I have no clue what has come over Cayden. He can usually take my temper quite easily. Though today I think I perhaps was a little harsher than usual. No, I know I was. Maybe my words overstepped a mark. There was no reason to bring Lily into this. I know the pain he went through. I went through it with him. I will need to find him later to apologise, I think. He did not deserve my bitterness. My temper in that moment, yet I could not hold my words back. I could sense his anger, not only his, but that of his wolf too, but he was holding it back. He was struggling, battling it. I knew that, but he was managing, just. I assume that was why he was rushing out, or perhaps that was simply because he could not bear to be around me? And, in all honesty, I don’t think I could blame him. My words were close to unforgiveable. Holding back his rage was different for him. He was such a sweet, and caring guy as a whole, but his temper was like a switch, that once triggered there w
The Alpha seems to have gone quiet. A pained look on his face. His hand now gone from around my shoulder, in what I had assumed was a show of kindness. His fist however, now clenched by his side. Perhaps I should not have mentioned his mate. But he was giving me sympathy. Something I hated. Something that seemed to be a natural thing when people heard of my Dad. It was human nature after all. But I detested it. It simply reminded me he was gone. Reminded me of this incessant war, that was completely needless. And the sick and twisted man behind it all. He was the man I blamed for the death of my father, not the war. But I did not want sympathy. Sympathy meant people felt sorry for me. I did not like people feeling sorry for me. I just wanted the sick bastard to pay for his cruel acts. See he got the retribution he deserved before he died, and then once more in hell, because no doubt that was where he was bound. But, then there was me, offering the same sympathies to t
After rushing out of the library I had made my way to the door of the packhouse. My wolf, Kali was already pushing to the surface of my skin. He had had enough. Needed a break. Wanted to get out and go for a run. Who can blame him after the words of our so called best friend? Our Alpha? I was already struggling with the confusing feelings I was battling toward this young new she-wolf that had suddenly appeared into our lives. And the overwhelming sense of guilt these feelings brought with them. I had no clue what they all meant. But there was something about Evelyn Anderson that I could not shake. I could not get her from my mind and I felt drawn to her. I flung the doors of the packhouse open, Kali lingering at the surface under my skin, I could feel him, he was pushing to shift and would be forcing it if I did not go to shift soon. I need to go for a run. The morning sunshine was still bright and warm as I walked down the steps of the packhouse, heading toward the
We sit at the desk of the small office, all modernly decorated, a window looking out over the gardens of the packhouse lets me see the beautiful flowers they have growing there, only enhanced by the sunshine currently shining brightly. Working here would be enjoyable. As i take in the view of the office, I am sure I can feel Alpha Jackson's eyes on me. Alpha Jackson had informed me this would be the office I worked from, just down the corridor from his and Beta Cayden’s offices if I should need them. He had provided me with the necessary logins for all their systems and shown me the computer I had been provided with. I honestly cannot wait to begin working properly. Show them what I am capable of doing. Help them get their business and pack under better organisation. Jackson sat and spoke me through a few formalities of my role and handed me some official documents I would have to read. Bedtime reading for me later, no doubt. But I genuinely did not mind. I had done it, I ha
So we got Evelyn set up to use the computers, logged into all the relevant systems and suddenly she was ushering us out of the office to allow her to work. Not something we were expecting. We had planned to give her a little induction to her work today, then a bit of training and an introduction to the pack. She will need to be familiar with our pack as she is going to be spending a large amount of time here now with this new commitment she has in the job. I had been looking forward to showing her around my pack. But instead I find myself wandering down the short distance of the corridor to my office instead. Cayden by my side. He looked as fed up as I felt. As Evelyn calls to us “I will come and find you once I have done some of the work. Let you see it, and see what you think.” And with that she shut her office door. She sounded so cheerful. Happy to be working. Or was she happy to have got rid of Cayden and I after we caused somewhat of an atmosphere in the office?
