' He can't remember, no he can't. He'll hate me even more and this time, he might do as he promised. I really need to get out of here.'
I know that staring at him right now, at the state I am in, is not good, but I can't look away. The deep frown he wears on his face, makes me both curious and scared, of what his mind is concluding as he towers over me.
This seems to be a continuous thing in our encounters, I simply don't know how to feel about this. Pain has long pinched through my heart, due to how weak our encounters seem to potray me infront of this man.
He is a proud, aggressive, arogant man who only thinks about himself and his reputation. He is not used to someone saying no to him, he is used to getting what he wants. That's what he got from me before, he made me fall weak to his charm that night two years ago and I gave him, the most important part of me. He made me feel weak when he literally dragged and threw me out of his house, when he insulted, humiliated and even questioned my character.
It's 2years passed now and still, I find myself at his feet, like right now, it's a shame but it's a wake up call that I must make sure that this is the last time. With this mindset, I snap out of my staring and look away, focusing on getting back on my feet and leaving this place.
A hiss slips past my lips when I try get up and pain shoots through my leg, close to my knee. Looking myself over, I see that small trickles of blood are in my palms and leg.
' Well, I've scraped my leg and hands, but it's no big deal, I'll sort it out at my place. Just as long as I get out of here.' I tell myself.
"You're hurt." No kidding.
I ignore him and try get up again.
" Here, let me -"
" Don't touch me sir." I quickly say, holding up my hand to stop him, though I don't dare look at him.
Damn it, why do I have to be polite sometimes, I should be calling him all sorts of names, but my tongue is too stubborn.
" You barely can stand up, let me -"
" I'll be fine, just let it be." I say, biting on my bottom lip and pulling myself up again.
I feel relief when I succeed in pulling myself up to my feet, though I stagger abit and almost lose my balance.
" Watch it!" I hear him scold me as he grabs at my arm, preventing me from staggering back.
I glance at him, frowning at his behaviour. Looking into his eyes, I seem to get tongue tied and I lose what I wanted to say.
It's so frustrating, damn it.
The sound of the front door opening is the thing that snaps me out of staring, I glance away from him and to the door, preparing to see someone come out, I gasp in surprise when I feel arms wrap around me and I'm soon picked up.
" W-what are you doing, put me down!" I try wiggle free, after realizing that Mr Cullen is carrying me back to the house.
" Are you alright Miss Grey?"
Oh no, Mr Davies.
Shoot, this is so embarassing. Damn it, Mr Cullen likes to embarass me.
" Yes I - "
" No, she fell and hurt herself." Mr Cullen answers, cutting me off.
With a deep frown, I look up at him.
The whole time he is walking with me, I am staring at him, wondering why this man is wasting his time with me. He should have left me on the ground, like he did years ago. No, infact, he is suppose to leave me just like I am doing everything I can, to make sure that I am out of his way.
I don't want to deal with him, I had my fair shair of seeing his true nature two years back.
I feel myself being placed down on the couch and once he steps back, giving me space, a relieved sigh slips out.
I feel his eyes on me but I don't dare return his gaze. Him looking at me is unnerving enough and looking at him, would be worse.
" Kelly, get me the first Aid kit." I look up to see Mr Davies instruct one of maids.
" Oh no sir, it's really not a big deal, it's just a small -"
" You're hurt."
" I've been hurt before, so it's nothing new." I quickly say, my head snapping at Mr Cullen.
I believe the level of how strong my voice sounded, has taken everyone aback.
" Uh Miss Grey -"
" Skylar please..." I say to Mr Davies, feeling weird with being called Miss the whole time.
" Okay Skylar, let us look at that, it wouldn't be right of us to let you walk out bleeding like that, please." The sincere look on his face makes me to sigh and cave in.
The maid returns with the first aid kit and just when she walks over to me, I pretty much decline her offer of helping me out. The thought of being the center of attention and someone attending to me, feels weird, not to mention me looking like a baby being taken care of.
I'm a grown woman, I've attended to my wounds many times. Today is no exception.
