SARAH-
I don’t know when I fell asleep but saw my bedsheet wet from tears, I wept all night long and there was no one to comfort me. Usually my best friend, Tessa would miraculously call me at such times but today I didn’t hear anything from her. I grabbed my phone and it rang, it was Tessa and I smiled as her name popped on my screen.
“Girl, what took you so long to pick that shit up?” She said and I smiled horribly.
“Oh! Sorry I ran, 0.000000000001 milli-seconds late.” I said and forgot all my worries.
We’ve known each other for years now, she knew my situation and supported me every time. She would stop me while someone would ask me out but I never listened to her and ended up crying every time.
She would never look down on me or make fun of me saying, you should’ve taken my advice but only helped me getting through the hard times.
“I’m going to the salon, you should come. Uh! It’s not a request darling, bye-bye.” She said and hung up.
I didn’t even get the chance to say no, or show my unhappy face. Now, I had to go and God knows what’s gonna happen.
Tessa was about to pick me up and we would to go the salon, I’ve had enough of heart break and was done with my mother’s taunting. I'm done being innocent and naïve and would become the most selfish person on the earth who would only care for just I, me and myself.
I waited for Tessa usually she was always on time but was running late today, it was eighteenth today and I would be paid by my boss’, I worked part-time and would go to college on weekdays. I had to hide from my mother and snuck out early in the morning. I didn’t want her to catch me and I would have to start my day on the off-end.
“Where were you? I've been standing here since morning.” I said as I saw Tessa’s red sports car approaching towards me, perks of being a daughter of a business man.
“I lost track while watching Ninja Hattori.” She said and I knew she was very fond of cartoons but I never knew what she always talked about.
“What? What’s that? I only know Nobita.” I said as I've only seen Doraemon that too when I was a child.
“You know, in which Amara would disguise into an old lady and would fool Hattori, no? Doesn’t ring a bell?” she said again, she didn’t have any intention to stop and was persistent on explaining shit I'm not interested in.
“Stop, stop it. Ugh! My life sucks already.” I yelled as she talked about some random cartoon characters which were only rising my temper up.
She started laughing and I felt rage rushing in my veins. I wanted to punch the shit out of her but I just can’t hit my best friend.
“You can’t punch me, can you? Ha-ha-ha, never mind, today’s expense is on me.” She said and I smiled finally. She was the daughter of a rich businessman and would spend money like they meant nothing.
My mother would treat me nicely only in Tessa’s presence but Tessa was aware of her wickedness so she never fell for my mother’s cheap ticks. I was never friends with her for money, it’s just that she was like an angel to me and would rescue me from every disaster of my life.
“C’mon, let’s fix you inside” she said as stopped the car in front of the salon as we arrived at the destination.
Tessa insisted on my makeover and went outside to buy some clothes for me, everything was set up and my eyes went wide as I saw myself in the mirror. It became difficult for me to recognize myself as I never looked this good, no wonder I got dumped so many times.
My specs were gone and my outfit was on point, people were staring at me in awe as I myself was overwhelmed. Tessa paid her and we walked outside, I finally smiled after the past shitty days I've gone through. Tessa went to buy some drinks and I walked alone on the street.
“Owww” I yelled as I bumped into something while walking and all of my things fell on the floor.
I looked up and a huge man was standing right above my head, I could sense darkness all around him even though he wasn’t doing much. He turned around and smirked at me while continuously gazing at me with his mouth wide open.
“Sorry” I said and started picking my stuff. He pretended to be kind and helped me pick my things up but only gave me creeps.
He was simply staring at me and both of us stood up, I tried to take my things from him but he held onto them firmly, anger rushed in my veins but seeing the number of men surrounding him was terrifying.
“It’s mine, do you want them instead?” I said taunting him and he still chose to stay quiet.
“Sarah? C’mon. Let’s go” I heard Tessa shouting in my direction and I snatched whatever I could from his hands.
“What took you so long?” I ran towards her while keeping everything back into my bag and grabbed a cup of coffee from her hand.
“Who’s that? Tall, dark and handsome? Huh?” she said ridiculing me and I turned around to take a sneak peek.
He was still staring at me and I couldn’t understand what was wrong with him. He was holding my hairpin in his hands but I didn’t have the gut to go back and ask him for it, also I have the other one with me so that’s not an issue.
“I bumped into him, nothing else. Let’s go” I said and started walking.
“He’s smart though, don’t you think?” she said and gave me an evil laugh.
