Narrated AitanaMy son calms down in my arms while I think about everything that could happen from now on. I knew I was losing my memory, because sometimes I forgot a lot of things, but, losing myself so much that not remembering my children, was already an alarm.Helmut appears and is surprised to see me awake, or perhaps calm. Since, judging by the pain in my body and the marks on my body, I have been bound so as not to harm myself or others. Helmut, smiles at me and approaches me, taking my hand gently."I'm glad you're awake" Helmut whispers."You're glad I'm me, you mean" I say and he sighs deeply."That was a passing thing. Maybe it was from so much stress, but, that will soon be over." Helmut says and I deny."You don't need to lie to me. I know what it's like. I've seen doctors in China and here. They all tell me the same thing. There is no chance of this being temporary. Each time it comes on, it will last longer until I finally lose myself in these mental gaps that will beco
After talking a bit with Cleo, we walked to my daughter's room. As Helmut had told me, my daughter's condition has deteriorated further. So, we are asked to put on surgical garments, to avoid infection for my daughter.With several things connected to her body, I see my little daughter in pink clothes as she likes. Her body looks very thin and her cheeks as pale as the rest of her body. Careful not to wake her up, I took her hand and gently caressed her hand. He knew what it was like to lie in bed fighting an illness that was getting sicker by the day. He had been in her place and believed that was the most painful place.But, to see a daughter sick, it is more so. Because even knowing where and how much it hurts, the helplessness of not knowing how to ease her pain, causes me more pain than my own illness."Honey, I'm here." I whisper in a whisper. "I'm glad you're showing how brave you are." I whisper caressing her cheek.Cleo stands behind me and places her hand on my shoulder, a
I was looking for a hint of a joke in Helmut, but, his determined look and how he doesn't back down, but, rather, advances towards me, tells me that he is not joking. He has only spoken through his madness because that is what he has said, madness. "Aitana, let me explain," Helmut says and I deny."I don't think there is any valid argument to justify what you just said" I say firmly. "Aitana... I know I'm not the perfect man to be a good father. But, I'm trying my best. I've been going to psychological appointments, I'm working on being better. I want to be the best for my family, because you are my family," says Helmut. "I'm glad you see your children as your family and that you're working on controlling your bouts of anger. But, that doesn't mean I'm going to accept that we have a child. Helmut, it's crazy in every sense of the word," I say firmly, "Why would it be?"Why would it be? Why would it be crazy? If it's because we're not married, I'm more than willing to give you a rea
I didn't understand what he intended to do. We were supposed to walk away. We were supposed to focus only on our children, so why are we talking about a pregnancy and a comeback?"I'm your ex-wife," I tell him wishing he would remember what that means.Helmut strokes my face gently, running along my lower jaw and down to my collarbone."I know, asking you to be exes was the stupidest thing I ever did." Helmut says squeezing his hand on my waist "But, I'm going to fight for you to stop being my ex-wife, to be my wife.""That won't happen." I say as I begin to feel his hand on my waist make small circles on my back, which sends an electrifying tingle through my body.'You must pull away, Aitana or you won't be able to resist and that wouldn't be good. That would only complicate things' I tell myself mentally.'Why won't it happen? We're parents and I know you have feelings for me. What's keeping you from trusting me is because of my anger problem, but, I can bring you my psychological a
His lips ran up and down my neck again and again, while my pelvis moved in a circular motion without my asking him to. The hardness I had begun to feel under my entrance made my channel feel wet and hot. If I didn't stop now, I would lose to him. Because I would reconnect in a way that couldn't be broken and I didn't want to make the same mistakes of the past again. I couldn't ruin how well we were getting along just for a little casual sex.I couldn't ask for sex before I died, when it would only complicate what we had so far formed. So, I had to stop. I had to do it for my children and also, for my peace of mind."We must stop now," I say and Helmut smiles against my skin, releasing a warm breath that bristles my skin."Are you sure?" asks Helmut in a husky voice."No, I'm not sure what I want and that's why, is that we shouldn't move forward. It's not a good idea" I say and surprisingly Helmut stops.'That's good, because if I didn't, I would go on and pretend I had tried, but, it
Helmut watches me for several seconds and nods finally getting up from the bed and moving away from me. Whereupon, I feel the tension dissipate as I see him put aside his sexual games to turn me on. "You're right, I can't ask you to forget everything bad that has happened to you and let's pick up where we left off" Helmut says."Where we left off was when you were having sex with someone else while I was watching them, do you want to pick up from there when you talk about picking up where we left off, or would you rather pick up from when you were telling me not to say I was related to your pack because I was a weak beta.>> No, maybe you want to pick it up at the part where you tell me that if I got pregnant you..." i start to say, but, Helmut signals with his hand for me to stop and I do, not wanting to argue, when I can spend the day with my children."I understand. It was wrong of me to prompt you to be together when there are so many wounds to heal" Helmut murmurs and I nod."I
