CarrieThe Walk of Shame that I was meant to experience after the first night I spent with Alessandro was only just getting to me at that moment. After we walked past the busy reception where Alessandro got his key card, the silence that found its way to our midst when we entered the elevator made me feel ashamed for some reason I could not decipher.And that feeling worsened after we walked out and down the corridor towards his room.But thankfully, after a seemingly long walk, we finally ended up in front of his room. A ting from the door lock led us into the huge room.Once I stepped into the abode that gave off more of Alessandro’s scent, I raced toward the couch at the other end of the room. It was the seat that was closest to a window. As I settled, I refused to look in Alessandro’s direction. My eyes stayed fixed on the view of the city ahead.“I need ten minutes,” Alessandro informed me. And I still refused to look at him.I pretended that something extremely interesting had c
CarrieFor a couple of minutes, all of my senses were ignited and I could see, feel and hear things twice as much.The fire in Alessandro’s eyes.The way those eyes flickered into slight confusion. The way his hands held me in places I could not ignore. His chest pressing into mine and the crazy pounding from my heart…I sensed everything.And I could not find a way to escape from that moment. It became especially harder to escape after he shifted his lower body so that he was caging me between his legs.My hands gathered to my chest as coyness befell me and I found myself waiting for a chance to ask him why he was in tears.“Miss Edwards…” His voice was full of sleep. “Your eyes… These eyes of yours…” He moved again and I felt him brush against my centre. “I think they are really the solution.”“Th-The solution?” My brows jerked for a second and I wondered if the heat that had been threatening to explode between us was finally going to be explored.“I feel happy right now.”His state
Alessandro“Our men have captured the spy,” Eduardo informed me eagerly. Then, he scoffed and said, “I can’t believe your grandfather almost jailed Carrie. She doesn’t even look like someome that would be a spy.”“I can’t believe that I cried,” I murmured to myself as I played the moment that led to Miss Edwards and I sharing another intimate contact.“Did that old man really think that things would go his way? I must say, he is always desperate to suck some blood. I wonder if he is a vampire when the rest of us are sleeping.”I finally dragged myself out of my thoughts and focused on Eduardo’s words. “We hardly sleep around here. You are no stranger to that fact.” My eyes remained trained on Miss Edwards who was still sleeping soundly, greatly unaware that two men were standing over her. “Eduardo?” I called because an issue I have found myself battling with became something I desired to share with the man.“Do you want to order the death of the spy?” The thirst for some action rested
AlessandroI had no desire to waste time. Not when that woman’s life is in danger. My entire being knows that dragging and smearing the issue my grandfather has created would have been a delight, but Miss Edwards’s life is more important.So, with glaring eyes, I tossed Eduardo’s phone to him and got rid of the glove I was handed. Attempting to wear that glove will be a waste of time. Besides, this will not be the first time I’ll get blood on my hands.“So, what are you going to do?” The old man continued to taunt me. “Are you going to-?”I faced one of the men next to me and asked for a dagger. Well, to be more precise, I asked for my special dagger, the very one that does the job in one go.“Alessandro…”“Shut it.” I hurried my steps toward the spy. With a firm hold of his head, I tilted his bloodied face upwards and after a brief eye contact with the almost soulless man, I dragged the sharpness of the blade across his neck as slowly as possible. Taking a good number of seconds to c
CarrieI woke up from a long sleep and I could tell that there was something wrong. Not only was there an unusual rush of breeze, but the smell around me also was that of deadened sweat and since I have never perceived such a thing around Alessandro, I was left to think that I had some unknown visitors while I was sleeping.I have to say though… That sleep was one of the best I have had in a while. And it is a delight that I am not using that statement in reference to sex.Unable to return to the slumber world, I got rid of the comfy blankets draped over my feet and prepared myself to get off the bed. As I calculated how I would hurriedly transport myself to the bathroom so that I could get rid of the pressing urge to pee, I finally sensed Alessandro’s presence.But the man was not on the couch on which, or rather, against which we had unexpected, mind-blowing sex. But when I looked towards the exit and saw a brief outline of his shadow that had managed to seep past the door, I rushed
CarrieWhen the car came to a halt and we all alighted, the view of a raging sea greeted us eagerly and that scenery almost made my jaws drop in surprise. But, I looked behind me and the magnificent building that stared back at me from a distance did the job of prying my lips apart in shock.While I felt the looseness of the sand around my light slippers, I faced the beautiful view of the ocean and I got mesmerised by the way the full moon haggardly settled at the end of the unresting water body.“It’s quite a view, isn’t it?” Eduardo softly commented behind me and I could not help but agree. Alessandro quietly settled next to me and said nothing. And Eduardo continued talking while he massaged the ground with his shoes, “You will have a swell time living here. I think the ocean view will be the best for the baby.”“It’s a great view for me.”“I think Alessandro likes it as well.” We both glanced at the stoic man who was now barely unbothered by the spots of deep red blemishes on his
