ZADEI failed again.I wasn’t there for her, I wasn’t fast enough, I didn't get to her before she was hurt. I should have been there before she killed that girl. I know how Ari feels about death. I have seen her pass out because she saw someone die in front of her. She has told me, or hinted really, that she has never killed.I wonder if she has ever killed anything other than small kills. She is the kind of wolf that seems to apologize before killing bunnies.“Where are you taking me?” she asks me restlessly, but I can detect the anxiety, the tiredness in her voice.I didn’t have any destination in mind, but now I want to take her somewhere far, somewhere she will feel safe.“Somewhere away from here,” is all I say before I glance at her. She doesn't seem satisfied or impressed by my response.“What makes you think I want to go anywhere with you?”“I know you don’t, that’s why I had to carry you and force you in this car, remember?” My attempt at humor falls flat when she looks at me
ZADEIs it the thing that made her look at me differently? Is that what I took the reason why she is looking at me with nothing but disinterest, disassociation, and blankness, which makes me want to scream at her to wake up and be normal?What is normal?The girl who was always screaming, smiling, and giving me anxious stares? The blush that would creep on her cheeks whenever I was close?Is that what I took, the thing that made her the girl that was crushing on me, even though I tried to ignore it and act like I didn't know? Even though it made me feel … something? Is that the norm I know with her?“I didn’t want to care about you,” I exhale tiredly, fingers tightening on the wheel. “io never say it reaching here. You were supposed to be just another girl who got rejected by me and then left or faded into the background.“But you had to be … you. I couldn’t ignore you, I couldn’t even escape your presence, didn’t matter how hard I tried. Yes, I was a jerk, and I know I have caused ha
ARIMy limbs are in pain.It’s a good kind of pain that is enough to block out what has happened and just enough to rouse me from passing out again.Zade is next to me, passed out, There is smoke coming from the car, which is jammed into the tree. With a groan, I push open the door and stumble out. The wounds I have sustained start closing and healing, the joints snapping back in place enough to make me gasp before I stand up.I don’t look back nor care about the boy I leave in the car as I start walking down the empty, moonlit long road. It's eerily silent, save for the birds and the distant howls that are heard occasionally.So I am still on the stupid island.Being with Zade as he talked my ear off helped to ignore the tension that is starting to creep in again. I don’t want to think much of tonight, so I do what I feel will help best. I start running needing to get out of this damned island and go somewhere that will guarantee that nothing will touch me or even make me remember.M
ARIWho were they? Who they were working for and what pack. All the things that can help me find closure.”He is silent, fingers tapping on the large mahogany desk, and he looks at me in deep thought. I cannot underestimate him. There is a reason he is a king alpha. After all, no one sits on that chair, has that title without doing something dirty and living in it until the dirt builds up as your second skin.As I know his son, he must be the worst wolf. He is not to be seen as thoughtless. Yes, he is kind to my mom and me, but that doesn’t mean he is that way across the board.After all, he left his son when he had just lost his mother and brother, wasn’t there for his mate- yes, I have done my research on why Zade loathes him.So the alpha king is heartless, cold, and ruthless as they come.“I can give you the file to go through if that is what you want.”I snap my head up to look at him. I never expected him to give mt the whole file, I was good with his word and that’s it.“I woul
ARIThere are perks of being close to the powerful.There are advantages of the alpha king being your mother’s mate. I have been living in a hotel suite, as I am taking time off from school for a few days to be grounded and see a doctor. Parker recommended me to.The deal was that I would be excused from the academy for a few days if I got to see the doctor and I took it. Anything to keep me away from the academy and from bumping into people I don’t wish to see. I am still avoiding my mother, too, even going as far as escaping through the emergency exit like I am doing now.Now that she knows my exact location and what I am doing, I was sure she would come looking for me. It took less than 24 hours before she showed up at my door, and now I am running away from her.Once I get to the basement, I get in my car and speed out of the parking and away from the hotel, anywhere that will make me forget about my existence for a while.I found this place while I was walking aimlessly, lost and
