Author: Ni HaiI had a crush on an uncle for nine years. I was tortured by how people looked at me in the secular world.Last week, I confessed my love to him, but he refused me. This week, he brought his new girlfriend to my house for dinner.When he went to the bathroom, I blocked him and asked, "Did you find a girlfriend so that I could give up?"He answered peacefully, "Because my heart is vacuous."1Starting from the time when I was a freshman, I had a crush on Adrian Lawson.At that time, he was 35 years old. He came and went freely with his SLR camera. Traveling around the world, he shot many photos that were highly praised by other people.I was also studying photography. I heard his legends and admired him. I wanted to be his pupil, but I dared not say it directly, for fear that it might be a burdensome relationship for him.My method was the stupidest. Whenever I had time, I would go to see him with my camera.He usually crossed me out. Most of the time, I was th
4The blind date did not go well. Because of two things, I could no longer stay in the private room and pretend to be refined and cultured.The boy my father introduced to me was called Ethan Stein. He was the one in the hotel that day.What was even absurd was that the real middleman of this blind date was Adrian.After I slammed the door in front of all the people in the room and left, I immediately took out my cell phone and dialed Adrian's number.When I was waiting for the call to go through, I felt the ringing sound was unbearable as if it were a thorn piercing me.Finally, the ringing sound was over, and the call was connected."Adrian, where are you? I want to see you. Now, right now!" I blurted those words out.There was a moment of silence on the other end of the line before I heard a woman saying gently, "Please don't worry. What has happened to you? Adrian is in the bathroom now. I'll tell him later."My heart at once sunk to the bottom. Coldness spread along my li
7Ethan was a little frightened. He blushed and swallowed several times. Then, he stammered and said, "O-Okay. There are empty rooms in my house."My tone became more and more ambiguous. "What should happen between us has happened. It doesn't matter whether there is an empty room or not."Ethan blinked his eyes several times and was completely at a loss what to do.I looked provocatively at Adrian, looking forward to his reaction.But he just walked past me at a fast pace and strode to the off-road vehicle. Then he opened the car door."Samantha, I'll send you home."I was silent for a moment. Then, I held Ethan's hand and said with a sweet smile, "No, Uncle Lawson. Please go back by yourself."After saying so, I went in the opposite direction with Ethan and got in his car.After we closed the door, Ethan seemed to be thinking about something complicated for a long time.As I adjusted my seat, I explained, "Don't be afraid. I was just joking. I won't go to your house. Please
9It was late at night when the plane landed. After checking all the ways to return, I found that I had to wait for at least eight hours.Sitting on the chair at the airport, I mulled over the words that Adrian had sent me and had recalled.All kinds of thoughts kept flashing through my mind. My soul was filled with questions and answers, and my mood was changing because of them. As a result, I was covered in cold sweat.I even morbidly felt that everyone passing by was looking at me with sympathy.The passage of time seemed to be slower when I was waiting. I wanted to do something to change my mood. At this time, Ethan sent me a friend request again.It seemed that only with him could I openly talk about the complicated situation.We were about the same age, and he was the only outsider who knew the load on my mind.Was he an outsider?Before I could answer this question, I had accepted his friend request with my emotions taking the upper hand."Haven't you gone to bed yet?"
11I knocked hard on the door three times, and there was suddenly a dead silence inside.A few seconds later, Ethan asked as if he had just woken up, "Who is it?""Open the door." I had run out of patience and knocked on the door a few more times in a row. "Now! Right now!"After I heard a series of rustling sounds, Ethan came close to the door and said pitifully, "I haven't washed up yet, nor have I put on my clothes..."He was finding an excuse! I roared at him in a low voice. "Is it you who haven't put on your clothes, or is it Adrian who hasn't put on his clothes?"I didn't know what they were busy with. After another two minutes, the door finally opened from the inside.Ethan was standing straight against the wall as if he were a child waiting to be punished for doing something wrong. Adrian was smoking at the end of the bed with open legs.The white smoke wreathed before his face so that he looked solemn and indifferent. His tie was loosely wrapped around his neck and he
13Perhaps subconsciously, I wanted to wait for Adrian to get married before going back to face him, so I kept postponing the date of my return with all kinds of excuses.But I didn't expect that no one had urged me to go back.My partner said, "It doesn't matter. Enjoy your vacation with pay. At worst, I'll only have porridge for two more years."My parents said, "I really enjoyed myself when you were not at home. Anyway, you are spending your own money. Enjoy your time for as long as you can. Just don't forget to bring me a gift."Ethan said, "The photos you took during your trip are so beautiful. People like you are born to be travelers."…At first, I didn't find there was anything wrong with it. But gradually, I found that every time I chatted with them, it was me who was looking for an excuse not to go back and it was them who were finding an excuse to stop me from going back.Did something happen?I asked many people what had happened, but I got no answer. In the end, I
Author: Ni HaiWhen I participated in a variety show, my partner was a popular male star.In the session of the secret room, I pretended to be afraid and hid in his arms for protection.He snorted coldly and pushed me away, "Stop pretending. I know you like watching horror films very much."I continued to throw myself into his arms, "We’re so familiar. Don't pretend to be abstinent. Hold me. This is my newly established image.""Ex-girlfriend," he suddenly stopped resisting and held my waist tightly, "Are you flirting with me?"1Nobody knew that Jake and I had dated except our agents.No one would have thought that it was an unknown girl like me who had asked for a breakup.At that time, he had just finished shooting a literary film, and it won him many awards. I watched him on TV at home and felt the huge gap tween us.I had endured the complex emotions of jealousy and fear until he was finally free. But he was depressed. He locked himself in the room every day and refuse
4I didn't know how long I scolded Jake before I finally fell asleep.In the dream, I went back to the day when I first lived together with Jake. He was clumsy, but extremely careful in every move for fear of hurting me.Obviously, his handsome face flushed, but he was still trying to be brave, telling me that he knew it and he could do it.He was determined not to give up.The progress was slow. When it was finally about to happen, he suddenly stopped and looked me up and down, "Sophie, I don't know why, but I suddenly feel like crying."I, who had been crying, froze.I didn’t know what to say anymore.I wanted to know why he wanted to cry. Was the reason the same as mine?As soon as the sun came out, I woke up and returned to reality from the dream, feeling very confused and depressed.I got up, tidy up briefly, and went out for a morning run.As soon as I finished stretching at the intersection, I heard a familiar voice from behind."Morning," Jake ran to me from the ear