" Thank you." I take the first aid, giving a small smile to her.
She accepts and walks away.
" I'll quickly do this and I'll be on my way." I find myself saying.
"Miss - I mean Skylar, I would really like for us to discuss what happened moments ago."
Oh shoot, I forgot that I basically bolted out of his house.
" Mr Davies, I'm sorry for wasting your time earlier. I know that you're a very busy man, who wants the best for his daughter. That's why I think someone far more experienced would be best."
I don't look at either of them as I say this. I focus on opening the aid bag and attend to my wounds before getting out of here.
" Um where's the bathroom, I think I'll -"
" Sky-Sky...." A little voice interrupts me.
I see Ava, trudge towards me, I can see her trying to walk as fast as she can but because her walk is still abit wobbly, it's slowing her down.
" Hey hey, my little sugarpie, slow down now." Mr Davies says, catching her in time before she trips and falls.
A giggle comes from her when he picks her up and starts tickling her sides.
"I wanna Sky-Sky." I can see that she's still learning in terms of speaking and walking.
I place everything in my hand aside before holding out my hands.
" You're hurt Miss Grey, how do you think you'll be able to hold her?" Mr Cullen points out, pausing my movements.
" It's nothing serious, so I can -"
" And the blood in your hands?" That, right there shoots through my heart.
That question alone triggers something from my past, something that almost turned my life more upside down. My head drops as I stare at my hands and I see the small spots of blood. Seeing the blood makes my heart to drop.
" Sky-Sky sad." I feel little hands touch my face.
Ava stands infront of me with a cute little frown on her adorable face, as she looks my face over.
" Oh sweetheart, Sky-Sky is not sad, I was just thinking." I say with a small smile.
" Tinkin?" Oh gosh, she's trying to saying thinking.
" Yes, thinking."
She blinks up at me curiously, probably wondering what I'm thinking about.
" No, no sweetheart, don't touch." I pull my hands away from her, when she tries to touch my hands.
" You hurt."
" It's okay sweetheart. I'll be okay." I say.
" Come on buggyboo, lets get some juice hmm?" Her dad walks towards her to pick her up but she shakes her head.
" No daddy, Sky-Sky hurt." She says, pointing at my knee.
Something twists in my heart when I see how upset she's getting, seeing my knee.
" It doesn't hurt Ava -"
" We'll make it go away hmm?" Mr Cullen suddenly says and when I look at him, my own frown comes out when he pulls the coffee table close and sits on it.
He takes the contents I was about to use and grabs my hand.
" Mr Cullen -"
" We need to take care of this before she gets anymore upset." He mumbles, locking eyes with me.
Everything in me wants to ignore him and simply do everything myself, but my heart has already softened at at the mention of Ava. A soft spot has made itself into my heart and that's why, I'm sitting here, letting Mr Cullen to take over.
The whole time, I look everywhere but at him, I'm simply counting down from a hundred, hoping that he finishes. I had been trying to stay as far away from him as I could, now I feel tied down to remain in the same spot, with me.
His words from 2 years back, are a reminder that I should never get too comfortable, in his presence. He may remember me and make my life more difficult. Eversince I've crossed paths with him at the park, it's like he is everywhere and that is just scary.
I hiss in surprise when he moves to my knee and starts cleaning the wound there, glancing down to him, my breath gets caught in my throat when we lock eyes. The way he's staring at me, it's as if he's been waiting for a reaction from me and he got just that.
I quickly look away, coughing awkwardly.
I feel a touch on my arm and I look down at Ava, who looks up at me curiously.
" Sky-Sky okay?" My heart melts right here and there.
She is so young yet sensitive and smart too. Her concern just melts my heart so much that all I can do is pull her closer, now that my wounds have been cleaned up and a plasta has been placed on it. I pick her up and place her onto my lap.
" Sky-Sky is okay, you cute
baby." I say, kissing both her chubby cheeks.She smiles up at me and then does something that renders me speechless.
