chapter 3

The kiss sent shivers down my body I meant what I said this is the most intimate I have gotten in 4 years. He trails his hands down my body he ends up on my butt. He squeezes it and pick me up making me squeal, he places me on a counter his hand going to my waist.

His hands moved up my body and he squeezes my breast, I arch my back and moan into his mouth. He took the chance and shoved his tongue into my mouth. We explored each other's mouth savoring each other.

My hands trails up and down his chest touching him how I couldn't for 4 years. My hands trail down to his sweats that he changed into. His hands trailed down to my shorts.

I start to rub him through his sweatpants, he lets out a low grow before pressing on my clit. My head falls back and he starts kissing down my neck.

He starts to rub my clit through my underwear, he had pushed my shorts aside. I already felt a knot tightening in my stomach. I needed this.

I slip my hand into his sweatpants and rub his cock up and down faster, he felt bigger then last time. He bites on my neck lightly. God he can still make my body fell on fire.

He moves my panties aside, he can feel the wetness poling out of me. He coats his finger in it then pulls away completely smirking at me when I whine out. He sticks his finger in his mouth and sucks on them.

"Delicious as always."

I blush a beep shade of red. He takes my hand out of his pants and kneels down in front of me so I'm looking down at a smirking face.

He licks up my slit once making me want more. I arch towards him wanting friction. He attaches his lip to my clit while one of his fingers plays with my entrance.

My head falls back and I cover my mouth with my hand so I don't wake Ella up. He nudges my clit with his tongue. I let out a whimper.

"Is my baby needy, do you want to cum?" He asks, and I nodded my head.

"I need words"

I take my hand off my mouth "yes please"

He attaches his lips to my clit sucking roughly and at the same time he pushes his middle finger in my entrance. I lout out a moan louder then expect.

He enters a second finger in me, I clench around his fingers. He pushes his fingers in and out hard. He takes his mouth off me and uses his thumb to rub my clit. He kisses up my neck to my lips. I can taste myself on his lips.

His lips trail back down my neck, he takes off my shirt so I'm only in my bra. He uncoils by bra and it falls down to the floor. His mouth raps around my nipple and starts sucking and bitting it while his other had squeezes as a rubs my other nipple.

"Please" I say

"Please what" he has a smirk on his face.

He rubs my clit faster and pushes his fingers in harder. "Please can I come." I let out a moan after the words come out.

He brings his face back down to my pussy. "Fine your gonna cum on my face" he takes his fingers out and pushes his tongue in and out.

I cum on his mouth and he slurps up every last thing. But he doesn't stop he keeps sucking and licking my clit harshly. My legs start to shake and I try to close my legs but he holds them open.

"It's t-to much" my words come out shaky.

"Your gonna take it like a good girl ok."

I just nod my head. God he's gonna kill me. My clits so sensitive when he sucks harder I can't help but let out moans. It's not long before I'm cumming again this time I let out a loud moan, I slap my hand over my mouth to muffle the rest.

This time he comes up and looks at my flushed face.

"We should take a shower" WE I know he won't keep his hand to himself and I don't know if I can take anymore.

"Umm..." I try to say something but he picks up my cloths and then throws me over his shoulder and starts to walk up the stairs.

"Let me down" I say while hitting his back.

"No"

He opens my bedroom boot and walks to the bathroom. He sets me down on the counter.

"Now shower I'm going to go shower in the other bathroom." He then leaves.

I showered did my hair and was in my robe and I am walking out to change into my pajamas. I was now in a lace shorts set. There was no water running so kade was out of the shower. I wonder where he is?

I walk downstairs and see him setting up the couch to sleep on. He has his shirt off and his muscular back towards me.

"What are you doing?" I ask

He turns and sees me "I'm setting up my bed"

"No, your sleeping with me after what just happened. Plus Ella would ask questions about why your sleeping on the couch."

"Ok" he packs his stuff up and follows me upstairs.

He puts his stuff down in a corner and walks over to me. I'm standing over the bed just looking at it, it's been so long since I shared a bed with a man.

He hugs me from behind. "Are we going to get in the bed or just stare at it?" I smile at his comment.

"Yes, come on Ella gets up early."

We got into bed and I tried to be on one side and him on one but he wasn't having it. He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me to his chest. My butt now pleased against his cock.

"That's better" he says and I giggle.

We where both falling asleep when his phone rings, I know it's not mine because I left it downstairs.

"Yes" kade answers the person, I'm eased on my elbows looking at him.

The person talks for a little. He muscles tense and he says. "No that won't work I'm with important people I can't leave"

Kade and the person talk for some time before he says. "Ok" and hangs up.

He comes back and cuddles back up to me.

"How long till you leave?" I ask

"4 days" he answers

"Will you come back to us?"

"I will never leave you again."

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We fell asleep after our little conversation. I was woke today by the sun hitting my face. I am still in Kade's arms so it's hard to move but I manage to turn around so I'm facing him.

He looks so peaceful, the sun is hitting half of his face. I start to stroke his face, his skin is so smooth I could watch him forever.

"Enjoying the view darling?" His morning voice is raspy and deeper then usual.

"In fact I am." I tell him

His hand rubs up and down my side. I could fall back asleep he is so calming.

"What time is it?" He ask

"A little after 7"

He just nods "what are we doing today?"

"We could go to the beach" I say

"Ya that sounds nice"

"Perfect Ella loved the beach" I tell him.

"What was she like as a kid?" He asks

"I have videos of every important thing do you want to see?" I ask

"Ya"

"Ok come on my phones downstairs."

We go down the stares I hold his hand on the way down. I see my phone on the contort, I open it up and got the the album scrolling to the fist video of Ella.

