CHAPTER 73

My hands was still shaking 20 minutes after Ada's surgery. My first 12 hours long surgery was successful. This was a huge thing!

I wanted to call Mike but it was 4 am, he was probably sleeping. He didn't even send me a simple text after our fight and that was childish from him but I don't have time to deal with that anymore. I am close to breaking things between us to be honest. I think I came to some kind of border. I will either stay with him forever or I will leave him. When I think about that more, the more I want to end this off and on-going relationship. If I would ever write on a paper 'pro and con' style, there would be a lot of bad things. He is jealous, controlling and he is always hiding something. And always something hideous. He thinks that with his money he can buy love and everything that he misses the most. I have good memories with him too, I would lie if I say differently! But that was like a gram of salt in the ocean. He can be very charming and persuading when it'