ZADEShe has been actively avoiding me.I am not mad that she left me in an almost burning car; that made me get even more turned on because she has the guts to do it and leave me for dead. The more she is cold and ruthless, the more I am getting addicted to her.The more I want.But then she wasn’t around. Not in school, not in class, not in her dorm; I couldn’t find her anywhere. She had blocked me out, too, from even feeling her.For three days, I have been anxious, looking everywhere for her, doing everything to get her location and when I find out she has been in this hotel, one of my father’s … I relax a little.I found out two hours ago, and nothing was keeping me away from her anymore. I have to clamp my tongue down to avoid asking her if she is okay and if she can let me in.Yes, I am standing right outside her door, and I can hear her getting back to sleep again before I send another text threatening to kick her door open if she doesn’t get out.I ache to see her, I want to
ARII can feel eyes on me. Undressing me, caressing my skin painfully so that I shiver and get goosebumps, feeling the phantom touch.He is suffocating me.I wanted to forget, stop thinking, and be distracted until I can't see anything when I close my eyes. He is a perfect distraction tonight.I know it’s a mistake, that I shouldn’t walk into such situations, but I am too far gone to care. I know that it won't mean anything for me other than as a distraction. He is the only person who is eliciting any form of reaction.A feeling I haven’t felt in a long, long time. It feels so good, I want to sink into it and this time, chase and fall into that sweet dark feeling, get high off it and forget whatever demons I am running away from.He is the only boy who makes me feel this way, maybe because he is my mate or whatever, but that doesn’t matter. I want to see if I can feel that way with someone else.I turn and grab the man who has been dancing closely to me and pull him down for a kiss. I
ARII shouldn’t.My body hits the back of the door, as his lips connect to mine again, his entire body pressing on me. Hands roving over clothes, trying to get a feel, skin … get enough but it's not. It's not enough.More.The kiss slows down, no, he slows down when his hands settle on my hips. His lips part from mine slowly, and the wet sound echoes around the hotel room as he looks at me with hooded eyes.He is about to talk. I am not here to talk, I don’t want him to talk to me, not now, not about this. I don’t want either one of us saying something that might break the spell, the bubble that we are in right now.So before he can utter another word, I lean forward and bite his lower lip, making him growl, before his fingers tighten around my waist, before they slowly slide down to my butt, squeezing me right as he kisses me open mouthed, his tongue dipping in my waiting mouth.A moan leaves my lips, shivering before I wrap my arms around him, pulling him closer by his torso. I let
ZADEThere are things that one feels without even talking.I felt her the moment she pulled into my driveway. I felt the sadness crushing her, and I knew without even being told that he has been crying for hours.She is not feeling good, and that makes my heart ache.I pad to the windows, pushing them open just as she parks and sits in her car for twenty minutes. I watch quietly, waiting and hoping she will not turn around and choose to spend the night alone.It’s her birthday today.Just as I know that her birthday is a huge day for her, it's also the day her family was killed. She went to see her mother, but it doesn’t seem like it went well, judging from how she is feeling.I didn’t want to know her, I didn't want to be pulled into her weave because I knew I would feel things I didn’t know existed. I didn’t want to care about her, but I still needed to know everything about her in the name of knowing my enemy.Everything I learn, makes me drawn and more committed to her. I know tha
ARIThe rail is cold in my hand as I ascend the dark stairs.It's raining again, the rain pelting on the window panes, the curtains fluttering as the cold flutters in. There is no one here, save for the one I am headed towards. It’s a quiet house, it should creep me or even make me turn around.This isn't something I should do, not when I am not okay mentally. But it is because I am not okay that I am turning the door knob and pushing the door open, eyes finding the figure that’s laying in the bed, the whole room dark, open windows once again letting in the cold wind.Not that he can feel it.He is looking at me, I can sense that he wants to ask something, so I push out the feeling that I don't want to talk about it. He said that he will make me forget. Does that still stand even tonight?I thought I had outgrown my naivety. Perhaps I had grown up and started knowing a little better. But it seems that I never learn.But I am so tired, so very tired and worn out. I have cried, and ther
ARI“I thought you were going to ignore me until you needed something.”I don’t bother hiding my sigh as I sit down. “Hello, mother.”“Why have you been avoiding me?” She isn't trying to be all nice and sweet today. No, today she is frowning, and I wonder if she knows that she is.“I didn’t feel like talking to you.”“Since when have you not wanted to speak to me?” she chuckles, sitting back. “You are my clingy child, of course, you want to see me and talk to me every time.”My jaw clenches. “Since you started keeping secrets from them, which impacted me.”“Whatever are you talking about?” she takes a sip of tea in the porcelain cup.“You know what I am talking about. I am sure by now, Mr. Parkers has told you what we are doing, what I am doing.”“Yes, and I was hoping that it was all a lie, that perhaps you had forgotten yourself and you are here to apologize and get back to school,” she puts the cup down, not looking at me.“Why would I apologize?” My heart is hammering in my chest.
