Later that evening I sit in the crowded club with my best friend Doreen next to me. She is busy chatting with some stranger. I know that he is human, but I don't know him personally. That tells me that she is only looking for a good time.
She is smart when it comes to her mate. She doesn't want a serious relationship to avoid any future complication when she meets her mate. So in the mean time she decides to just have a little fun until that day finally comes.
She is much more confident than me. This is her weekend routine and I am always just along for the ride. It beats sitting at home on the weekend doing nothing even if I did leave alone every night. I just want to loosen up a bit. I have no intentions of meeting anyone.
That doesn't stop Doreen from trying to set me up though. If a guy she is interested in comes in with a friend she's always trying to set me up with them to make it easier on her.
She never gives up.
Just as I take a sip of my drink I notice someone leaning on the counter next to me and they aren't going away. His stare is way too obvious. I can only imagine it is Doreen's doing.
"Can I help you?" I ask as politely as I can.
He doesn't look too bad, but I still can't get Logan out of my head. In any other situation I would have flirted with him, but my wolf hates anyone that isn't my mate. It's only become this bad since seeing Logan a few days ago. I don't quite know how to handle her and it is getting worse.
The only exception to that rule is the stranger that came into the cafe earlier today, Samuel. She found him quite mysterious, just as I did. I don't think she knew exactly what to make of him.
"The name's Jeff," he smirks, holding out his hand to me.
"Tina." I lie not bothering to accept it and look down at my drink.
I'd probably never see this guy again anyway, so it hardly matters what name I give him. He'd be gone in ten minutes if I can help it.
I take another long sip of my drink trying my best to ignore him but he just isn't getting the hint. I suppose this calls for more desperate measures.
"What is a pretty girl like you sitting all alone at the bar for?" he asks.
I roll my eyes at him and I am about to say something a bit rude until I notice that Doreen has already ditched me.
She is no longer at the bar next to me, but instead, across the room in some random guy's lap.
Wow, ditched already. I think that's a new record. We have only been here twenty minutes.
After realizing he is still waiting in my response, I quickly try to think of something to say to scare him off.
"Oh you know. Just a single mom having a night out, while the kids are away with their grandma" I smile.
"So you have kids?" he questions, still not sounding as put off as I'd hoped. "Yes. Six to be precise."
If that doesn't work, I don't know what will. Perhaps I should have told him that I was waiting for my lesbian lover to return from the bathroom thing. It wouldn't bring up any questions and I would have been left alone by now. I think.
"Oh really, and how did you pull that off? You couldn't be more than twenty-two," he chuckles, clearly disbelieving.
Crap. I really should have come up with something better.
I sigh and turn to him. "What will it take for you to go away and leave me alone?"
I really hate being rude, but sometimes that's the only way to convey the message you aren't interested.
"Letting me buy you a drink and your number," he grinned.
"I already have a drink."
He pulls a pin out from his pocket and hands it to me along with a napkin. "Your number then."
Wow this guy is persistent.
Get rid of him, my wolf growls. He's not our mate.
I'm trying. I reply.
"Okay," I nod, taking the napkin and jotting down a number he'd be pleased with. I'm sure Jennifer wouldn't mind.
He picks it up and reads it over with a smirk on his face then tucks it away. "Thanks. I'll be in touch."
I let out a long relieved sigh when he disappears from the bar stool.
We should go find Logan. My wolf says with a slight whimper.
It bothers me that she still doesn't understand that he belongs to someone else.
He has made his choice and he is happy with it. Is it really right that we destroy his happiness?
Yes. He is ours. He will want us when he sees us. She explains.
This same fight day after day is exhausting me. It is like a never ending battle between us. I just want it to stop.
You don't know that and neither do I. Just let it go for now and I'll think about it. I bargain with her.
I can feel the immense happiness coming off of her at my words. She wants this. She has wanted this for days and I don't see any way around it without giving her exactly what she wants.
Logan.
So that's exactly what I am going to do. Or try to at least.
She is right. We need to know if he wants us, no matter how painful it might be.
