Pero nagkakamali sya. Hindi mapipigilan nang nakalock na pinto nayan ang will ni Astria na makita ang binata.Dahan-dahan nalang na napalinga si Astria sa window bed nya, kung saan doon sana ang backup plan nya.Wala syang choice, kinakabahan man at natatakot sa gagawin but…That's the only exit she can take.Ilang minuto pa matapos niyang magtext sa dalaga, nakarating na si Cairan sa tapat ng gate nang villages nila Astria.Nakasanayan na nyang dito huminto at mag park dahil sa dalaga.Napatingin sya sa relo nya, halos magaalas-dose na. Wala nang masyadong tao sa labas ni-isa, maski ang guard na dapat nasa guardhouse malapit sa gate ay wala, mukhang rumoronda eto. May mga kakaunting sasakyan rin naman ang padaan-daan pero hinayaan lamang eto ni Cairan at tahimik na nag-aantay sa dalaga.Sa totoo lang, nag-aalangan si Cairan kung ipapasok paba sa kaloob-looban ng village ang sasakyan nya para sunduin lamang si Astria.Makakalabas kaya eto? papaano naman, hays.Nag-aalangan talaga sya
Five words pero grabe ang dalang kilig neto kay Astria. We all know that girls really like being praised by their love ones, isa pa alam naman nating lahat nang babae gusto maganda sila sa paningin nang gusto nila.Nakatakip na lamang si Astria at napayuko.Is He joking?He seemed to have seen all kinds of her ugly looks… lagi nalang.Argh nakakahiya.“Does it hurt?” puno nang lambing at pagiingat ang tono neto kasabay nang marahang pagsilip ni Astria ay ang paglinga rin ni Cairan dahilan upang magtama ang mga mata nila.Dahil sa gulat ay napatago ulit si Astria sabay sabing “H-hindi masyado”.“Alright” he uttered and maya maya pa ay bumagal na ang takbo nang sasakyan habang kumakaliwa eto.Napalinga tuloy si Astria sa paligid, papasok na pala sila sa parking lot nang isang ospital.Talaga ngang dinala sya ng binata sa ospital, apaka kulit.Habang nagtatanggal ng seatbelt ang dalaga ay nauna nang lumabas si Cairan.Gusto sanang maglakad magisa ni Astria at bubuksan na sana ang pinto u
Matapos syang resetahan nang ilang massaging oil at mga painkillers ay natapos na ang check up ni Astria. Buhat-buhat parin sya ni Cairan hanggang sa makalabas sila nang hospital o kahit papasok na sila nang hotel. But, damang-dama ni Astria ang mga tingin sakanila ng makapasok sila sa lobby. It was unusual— ofcourse pagtitinginan talaga sila, A man holding a woman in his strong and firm arms. What a romantic move, they might mistaken them as some actors acting for a movie. In embarrassment, Astria chose to bury her face in this man's shoulder. Trying hard to hide herself in the crowd's attention. Cairan didn't even bother to focus on the crowd's stares, dire-diretso lang sya sa paglalakad. What a nonchalant man. Her feet didn't touch the ground all the way in the elevator, ayaw talaga syang ibaba ng binata. “I-i can walk, sabi naman ni d-doc pwede ako maglakad. P-please put me down” she said in a shy and low tone while looking up para tingnan ang binata “Kanina mo p
Matapos makapaglinis ay nagbihis na si Astria at paika-ikang naglakad papalapit sa pintuan ng banyo. Nagulat sya dahil pagkabukas na pagkabukas nya ay nakasandal sa gilid ang binata at tila ba inaantay sya. Agad din naman nakabawi si Astria at naalala ang inis na nararamdaman sa binata kaya magsisimula na sana syang maglakad papalabas ng banyo nang bigla na lamang syang binuhat ng binata. Nanaman!? hindi naman sya baldado! “Hey! put me down!” Pagmamaktol ni Astria ngunit tila ba walang naririnig si Cairan, patuloy lang eto sa paglalakad papasok sa guest room na tila ba naging kwarto na ni Astria dahil sa dalas na naroon sya. He gently put her in the bed. Without saying anything. Talagang wala syang sasabihin? After what she did? She suddenly became anxious again seeing Cairan's broad back, lalabas na ata eto ng kwarto. No! “C-Cairan!” she uttered at kusang gumalaw ang mga kamay nya at napakapit sa laylayan ng damit nito, pulling it para di makalayo ang binata. Bak