“No, he’s not. Don’t you see his bodyguard, he looks like a mafia.” I said while taking a sip, I used to love the Starbuck’s Hazelnut Bianco Latte and Tessa always knew what I favored.
We walked while talking what happened and she comforted with the best way possible, I didn’t tell her the incident where I kept my head on a stranger’s shoulder and he literally hugged me. She would’ve beaten the shit out of me. We sat in the car and it started to get dark.
“Let’s go to Holding’s wings.” Tessa suggested and I nodded in acceptance.
‘Holding’s wings’ was the famous bar across Delhi, we weren’t regular, but would go there some time, it was said that the mafia, Bar holding was the owner of the pub and people feared that man. The Holding’s were the known mafia and they lived as per their wish. I didn’t know about them a lot, but knew the basics and wasn’t interested much either.
We drove off and stopped in front of the bar. I for once felt confident about myself and stepped inside. We were giggling over nothing and walked inside. We drank a couple of drinks and moved onto the dance floor.
I wasn’t drunk yet and could see everything clearly, my phone rang and I saw my mother’s text to rush back home. I didn’t want to go or else she would beat me terrifically as she hasn’t received the money yet. That’s the reason I can think of, it’s not that she is worried for me.
I went to the bartender and ordered loads of vodka. Tessa was dancing with someone but who cares if she was having fun, I drank another shot of vodka. It was definitely helping and I was gradually losing my senses.
I drank shot after shot until my head started spinning, I went towards the dance floor and started dancing. I could hear people hooting for me, I knew how to dance and losing myself in alcohol only improved my moves. A huge crowd was gathered around me and I could feel boys touching my body.
I felt uncomfortable but didn’t have the strength to push them, I felt someone grabbing my hand and led me out of the crowd. I tried to resist but he had gripped his hand firmly and it became impossible to free myself.
“Leave me alone.” I yelled in a drunk voice and opened my eyes. He seemed familiar but I couldn’t remember where have I seen him. I tried to focus on his face and started touching his eyes and lips while he was standing still without letting me go.
“What were you doing? Didn’t you see the number of men walled around you?” he seemed angry and frustrated at me for some reason but I busy remembering who he was.
“I’ve seen you somewhere. Who are you? Where have I seen you?” I said again analyzing his feature and clung onto him. My fingers were on his face feeling what he looked like while my other hand was on his shoulder and I could feel the closeness between us.
“I was able to recognize you even after such a drastic change, but you are just too dumb.” He said and pressed his finger on my forehead to push me away from him.
“Huh? You like it, you know my friend over there told me to have a make-over and I became beautiful. Now, no one would ever dump me.” I said while finding Tessa in the crowd and again went closer to him.
“Why did you drink so much? You can’t even stand straight, what if someone takes advantage of you?” he said, while grabbing my hand. His voice was familiar but I couldn’t recall where have I seen him. The alcohol gets the best of me.
“No, I trust you…… you won’t let anyone do anything to me.” I said and smiled at him.
“Is that so?” he was shocked at first but finally spoke, he grabbed my hand and threw me in the crowd. I could again feel several hands on my body while he was simply staring at me.
I was dizzy and couldn’t think clearly as everything seemed blur and my body was only feeling uncomfortable seeing so many men around me. I felt tears dripping from my eyes and I shouted in irritation, I wasn’t leading anyone on but was crowded in the middle of hungry animals.
I looked at him and he wasn’t breaking the eye contact either, he was standing like a puppet who threw me into the fire. I felt my hands rising up and I punched one man out of frustration. I still wasn’t avoiding his eyes while I managed to stand up but got lead down again.
He finally strolled towards me, and glared at all men grabbing my hand and lead me out of the crowd, I wasn’t impressed because he the one who put me into that situation in the first place. Everyone scattered around as they saw him in anger and minded their own business, they might know who he is or were scared of him.
“Ugh, what a pain in the ass.” He said while taking me upstairs. He opened the door and we walked inside, I was shocked and couldn’t act until I got conscious enough and jerked his hand off.
“Leave me, don’t act like a saint now. I’m glad I don’t remember you.” I yelled at him and walked away from him. I guess he was the one I bumped into, early in the morning as I got the same creepy vibes.
“I just showed you the reality, where you can’t trust anyone.” He said and took a step in my direction.
“Why bother pulling me out of that mess then?” I said and walked another step away from him.