Omnipresent narratorGradually, the tension dissipates and Joel begins to play with the twins until Ariana falls asleep from exhaustion. Like a little girl, she was cooed by Aitana while Helmut watched the happy scene.He had been rejected by the only woman he desires, but, moments like these, made him forget his own needs to concentrate on the precious moments his family gave him.After Ariana fell asleep, his mother wanted to stay a little longer and so, Helmut went out with the boys, filling Joel with doubts. But, being calmer with the fear related to hospitals and doctors."Mr. Baumann" says little Joel catching Helmut's attention."What's wrong, little boy?""Is the girl going to die if I don't help her?" asks Joel and that makes the two Baumann men's bodies freeze."No. I will look everywhere if necessary so that my daughter gets what she needs to feel better," says Helmut firmly."But, that could take a while and my sister would get sic
Days laterEvery day, everyone's routine was the same: Albert studied in the mornings with the teachers sent by his father, in the afternoons he did his academic duties and in the evenings he visited his mother and looked for doctors who were able to give her less invasive treatments.Helmut spent his whole day solving business problems, searching for a cure for Aitana and trying to get close to her with small talk, or related to his life with the twins when they were born.But, even that hadn't made them any closer. Aitana refused to have a close relationship with anyone. She wanted to minimize the pain of those who would be left behind when she died.Eugene, for his part, had left the country, searching among all his acquaintances for someone to help him treat Aitana's and Ariana's illnesses, but, he still didn't have a good result about it.Everyone was trying to pretend that they were not distressed, but, it was evident that having two sick family member
Fifteen years laterThe world continued its course, my pack had been consolidated thanks to Ariana's contributions. Albert, today he was returning home after fourteen years studying at the academy. Although he always saw for special dates or the anniversary of his mother's death, this time his return was different, because he saw to stay.Ariana gave orders to her people, while I had become a gardener who kept the garden where Aitana rests beautiful. Although to be honest there is little I have to do, because the islanders take turns every few hours to take care of the flowers and bring new ones in honor of the woman who fought to the end.So, I am almost all the time exercising, answering Ariana's tough questions so my brain doesn't rust and going to medical checkups at the insistence of my children.But, today, I would not be the boring man in his monotonous routine, today I would see my son. That one who had succeeded in that academy that now had t
Everyone on the island begins to show their respect for Aitana, while I watch as everything we experience here passes like a few seconds in a trailer. Remembering how I despised her and she wanted to leave here, throwing herself out of a window, makes me realize how much we have changed.Because it is in this place where she wanted to escape from, where she now wants to be forever. One by one they leave, leaving only Cleotilde's family and my closest men, those who knew our story.The night arrives and the castles are illuminated, at Aitana's request, we enter the one that was my castle, where the memories of my mistakes slap me so hard that I find it complicated to continue, however, a warm hand is placed on my hand and invites me to continue."Collect all the pain in here, I want to take it with me." Aitana says and I swallow hard."Aitana...""I am an expert in bearing pain, let me pick up all that pain clinging to those memories, I will take them with me
Six months laterWe had spent the time the doctors had given Aitana and although I wish that was the sign that they had made a mistake with the diagnosis, that was not the case. She had gotten much worse. So much that it hurt.There were times when she didn't remember who she was, others, where she didn't know how to move and at some, she would become so violent as she screamed for them to end her life. She would vomit, many times she would soil herself because she couldn't even warn them.Other times, she would wake up not knowing how to talk and with each step, her brain cancer would take over so much that we had to put the videos and photos we had taken on each walk, because many times she was suspicious even of the children.Today, for example, she did not speak, she did not move, it seemed that she was in a vegetable state, but, it was because her brain was barely functioning, being invaded by a tumor that looked like something full of spikes that were even
We had to let go and I was glad that even remembering all that we had lived and not remembering how well we had spent these months traveling, she decided to move forward. I couldn't say that I decided without knowing what I was doing, because Aitana knew it and I was glad she didn't hold a grudge."I want to leave here. I want us to resume our family trip today" Aitana says and I try to process what's going on."I understand, we will be leaving today" I say trying to get up."Although I don't remember what happened these past few months, there are pictures that give me an idea of it. Also, a few days ago, I had started to write down my thoughts of what I had experienced and although I left a general idea of what I had experienced, I know that I have enjoyed it. That we have been happy" says Aitana and I nod."We really have been. Even though we have measured time, we've spent time being happy the four of us." I murmur and she holds out her hand, which I take.