Some days later and I have somehow managed to brush aside the issue of my mate Alpha Logan. I am seated at home watching TV with mum, but she isn't really watching. She takes the empty plate that sits in front of me and carries it to the sink. She has been cleaning all morning, and she is not about to stop now. I have a feeling she would have taken my plate whether I was done or not.You'd think she is expecting the president over for dinner with the way she is acting. There is not a part of this house that has been untouched by her. Well apart from my room of course. That is my responsibility.She is just washing up the rest of the dishes when dad finally makes his appearance.He has been going nonstop all day running errands for the Alpha and his father. I am starting to get worried about him, when does he ever rest?He looks so worn out. He seems to have aged five years since I last saw him. He desperately needs to rest."There you are." Mom smiles walking over to greet him. "Grace
Chapter 6LOGAN"Welcome Alpha. It's an honor to have you here." Jane, William's mate, greets us, welcoming us inside."Thank you." We nod, stepping in.The aroma of food hits me as soon as I enter. Although it smells delightful, that is not the reason we are here. We have business to discuss and a lot of it. The pack is at risk, and until we find the intruder on our territory, we will not rest.My beta, Andrew, my father and I are gathered around the small living room across from William waiting for his mate to take the seat next to him.It is always customary for the Alpha to stand while doing business because it shows leadership and boldness, something every Alpha needs to have."I believe someone is missing," my father states eyeing the Brooks.That's right. Didn't they have a daughter? I believe her name was Grace, if I'm not mistaken. I used to attend high school with her a few years ago. I haven't seen her much since graduation, apart from the few mandatory pack meetings we had
Things are moving very fast and I need the think quickly. It is like my mind is in a whirlwind. I am finally here in front of my mate and he knows who I am. My heart beats fast and my stomach is full of butterflies at the word mate. It feels nice to hear him admit it. Does this mean he has accepted it?His hand gently touches my face while his eyes search mine. A warm sensation fills my body and tingles are left behind by his touch. Before I know what I am doing I am leaning into it. I crave for more.The world has now stopped and we are the only ones in it. Nothing matters besides me and him. I want him. No I need him and I can only hope he feels the same about me.His silence is deafening, offering no insight to his true feeling for me. He is revealing nothing, although I know that he is so deep in thought. His smile is enough to assure me, but when it becomes suddenly serious I feel doubtful again."You ran from me." He mumbles, sounding a bit hurt and dropping his hand by his sid
Days pass and I am in complete pain. Logan has been true to his word and our Beta, Andrew or another one of our wolves has been watching over me since that night. I haven't been going out other than to work and I have been slowly going crazy. I feel like it has been much longer than a week.At this rate I am sure to lose it if he doesn't let me breath.He still hasn't given me his answer about Josephine yet which only makes me angrier at him. Every day that he puts it off the more resentful I become.Even though he has come over to visit me often, it still doesn't make up for his behavior. I only speak to him when I have to. Most of the time he just sits and stares at me, not even bothering to make a conversation. It is awkward but it gives me time to think.I often wonder if Josephine knows about me. Has he told her anything? Surely she should have suspected something different in him by now. He leaves her every morning and evening to come see me and that should have aroused suspicion
“Be my mate," Samuel suggests. His words get me off guard. I am not sure the kind of reaction my wolf shows, but I'm pretty sure it is one of sheer surprise.Me mate with Samuel? This is just insane. We don't even like each other. Well...I guess he probably likes me due to his excessive flirting at the diner last week but I have never really thought of him that way. I just lost a mate.My mood gets foul. Oh yeah, because of remembering my mate, my former mate.I have temporarily forgotten about him. The hollow feeling inside my chest has started to make its appearance again.Samuel watches me very closely, cautiously. When my eyes begin to water again, he tenses. He slowly takes a few steps toward me and places his hands on my shoulders and gently, soothingly, rubs them.Had my wolf been present she would have protested to him touching us wholeheartedly. She still wants Logan, but the sad truth is she isn't here. She's gone. She left me, when Logan did. I am utterly alone inside. "Se
“Grace, you can't just leave everything you know behind," Dad says with the bang of his fist against the table.Mom does nothing but sits quietly by him with her hands placed in her lap and head hung low. I can see that she has different ideas than my dad, but she wouldn't dare speak against her mate. She is too old fashioned."Can't you understand why I'm doing this?" My voice is a low whisper. I don't like having arguments with my father. However, sometimes it can't be prevented; like now.Since I have told him about my plans to leave the pack and mate another wolf he has been less than thrilled. He sends Samuel a few glares throughout our discussion, but Samuel isn't at all affected like I am. Here I am, supposed to be Luna of a pack and I'm sitting, scared of what my Dad thinks.It's not like he can actually stop me since I am of age to make my own decisions, but that doesn't mean he won't try. "I understand that you are hurt Grace, believe me I do. But leaving your pack and every
I suppose my Mom's words have made him see things her way. Relief washes over me. It means more than I can convey that he supports me in this decision to leave. It is the complete opposite of what he felt only half an hour ago.The peaceful silence we fall into grows. Mom and Dad smile at each other then at us. I know what this means for us and it is going to be harder than I imagined it would. I feel a strange sense of comfort when Samuel reaches under the table and places his hand on top on mine. Our hands rest in my lap."I guess I should start packing then," I say, breaking the silence."Would you like some help?" Mom offers."I would like that."It is going to be the last time she will get to spend any time together with me for a while. I need this because I am going to be parted from her for who knows how long.Samuel gives me an encouraging nod. "I'll just run into town and fill up the tank for our journey back. It's going to take us at least two hours to get there providing tr