“Maybe because, I want something from you.” he said and took another step at me. I could feel where this was going and saw sweat trickling from my forehead.
“Just let me go.” I said and moved backwards, my back hit the wall and knew I've reached the dead end. I could run from this place and was too drunk to fight him. I saw this guy and remembered the darkness which was terrifying and I didn’t want to be with him another second.
“I haven’t even held you yet.” He said and got exceptionally close to me.
I could feel his scent and it felt similar, he wasn’t the guy I bumped into today but the guy whom I hugged yesterday. His calm scent dropped the fear rushing inside of me and I recalled what he looked like. I was slowly getting into my senses as his body got even closer to mine.
“You’re the guy, who hugged me yesterday.” I said while looking into his eyes and he finally moved back and sat on the bed with his legs crossed.
“You hugged me first, to be more precise.” He said and smirked at me. My mind hindered and was all over the placed as I smelled his scent and walked towards him.
“You’re still a jerk and I hate you for what you did.” I said while roaming around and stopped when I found a bottle of whiskey lying on the table.
“For embracing you or for taking you out of that crowd?” He said while checking me out.
“Maniac.” I said while sitting next to him and taking a sip from the bottle.
“Haven’t you had enough?” he said and snatched the bottle from my hand. He didn’t hesitate for a bit and drank it without minding me.
“That’s mine.” I said trying to snatch it back from him but he was too determined and didn’t want me to drink anymore.
“You’ve had enough, just go home.” He said while taking another sip of it. The whiskey never felt so tempting but now, I could even die for it.
I grabbed his ear and pinched him harder, I didn’t care what was his personality like, was he rude or serious and egocentric, it didn’t matter as I just wanted that bottle from him.
“Aww! Okay! Okay! I give up.” He said while raising his hands in the air and I thought he finally gave up. But instead drank another sip mocking me.
“Huh? You---” I got angry as he drank my whiskey and I sat on his lap and kissed him. He couldn’t gulp it down yet and I sucked it out of his mouth into mine. He was dumbfounded seeing me on top of him but I didn’t stop.
“Gross.” He said and pushed me away from him. I was looking at him while wiping my mouth and we didn’t break the eye contact.
We were continuously looking at each other and I gulped the remaining alcohol down and licked my lips lustfully. I don’t know what I was doing or why was I seducing him but I wanted him to endeavor me and I could feel him coming in my direction. I wanted to forget it all, all that I've been going though, all those break-ups and the taunting of my mom. The pain of getting dump again and again and getting cheated on frequently. No one could break me into pieces if there would be no strings attached.
He came close to me and I sense the sexual tension arising, he looked me in the eyes and then gazed at my lips as I bit them in nervousness. I could see the apprehension in his eyes of wanting it too. He leaned on and I was never this silent, I felt my heart pacing and my eyes stopped at his red lips. I could feel his breath as he got close to me and his hands covering my waist. He touched my lips and sucked onto them harder. I closed my eyes in no time as I felt his lips touching mine. He looked at me again asking for the permission and I nodded. He grabbed my waist firmly and pulled me closer to his body.
He started kissing me and I was going insane every time he would bite my lips. I wrapped my hands around his shoulder but soon he parted them and started kissing my neck, I covered my mouth with my hands to suppress my moans and closed my eyes. I felt goosebumps by his touch and he whispered in my ear and I didn’t care where the bottle was but focused on his hands going down.
“I want to hear you moan. Remove your hands.”