I could not understand what was going on. The woman who had been hostile when I asked her to come back, was now kissing me. I didn't understand what was going on and although I wanted to kiss her, I pulled away feeling that I was taking advantage of her confusion."Is something wrong?" asks Aitana and I stick closer to the back of my seat, to be away from her."I don't want you because of your mental confusion to feel like I'm taking advantage of you by kissing you" I say and she smiles."I'm the one who started the kiss.""But, I have my memories and I know you didn't agree to come back with me before the surgery or after you didn't have all your memories of the past like you do now." I murmur and she smiles."You are so cautious now. You don't look like the man who kissed me on our wedding day, just because I had another man's scent near me" she murmurs.I immediately, blush for having been so bold knowing I had a curse that could have killed he
The following dayWe had not been able to leave Amsterdam as we had planned, because Aitana was still not awake. Fortunately, the doctors said it was exhaustion that had her sleeping and not something serious.Exhausted from almost no sleep, thinking that she would wake up, I go out to have some coffee and with the computer working on the door of her room, I wait for the hours to pass. However, I have barely managed to sit up in the chair, when I hear a groan.Fearing that something bad has happened in my absence, I open the door to the room, which makes my legs weaken. The woman, who had not woken up, moans slightly as she tries to get up."I'll help you" I say running to her.Gingerly, I help her to sit up and I stand watching her, waiting for a scolding for allowing her to fall, an apology for scaring us or anything. I don't care if it's an insult, what matters to me, is that she speaks.That she tells my mind that she's alive. Because just seeing he
After the words he had said, the boys tried to be strong, but, again they walked away and in front of the pulpit they cried begging for strength to face this, I felt the same way.In silence I cried and when we ran out of energy, we looked at each other and I felt it, the connection of father and sons had been formed, there was no way for anyone in the world to deny or doubt that they were my sons, because this calamity, had consolidated the attempts of connection that in the past had been tried to be made.Something good had happened among so much suffering, but, I did not like the way it had happened. It was painful, we were united, but, it was painful to see my children suffer and me not being able to do something to be able to alleviate their pain."What should we do now?" asks Albert"Show strength to their mother. She suffers a lot, but, she keeps it quiet because she doesn't want you to realize what is happening. But, she didn't want to do that
The hours pass and we are finally allowed to see Aitana after several tests were done and confirmed that she was out of danger. Relief overcomes us and the boys thank God audibly as they wait to see their mother.Happy that my children are not violent like me, we advance to the room where the woman is still not awake. The doctor watches me and I understand that the time to know everything is now.So, I nod for the doctor to come to us and help me to tell what is happening with Aitana. Because I know that alone I can't and I can't disturb more Aitana who tries to look strong, although she suffers a lot."Guys..." I say calling their attention, after they both take their mother's hand, to then kiss this or her forehead."Is something wrong?" asks Albert when he sees that the doctor doesn't leave."I want you to hear your mother's health report. But, before that, I want you to tell me something, are you guys tough guys?" I ask and they look at each other"
I felt that the hourglass that showed me that I had little time left with Aitana, had run out of time from one moment to the next and it was all someone's fault. So, I run towards the people trying to run away from me.Seeing how they run, the desire to hunt takes over me and I run transforming myself into the wolf that never loses a prey. The beast that appeared when the curse caused me to only see my prey to kill it.I run after my prey and many people present scream when they see me turn into an animal, but, I don't care about that. My wife had been hurt and they had to pay for it. Without any fear that the man would die on the spot. I throw myself at him and he falls down with his face looking up at me."S-sir, please. Don't hurt me" the man says in a whisper, while in his gaze there is a fear I can't describe, the only thing that surprises me is that he didn't wet his pants because of the fear he feels.He knew how to do it. Just one bite, one scratch and hi