She lays her head on my chest and says, " Sky-Sky stay."
My fingers softly touch her hair as I lay next to her. She is now sound asleep and for some reason, this surprised her dad.Mr Davies was so shocked by Ava's behaviour towards a mere stranger. I mean I am a mere stranger but the way she has been acting towards me, is far different then what she would normally do in a normal situation with a stranger.Mr Davies told me that she is normally shy and because of how sensitive she is, it takes quite some time for her to be comfortable around someone. I got the sense that there was more to what he has been telling me, just by the way she held onto me when I wanted to put her down at first and even the emotion, his eyes expressed, when he talked about her being uncomfortable around people.I decided to stay, well for a while, when she started talking about me staying, because I was okay. I just couldn't leave and upset her. I wouldn't have been able to forgive myself, knowing that I
It is his turn now, to be taken aback by surprise because of my answer. He wanted to know what my problem is and I gave him the answer. No, he wont be satisfied with just this, but he needs a reason and I will give him one." You are the most manipulative man that I have ever met in my life. You interfered into my life when I didn't ask you to!"" What are you talking about?"" You know exactly what I am talking about, it wasn't too hard to figure out that it was because of your influence that I have been rejected, way too many times at all the jobs I went for. I know that I would have gotten one of those jobs, hadn't it been for you!" I point at him, feeling my temper rising." Are you out of your -"" Don't you dare insult me Mr Cullen, you have no right to, just as you had no right to invade into my business. I said no to you and you saw a challenge. Gosh, are you so bored that
" I can't believe you did that." I groan in protest." I had to, you were stressing about it." " But it's my situation to solve. I don't want you to feel obligated to -" " Woah, first of all, I wasn't obligated to do anything. Secondly, you are my bestest best friend, who I love and will do absolutely almost anything for, except share my boyfriend." I scrunch my nose in disgust. " Don't ever say that to me again." I can picture her rolling her eyes right now. " I wanted to help you out of something that was clearly bothering you so much, so you can focus on looking for a job." " Thank you and I'll pay you back, I promise." I say, feeling greatful." Skylar, there's no pressure." " Well, I'm still going to pay you." " Okay okay, enough about this, tell me, how are you doing?" I sigh when I hear this question.
It's been quite a long time since I've felt such lightheartedness in my heart. Being around Ava Lily Davies has done just that and I don't regret taking up this job. I might look at the pay and think it's good and comment about it, but my time with Ava is above that.I almost even forgot that I was looking after her as her nanny, earlier on, because of how near natural it felt to be around her. I have been able to observe and confirm that Ava, is quite a shy child and not to mention, that she totally likes when I read to her. I think she actually watches me acting out the book, more then listen to me.It was the cutest thing when it was her lunch time and she kept on, wanting to share her food with me. I had to show her my own food, so she would be convinced that I was eating too. She simply likes to share.We've had time to play, read, listen to some music and dance and ofcourse, have a little walk outside in her backy
" So, will you tell me what happened back there?" Jackson asks, after 5 minutes of silence in his car.I couldn't remain in that place anymore, I couldn't watch him come close to me and insult me. I felt like I was reliving two years ago but only this time, I could foresee him insulting me infront of everyone. No, I couldn't take that chance and so, all I could think of doing was running away. I didn't even say anything to Lucia, it was an advantage for me to slip away when Charlie came to the dancefloor and distracted Lucia. I had no idea that Jackson had been watching and he chased after me, no matter how many times I told him that he need not worry and that I would call a cab, he insisted on taking me home.Now here we are, seated in his car, inside the premesis of the apartment complex. I don't know how to really answer his question, because I don't want to start revealing about Mr Cullen being th
" Will you come with me?" He says and I nod, since I'm feeling way too tongue tied and emotional to think straight.He takes the lead and I feel his hand against my back, softly guiding me to where ever, he wishes for us to go. I take notice of his car and this makes my footsteps to slow down. " Where are we going?" I finally ask." Somewhere far from here, maybe the park?" He says before heading to the driver's side, to take something.When he returns infront of me, I see him hold out something and glancing down to his hand, my face warms up because it's his handkerchief.I'm so embarassed to be seen in this vulnerable state, I'm literally crying infront of Mr Davies and there is no way to hide this fact." T-thank you." I say with a soft voice, recieving it.I look away from him as I wipe at my eyes. " Would you li
" I already ate." I say, turning around and walking away, leaving the door open.I've just invited them in, though I shouldn't because I'm still upset with Lucia. She pushed too much and now I can't stop thinking about what happened. I've worked so hard to atleast, to make peace with everything and move on, but she keeps pulling me back to that placr of always talking about it. I gave my baby away, she is with a nice family and being taken care of by people who love her. " Well you can eat later, but just know that we're not taking all this food back." She says as they enter.I head on to the kitchen, taking a seat on a chair. Lucia follows suit, sitting opposite me while Charlie remains standing by the doorway. A moment of silence takes passes with neither of us attempting to say anything, for a while I don't look at them but when I feel a gaze on me, I let out a sigh and glance at Charlie.