"Here just scroll through" I walk away and look I'm the fridge contemplating what to make and what we should bring to the beach.

I turn around and see Kade has glossy eyes. Seeing this is making my heart break, I never thought of how me leave would affect him.

I walk to him and stand beside him, he made it to Ellas first birthday. I put my hand on his shoulder and rub his arm up and down for comfort.

"I'm so sorry I took this away from you" I tell him. I am really sorry that he didn't get to see her through the years but I wouldn't change it.

"I know you are, you where and are doing what's best for our daughter." He tells me.

He watches through more videos, Ella walking, Ellas first teeth, her birthdays and so forth. It's around 8:00 when we hear light foot steps coming down the stairs. I turned my head to see Ella in pjs with her stuffed giraffe.

Kade didn't notice her he's engrossed in the videos.

"What are you watching?" Ella asks

Kade turns his head at her voice. "Videos of you growing up"

She climbs on a stool and watches with kade.

"You didn't tell me you took these mommy"

"I didn't want a camera to distract you."

She didn't say anything else she just watches the videos silently. Her head is propped up on heads with her elbows on the counter. I start to make eggs and toast for breakfast.

They watch the videos silently while I get the food ready. The videos all finish when I'm done with there food.

"Your foods ready"

"Thanks" they say at the same time.

"So Ella me and your daddy where talking and we thought it would be nice to go to the beach for a little. How does that sound?"

"Oh that would be so fun, and can daddy swim with me?"

"Yes of course I can" kade answered her.

She ate quickly and the hoped down from her stole and raced up stairs to change into her swimsuit.

"I should hate you" kade whispered but loud enough for me to hear.

"Yes you should" I knew he should, I hope he didn't.

"But I can't" he sounded broken.

"Why not?" How could I not ask

"Because-"

He's interrupted by our daughter "mommy daddy I'm ready!"

"Ok baby mommy and daddy have to go get dressed wait here" we the. Walk back up to my room and got dressed. Before we went out I turned around and told kade.

"That conversation is not over." He just nods and we walk down to get Ella and go to the beach.

We only brought snacks because we didn't plan to stay the whole day. I wonder what was after that 'because', I wonder if I wanted to know.

"Let's go into the water" Ella says looking up at us with a smiley face.

"Of course lest get you into your swimmers so we can go out farther today, how dose that sound?"

"Yess!" She's so happy.

We go out in the water, kade has no problem standing but in on my tiptoes. Ella is going around I circles she has been nothing but smiles since kade got here.

"Can you stand?" Kade asked with a smirk.

"Yes" I said rolling my eyes.

He walked towards me, " on really"

"Mhm"

He then picked up up and throws me farther into the water like I'm the weight of a feather. I come up for air gasping because I was not ready for that.

Ella sees me gasping and yells " I'll come save you mommy!" She comes over to me and drags me while I kick under water, to safety.

"How could you" I playfully slap Kade's chest.

"It was a perfect opportunity how could I not" he says looking down at me.

I splash him. Ella seas me do this and starts splashing him to. It's us against him until he goes under water and picks me and Ella up in his arms.

"My girls are really ganging up on me like that?" He ask mimicking fake shock.

I try to push away while saying "you deserve it"

"Ya what she said" Ella backs me up making a pouty face.

Kade and I laughs at Ellas cute little face.

"Fine if it's gonna be like that" he then throws us into the water. We come up laughing. Him being here feels right, I wish he could stay here forever.

"Attack!" Ella yells. I do just that

We slash kade and he splashed back for a while till we are all just laughing. We have been having the best time when we get your it's already 2:00pm.

"Let's go home and have some lunch" I say

The both say yes and kade picks up Ella and puts her On his shoulders. He has fit right into the father roll no problem.

We go home have lunch, play games all day, have dinner then Ella has her bath and is now in her bed sleeping. Im cleaning the kitchen when cold hands wrap around my waist and move to 'help' clean the dishes.

"What are you doing?"

"Helping" I laugh at that.

We finish up cleaning and go sit on the couch.

"What was after the because?" I ask.

"I was going to say because you are impossible to hate, you raised a beautiful daughter all by your self, you obviously won't ok but you had to make sure your daughter was ok so instead of admitting your pain you hid it."

"What happens now?" I don't want him to leave I want him to stay forever.

"Now? I don't know, I do back in 4 days and come visit when I can for as long as I can"

"What if Ella wants more" I don't want to admit to wanting more just yet.

"Like I said before I'll try to hand of responsibility to others. I will not lose you or Ella again. I will protect you both with everything I have." He puts his hand on my knee.

I'm just looking down, I don't know what to say.

"Is there a way out of the mafia?" I know there isn't but maybe it's changed.

"Come on you know the only way out is death" I just nod my head.

He places his finger cinder my chin lifting my head up to look at him. He's looking at me so deeply like he can see my soul.

"I won't lose you do you here me? I will take a bullet for you before anyone can hurt you."

"But what about you, I don't want you to die or get hurt because of me."

"Aww are you worried about me darling"

I shove him " of course I am"

"Good"

He leans down as kisses me. It's a soft kiss. I could get lost In the way he kissed. Both of his hands are on Esther side of my face.my hands and on his chest.

We kiss for what feels like hours. We breaks apart both panting for breath.

"We should go to bed" he says

I nod, I don't think I can form words right now.

We go shower and get dressed for bed. I am in bed right away but kade is talking on the phone pacing around the room.

He says stuff like "find it" "dose is sound like I'm joking" "don't make me regret this" I barely pay attention to what he is saying, he has his shirt off so I'm just admiring his abb's.

He finally got off the phone and came to bed. He didn't say anything just laid down next to me and hugged me to his chest so my face was in his neck. I fell asleep to his breathing and soft heartbeat.