BIBLE- “What are you thinking? You seem to be in a good mood today.” Harvey said, and I realized I was smiling unusually while looking at the hairpin I stole from the girl I slept with last night. Harvey Darke was the only friend I had and who seemed sane in this mansion, I met him when I was on a mission and had to kill his boss, he was forced to work with him and I rescued him from that damnation. Many people objected this decision of mine as I shouldn’t keep the enemy’s men with me and people used to hate him, but I overlooked them and since then we’ve been friends. We were sitting in the garden and drinking apple juice as sun was right on top of our head, I used to love it and he was there to give me company. We weren’t talking but were enjoying our time and I recalled what happened last night. That strange girl whom I couldn’t forget, the way she acted innocent in one second and seductive in another. I evoked how she led me on and it became impossible to contain myself, I wa
SARAH- I woke up finding my body on him, I looked around and recalled what happened last night, I buried my face on his bare chest in embarrassment and saw my hairpin in his hands. His one hand was under my head while the one was on my waist holding the hairpin. I tried to take it from him but his grip was really tight. I grabbed his hand while looking at his watch and realized it was very late to leave now, I shouldn’t be roaming out on the streets at 3 in the morning and looked at him sleeping. I couldn’t take my eyes off of his pretty face, a good thing he didn’t snore or else it would’ve been my end. I looked down realizing we were naked and tried finding my clothes which were scattered everywhere and this guy didn’t have any intention of letting me go. I pulled the blanket to hide myself and snatched it from him, now he was exposed and I closed my eyes being ashamed on myself and slightly covered his manhood with one corner of the blanket. I stared at his face for a while ad
Sarah- My lips contacted his chest and my eyes went wide as he drew nearer to my body. Our eyes met and we were inches apart, his scent made me go crazy and anything could happen the next minute and I won’t be held responsible for that. He kept on giving me a strong stare and swirled his tongue around his lips while my eyes were fixated at his chest. He was the man who kidnapped me, but is now treating my wounds and I didn’t know what to feel anymore. He was simply looking at my face and I gulped hard not knowing what to do next. My heart was racing faster as his breath fell on me making my body stiff and I couldn’t move it anymore. His scent made me lose whatever sanity I had left and I ignored all the logics that could stop me. My hands moved automatically towards his back making him look at me. It wasn’t me, because I would never take the first step, but with him it’s always me who’s initiating everything, and take things on whole new level. I remember what I did last night,
BIBLE- [“I want to hear you moan. Remove your hands.” I whispered in her ear and went towards her neck until I made it red while still choosing to cover her mouth with my hands not knowing a little bit that it was only turning me on as I laid my eyes on her irresistible body, I had access to every inch of it. I was losing my mind at how disobedient she was, I was used to girls who’d follow my orders but this time it was different and my demons were begging to unleash. I grabbed her hands while locking them with mine and banged them on the bed. Her mouth was wide open as she couldn’t resist my power and sucked her lips inside in attempt to block my kiss. “Ha-ha-ha, what a--- are you doing?” I couldn’t think if I should be angry or laugh at her cuteness, as a chuckle left from my mouth. I was smiling ear to ear as she was being a rebel when she was the one who took the initiative by kissing me first, not to mention in a weird way. “I won’t listen to you.” she said and again closed h
Bible- “She is missing, your girl escaped” said Harvey while running in my direction and I stood up abruptly. Who knew taking her out could be so chaotic? “What the fuck are you doing?” I yelled in anger as I was running while he kept on looking at the floor with his shoes in his hands. “My socks, I can’t find them” he said crawling on the floor, I could only see his death in the next few seconds. “Fuck you Harvey, you don’t wear socks.” I said slamming my hand on the table and he looked up at me in shock. “Oh, right” he said scratching his head in foolishness and both of us strolled downstairs. We were here to buy something for her and Harvey has an unusual habit of making this showroom his own personal area where he could relax. I asked Theo to bring my car and all three of us drove off, Theo was driving and I ordered him to speed up. She left the mall a few minutes ago and couldn’t go far, all of us kept on looking outside to find her and I got down from the car as I grew imp
Sarah- “Get ready we’ll be going somewhere, tomorrow” He spoke and I looked at him with surprise, I didn’t want to go anywhere with that jerk for the obvious reasons. “I won’t go anywhere with you” I spoke while standing up from the bed, but I guess my response was expected as he didn’t have any reaction on his face. “I wasn’t asking.” He spoke and threw a bunch of clothes on my face and walked away, it took me a minute or two until a thought suddenly hindered my mind. I stood up with a huge smile on my face as I would get to run once, I’m outside thus residence. The number of guards would be less and I’ll escape when I’m out of their sight. I sleep peacefully that night expecting that I would get to escape this hellhole, although my back was aching but his massage really helped me. He dug his own grave by treating me as now I will leave this place. I wasn’t even aware why I was in here in the first place, it’s not like I stole something from him, I didn’t hit him either and hav