Shoot." Miss Grey." He calls me again and I sigh, turning around slowly and preparing for something to say.When I finally face him, he says, " Were you running away?" " N-no, I wasn't." I quickly answer, feeling like I've been caught red handed.A smirk takes over his face and he steps forward, but I take a step back, wanting to maintain as much distance between us as possible.His eyes are quick to notice what I just did but I don't care. I just don't want him to be near me, distance between us is best." Oh you weren't?" He raises his brow at me and the tone he uses, tells me that he neither believes me and is enjoying this, as if he has an upper hand or something." No I wasn't." I say cheekily." Okay then, why were you leaving just now?" " I don't see anything I like here." Why am I even explaining myself to him rig
4 Years later.... " Mommy!" I turn around at the sound of that sweet voice. I watch in anticipation as she runs to me, her long hair falling behind her. The moment I capture her in my arms, I bury my face in her hair, loving her sweet smell. " Hello my cutie pie." I say, double pecking her cheeks. Kissing her cheeks is still one of my favorite things to do. " Hi Mommy, look what I got." I place her back down on her feet, crouching down to her level, so we can look at what she has in hand together. " Oh, a gold star!" I gasp, widening my eyes in a surprised manner. " Ms Martin said my drawing is pretty." " I agree, it is so pretty. So tell me, who did you draw?" " My family." " Ooh, I see mommy, daddy, daddy C, granny and grandp
" Mrs Cullen." He says, pulling me close." Mr Cullen." I smile at him." My breathtakingly beautiful bride." He says, touching his forehead with mine.He leans back with a smile, his eyes expressing so much love for me, that it causes my heart to do weird flips.A laugh bubbles out of me, when he twirls me around and ends with a dip, bringing me back up and not giving me a chance to breathe, when he whispers those three beautiful words, that never fail to make me blush like crazy." I love you."My breath catches in my throat, when he kisses me behind my ear." I can't wait for us to be alone." He says." You know, I didn't think you'd last for these couple of months." I say teasingly." I'm glad I did, now I can rub it in your face that I'm a man of my word."" Careful Mr Cullen, or I might think I'm not
I either must be naive or stupid, for even giving him the go ahead, for him to even talk to her.She is a really attractive woman, I'll give her that, but she, showing up here announced and not to mention the fact that she found a way, to get information of where Reece is, now that does not sit well with me.I can't say I am sitting calmly right now, because I've been biting on my nails and glancing at the door, for the last 5 minutes or so. It hasn't been long since he stepped out to talk to her.It had not been a simple agreement, for them to talk, but Reece actually asked if I was okay with it, and I said yes.Oh gosh, I was totally lying.I could only think of him as I said yes, I wanted him to finally face her and not have to continue living with what ifs. I know that the present has been good on us so far, our family and our engagement, but it's only fair for him, to finally say his
" You look so happy." My mother says." Do I?"" Yes, and I love seeing this look on you. It's been a long time, since I've seen it." She says, touching my hair." I must look good then, huh?" I wiggle my brows, making her smile.My own smile wavers and it is replaced by a frown , where I worry about what I see." I think someone isn't as happy, as you say I do." I comment, gesturing to the sight of both my dad and Reece, who look too serious in conversation, from a distance." I've been talking to your dad, and from what I have observed, I can tell that he is opening up. He understands that Reece will always be in your life, because Ava is what bonds you two, together."" I hear you mom and thank you for talking to him." I say, glancing at her.She nods, with a small smile." I think if I hesitated for too long, we wouldn