I could see Jackson was not going to battle this one out. No doubt sensing that Kali was lingering. He knew me too well. Over the years we had battled so many times because Kali had took over. I had better control of my wolf as I got older, but sometimes when my emotions got the better of me or him, or in many cases my temper, then it became difficult to keep him under control. Though Jackson was sat on his chair behind his office desk, like a fucking king on his throne, glaring at me like he waited for an answer in his question to whether he had been right to his assumption if I had been flirting. Did it fucking matter? I didn’t even know if I had! So how am I meant to answer? I had been trying to put her at ease was all… Seeing her smile makes me feel good… I do not want Jackson wanting her… Wait… where the hell did that thought come from?! It was true though. The thought of Jackson being with her made my skin crawl. I wanted to be the one making her smile. How child
Cayden is standing up from the sofa. He looks ready to leave. Like he had lost the fight within him. Which is not like him at all. Though he was saying he didn’t want to talk about all of this. He is feeling the same things toward this new she-wolf as me? The irony is almost painful. “Cay, you alright?” I ask, standing from my desk. “Sure.” He shrugs. Yeah, he does not want to talk about it all. He forgets I know him almost as well as I know myself, I know he is struggling to work all of this out. He is battling emotions here. Guilt being a huge one, the same as me. And no doubt my words earlier will have made that worse. “We will sort something I am sure.” I tell him. Cayden frowns at me, “Oh yeah, right.” I am just about to ask what he is implying when there is a gentle knock at the door. Before it opens, slowly, almost tentatively. “Hi” Evelyn’s head leans around the door, her long blond hair falling over her shoulder as she does. She is sm
We walk down the steps of the packhouse, the sun feeling warm on my back. The two of them are laughing and joking together and I feel so at home it is unreal. I feel welcome here. Comfortable. A sense of belonging, despite this not being my pack. This is the Alpha and Beta of a neighbouring pack, if anything I should be intimidated by them, but I feel relaxed now in their company. At ease. They are clearly close, though I would expect no less of an Alpha and a Beta, they work alongside to run a pack, they need to be close. But these two seem to have a connection closer than that. Perhaps losing their mates the way they did brought them closer together? But they are clearly best friends, and listening to their tales of being friends makes me laugh. “Come on then love, let us go and show you our kingdom” Beta Cayden jokes. “Hey, that was my line!” Alpha Jackson pushes him gently. I laugh once more. Glad that the earlier tension between the two of them seemed to have e
2 years later. I adjust my dress, it is so uncomfortable being this heavily pregnant, especially in this heat, but we are heading to Midnight Blood Pack, to see Frankie and Cara and their little one. They had their first son a few days ago and were having a pack party today to celebrate. We, of course were invited, as were the Alphas from all the other packs within our region. Any major event within our packs now was celebrated as one region. Since that day we were all united, and so much closer. Each pack had their own Alpha but they worked alongside one another, and sought out one another’s advice on things. The packs had worked hard together to fix all the damage done to the packs, returning them to their former glory. Allowing the refugees residing within our many packs return home. For the refugees whose packs had been destroyed and absorbed into others, they now had new homes within two new packs in what had been Night Shade Pack. Our region was completely ren
We walk through the pack to the training field. Each one of my mates is desperate in one way or another to be touching me. I find it incredibly sweet, but can’t help but wonder how I am going to get anything done… “The whole pack is waiting for us, are you excited?” Cayden asks, as he pulls me closer to him. “Not really. I hate being the centre of attention, so if you want to put all of that onto Aiden, that is good with me.” I say while grinning at Aiden, who shakes his head at me. “Hmm, I think meeting their new Luna will be a big deal. Especially one who took out that prick.” He winks at me. “I’m just a surplus Alpha that the moon goddess decided to throw in for some reason.” “Don’t say things like that.” Jackson snarls, with a shake of his head. “We are all even. So, you are not surplus Aiden. Though in bed… maybe.” He teases with a grin. “You didn’t think I was surplus when you were snuggled up to me during the night.” Aiden responds with an e
My mouth meets hers in the moment I have been waiting for since she left. Yes, I have kissed her since she arrived home, but only fleetingly. Not wishing to push her. Not wanting to be too much. But this, this feels like it is going somewhere. My hands run through the waves of her long blond hair. Fuck… I have missed our girl… I feel Evelyn slide forward slightly on the countertop, hooking her legs around my waist and I find myself smiling against her lips. Hmm, seems my naughty little mate may have the same thoughts I did… I allowed my hands to drop from her hair to her babydoll night-dress, to slip it up and over her head, leaving Evelyn suddenly naked and exposed to me. My eyes instantly eating up the beautiful sight of my mate’s naked body. I felt Evelyn’s fingers upon my chin, lifting my gaze back to her, as she brought my lips back to hers in what was quite the possessive move. And, I have to say, I quite liked it… The kisses were gentle… teasing… slow