Bible- “Let’s go back home.” I spoke and both of us sat in car while Theo and Harvey just followed, all the time she kept on looking outside the window not matching eyes with me and I heard her cried in a low voice. I knew what she was going through but didn’t have any idea what it feels like to be abandoned by your own mother. I placed my hand on her head assuring her that I'm with her through highs and lows, I kept on caressing it until she noticed it and looked at me with fury in her eyes. Although, my only intention was to make her feel loved, I think I still managed to ruin it as I saw her lifting her hand up in the air and in no time, it contacted my cheek. I felt anger rushing in my veins as no one ever had the audacity to harm me and stay alive after that. This seemed such an insult to my existence and I pushed her back towards the window. I couldn’t think rationally as the rage inside of me was ruining my ability to understand. I grabbed her face and my nails dug inside
Sarah- I was hungry as I hadn’t eaten anything yesterday, it would be very strange of me to walk around in someone else’s house but I need strength to fight them and I can’t function until I've eaten something. They were huge and a girl like me was no match for them, I’ll escape from this place somehow but all I could focus on was the food that I had to eat in order to survive. I stood up and saw my arms covered with bandages, these bastards knew about treating someone’s wound? This doesn’t make them saint, does it? He literally gave my mother money in exchange of me, I walked towards the bathroom and washed my face removing sleep from my eyes. I then, looked at myself in the mirror and saw a dark blue night suit on my body, panic rushed in my veins as I didn’t know what happened last night. Someone changed my outfit while I was unconscious and the only person, I thought of was the bastard whom I slept with. I quickly took a shower and threw his manly clothes outside and started j
HARVEY-“Tessa, can you listen to me”“No, I don’t want to”“Tessa… I love you” I spoke giving up and she finally stopped. Last night was hectic and I drank a lot, we never got to talk about our kiss but what I did yesterday made her angry.“Go love that whore” she replied in anger.“I was trying to make you jealous; I didn’t even touch her, it was just a few glasses and nothing else” I was explaining myself but I knew the way she reacted, she feels something for me too.“I don’t get jealous for jerks like you, let me be” she spoke again and started leaving, I ran picking her up in my arms and jumped into the pool. “What are you doing, leave me” she spoke but I didn’t give her any chance to fight.I pressed my lips onto hers and she began hitting me with all her might, we were wet and I was losing it, a devil like Bible is on the verge of getting married while a saint like me hasn’t even expressed my feelings for the girl I love.She stopped hitting and the forced kiss turned into a p
BIBLE-“Yes, who are you?”“Uh! I'm Mason… Mason Chester” I couldn’t believe my ear and felt a huge shock taking me back to my misery, I looked at Harvey who didn’t even have the courage to look back into mine.Sarah was standing right beside who didn’t have any idea about my past, my surname. The other day, Harvey and I talked about if I wanted to see my real father and I clearly said no, the surname Chester was the indication that he was m---my father.“W---what happened? Who is he?” she asked grabbing my elbow slowly caressing it with his thumb, she sensed it too but I was dumbstruck not know what to say.“I'm sorry… but I couldn’t let him leave since he wanted to talk” Harvey explained himself, it’s not how this is supposed to happen. I'm finally happy with my life and I need no more drama.“Bible…”“Bible Holding” I corrected him even though I remember that my mother was never married to him, then why did she write her surname as Chester? “Please show him the way out” I spoke loo
SARAH-“You disappointed me, you chose to live with someone who killed your father. You chose him over me…”“What the fuck Hardin, stop the car” I yelled not getting scared of the gun aiming in my direction. “You know what, I'm so done with your abduction tricks, it just never gets old does it?” I roared not losing my calm.“Little Sarah has finally grown up…” Hardin mocked me and I felt anger pulsating in my veins. I placed my hand on the gun and pressed the magazine releasing it with my thumb, Amias taught me how to disassemble a gun and surprisingly I became master in it. I pull the slide back and locked it open with the slide stop lever.He taught me that once, the slide is open, look into the chamber and ensure that no ammunition remains in the gun. It was open in no time leaving Hardin and his partner in shock. “If I know how to destroy it, I very well know how to use it as well. Stop the car before I define the word terror in detail”Words automatically fell from my mouth, I kn
BIBLE-“Where’s Sarah?” I rang the bell and the old lady opened the door while I was expecting Sarah to run into my arms with a broad smile on her face.“What do you mean? Didn’t you send someone to pick her up?” she said and my mind went blank, this isn’t what I was expecting. “Are you kidding me? If this is some sort of joke, please don’t do this.” I spoke not caring about the honorifics.“Sarah! Come out, don’t mess with me” I yelled not believing her words, it might be some sort of joke just to piss me off. I waited for her to come. “Sarah… I'm starting to get angry” I roared again but no response while her mother was only looking at me in shock.“I'm telling you; you asked your man to pick her up.”“What do you mean? Didn’t I say, I’d be coming here?” I ran inside and found nothing; I called Harvey to know if he had sent someone in my place, but he clearly said no.I thought Bar had learnt his lesson but he clearly doesn’t want our mercy, I’m just too tired with his stubbornness.