I'm not one to watch people like a creep, but this morning, I find myself doing it with Reece. He's sleeping so soundly and looking so handsomely boyish, it's cute.He looks like someone with no heavy burdens on his shoulders, and the sight of him sleeping so soundly, tempts me to plant kisses on his face.I realize while watching him, that my heart is speaking. It's even making notes and claiming him as mine.The beautiful man before me is mine and that keeps my heart, skipping beats, in acknowledgment. As I watch him sleep, images of us being together even in the future, with years gone by, play beauty in a slide show. I see a future with this man and I see happiness, with my family.After all that we have been through, the past is just a dim light, that can't overthrow us, but the future looks ever bright and something to have strong faith in.I've had a taste of many circles, hurdles,
WEEKS LATER....' Custody, will be granted to the biological mother, Skylar Grey, as of today.' These are the words that have brought a smile onto my face, for the past weeks.Hearing it being declared and being made official, that Ava is supposed to be with me, as her mother. So much worry had gripped me, standing there and waiting for the verdict.I had worried that because I was in contact with an adoption agency, and that financially, I'm not in the level of the Cullen family, it would be used against me, and would be the main factor, which would make me lose the possibility of having custody of Ava, but no.Custody has been granted to me and she has been with me, ever since.With her being so young, the solution came from the discussion that happened, between me, Reece and Colton, one time, on the days approaching the day for court. The solu
" Thank you for bringing her over." I say to Jane." Anytime you need me to bring her to you, just call me."I nod." Hopefully, I won't need to do that anymore, soon." I say, looking at Ava.I'd asked Jane to bring Ava, so I could spend the whole afternoon with her. Two days have passed, since I last saw everyone, except Ava of course.At first, I'd asked Kelly to bring her over but then, I later considered asking Jane, since I didnt want to be the cause for a disturbance, at her workplace." How have you been holding up?" She asks me, after some minutes of silence between us, passes." Better than the last time you saw me."" That's good. At least, you've had some time to yourself, and some time to think."" Not enough, unfortunately. All that keeps coming back, is Ava, and the time I lost out with her."
I've been having a hard time, taking my eyes off of her. I know that we have spent time together, but it feels like the first time, now that I know who Ava is in my life.Oh gosh, she is my daughter.My own daughter, who I carried in my womb for nine months.With it being late, we decided to return back to Colton's home and I won't lie, and say that I didn't wish to take her back to my place immediately.I had to remind myself that this was not just about me, but Ava, and the changes, that would befall her as time goes.There is so much that will need for us to adjust to, and as difficult as some things may be, but Ava is the most important.I'm a mother, and as a mother, I have to put my daughter first.Gosh, my daughter, it hasn't sunk in totally. It's like a dream, that I wish to not wake up from.Being seated on the rug, against the so
" Do you ever think about the future?" He asks me." Sometimes, why?" I say.He doesn't answer for a few seconds as we are walking, until at some point, he does." I haven't been able to think of me alone in the future. It's not possible anymore." He glances to me and days, " I see you in it."My heart skips a beat, when I hear this coming from him." I think about you a lot."" Does this mean, there's a possibility of seeing me in your future?"I smile at him.Pulling his arm around my shoulders, I wrap my own arm around his middle and we continue on.When we finally reach my apartment complex, we turn to each other." Well, this is me." I say.He reaches out his hand, to gently push back my hair behind my ear." I want to take you away, for a while."" Y