Chapter 42 - Nathan

Do you know how humbling an experience it is to know that you are about to become a father?

You’re not just in charge of that child’s education. That I can handle. I do it everyday on the training field with the Elite. Granted those guys are chronologically older than my child will be, but mentally… We’ll just say that it’s like working with toddlers some days.

And those are the easy times.

But it’s not just the educating of the kid. It’s taking care of them on a daily basis. It’s making sure that they’re fed and dressed and clean. It’s helping them play with other kids and negotiating fights and dealing with crushes and bullies and heartbreak. It’s teaching them how to be a good person.

And how do I teach someone how to be a good person when I’ve been so horrible to my youngest brother?

Ryder has had a complicated life in our family. He came along a long time after Grey was born and we thought that our family was com