CarrieFor what seemed like an eternity, extreme silence overpowered the moment, and I almost heard the rapid beating I felt against my chest.But it took Alessandro clearing his throat and taking the first step forward to break the ice. The man, Frank Maximus, moved closer as well. And even though I could not see their faces properly, I got the feeling that they were doing a mini face-off.“Frank Maximus,” Alessandro bitterly spat the man’s name, his hands tucked into his wet and somewhat sandy pants.“You know who I am,” the unexpected visitor remarked, his hands pocketed as well.Gosh… I doubt I can ever get used to the peculiarity of Frank’s voice. I don’t even want to. Seeing Frank at that moment was just a trigger. He reminded me of the terrible past I was trying to shed, he reminded me that my father willingly sold me off without remorse.“What are you do
AlessandroI have a strange habit.Whenever things don’t go my way, I act insane. I do things like walking towards the brink of the ocean or shaving a newly cut hair into an extremely low one. Sometimes I starve myself as punishment and do nothing but drink wine. On other days, I go easy on myself by getting a tattoo or two.On this crazy night, I decided to walk barefoot. I am on my way to a small house which is a walkable distance from my new home. Well, our new home.The fact that I was taking a risk by leaving Carrie by herself seeped into my mind and I paused my slow steps to take a brief look at the house.Then, seconds later, I continued walking, still not caring about the fact that my feet could bruise if I happen to stumble upon sharp things. But in the past, a lot of sharp objects have pierced numerous parts of my body, I am sure I can take a little more hurt.As long as I punish myself enough for wh
CarrieAlessandro and I sat in silence for a very long time. We held hands and stared at the sea and the way it displayed its beauty while the wind played with it.Then, after many minutes, I asked, “How have you been?”Alessandro faced me, his gorgeous eyes making my heart skip as though it was the first time meeting him. “Before a few moments ago, I have been shitty. Very shitty.”His response tempted me to imagine how terrible things were for him when my father captured me. But a glimpse of that imagination made my heart ache, so I quickly dumped that idea.“I am sorry, Alessandro.“Why?”“My father caused us so much pain. He uh-” I lowered my head while a faint memory of how I suffered in that dark room seeped into my mind.“Don’t think about it, Carrie.” Alessandro’s soft gaze met mine. “It is too sad.”“It happened, Alessandro. How do I face it if I don’t think about it?”“Carrie.” A crack entered his voice and for some seconds, he bit into his lips. “You were in hell back there
Alessandro“Mr. Valante,” the doctor dragged me out of my deep thoughts.“How is she?” After Carrie asked a question that made my entire soul crash, she lost consciousness and we had to rush her to the hospital.“Thankfully, we were able to stabilise her, but she needs to be watched for some days. While we wait, we’ll run necessary tests and take care of her to the best of our ability.”“Will she be fine?” That was all I wished to know.“Yes. I believe she will overcome this.” The doctor still had questions. “From the chart I got from the patient’s previous hospital, it indicated that she was pregnant.”My throat felt heavier. “She… She lost the baby, didn’t she?”He sighed. Then he nodded. “We will have to test for an overdose. Especially for Diclofenac and Misoprostol. It is possible that they were given to the patient regularly. If that turns out to be true, the culprit will be charged with murder. That’s as far as I know.”“Thank you, doctor. But…” I hesitated to ask my question bu
CarrieWhen my eyes opened again, I felt strange, I felt clean. But that feeling failed to override the disappointment I felt when I realised that I was still alive.Darkness surrounded me as usual and emptiness joined the party.And all I could do was stare at nothing and wait for the worst to happen.Many moments later, the door opened and the light came on.Gary stepped into the room.“You are awake,” he said, his hand carrying a tray of what seemed to be food.I could have scoffed at that sight if I had the strength. At this point, eating is meaningless. I doubt I would be able to swallow anything.“You should eat,” Gary continued. He knelt and dropped the tray on the floor. “It has been days since you had anything. You should at least eat something.”“Gary…” My voice was greatly weak as usual.“Yes, Carrie?” I listened as he dragged himself closer. “What is it? Do you need to go to the bathroom? You don’t have to make a mess here anymore. It is unhealthy.”“I…” I focused on the ce