Dahil sa pagiging lango ng dalaga sa kanilang mainit na paghahalikan, Astria unconsciously clasped her fingers in his making them hold each other's hand tightly. The atmosphere is getting hot kahit pa nakabukas naman ang Aircon nang kwarto, her heart beats so fast as if gusto na netong kumawala sa dibdib nya. She can't think straight, she was dizzy and can't even breathe because ayaw tantanan ni Cairan ang labi nya. His kisses become softened but after a minute it becomes aggressive again, he's deepening their kiss for the third time. Wala atang balak si Cairan na pakawalan ang mga labi ni Astria. Astria can't help but to softly moan unconsciously, she want to stopped it but she can't, kusa na etong lumalabas sa mga labi nya. After a moment, Cairan suddenly stopped. Astria took this as an opportunity to catch her breath. Akala nya tapos na ang binata ngunit napaiktad sya nang maramdaman ang hininga ng binata sa leeg nya. He just lowered his head… “Ah” she softly moan kasabay n
He almost give way on his desires, buti na lang talaga at nagawa nya pading kontrolin ang sarili nya. Kung hindi, ay hindi nya na alam ang kaya nyang gawin, he didn’t want to do anything that will make Astria mad. He needs to supress his urges, strengthen his self control and sanity. For sure things will be a long way to deal with. Makatapos ang halos ilang oras na pagibabaw ni Cairan sa dalaga ay napagpasyahan na nyang dumistansya rito, mas lalo lang syang nabubuhayan sa position nila at sa mga maliliit na pagkilos ng dalaga habang nakadagan sya. After getting away in Cairan’s embrace, dinapuan naman nang hiya si Astria na kanina’y walang mapaglagyan sa isip nya. ‘How can she do things like that!? So embarassing!’ utas ni Astria sa utak nya at napagpasyahang idukdok ang sarili sa unan. Surely her face right now is so red like a tomato. “Are you trying to suffocate yourself?” He playfully uttered matapos masaksihan ang ginawa ni Astria, his eyes lands on Astria’s nape and it was
That night, in his dream. As always, Astria was there but…The content of the dream is different.In that dream, He was with Astria. In a foreign place, in one bed.He's on top of her, Astria trembled in his arms and looking at him pitifully. And then he heard her voice as he wished.Moaning his name.Mukhang eto na ang simula nang isang magandang panaginip, ngunit napaka-torturous.Nang magising sya, hindi na nakakapagtaka ang bubungad sakanya.He was so damn hard.and wet. For godsake, it was just a dream but he was so damn aroused to the point na nagkapre-cūm pa sya.Napabuntong hininga na lamang si Cairan, matapos ay napagpasyahang maligo.Maybe it will die down, but before anything else. Nagpunta muna sya sa veranda at nanigarilo.He now needs to admit that Astria is special to him, not just some random girl who barges into his life.He suddenly considers going back to the Philippines just to see her.Lol.Matapos ang ilang buwan, semestral break na nila Astria— She was in her
They even had this ridiculous arranged marriage that the adults always talk about lalo na ang lolo niya na gustong gusto si Astria. And now, slowly they started to get matured and become adults but still maganda parin ang relasyon nila, they always stick together like in their childhood kaya naman hindi na nakakapagtaka kung mauwi ang lahat sa kasalanan. Ngayon, naguguluhan sya hindi nya maintindihan ang sarili. Was he betrayed by those dreams to make him impulsively come back here kahit na alam nya namang wala syang babalikan? Did he come back here just to watch her from afar… A girl that didn't belong to him, a girl that he can never think that will belong to him. Let's say she's just a glimpse of light na panandaliang inilawan ang madilim nyang buhay na nagbigay sakanya nang grabeng ilusyon. Bigla nya tuloy naalala ang mga pusa sa damuhan doon sa park. Like those pitiful cat, ganon din sya sa paningin ni Astria. She would pity him, give charity to when kung masaya man sya
Hindi na nakapagpigil pa si Astella, she broke down and rushed towards Roy para paghahampasin eto, she didn't even care kung gaganti si Roy sakanya. Ang bawat hampas ni Astella ay talagang tumatama kay Roy, magaan lang ang kamay neto ngunit ang mga kuko ni Astella ay sumabit sa balat ni Roy dahilan upang magkasugat at magdugo."You! how dare you uttered those words! hindi lang ikaw ang nawalan Roy, ako rin. Anak ko rin yon! Wala kang konsensya! Hindi ikaw ang pinaka nasaktan rito, ako yon Roy, ako! I carried that baby for Eight months! Pero ano bang alam mo!? eh bobo ka naman. You kept looking down on Us women pero tingnan mo yang sarili mo ngayon Roy, samin ka umaasa— kaming ng anak mong babae, umaasa na isasalba namin ang kumpanya mo! then whose the useless here? You're relying on woman for everything now. Sinong mas walang kwenta satin?" puno ng galit ang mga kataga ni Astella at patuloy na hinahampas at kinakalmot si Roy.Nagulat naman si Roy sa inaasta ni Astella, she looks like