SARAH-“Do you wanna stay?” he asked as I was cutting my pork dropping all the battle happening between them. He knew I would like to stay since I’ve finally found my mother.“Can I come back home tomorrow?” I asked him politely and he smiled at me in agreement. We finished eating and he stood up leaving. “Wait… already?” I asked while turning and he nodded.“I’ve got to deal with something, it’s already late” he spoke coming closer to me, my mom was sitting right around the corner so I prayed that he shouldn’t kiss me. Or else, she’s gonna talk about this all the time.I eyed him saying no as I saw him leaning forward, it was slow to notice his actions but too fast to dodge the kiss. I looked at my mother eyeing us from the corner of my eyes until he suddenly kissed my forehead. “I'm saving that one for later”He slowly whispered into my ears making me smile like a joker, I pushed him away concealing my smile from both of them but failed and he started leaving. “Wait…” my mother stoo
BIBLE-Since the day when she left without giving me the answers, I lost it. I didn’t hate her but couldn’t find the courage to talk to her about that. I tried to focus on everything but her, I couldn’t, knowing that I'm vulnerable around her.I tried to talk but couldn’t muster up the courage anymore, I would go to work and end up shooting someone in the spur of the moment, Harvey tried to talk it through but I failed. I couldn’t process anything anymore and just simply wanted to get the torture towards the end.I started killing people, ruthlessly and far worse than what Bar used to do. The vow I took of not killing anyone just vanished into thin air, my ten-year-old self would be hating me now as I broke the promise, but promises are meant to be broken.Some were happy and cheering me for the way I was becoming while some who were closed to me got really scared. I got praises as I was maintaining the fear the Holdings have always held on everyone. It was enough to calm me down but
SARAH-He woke up early and I didn’t find him near me as sunlight hit my eyes waking me up. It looked at the time and it was eight in the morning; he wouldn’t have left and I believed he’d come back to take a shower.I got up and washed my face, last night I couldn’t talk to him, he was in pain but I was glad he came to me even though he was unconscious, his inner self calls and yearns for me, I wouldn’t want to ruin this relationship.I heard someone opening the door while I had soap in my eyes, “Bible? Is that you?” I asked walking out of the bathroom. “Hey! Watch out…” I heard him roar all of a sudden and bumped into the wall in front of me, where did that come from, I felt his steps running in my direction and he quickly took me inside in order to wash my face.I felt the tingling sensation near my temple and looked up in the mirror, “It’s bleeding…” I looked at him through the mirror and he scoffed at my reaction slowly taking the first aid kit outside.He held my hand making me
SARAH-We were drifting apart, slowly, but I could see it. the distance between us was suddenly so huge that I couldn’t cover it or cope up with the anxiety coming with it. things had changed so dramatically as whenever I'm sleeping, he would simply come to check on me for once and leave.He didn’t talk to me after that, not that he never tried but got caught off guard that morning, we were sleeping in separate rooms for days now, and more I think about this being a normal thing it just never made sense.He wasn’t angry, he was just… wasn’t him. he saw me training with Amias but never chose to interrupt and the longest conversation we had in the past few days was;“Hey! Uh, do you know what happened between Tessa and Harvey?” I asked trying to start a conversation with him, he looked at me with his normal gaze and stood up while wearing his shoes.“No… t---t Harvey is avoiding her” he spoke and stormed off the room like I had pointed a gun on his forehead. I could see him leaving but
SARAH- “I know, I'm not the right person for you, I ruined your childhood and I have nothing to defend myself with. The only thing I have is my love for you which is never gonna deteriorate. It’s impossible for you to not hate me but it would be so hard to hang to without you.” “Please don’t leave me Sarah… it feels like I'm begging you knowing that it’s wrong as I am the most horrendous person you’ve ever met. I have no right to ask you for anything, but I’d be dead without you” I wasn’t sleeping, but his words definitely made me want to hug him tightly, I held onto his hand not letting him go as I needed him but also, my mind couldn’t forget about what happened with my father. Should I really blame him for something that happened so long ago? Wouldn’t it be too mean of me, but he was my father after all, how can I stay happy with the man who killed my father. “Sarah!!” I heard Tessa’s voice and felt him leaving, I got up and hugged her tightly trying to forget the problems I’ve