I press myself even further into the wall when he takes a step towards me. A whimper unintentionally escapes my throat. I can only imagine how weak I appear to him. However, he doesn't look much better. Behind his eyes, he is broken. Perhaps not as much as I am, but he doesn't get out of this completely unscathed.He stops mid stride and holds his hands up in front of him, allowing me to see he won't come any further. If he does, I am sure to break all over again."I'm just here to talk," he says. "I won't come any further if you will prefer it."I don't speak. I am afraid to. My voice can't hold up speaking to him. If I do, everything I have buried deep inside of me will come spilling out with my words. Instead of answering, I just nod and he understands. He drops his hands and sits on the edge of my bed facing me.My wolf is all ears."I had to see you before you left. I need to explain myself before you decide on hating me forever."His words seem sincere. My wolf believes him."I w
LOGANI am badly wounded. The pursuit after Grace and that traitor Dylan has ended in disaster. I have witnessed as Grog himself died and most of our fighters. Then it has dawned on me that I shouldn't die. I should run. When the fighting gets fierce I flee from the battleground and run, or rather drag myself to the bushes. I can still see from a distance as Grog's fighters are annihilated. I have realized that I have been in the wrong for a very long time. I have done many wrong moves and maybe I am the cause of the death of all these courageous wolves. Maybe if it wasn't for my poor decisions I would still be Alpha at our pack. Why did I take Josephine from her mate? Why did I reject my own mate Grace? And after the rejection, why did I insist on having her back when I knew only too well that she was mated to another Alpha? Why did I even join Grog, knowing that he was a leader of a rogue pack?These are the millions of questions that flood my mind as I lay in pain in the woods. Th
LOGAN “I knew from the very beginning that Dylan was a turncoat. Something kept telling me to kill him, but then I was hesitant." Grog says, seething with rage. He's angry with himself after we have established that Grace and Dylan are missing.I started having bad feelings when we waited for a very long time for Grace and she failed to show up. I started thinking, what if she doesn't come at all? What if she escapes? Right then Amelia came running to where Grog and I were seated, waiting for Grace so that the mating ceremony could start. Seeing her send shivers down my spine.“My goodness, she's gone." I whispered to myself. Amelia looked at me with eyes full of remorse, before whispering something to Grog's ears. The ever composed Grog listened carefully then dismissed Amelia and continued looking forward. I wanted to ask him what was happening when he looked at me and beckoned that I should follow him and now we are in his office. He's uncontrollable.“We need to pursue them, but n
"Take this," Dylan says, handing me the additional blanket from his bag.I shake my head. "No it's alright. This one is enough."Elsa is next to us against the rocky outcrop already fast asleep. She is exhausted, I can tell by the look on her face as she sleeps. She hasn't spoken much our entire journey either. What we have put her through has to be a lot to process. Even though we have saved her from Grog's pack, Dylan and I both know that if they ever catch up with us we will all be dead."You sure?" Dylan asks with his arm still outstretched with the blanket."I'm sure. It's not that cold out here." I shift my blanket over my legs and arms. It is a good thing the weather is not problematic because even if it were any cooler, we can't light a fire. It will draw too much attention to us. There is nothing that sticks out more than a fire blazing in the darkness of the night. Elsa had consumed two apples and a granola bar right before she crashed and Dylan and I each had one granola ba
“I'll give you thirty minutes, even longer if I can and then I'll run out there and tell them you're gone. Put as much time between us and yourselves as possible," Amelia says. "Take care. I hope for a safe journey for all of you."Then she steps up to me and very quickly gives me hug and then releases me. "It's been nice knowing you, Grace.Tell Doreen I miss her and I'm glad she made it." She looks towards the door then back to us. "Now go. There is no time to spare."I don't need any more warning to that. I am more than eager to get out of here. I am the last one through the door and I stop just a moment to glance back at Amelia. I see then that the goodbye has been harder for her than she let us see. Tears are pooled in her eyes."Take care of yourself, Amelia. Thank you for your help. None of this would be possible without you."She laughs a little through stray tears. "I don't know what you're talking about. I'm still ratting you guys out." Because you have to, I want to say. Bu
I gasp and clutch the letter to my chest. It has been so long since I heard his voice in my head and it nearly shatters me. My legs feel like jelly and my chest aches with the gap that was left by him leaving. I haven't allowed myself to think about Samuel very much, afraid of what it might do to me if I let my thoughts linger there too long. I know I would fall apart. But now...now I can't help it. I have to think of him. His letter. His words. His hands have touched the very same paper as mine did. I briefly wonder if I might catch a scent of him on it if I try hard enough to find it."Grace," Dylan says softly.He brings me out of my stupor. I look at him. I haven't realized there are tears in my eyes until he reaches out and touches them with the back of his hand. He briefly wipes them away only for them to be replaced by more cascading down my cheeks."Talk," I say. "You told me you would. I want answers." I wipe the tears away viciously with the letter gripped tight in my hand.