"Hindi naman, sabi nang doctor ay baka daw binubog sya because of her bruises and pasa sa mga katawan nya kanina nang icheck sya ng mga doctor, her face is swollen. Kaya naman may mga nainfect at namaga na mga sugat that cause her fever right now" Saad ni Cia at mariing napapikit, hindi sya makapaniwala na kaya ng tito Roy nyang magawa ang ganong bagay.Hindi naman makapaniwala si Astria.Don't tell me.... binugbog ni Roy ang mommy nya!? Hindi sya nakapaniwala, naaawa sya sa kanyang mommy...Wala na syang pake."Send me the location kung saan sya nakaadmit ngayon" tanging sambit na lamang ni Astria.Cian took this as an opportunity for her to unblocked him."Unblocked me first, isheshare location ko sayo" seryosong saad pa ni Cian.Napakunot noo na lamang si Astria, she knew that Cian is taking this happening as an opportunity to be unblocked, pero wala syang magagawa. She needs to go kung nasaan ang monmy nya."Okay" saad ni Astria at ibinaba ang tawag.Si Astella naman ay nasa isa
He really achieved a lot kaya proud na proud si Astria, ilang taon lang ang tanda sakanya ni Cairan pero napromote na eto bilang isang director."Got slam? what does it mean?" seryosong tanong ni Cairan at nakakunot pa ang noo.So cute, he's so clueless. Pigil ngiti na lamang si Astria dahil sa cuteness ng binata. Bahala sya mag-isip."You're a techy, Use your 4g Internet" pigil tawang saad ni Astria."I use 5g" sagot naman neto at napaseryoso, hindi ba tuloy nakapagpigil pa si Cairan at napatawa na lamang dahil sa binata.Gulong gulo naman si Cairan at hindi alam ang nangyayari sa kasintahan.Matapos pa ang ilang minuto ay huminto rin si Astria sa kakatawa "Sige na, baka malate ka pa sa pasok mo" pagpapaalala ni Astria at kinuha ang coat nya na nakasabit sa stand."Ah, oo nga pala" Cairan completely forgot na aalis pala sya dahil sa kasintahan.Kaya naman sinuot na ng binata ang coat nya at pumasok sa study upang kumuha ng ilang papeles na inuwi nya pati ang laptop ay kinuha nya rin
Astria woke up in her man's arm, napatitig nalang sya sa maamo netong mukha. After their talk na halos mag-iisang linggo narin ang nakalipas, their life began to be peace. It seems that they really communicate so well, ngayon ay halos malaya na sila, they even communicate when things get hard such as everytime na tinatawagan ng Psychiatric si Cairan because of his mom. Every time he go, sinasabi na nya sa dalaga... but still hindi pa sya neto sinasama and Astria understand why. He didn't want to shock her.And she respect that at hinayaang maging ready ang binata, she didn't rushed him.Anyway, simula din ng araw na iyon ay halos magkatabi na silang matulog dalawa gabi-gabi. Maybe their fight brings them closure to each other, kagabi kasi ay halos nagkwentuhan lang sila nang mga bagay bagay hanggang sa tuluyan na silang nakatulog."Done staring yet?" nagulat si Astria dahil lumingat lang sya para sana tingnan ang oras nang biglang magsalita ang binata at nagmulat ng mata.What!? he
He lift her up at dinala na kama.Kumalma naman sya ng ibinaba sya ng binata sa kama.Niyakap naman sya ng binata, hinalika ang kanyang noo, tungko ng ilong, at ang kanyang mga pisnge nang ilang beses ang ulit.Astria just stretched out her hands and touched the man's chest, dahil nga sa init kanina ay pinagpawisan silang pareho. Cairan's skin is kinda sticky from sweat but she didn't feel disgusted at all.It was the result of their burning love.She even leaned deeper unto his arms. Hanggang sa napahinto sya at tahimik na dumistansya papalayo sa katawan ng binata.He didn't seems to calm down yet.She's lost in thoughts ng magsalita si Cairan "You didn't belive me?" he uttered."No..." nag-aalangang saad naman ni Astria. She even bit her lips and for a moment, hindi na napigilan pa ang sarili at napatanong "Hindi ba uncomfortable pag ganyan?" pointing out about Cairans bonér."A little bit, but It's ok" sagot ni Cairan at ipinulupot sa dalaga ang kamay nya upang yakapin eto "Stop be
