.” He kissed it.I’m resting my back on his chest. His strong arms wrapped around me as were covered in the furs.I turn my head up to him. “I promise to love you forever and be the partner you deserve.”He kisses me gently. “Should we rejoin the party? I’m sure everyone is anxious to see you.”“As much as I’d love to, we can’t hide up here forever.” I smile.“No, we can’t.” He chuckles.After getting dressed and climbing down, we freshen up at home and join the party.Luke and Alexi find us almost instantly.“Well?!” Luke stands with his hands on his hips.I pull back Lucius' shirt collar. “I marked myself an Alpha.” I bite my lip and grin.Alexi squealed. “Wren! I’m so happy for you!” She hugs me.“Atta boy, Tarzan. I knew you could do it!” Luke jabs Lucius' arm“Sto
LUCIUS“Curtis, is everything ready for tonight?” I meet up with him as he walks through the courtyard.“Yep. We got the tables an hour ago and the Alliance will be bringing some food and some more alcohol later.” He bounces his brow, grinning.“Ok. The Alphas have confirmed they’re coming?” I wrap an arm around his shoulders.He nods. “As far as I know, they’re all coming. Seems they’re all excited for this.”“That’s great. God, are you supposed to be this nervous. I feel sick.” I hold my stomach.Curtis chuckles. “Relax. You already love her. This fated thing is just a formality.”“Yeah. Hey, did the Alliance bring that sheet music I asked for?” I pressed a hand to his chest.He walks over to a supply box and searches through it. “Uh…. yep. Right here.” He hands me the music.I take it from him. I wave it between us. “This baby is going to make everything perfect.”He laughs. “Look at you. Lucius Drake. Hopeless romantic. Who knew.”I laugh. “Don’t get used to it.” I smack his arm w
WREN“Ready?” I grin.“Ready.” Lucius smiles from the tree platform.I look at my watch. I place my finger on the button for the stop watch. “And…. go!” I press the button and climb up the ladder to the platform above. I get to the top and take aim and fire.Lucius is across the courtyard climbing his tree to the platform above. He takes aim with his red compound bow. We run the gauntlet. Meeting in the middle at the back of the courtyard.We’re both on the platform. I’m on one knee, firing my arrows at various targets while Lucius is standing behind me firing at his targets.We both jump off. I do a front flip and Lucius just drops to his feet. I’m down on one knee again firing around Lucius' legs while he fires at his targets again.We fire until our arrows are gone.I jump up and smile. “That was good. We work good together.”“I really like this bow and arrow thing.” He looks at his bow.“Good. Because it’s your turn to collect the arrows. I’ll get ready for the council meeting.” I
LUCIUSI take a deep breath in and stretch my arms out as I walk out of the trees into the clearing. I’m so glad to be home.Wren jogs up under my arm and I wrap it around her shoulder.The clearing is partially filled with stacks of wood and other building supplies. I’m excited to dig in and help build my home like I did when we first settled here.Laughing and walking down the hill, Curtis comes with open arms. “There’s the Alphas. We thought the city swallowed you up.” He grabbed my hand and pulled me into a bro hug and gave Wren a tap on the arm.“Not a chance. The city can stay there. I got everything I need here. I’m glad to be back.” I smile and we all head to the village.“Well, we had a rough couple of days, but I think things are quieting down.” Curtis informed.“What’s the problem?” I ask.“The Dragons.” He sighed. “Some are having issues with them.”“They aren’t causing problems, are they?” I cross my arms.“No, it’s the opposite, actually. They’re model pack members, but
WREN“Are you ready to go home tomorrow?” I smile as we eat breakfast in a little Café down from the hotel.Last night’s bar event left us both a little hungover. As the night went on, Lucius finally relaxed to have a decent conversation with the guys. Though he still says they annoy him, I think he’s lying just a bit. He fits in so well with the other Alphas. I honestly thought it might have been a disaster, given the politics of where he lives. It’s more brutal than where we come from. Disagreements in the forest are often worked out with fists instead of words.“I wanted to go home a week ago.” He mumbles as he shoves a piece of steak in his mouth.“Even still. You must like something here.” I fold my fingers together and rest my chin on themHe shrugs “I like the shower.”I giggle. “Anything else?”“The beds nice.” He smirks. “It’s bouncy.” He puts more food in his mouth.I tilt my head. “Anything outside of the hotel room.”He lowers his head, thinking. “No.” He drinks his water.
LUCIUS OK. So far, I haven’t killed anyone, so it’s probably a good sign that I’m able to survive being on the outside. It’s not that I don’t remember what it’s like out here. I still kind of remember normal life at seventeen, but the world out here has changed a lot. And it’s freaking me out. I don’t deal well with agitation. Wren has been a total God send getting me through this. I would have probably gone off if wasn’t for her. With just a touch or when she holds my hand, I get this calming feeling all over. Like there’s something in her touch that was designed to specifically calm me down. Wren wanted me to get the whole experience of what it’s like to be part of the Falcon Ridge group. She says I need to have fun. Honestly, I don’t. I just want to lay naked in the sheets with her now that my council meetings done. And because that’s what I want, I’m now walking toward a bar called The Falcon with Bastian, Luke, Jayson and River in front of me. They showed up at the hotel say
WREN“Uh…What’s that?” Lucius points to the bed.I look at the black and white suit on the bed. “It’s a suit.” I look back at him.“I’m not wearing that.” He crosses his arms and scowls. He looks so cute standing there with a white towel wrapped around his waist pouting like a kid.I grab him, spin him around and push him toward the bathroom. “Yes. You are. Now go have a shower.”“Wren, I don’t do suits.” He pouts more.“I’m sorry, Lu, but you can’t go to your very first council meeting in ripped shorts. As sexy as that may be.” I smirk.He growls and squints his eyes.He stomps into the bathroom as I get the rest of his clothes ready.We’re in a hotel in Falcon Ridge. With the Nomads now discovered and the threats down to a minimum, the council wanted to meet the newest member of the Alliance. Though our agreement will be a lot different from everyone else’s. First, any decisions regarding the function of the pack will have to go through both of us. The council will have to recognize
LUCIUS“Remember! Xavier’s mine!” I growl as I fire a gun that Luke gave me.I ran into this battle with full force. Every Dragon I kill is feeling my revenge for hurting my Wren. The man in charge will feel the most of it when I get to him.“Go! We got this!” Luke yelled.I handed him the gun and shifted. Running through the fight, I shredded as I went. They won’t be holding me back this time.I’m painting the desert floor with Dragon blood and I’m loving every second of it. I’m running on pure hatred right now.The Dragons have been our hell for years and now I’m going to be the one to pull all of us out. By spilling the contents of Xavier’s body all over this Alliance.I fight my way to the entrance of the compound and I’m hit from the side. I’m sent skidding across the sand. I stand and shake the sand off and search for the one who’s dead next. Out of the dust, blood and fur, a very large, shaggy black wolf prowls my way. He’s drooling and snarling.Devlin.My wolf lowers his head