AlessandroI have lost my mind.I’ll keep losing my mind.I’ll keep letting images of Carrie haunt me in dreams and real life. I’ll continue to be a version of myself I’ll never understand as long as things continue this way.It’s been a month since Carrie’s disappearance and everything has turned upside down. After a long day of locating Carrie to no avail, I resort to a lifestyle that makes me furious with myself.I can’t stop it though. Right now, it’s the only way I know to survive.And that’s why I won’t back away from crushing the head of the man kneeling in front of me with the end of my gun.That’s right. I went back to CDP.I thought it was the only place I could be fairly sane while I searched for Carrie.But what happens now that I’ve lost a great deal of my sanity? I guess I’ll just have to go with the flow of things and see if I’ll lose every other thing in my life.After all, it seems I’m about to lose Carrie.The grip I had on the man’s hair loosened and I staggered bac
( Trigger Warning for chapters ahead: Mild imagery related to miscarriage. Please take note.)CarrieA groan left my lips and I opened my eyes. My sight settled on an unfamiliar ceiling and for many seconds, I blinked furiously while my mind fell into deep confusion.The purely white ceiling also seemed to mess with my mind because I couldn’t bring myself to think about the last thing that happened to me. The more I racked my mind, the more a strange pain wrapped around my head.I also tried to move but nothing happened. I attempted calling for Alessandro, but my lips were unmovable, and my throat felt weird as well.So, all I could do was stare at the ceiling.But, minutes later, I discovered that my hearing sense was working quite fine when a rather manly footstep filled the room. Hearing that made me eager to move, I wished to know who the person was.The person decided to spare me the trouble.“Hello, Carrie.” The voice was familiar. “You are finally awake.” The person moved close
Carrie“What did you just say?” I rushed to the front door, my hands managing to push Alessandro to the side. I could not recognize the tall man I almost jammed chests with. “Who passed away? Which Mr. Edwards?”The man faced Alessandro. And I did the same.“Alessandro. What is he talking about? Who is dead?”Alessandro peeled his eyes off mine. “Calistus, grazie. Let’s talk some other time.”“Alessandro!” I stomped a foot on the ground. “Please…”With a hand, he hugged me from behind and closed the door. “Why are you trying to harm yourself? Relax, Carrie.”“How can I relax?” At this point, my eyes started to well tears because Alessandro’s hesitation was enough to tell that the mentioned Mr. Edwards was indeed my father. “My… My father is dead.”“Carrie…”“Don’t even lie to me. Don’t lie to me.”“Carrie…” He settled me on the nearest couch. Our eyes met and my lips wore an ugly expression while incoming tears bloated my throat.“It’s… It’s my father, isn’t it?” Alessandro sighed and
CarrieThree days later, we left the hotel and headed for our home, the modern bungalow that continues to take my breath each time I set my eyes on it.But as Alessandro drove to our destination, I noticed that he was quiet in a way that told me that he was already swimming in regret. I considered reaching for his hand to assure him that I will always be available for him to talk to, but it would be unwise to become a distraction while he’s driving.So, I adjusted my position and postponed my thoughts.“Carrie?”“Yes, Alessandro? Hmm.” I shook my head as though I just said something forbidden. “That’s wrong. Yes, my husband?”Alessandro could not hold back his loud laughter. It erupted in a way that instantly made my heart fly with joy.“Why is that so good to hear?” he asked.“Because it is the truth.” I brought my left hand to his face. “We are married. I am your wife and I am your husband.”His affection-filled eyes racked my body and I felt my cheeks flush, I almost bit into my li
CarrieAs I walked, a lovely piano sound filled the air and that helped me stay focused on Alessandro only.The man was not exactly smiling, but the gaze he carried held and drew me closer and closer until the distance between us was closed.“Hello, my flower,” he greeted once he took my arm off Eduardo’s.“Hello.” I sounded like a shy bride who was yet to know the ways of a marital bed.“You look absolutely beautiful.”“So do you.”He leaned closer and lowered his voice some more, “Your neck looks sexy.”My hairdo allowed a full exposure of my neck. I am aware that my neck is one of the sexiest features of my body, so I smiled knowingly at his sentence and if it were possible, I wished to have a kiss planted there.“Hmm…” The slightly aged man behind us cleared his throat. “I was informed that this is meant to be a short ceremony, so we will keep it short.” He eyed Alessandro and me till we took a few steps away from each other. “Dearly beloved, we gathered on this fine day to celebr
CarrieTrue to Alessandro’s words, our wedding was slated to be held a week after the proposal. And after many hours of rigorous preparation for what was meant to be a lowkey wedding, the morning of our new start arrived and I woke up feeling extremely nervous.And things got worse when I looked down at the outdoor wedding setup from the window of the small hotel we booked. And it became extremely worse when I took a look around my room and realised that I was alone with my simple wedding gown hanging on a grand rack opposite my bed.I know that I have been alone for a while, but at this moment when I am sitting down on my bed and staring at my gown, it hits me more and more that I am really by myself. I don’t even have anyone to walk me down the aisle.I at least had my Uncle for the first wedding.But then, I can hold a side of my stomach and imagine my baby is walking me down the aisle as I proceed to marry his or her father.I do wonder if my child will be a boy or a girl.“Sister