"It's done" he uttered at dahan-dahang nalakad papunta sa likod ni Astria "Ano bang sasabihin mo?"There was a rustling sound behind her earlier, as if a man was putting on clothes. Kaya naman nakahinga na sya ng maluwag. She concluded that the man is now dressed up, and was about to turn around.She was stunned.Cairan fooled her, hindi pa sya nakadamit at nananatiling topless... and ang worse ay ilang dangkal na lamang ang layo ng binata sakanya.Sobrang lapit... she can even feel his breathing!One deep breathe at amoy na amoy ni Astria ang binata, he's signature cool and woody scent is lingering into her nose."H-hoy! I-ikaw!" she stuttered so much, hindi nagpaprocess ang utak ni Astria dahil sa hiya, as if her brain stopped working.After lot's of courage, she finally turn around para tumalikod ulit sa binata at akmang bubuksan na ang pinto para makatakas sya sa napakadaring na posisyon nila ng nobyo...However, Cairan was fast. Nanotice nya ang balak gawin ng dalaga kaya naman a
Halos naiiyak ang mga mata ni Astria after realizing their miscommunication, she realized that both of them are really novice when it comes to dating. They have been walking on a thin ice and very very careful not to hurt each other... but those moves brings a miscommunication to them.They should have talked to that like what they're doing right now."You can always be here, I told you that already. My door is always open for you" he quickly said at lumapit sa kasintahan.He cupped her both cheeks at gamit ang hinlalaki nya ay pinunasan neto ang mga luhang tumatakas mula sa mata ni Astria."You can live here, Whenever you want, even if it's forever. No it's better if Forever nga" he uttered and softly planted kisses on her face "Well, kung ayaw mo naman rito sa hotel. We can buy a house?" suggest pa ni Cairan, napatango-tango nalang si Astria na puno nang luha ang nga mata.She's relieved that they fixed their conflict.Maybe in future, they will have a home together.After their he
But he can't do that, it will be their problem kung pipilitin nya ang dalagang dumipende sakanya. Tama si Astria, it was their first time being in love and things might get messy, even how to get along in intimacy might be new to them. they need to take their time to adjust for those foreign things. Matapos ang ilang minuto, nagsalita na si Cairan. "I don't think that you're useless or pabigat ok? All I need is you here with me, that's all enough" seryosong saad ni Cairan sa dalaga. He's always been alone sa halos di na nya mabilang na taon, he often feels lonely kahit na nasa madami syang tao o kahit nasa circle of friends nya sya. Those people na akala nya ang magiging closest persons or family nya ay sila pa talaga ang nanakit sakanya. For him, not leaving, abandonubg or giving up is already precious to him. Parang naiintindihan narin ni Astria ang lahat, on why he's cold earlier and now saying na all he needs is her with him. He's ok with everything hanggat magkasama sila.
Dahilan upang mapahinto si Cairan. She walked papalapit sa binata na ngayo'y tahimik. Astria took a deep breath tila ba naghahanap ng lakas ng loob. And then, She reached him and hug him out of nowhere.Nagulat naman si Cairan sa ginawa ni Astria, kaya naman ibinaba nya ang ulo nya and this time he spoke in a lower tone "What's wrong?"Astria just hug him tighter, her ears are against in his chest and she could clearly hear his heartbeat."I-I just want to hug you" she uttered in a soft voice, bihira lang kay Astria ang maglakas-loob at mag-initiate nang daring na bagay such us kisses or even hugs kaya naman hindi eto inaasahan ni Cairan at hindi agad nakareact.She felt very uneasy ngayon dahil sa mga pagbabago sa binata and she really want to do something to comfort him kaso ang problema lang talaga ay hindi nya alam kung papaano.Only hugging ang tanging naiisip ni Astria kaya naman, she hugged him tight so that she can make him feel better.Tahimik lang si Cairan nang halos ilan