I awoke the following morning, terrified by the presence of three bodies surrounding me. I quickly sat up, my heart racing in the darkness, the room unfamiliar to me, terrified about where I was. “Ev?” I feel Cayden’s hand suddenly around me, pulling me back to reality, as the realisation of where I am hits me. Our new home. Our new bedroom and the large bed that Aiden and his brother had built for us… I had forgotten… in my sleepy dazed state, I had forgotten! Aiden was suddenly up and next to me on his knees. “Sweetheart, are you okay? Did you have a bad dream? Your heart rate is through the roof!” Jackson however was still passed out, almost purring in his sleep, quite content it would seem by having his three mates finally by his side. Cayden told me he had barely been sleeping, but last night he had dropped off first, in barely no time at all. And, I can’t help but think that may have something to do with the fact we are altogether in one place, no mat
We left Night Shade Pack together. The four of us. It had been a while since the four of us had all been together, and despite the earlier animosity it felt good. My wolf, Kali felt the calmest and most content he had done in a long time. “Do you think the things we discussed with them will work?” Evelyn asks as we edge our way past the crowds of other Alphas, and the many warriors in the parking area, and she glances out toward them, a look of uncertainty on her face. I don’t suppose I can blame her for that… “Time will only tell. But there is a solid plan in place, which we will reinforce.” Jackson reassures her. Evelyn nods. “I do not like that Alpha Saul.” She mutters, and I cannot help but smirk, she had not been holding back in her words with him, which had took me by surprise, I have to say. That was not like Evelyn at all. “You would never have guessed.” Aiden teases her gently, I think he is being a little wary, he knows he upset her earlier, and
I stand in a daze in the grounds of the pack I had been held a virtual prisoner at. Listening to the voices of many Alphas trying to pull rank now. Of course, they had worked together to end the reign of Alpha evil himself. But, now, they seemed unable to work together… bickering like young school boys… I look to Aiden and Cayden is desperation, my head pounding from the noise. I did not want to be back here. This place held too many horrible memories as it was, but this situation on top of that was only adding to the pressure building within my mind. We were supposed to be coming to deal with the pack members, I am sure that is what they had said… not creating another conflict between every other remaining pack! ‘Are you okay sweetheart?’ Aiden’s voice echoes through the mindlink as we walk toward our destination. I want to hate him for how he treated me earlier, and no doubt I would be angry at him for some time, but he was trying hard at the moment to take care of
I watch the woman in front of us, and the coldness emanating from her. It is piercing my heart like a dagger each time she looks at me coldly. This was not the Evelyn who left us. But, I don’t think it would be fair to expect her to be the same considering what she had had to endure. But, I had hoped she would be as pleased to see us as we were her! Although, Aiden’s behaviour seemed truly inexplicable. He was rude and argumentative when he saw her. And, I cannot help but wonder if that is the reasoning for her cold front with us all. After all, it would not be the first time she had punished us as a group… “I want to be alone. Can you take me home.” Evelyn tells us, making me frown. I understand nothing more than the need to go home. I would love the exact same thing for us all. Of course I would. But we had commitments to our warriors. To the other packs defending our region alongside ours. We could not just walk out on the plan we had devised together. We needed to s
I paced on through the edges of the forest, anxiously. Knowing I was out of the borders of Night Shade Pack now. But also knowing that Blake’s body had to have been found now, because as Cara left she sent a crazed mindlink out to all of her pack that she had found the dead body of their Alpha. She told me she thought it would be a good idea to allow the pack to know their Alpha was dead, so they may surrender the fighting. And, as terrified as I was for the consequences of my actions, I think she may be right. Because if the warriors of Night Shade Pack learn of Alpha Blake’s death they may choose to surrender of their own accord. Bring the plan me and my mates had to a conclusion. This could bring this decades long conflict to an end finally. Blake’s life would be at an end, along with the war he envisioned. ‘Orla, do you feel anything? Are they still fighting?’ I ask my wolf as we move through the trees towards the place I need to meet my mates. Dreading the
Our pack was suddenly swamped under supporting troops from our surrounding packs. This was the denfensive attack we had been told of. I only hoped my sister was safe as they had forewarned us. I cannot lie, I hated myself for having to give her up in order to protect our mother. But, I had been naïve in believing she would bring her mates, but even then, I believed her mates would save her. Yet, I have awaited each day for news. News of her safe return to their pack, but there has been nothing. No news. And each time I questioned it, I learned Evelyn was staying with Alpha Blake. Rumours were spreading he planned to make her his Luna. Something had gone wrong. So wrong. Evelyn had mates. Three of them. What would she want with a man so much older than her? One that was so evil and sinister? It had made no sense to me… All until this plan had been unveiled to us. Then, the truth became apparent. My sister was deceiving the Alpha. They all were. Which is why her mates ha