Wedding blues and loneliness

Carrie

True to Alessandro’s words, our wedding was slated to be held a week after the proposal. And after many hours of rigorous preparation for what was meant to be a lowkey wedding, the morning of our new start arrived and I woke up feeling extremely nervous.

And things got worse when I looked down at the outdoor wedding setup from the window of the small hotel we booked. And it became extremely worse when I took a look around my room and realised that I was alone with my simple wedding gown hanging on a grand rack opposite my bed.

I know that I have been alone for a while, but at this moment when I am sitting down on my bed and staring at my gown, it hits me more and more that I am really by myself. I don’t even have anyone to walk me down the aisle.

I at least had my Uncle for the first wedding.

But then, I can hold a side of my stomach and imagine my baby is walking me down the aisle as I proceed to marry his or her father.

I do wonder if my child will be a boy or a girl.

“Sister