Chapter 2: Confession

"Mommy, you were having a nightmare..." Prescelle pouted. 

Ramina gulped nervously. It felt like a sin especially that she dreamed of that! 

"I'm so sorry, baby... Did I disturb your sleep?" Ramina softly asked. She went closer to her daughter who is now sitting on the bed, adjacent to where she's laying. 

Prescelle nodded and softly gasp. "But it's okay, Mommy. I know you're tired from work... I will sleep now," Prescelle said, sleepiness is evident in her voice. 

Ramina sighed and guided her daughter to sleep. She laid her down on the bed and tugged the comforter on her body. 

"Sleep tight, darling..." Ramina whispered.

"I love you... mommy..." Prescelle uttered before finally dozing off to sleep. 

Ramina just checked if her daughter is already asleep before going out of their room. She then went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water. After drinking, she let out a heavy sigh. 

It's been days since she started dreaming about her wildest night in a bar together with her friends when they were in college. It's like a monster, hunting her to sleep making her always shiver. It even got worsened because she can still feel the touch of the guy on her skin. 

They did not just kiss... because something more happened to them. They ended up in a hotel after making out at the bar. After that, when Ramina was sober enough to process everything, she left without knowing who the guy was. She just left with no words. She did not even familiarize the face of the guy because she was too drunk and driven by lust! 

A part of her was regretting what happened that night but no. Regretting it means invalidating her daughter's existence, and she will never think of that again.

Others can say, 'past is past', but how about Ramina? She can't even think of forgetting her past! 

"I blamed you for everything that I regretted in the past... I hated you for so long but what can I do? I did not even know you," she whispered to herself, looking up while thinking of that unknown guy. 

Ramina shook her head. She can't erase what he dreamed of off her mind now. And so, she did not sleep that night, afraid that she might dream of it again. 

"Good morning, Mommy! Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!" 

Ramina opened her eyes when she heard the loud cute voice of her daughter. She did not know that she has already fallen asleep. Luckily, she did not dream of it again. 

She sighed in relief. 

She then turned her head sidewards and saw her daughter struggling to put her shoes on. A soft chuckle escaped on her lips. 

"Good morning, baby! Where are you going?" She equaled the energy of Prescelle. 

"Jogging, mommy! Yaya is outside, too! Will you go with us?"

Ramina stood up from bed to fix it. "Mommy will go after taking a bath, baby... You can go with Yaya, instead," Ramina said. 

"Okay, mommy! Bye-bye!" Prescelle went towards her mom to kiss her before waving her hands goodbye. 

"Don't be naughty, baby! Follow your Yaya!" Ramina uttered when Prescelle went out of the room. 

"Okay, mommy!" 

True enough, Ramina went to the bathroom to take a bath. She checked if Yaya had already cooked breakfast for them and she did. After that, wearing a pair of leggings and a white top, Ramina went out to look for them. 

She saw them at the nearest park, sitting on a bench while laughing. 

"Ramina!" Yaya Grace waved her hand when she saw Ramina from afar. 

Grace has been babysitting Prescelle for three years and she never complained about her work. Ramina is a good boss and Prescelle grew up as a good kid. Grace also got closer to them because of their good treatment towards her.

"Mommy!" 

"Hello, Yaya," Ramina greeted her when she reached their distance. 

Ramina seated beside Prescelle. "Are you tired, baby?" Ramina softly asked her daughter as she wipe her sweat.

"Nope, mommy! I'm not tired! I'm energized!" Prescelle playfully stretched her arms making Ramina and Grace laugh. 

"Okay, that's enough. We need to go home and eat. Is my baby hungry?" Ramina talked to her again. 

Prescelle pouted and nodded this time. "I want to eat now, mommy! Sunny side-up! Sunny side-up!" she chanted. 

Ramina laughed again. "Okay, sweetie. We'll go home to eat!" Ramina equaled her energy. 

Ramina and Prescelle looked at Grace. 

Grace laughed and nodded to agree with them. "Yes! We will eat!" 

When they got home, they eat their breakfast together. Ramina and Grace talked about Ramina's work until they finish eating. Prescelle is now playing in the living room so Ramina took that chance to talk to Grace privately. 

"I was fired out at work, Yaya." Ramina sighed. 

Grace looked at her worriedly. "Why? What happened?" 

Ramina told her about the company's problem until Grace finally understood it. 

"So what are your plans now?" Grace asked her. 

Ramina looked up. "I will seek a new job... I need it for my daughter," Ramina said. 

Grace smiled. She always thinks that Ramina is a strong woman for raising her child alone without depending on anyone. "I wish for your luck, Ramina. I know you can do it. You always will," Grace sincerely said. 

Ramina smiled back. "Thank you for staying, Yaya... I'm always thankful to have you." 

