The last place she thought she'd end up in her first year of high school, and all because she tried to be cool and got caught learning how to smoke in the school backyard.
There he was, sitting on the front seat of detention, the guy he tried to look cool for. Her heart pounded faster. She didn't expect to see him there. Theodore Jordan Shanley, the annoyingly good-looking senior, the soccer star athlete of Pinehurst Valley High, and the coolest guy in school who was her brother's best friend since kindergarten.
It's unfair how some people could grow up to be so cool while others stay as plain as a burlap no matter how hard they try. At least that's how she felt when her boobs started to grow, got her first period, and thought she would magically turn into a unicorn.
Instead, she still wears her favorite denim overall, an oversized sweater underneath it, her washed-out sneakers, tied her hair in a bundle, and covered it with a large bandana. Not that she knew another way to dress, she always prefers comfort over trends.
He was leaning his head on his palm looking half asleep. His light brown hair fell over his face. His head fell and jolted him. The first thing he saw was her walking past his seat. "Mickey?"
She hated that nickname. He's the only one who called her that because of a stupid incident that happened years ago when she was 9.
"What are you doing here?" he asked with a bewildered look on his face. "Detention? Really?" It was rather unbelievable because Hazel was not the kind of girl who would ever get herself in trouble.
She walked past him and took a seat in the back, "Long story." She threw herself on the chair, didn't really want to explain how embarrassing it was to be caught coughing on her first drag of cigarette smoke. "Just don't tell my mom."
He raised his brows and turned his back on her because the teacher's assistant gave them a look for talking in detention.
She took out her notebook from her backpack and started doodling. She would glance at him every few minutes just to admire him from the back. She had been doing that for years even when he came by to her house to hang out with Max, she would always find excuses to be able to be seen.
He'd seen her. Not the least bit interested in his best friend's quirky little sister whom he always called Mickey because she wore a Mickey Mouse costume on Halloween. She was 9 years old and he was 11. They went trick or treating together with Max and some other kids from the neighborhood. Everyone else was wearing scary costumes but Hazel wanted to wear something cute. She insisted on wearing that Mickey costume despite her mom persuaded her to wear something that's more in line with everybody else.
She wanted to stand out, and that she did. Theo never let her forget that night when he started to call her Mickey even until they're in high school together 7 years later. She was 16 now. Never been kissed, and never got over her crush on Theo even after she watched him, date girl, after girl since middle school.
She flirted with other guys, but none was more interesting than Theo. Smoldering green eyes, gorgeous wavy hair, and a playful smile. She would drop everything she was doing just to be able to spend a few minutes with him on an uneventful occasion. Pretended she was fine hanging out with his girlfriend even though it broke her heart every time she saw them cuddling and kissing.
Mickey ... she doodled it on her notebook. She hated it because it sounded silly and childish. It meant he only saw her as that little girl with the wrong costume, his best friend's little sister who never grew up in his eyes. She wanted him to see her as a big girl now, but it seemed impossible because she will always be Max's little sister.
Mickey ... she loved the fact that it was a special thing she has between her and Theo. No one else calls her that. But who was she kidding? He's 18 and was about to graduate. For seven years she had kept those feelings, and never once he showed any interest in her. Why would he start now?
When the bell dings, detention was over. She gathered her stuff and felt the tension trying to find words to say to him. Before she could think of anything, he turned to her, "Hey ... Mickey ... you want a ride home?"
Her heart bloated, she didn't want to rush her answer. They were neighbors, it was the most practical thing to do. "Sure." She wondered if her answer sounded cool enough. Then she thought of what she was going to say to him in the car, his new vintage red convertible that everyone at school talked about.
It's not like they've never been alone with each other, but her secret crush on him made her feel out of place whenever he's around. They walked toward the door in silence. If it was any quieter, he could probably hear her nervousness. Once the door opened, Peyton Brown was standing in front of it. The super hot blonde cheerleader in her practice uniform was waiting for her boyfriend. He leaned over and kissed her.
Hazel pretended not to look.
"Hey handsome ... sorry I couldn't join you in there, did you miss me?" she looped her arm around his, marking her territory, letting the world know she was his girl.
"You know I do," he said sweetly and kissed her again.
Hazel rolled her eyes almost as loudly as her gag re-flux.
"But I'm not alone in there ... look who's got her first detention," he added.
"Oh ... wow ... Hazel? What did you do?" her tone was unbelieving.
She waved a dismissive hand, "Ah ... you know ... they exaggerate everything ... you know what ... I just remembered something, I have to stop by at Janice's place ... so you guys go ahead, I'll just go home by myself."
