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47. Pain
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2022-11-14 05:24:32
Naomi D.I felt bad, so I wrote another one tonight. Now I really have to go to bed, because I am so tired. As usual, I'd love to hear your thoughts. Will Kai push Moon away?
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So, I felt bad, for once again messing up names. So you get a free chapter. I'll pay more attention to it in the future. I just have a lot of stuff going on and sometimes I have trouble with names. But I hate it, just as much as you do. Or even more. Hope you like this chapter. It's from Ronin's pov and it gives you a brief summary of why Moon was just sitting there. Ronin’s pov Fucking Raider Kaito Remington. I know he has gone through a lot, hell, I was here for most of it. But he is being selfish and pushing everyone away. It shouldn’t be this hard. Angela and I finally are able to talk, now that they’ve marked each other. But even before we could talk, we loved each other. We are two half of a whole and I don’t get why humans have to make it so damn difficult all the time. Pack politics, lies? Just kill whoever is bothering you and go live your stupid lives. Let me have my love. Angela is amazing. She is smart, strong and one hell of a fighter. And her white fur? It’s fucking
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Moon’s pov I took a long and hot shower. The water and soap burned my skin where Norman had scratched me. Motherfucker with his silver nails. “Maybe you shouldn’t call him motherfucker, since he literally fucked your mother.” Angela pointed out. Gross. I hated that my mother had been in that loveless relationshop with Norman. I was not one to talk. Me and my mate weren’t actually getting along either. I didn't know what we were and if we would ever figure it out. “Yeah, about that. Ronin is angry, no, angry doesn’t cut it. He is furious with Kai and he is not coming out for quite some time. Did you realize you spent hours in that chair?” “No, I didn’t. I mean maybe two hours, but the staff was ignoring me and I really didn’t want to cause a scene. So I waited for Kai to finish.” “You sat there for six hours and then you spent the entire night in that chair.” “Didn’t I just take a nap?” I said confused. “It hadn’t been that long? Ronin just came by. I don’t know what is going on.
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 94. Family
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 93. Siempre
Diego’s povI knew Maria could handle herself, but I felt this strong urge to protect her and make sure she was okay. Maria was the strongest person I know, but I felt like sometimes she tried to be even stronger and wouldn’t admit when something was wrong.I had felt nothing during our bond because I was most likely sleeping. But I did have this vivid dream of fighting people, which must have been because of Mary.Now that we’re both marked, we feel everything the other feels, and although I already knew Maria was a lot more sensitive than she looked, I hadn’t suspected to feel so much from her. She felt deeply, just like I did, but she kept them hidden by acting though."So, you want to check up on Mary, huh?" Alpha Moon teased."Por supuesto [of course], just like you went with Alpha Raider, no?"Alpha Moon laughed, "yeah. But Mary was doing her job, and my mate was being a reckless idiot. Going in alone could have gone so terribly wrong.""He was doing his job también [as well]. He
The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 92. Punished
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 91. Wolfsbane
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 90. Pinky Finger
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The Alpha That Couldn't Remember 89. Darius
Kai’s pov"So, you followed my advice?" Moon said, looking at Mary’s mark during breakfast.If Mary could blush, she would. Goddess, she looked mortified, but it was fucking funny to see that face of hers. I wondered if they finally had sex or tried he other stuff Moon told me about. I mean, I wouldn’t fucking mind seeing my mate touch herself.I looked at Diego, "now we really need to get that land."Diego nodded, "Si."Okay, chatty catty wasn’t really in the mood to talk this morning. He would probably tell me and Hudson everything later.Diego kissed Mary, and I gave Moon a good kiss before they left.Diego sighed, "I want Maria here, todo el tiemp [all the time]. Alfa Raider, cómo se hace esto? [Alpha Raider, how do you do this?]"I didn’t really understand that last part because it was in fucking Spanish, but I did know how he felt. "It’s fucking hard being away from Moon."Beta Hudson and his family came down for breakfast after Moon and Mary left, and it made me realize even mor