I quickly bolt upright and stand in front of the two men in sheer panic. "But-but it's so soon. I haven't had time to prepare. And I'm not feeling well. Shouldn't we wait? Logan said we could wait until I was feeling better.""Unfortunately we don't have that kind of time," Grog says as Logan stands up in front of me. "We're making a move on a pack in two days and we have to know that you will be loyal to us and your mate during the raid." He looks at Logan who nods his head in agreement.Oh, goodness, I felt myself unable to breathe and light headedness slowly started to creep over me like a nightmare. I can hardly believe what is happening. I need more time. I had counted on having more time. How can I possibly escape now? If I were to mate Logan I won't even want to leave here anymore. I'd want to stay here with him and stand by his side as he and his brothers born of evil bring the world of wolves down on its knees.I suck a sharp breath of air in horror. Nothing and no one can co
The wind blows through my loose, blond strands, making my hair whip around me like a silk blanket offering it's smooth comfort.Dylan, the man standing just a short distance from me watches me carefully, waiting for me to run at him, attack him, try to make him pay for what I deem as traitorous behavior, but I make no such move. I only stare at him with open and unashamed contempt.He can't hide the hurt my bitterness and scorn bring him, and for a moment I think he is the old Dylan, not the Dylan who turned on his pack and brought Noah out of there."I have to talk to you," he says. "You have to know the truth."He walks toward me, slowly, carefully, like I was a wild animal that would attack him given the wrong move. "Grace, listen to me. I know you probably have tons of questions for me right now and I promise to answer them all, just let me explain-"With loud smack against the his left cheek, his eyes widen in surprise at the girl who has slapped him. There is already a red mark
I am nauseous again. I want to shake my head and declare it is much too early to have such a weighing conversation, but I doubt it will get me anywhere. He is determined to talk this out."It should have happened last night, but since you weren't feeling well I didn't feel it was the right time. As soon as you're better it should happen," he continues.I have a strong feeling I will be sick for a long, long time.But then he will become suspicious.Alright, then I'll leave today. I'll do it. I'll have to. Amelia helped Doreen once. Maybe she can help me now that I'm out of the cells. I know the layout of the land and the shift changes of the borders. If only I can get away from Logan and everyone else for a few minutes I could escape this hell. He sits down on the bed in front of me and cups my jaw with his hand. He has genuine concern written on his face. "You look pale. You need to eat."I need to throw up.He must have seen the look on my face because he jumps up and moves out of m
I look around the large room at what little stuff I have acquired since my stay with the Grog's Pack and sigh. Now it is all mingled in with Logan's stuff. Our clothes hung together in the nearby closet. My books next to his on the nightstand and in shelves. And I'm sure if I bring myself to investigate it, I'll find both of our toothbrushes together in the bathroom.I immediately take a strong dislike to the room. This isn't my room and it never will be. This room is a lie, filled with promises of an ordinary life of an ordinary couple. Logan and I not an ordinary couple at least not in my eyes.I suspect though, that in Logan's eyes,, we are a couple.Though I knew this day would eventually come, where I'd have to share the same room and bed with him, nothing had ever really prepared me for it. I don't love him the way he wants and it makes me feel wrong. I can lie with him knowing I am carrying the unborn child of the man I love inside me.I have to fight back another wave of nause