"Are you sure? I can drop you off at Jan's," Theo said.
She was already walking away, "No, that's okay, I need the walk," she didn't have a better excuse. She couldn't possibly tell him that she couldn't stand his cheerleader girlfriend. Out of all his previous girls, Peyton was the worst. She was tall, gorgeous, popular and everything she's not, and they looked absolutely great together.
She let out a long sigh, at least she didn't have to sit in the backseat, and watched them gobbled each other up. She didn't really have to stop at Janice's, she was just not in the mood to pretend she was okay to see him with his girlfriend.
In less than a year, he'll be off to college. As a sports superstar, he's got colleges lining up to take him to be their student. Not only he was the captain of the school soccer team, but he was also a wrestling champion. Theo was always very physical since he was a kid, he loves the outdoors, going on adventures, something that she has in common with him. But the only reason she could do things together with Theo was that Max was there too. She was the tag-along sister who didn't have many friends she could hang out with, and Max was a great older brother who let her come wherever he goes.
Her stupid crush has occupied most of her teenage years, and it's not even close to being over. As she was thinking about it, his car passed by her near the schoolyard.
"Hey ... Mickey ... you sure you don't want a ride?"
Damn it. He looks so cool driving that convertible, one arm on the wheel, the other hanging on the edge of the door. His wavy hair floated against the breeze, vintage yellow shades slid down on his nose, and his blonde girlfriend nibbling at his ear.
She faked a smile, "No, thanks ... maybe next time."
He pursed his lips, pushed his glasses up, "Suit yourself ... see ya' Mickey." Then he drove off.
"Okay ... you have got to up your game and find someone else to obsess about," Jan threw a pillow at her face.She was flat on her back on Jan's bed feeling depressed yet again over Theo and his dreamy green eyes."You're in high school now ... there are a lot of guys out there that you can go out with, have a date with ... someone you can start smooching with ... Valentine is coming ... start dressing your age and not like that 12-year-old who drew hearts around Theo's name in her diary."Hazel grimaced, "What's wrong with how I dress? And ... I still draw hearts around his name on my diary ... I mean ... he's hot!"Jan put her index finger in her mouth and acted like she was going to vomit. "He is ... HOTTT ... I'
Tight jeans, long-sleeved crop top, because she thought showing off the middle part of her stomach was enough for her first day. She clutched her books in front of her as she walked towards her locker. She could see from the corner of her eyes, some students were turning their heads to look at her unusual appearance. Or maybe it was just her being self-conscious. But in high school, kids notice everything. "Looking good Williams!" someone shouted from the end of the hallway. She gasped silently, pretended nothing was out of the ordinary. She turned her head slowly and curved a knowing smile to the person who shouted. "Chin up, Hazel, own it!" Jan came from behind her and whispered in her ear. Her locker was
Lee Dennis Owens. 17. A sophomore. Friends with Kyle. Half Korean from the mother's side. Born and raised in Chestnut. A dance prodigy had been dancing since he was 6 years old."How do you know all that? I didn't know you were friends with him?" Hazel felt betrayed that she didn't know things about Jan when they were practically always together."I didn't, I knew that from Kyle ... anyway, you'd know a lot of stuff about other people too if you weren't so cooped up with Green Eyed Hottie at the soccer field."But lately, Jan had been ditching her to be with Kyle a lot, hence, she was stranded by herself trying to smoke a cigarette with Max's other friends, Joey and Stanley who were quick enough to run away leaving her behind and eventually sent to detention by Coach Garry.
