02 Unexpected Encounter (2)

Author’s POV

"So, please go away from me," she said, passing him who was still standing in front of her.

That girl desires to leave the guy as soon as possible, but it is not him who still wants her to be with him. Alex held Naomi's hand, causing her to stop in her tracks. Both that girl and that man were silent for a moment before he stepped in front of her to block her away.

Alex thinks that now God is on his side, and the meeting he has been dreaming of for 12 years has come true. Unlike Alex, Naomi had already cooled her feelings for him. There is no second chance for him. She didn't intend to give any chance to him. 

"I don't want you to leave until you hear something from me," he said, staring into the cold brown-eyed Naomi gave to him. Again, she stomped her hand to free herself from Alex. To her, this situation reminded her of the time when he used to freely touch her entire body.

Disgusting. 

Neither he nor his own body. She felt very stupid and disgusting.

"I've saved you, now go before I force you to go," he said with a cold look. She didn't want to hear anything from him, for her it was all over.

Those eyes weren't the eyes that Alex had ever known. All he knew, those eyes always gave him the warmth he so longed for when they spent their time together. Alex wanted those times back, the time when he could embrace her as much as he wanted and kiss her with love and affection.

That man's subconscious made his move to hug her even though he didn't expect much, he didn't even deserve a hug her. He hugged her tightly, while she just stayed where she was.

"I miss you," he said earnestly. 

Her mind didn't want to remember this hug. But this little body can still feel the warm embrace she once received from him as if this body is a living witness that she can't refuse. He tried to get used to it and didn't react to the hug this man gave him.

"You have no idea how sorry I am for what I did to you," that man said again. Naomi stayed silent, she forced her body not to hug the body which she had missed for a dozen years.

"And you have no idea how devastated I was at the time," he said again to her. He didn't know what she had been through after what he had done to her. Naomi had to face a very severe depression. Her pride seemed to be stepped on and she felt worthless and useless because he had ruined her. All of his sweet promises and shady words became trash for her. He didn't understand what he was doing.

Why was he didn't realize that she also devastated at that time?

Was he dissatisfied with hurting herself too?

What did this hug mean?

What was the meaning of the longing he had just said?

Naomi was questioning everything in her mind. If he felt guilty, shouldn't he just leave her alone? Why did he choose otherwise?

"I will fix everything. I want us to start all over again…”

She laughed wryly. She imagined again the time when she often punished herself with sharp objects, not to mention he had to face the paranoia which she got from a different person. Moreover, other problems have made her worse off over the past dozen years. To be sure, all this suffering started from him, all this pain comes from that man.

She did not understand why God was so unfair to her.

"Start from scratch? Don't make me laugh," she said with a wry laugh. Alex let go of his arm and grabbed her tiny shoulder. He looked into her eyes, looking for the stare he wanted.

"I promise I'll make you happy," he said earnestly. He wasn't lying, he meant it.

"You want me to be happy?"

He nodded,

She brushed his hand off her shoulder and looked at him straight, "Then go away and disappear from my life," she said. Alex was stunned for a while. He did not want to give up, he called her again and tried to approach her again,

"I know you still have feelings for me, isn't it," he said, making her stop walking.

“Even though it was just a glimmer of taste, I was right, wasn't I?” he said again before he again blocked her to get away from him. He took her right hand and placed it on his cheek as if he wanted the softest caress he had ever received from her.

His eyes were still searching for the warmness he wanted from her, but he didn't get it. He also took her other hand to place it on his chest. He wanted her to know this great pulse that was beating life inside him. Alex wanted Naomi to understand that his body wasn't lying to her,

Her heart was broken, he didn't expect that he would turn her into a different person than she used to be. He no longer found Naomi who was so cheerful and sincere with him. She used to be just an innocent girl with all the innocence and sincerity that were the characteristics that he liked so much. Her small body, along with the beauty of her face is a plus point for her. It's all Alex's fault, his fault for turning her into someone he barely recognizes.

"I love you, Naomi," he said with all of his feelings,

"Lie," she murmured. She wasn’t want to hear anything from him,

"This is me. This is me when I'm with you," he said, pressing her left hand to his chest. He hoped that with this, his feelings were also conveyed to her. Alex wants to bring back her cheerfulness like the Naomi he first met.

"I do not care,"

"Give me a chance. Give me a chance to fix things…”

"You can't turn back time, and I won't allow you to come back into my life..." she raised her voice a bit. 

"I really can't turn back time. But I guarantee my life to you."

She shook her head with a wry smile, "You don't understand what you're saying."

He shook his head, "I will give and sacrifice everything as long as you can come back to me,"

Naomi was still silent, peering into Alex's brown eyes to see the seriousness he was showing her. She could no longer be deceived by her past innocence, but this time she didn't get the lie from his eyes.

"I know you still have me in your heart..." Alex stated to her. She wryly smiles and takes a deep breath, 

"You're right, you're still in my heart," she said looking at Alex sharply,

"You do still occupy a place in my heart, but it's not love, but hate and disgust. You will always be remembered as my most beautiful mistake," she said sharply. 

“Naomi...” he called her again. He was hurt by what she stated to him. 

"Give it up, I don't want to reread the same book," she conveyed to him deeply. 

"No, it's not the same," he claimed with his shook head. 

“I will fight for you, no matter what. I'll make you turn to me again."

She shrugged her shoulders, "We'll see. You or I will win all of this,” she said before she walked off leaving that man alone.

As for Alex, he clenched his fists. This time he would not lose, no matter what, he had to get her back for himself. No matter how hard he would face it, he would always chase her.