"And I'm always lucky to have someone like you as my boss, Ramina." 

Since Ramina doesn't already have work, she spent the rest of the week bonding with her daughter and friends. On Wednesday, Maria Nicole, Ramina's friend, called her, inviting her to shop with them. 

"Okay, sure! Can I bring Prescelle with us?" Ramina asked Nicole from the other line. 

"[OMG! Yes, please! I miss that kid already!]" Nicole exclaimed.

After their call, Ramina immediately told her daughter that they'll be going out with her Tita's. Prescelle jumped in joy after knowing that. 

Grace is not on duty today since Ramina is here to look over her daughter. 

"Mommy? Is this dress okay?" 

Ramina looked at her daughter when she entered her room. A smile formed on her lips when she saw Prescelle in a cute pink dress. "Yes, baby! That looks cute!"

"Okay, mommy! Gonna wear it!" Prescelle giggled and immediately run towards her room to wear the dress.

Prescelle Cassandra is a five years old kid. At a young age, she was taught by her mother to do simple things by herself like wearing clothes, taking a bath, fixing her toys, and eating without anyone's company. Prescelle always wanted to make her mother smile. She doesn't want it when her mother looks sad and stressed. 

"[Anton will pick you up! Wait for him, 'kay?]" 

That was what Nicole told her friend. Ramina don't have any choice but to wait for him until he finally arrived. 

"Tito Anton!" Prescelle happily jumped when she saw her Tito. 

"Hello, sweetie!" Anton smiled and carried Prescelle. 

Anton then stared at Ramina. "Hi, beautiful," he greeted her. 

Ramina smiled back. "Good morning." 

They went to the mall together. When they arrive, Maria Nicole and Cristal Haze were there, waiting for them. 

"Guys! What's up!" Anton hugged both of them. 

"Hey! I missed you all!" It was Nicole. 

"Tita Niki! Tita Hazey!" Prescelle runs towards them to hug them also. 

"My baby!" 

"Prescelle, hi!" 

"Hello, girls," Ramina went to them and joined their hug session. 

"I missed you, guys, really!" Nicole uttered. 

They had fun together that day. They bought anything Prescelle wants! Ramina became stressed out a bit. 

"Are you okay?" Anton whispered as he held Ramina's waist.

They were in a shoe shop. They are trying to find some shoes for Prescelle and them. 

Ramina sighed. Throughout the day, it was obvious that Anton was trying to make a move on her. Her friends are actually eyeing them teasingly! 

"Yes, yes." Ramina removed Anton's hand from her waist. 

"You can pick anything you want. I'll pay for it," Anton whispered once again. They were so close! 

"No, thanks," Ramina shortly replied before going to her daughter. 

Anton let out a frustrated sigh. He is planning something. He wants to talk to her later at their house. 

"Baby, what did you buy?" Ramina asked her daughter. 

Prescelle showed her small pink ankle boots. "Can I have this, mommy?" 

"Yes, you can, baby! Tita will pay for it!" Nicole immediately interrupted. 

"Tita Hazey will pay for the others, baby. Don't worry," Cristal Haze also told her. 

Ramina palmed her forehead. They're spoiling her daughter too much! 

They arrived home early at night. Prescelle is sleeping on the backrest of Anton's car while Ramina is on the shotgun seat. 

Cristal Haze and Maria Nicole have their cars and have already gone home, too. 

"Thanks for the free ride, Anton," Ramina thanked him when they arrive. 

Ramina was about to open the door when Anton locked it. Ramina's forehead ceased. "What are you doing?" Ramina asked him. 

Anton sighed as he massage his temple. "Look. I have something to tell you... so don't go just yet, hm?" he softly uttered. 

Ramina's heart beats at a fast pace. She don't know but she became nervous all of the sudden. 

"Okay. What is it?" she asked. 

It was a long moment of silence before Anton finally spoke. 

"Ramina... I like you. You know that, right?" 

Ramina isn't numb to know that but still, she gasped for air after hearing that from him! 

"And you also know that I have a daughter, Anton." Ramina tried to speak to him as calmly as possible. 

"Ramina, I can father your child!" Anton desperately uttered. 

Ramina shook her head, getting stressed. "Please, stop it. You're my friend and—"

"And I don't want us to stay that way, Ramina," Anton seriously said. 

Anton liked her so much and he is willing to father her child. He doesn't want anyone else except for her. The first time he laid his eyes on her, Anton knew that she was the one. He wants to get her. He wants to marry her! 

Ramina gulped. She's not used to them being like this. She doesn't want to hurt him but she has no choice! She needs to say what's on her mind!

"Look. I don't like you, Anton. I don't want anyone for now. I am not ready to enter a relationship with someone. I can be a mother and a father of my child. And we're friends for Pete's sake! I'm so sorry..."