Five: Dear TheoDear Theo,I really don't know what's the point of this ... but here goes ...I love you ... I'm obsessed with you ... I'm crazy for you ...There ... I said it, and it feels really goodNow you know. Although you don't know who I am, that's beside the point.I'm doing this for me.I've been holding on to these feelings for you and I'm tired because I know nothing is ever going to happen between you and me. Ever.I realize even though we sometimes feel so deeply about someone, it doesn't mean the feelings will be returned. It sucks and I'm learnin
He doesn't speak a single word of Korean, even though he was half Korean. Ever since his mother died there was no one who speaks Korean at home. His stepmother was French, so he knew a little bit of French.He danced to the number one Korean boy band without understanding a single word of the lyrics, except for the English parts. He said dancing didn't need an understanding of words but the emotions from the music. It was true for a lot of things.They followed each other on Instagram, he has around 5000 followers there and quite actively posted his dances in there too. While she has less than 300 followers, most of them were school friends and family.Most of her posts were selfies and wefies with Jan, sometimes she posted her journal entries in a blur, and also her favorit
At the end of Valentine's day, all the letters were distributed to their recipients. Most kids received at least one. Everyone made a pact with their best friends that they would send each other something.Theo got a whole bowl to himself. The committee even let him bring home the bowl as a bonus because his letters couldn't fit the largest envelope that was available. He was cheered along the corridor holding the large bowl in his hand.She wondered if he'll even bother to read them later because there were so many.Surprisingly, she got four letters herself. She tucked them into her backpack to read them later after dinner when she usually spends the rest of the day alone in her room.Lee was already gone to rehea
"How's school today?" her mom asked at dinner time the next day.She shrugged, "Fine," she answered almost simultaneously with Max.There was nothing eventful for her except spending the whole day with Jan celebrating her new relationship status with Kyle. He finally confessed to her and asked her if she wanted to be his girlfriend on Valentine's Day. How romantic.There's not much she could say about her own Valentine's Day. That last note she received was occupying her mind, but no one was sending her signals or trying to approach her about it. It was anonymous, it will probably stay anonymous. She didn't want to think about it too much."I have a surprise for you, actually," her dad said as he wiped his mouth wit
She spent the whole day trying on outfits to go to Lee's dance party. Fixed her hair in all the ways she could think of while Jan watched from the other end of their video call."Does this look okay?" she held a pink top over a white mini skirt she had sworn to never wear only a year ago. It was the sixth set of clothes she tried to mix and match.Jan grunted, "That looks adorable ... if you were going out for ice cream in the daytime ... it's a dance studio, everyone's gonna be wearing black, you don't want to be the odd one out.""Are you sure? Black? My first choice was black?""I know, I told you it was fine but you went through your whole closet anyway ... I think black is the way to go."
Okay ... let me wrap this up for you ... I decided to finish high school at Pinehurst Valley because ... well ... because I wanted to be close to Hazel for another year at least. I've never had a friend like her before and ever since Eli ... she's the one thing that made my life seem livable again. We spent the rest of the summer in Goldstone with my dad's charity program. We worked with under privilege children in the nook and cranny of the city. We volunteered at the nursing home. Hazel loved that one because I had to perform every week for the elderlies, they loved my singing, apparently, they think I was adorable and reminded them of their grandsons. Made me feel less special knowing there are at least 7 kids that looked like me. The whole program went well. She got extra points for her portfolio. So did I. Though it didn't matter to me because I know I'm not going to Uni after this. I'm concentrating on my new channel which Hazel had agreed to help with. She loved that to
She finally came out of her bedroom looking fresh out of the shower. Her mom felt a heavy burden just lifted off her shoulder. Hazel was feeling better. There was still deep sadness on her face but she forced a smile and said 'Hi' and gave her a long hug. The day was getting dark and Claire's relief was short-lived because Hazel was on her way outside to meet the boy in a designer hoodie in his white Lamborghini who looked like he hadn't had a good sleep in days."He's been waiting for an hour," Claire said.She had turned on the light on their porch so the two of them can have a good talk on their new balcony swing. Claire poured a generous amount of red wine into her mug and peeked outside their window and saw the two kids embracing each other warmly."Hey, baby ... how are you doing?" he said and kissed the top of her head.She shook her head and started to cry in his chest."Oh ... I'm so sorry ...""No ... I'm sorry ..." she said and held her tears back. "I'm sorry I missed your
Claire was leaning against the door frame of their entrance with her arms folded in front of her. He waved at Theo as he climbed into his car with all his stuff in the backseat. The boy had been crying, she could clearly see it on his face. She could still remember what it was like to be young and in love and heartbroken. It was the best of times and it was the worst of times. Theo had told her everything. She appreciated his honesty though she was disappointed at the same time. But he was devastated, Claire knew that people sometimes underestimated how deep the emotional scar is for boys. Some men couldn't really recover from the hurt they feel in their younger years. It only goes to show how Theo really felt about Hazel. She wanted to understand the situation though she can see how much it had hurt her daughter too. She let out a sigh as his car drove further away from their house. Theo was going back to Gastonbury after many attempts to apologize to Hazel. She had closed her doo
The party was held at The Silver Tongue, the most exclusive club in Goldstone. As the son of an A-list celebrity, he spared no expense and went all out for the celebration. He booked the whole third floor for the event and invited everyone he knew in the city. Including Mandy and Dennis. As soon as Marlon and his entourage arrived, the party began in full swing. The music was loud and thumping, and the dance floor was packed with guests showing off their best moves. Marlon was the center of attention, surrounded by his friends, who were all dressed in the latest designer clothes and jewelry. The bar was fully stocked with top-shelf liquor, and bartenders were serving up creative cocktails in elaborate glassware. The party-goers were drinking and toasting Marlon's big day, and everyone seemed to be in high spirits. He wasn't in a particularly good mood that day, a big part of it was because he hadn't heard from Hazel since she went back to Chestnut. As if she had disappeared from t
Theo sat on his bed, his head buried in his hands. He couldn't believe the mess he had gotten himself into. He loved Hazel with all his heart, but he had lied to her. He couldn't even remember how it had all started. He left his girlfriend in Gastonbury because he knew he wanted to spend the summer with the girl that got away. The moment he saw her at the dance, he was instantly back to where he left off and his girlfriend just disappeared in the background. Grace ... her name ... his girlfriend. It was never serious with Grace. It was never serious with any of the girls he had been with after Peyton. Subconsciously, he was trying to move on from losing Hazel because he was too much of a coward to fight for her in the first place. He knew it would have to be Hazel. He had taken their relationship for granted for years, but they were just kids. One year apart from her had only made his feelings stronger and he had ruined it for the both of them when he couldn't stop himself from fa
It was a nagging feeling. That's what she had. It was bothering her and she couldn't ignore it any longer. Sure ... she needed to get her stuff to better prepare herself for the summer program. But Theo will only stay for so long and she needed to be with him, at least to explain in person how her summer is going to be.She wanted to stay in Goldstone, it was her initial plan before Theo came along. The nagging feeling told her to go back to Chestnut to see if their new relationship was going to last beyond that summer.She didn't tell him she was coming back, she wanted it to be a surprise. The minute she arrived, she went straight to Theo's house.He was surprised or more like shocked to see her. The look on his face was not what she expected. His eyes bulged wide, his face was drained of colors, and his mouth gaped open."Micky?" his voice was almost inaudible.She laughed, "Yeah ... who do you think it is? I wanted to ask you if you're surprised ... but it's pretty obvious," she r
He had planned to ask Hazel at the end of her stay in Goldstone, but he found himself asking her on the first day she arrived. The thought had been haunting him for weeks since he left Chestnut for his family therapy. The only thing stopping him from executing his original plan was his unexpected friendship with Hazel. He would consider anything not to lose what he had with her. Having her around made him feel excited and energized to do whatever it is he was planning to do. Being with her made it easier for him to forget how fucked up his family situation was. Every day spent with her was joyful. Even Dr. Seymour told him that he made huge progress since the last time he was in therapy. Marlon knew it had a lot to do with Hazel. He introduced her to his YouTube team and let her hang out when they were working on their next project. He wanted her to be interested. He wanted her to want to be involved. He wanted her to change her mind though neither of them had made any decision, Ma
She remembered the first time she arrived in the city of Neon Lights. This time she arrived in style, in a white Lambo with one of the most eligible bachelors in town. He was high, she was laughing, and the music was loud but Goldstone was louder. Hazel had underestimated how famous Marlon really was. It's different in Chestnut where she was used to him being her 'buddy', her celebrity friend from the Big City but Marlon never felt too big for her. In Goldstone, he's a Rock Star. People recognized his car. There were literally fans asking for autographs and pictures with him. She could hear people calling his name while they walk on the sidewalk. Eating out in fast food restaurants was not an option, they would have to go to Hotels or fine dining or have food delivered to his penthouse. "You should try going out in public with my dad," he said and put on his sunglasses at 8 PM. "Worse?" she assumed. He shook his head a little, "You can't," he tilted his brow. "He has bodyguards
Marlon took a drag of his cigarette while leaning on his car. He glanced at the pair after a while and muttered, "For fuck's sake." It's been 15 minutes since they said they were saying goodbye to each other and every time he looked over his shoulder they were kissing passionately on Hazel's porch. They finally stopped when Hazel's mom stepped out of the house. They hugged and her mom said something about not drinking, don't do anything illegal, and calling her once they get there. Things his parents never said to him. He dropped his cigarette on the ground and put it out with his Givenchy sneakers. "Drive safely, young man," Claire said to him when walking Hazel toward his car. "I mean it ... it's a fancy car, and I know what it can do ... but not while you're driving my baby," she tapped on his Lambo. "Yes ma'am," he gave her a two-finger salute. "How about we video call you all the way to Goldstone so you can see how slow I drive?" he teased her. "That's not a bad idea, actua