ZADEThe door slams on my face, and I am wide-eyed, looking at it, trying to figure out what is happening.I am only in my boxers, every other piece of clothing on my hands, and I drop them, sighing, before I sit on the floor, my back pressed against the door. I rub my face, shaking my head as I try to get a sense of everything.One minute I am sleeping so peacefully, the best sleep I have had in forever, and the next I am being pushed out of the door, and here I am.She doesn’t want to see me? I thought things changed after yesterday. It was heavenly. I can remember every single second vividly. Everything in me wants to barge in there and try to ask why she has chased me away.But then, just as I am about to do so, I feel it. The bond between us. It's open, clearer, and I feel so close to her. I can even talk to her now if I want to.“Why did you just throw me out?”There is no response, but I can feel her. She is ignoring me on purpose.A door opens down the hall, and a couple gets
ARII wake up with a start, feeling heavy but soon realize it's because of the arms and legs all wrapped around me, as if binding me in place.My throat is so dry, and I feel like I have run the whole night, but in a way, instead of being tired, my well has been refilled with clean, sparkling, cool water.Then it all starts coming back.Zade is sleeping next to me, his face pressed on my neck. I start to slowly get out of his hold, and he doesn’t wake up, not when I fall out of the bed and scramble to cover my naked body with a sheet. Tiptoeing to the bathroom and looking back to check if he has woken up, I close the bathroom door and exhale, leaning against it, as I close my eyes.“What the fuck did I do?”I remember getting up and going to meet Zade downstairs. I don’t remember much after that, but I do remember in vivid detail what happened once I stepped back in the room later in the night.I wasn’t alone. Hands, kisses, touches, dark whispers, the pleasure …. Yes. I remember eve
ARII can't deny that in this moment, all I feel, all my world is filled with … is Zade Parker.A whimper leaves my lips as I feel his hand caressing me, his fingers trailing from my thighs, to my hip, going all the way up until he cups my heavy breast, his fingers flicking my nipple before squeezing it, rolling it.His mouth is on my other one, tongue licking and rolling it before he takes it between his teeth, grazing and biting.It's not gentle, pain and pleasure tethering on the edge. It's too much but not enough. He doesn’t take his eyes off me, not even as he pulls the nipple out of his mouth with a pop, watching me watch him.I can't ignore the heavy thing that’s between his legs rubbing on my inner thigh as he moves, leaving a wet trail. He is hung, long, fat, I can see the veins, the weeping head …I swallow, eyes flicking to his face again, only to find that he has been watching me all this time. I want him. It's my first time, but he doesn’t need to know that. All he has to
ARII shouldn’t.My body hits the back of the door, as his lips connect to mine again, his entire body pressing on me. Hands roving over clothes, trying to get a feel, skin … get enough but it's not. It's not enough.More.The kiss slows down, no, he slows down when his hands settle on my hips. His lips part from mine slowly, and the wet sound echoes around the hotel room as he looks at me with hooded eyes.He is about to talk. I am not here to talk, I don’t want him to talk to me, not now, not about this. I don’t want either one of us saying something that might break the spell, the bubble that we are in right now.So before he can utter another word, I lean forward and bite his lower lip, making him growl, before his fingers tighten around my waist, before they slowly slide down to my butt, squeezing me right as he kisses me open mouthed, his tongue dipping in my waiting mouth.A moan leaves my lips, shivering before I wrap my arms around him, pulling him closer by his torso. I let
ARII can feel eyes on me. Undressing me, caressing my skin painfully so that I shiver and get goosebumps, feeling the phantom touch.He is suffocating me.I wanted to forget, stop thinking, and be distracted until I can't see anything when I close my eyes. He is a perfect distraction tonight.I know it’s a mistake, that I shouldn’t walk into such situations, but I am too far gone to care. I know that it won't mean anything for me other than as a distraction. He is the only person who is eliciting any form of reaction.A feeling I haven’t felt in a long, long time. It feels so good, I want to sink into it and this time, chase and fall into that sweet dark feeling, get high off it and forget whatever demons I am running away from.He is the only boy who makes me feel this way, maybe because he is my mate or whatever, but that doesn’t matter. I want to see if I can feel that way with someone else.I turn and grab the man who has been dancing closely to me and pull him down for a kiss. I
ZADEShe has been actively avoiding me.I am not mad that she left me in an almost burning car; that made me get even more turned on because she has the guts to do it and leave me for dead. The more she is cold and ruthless, the more I am getting addicted to her.The more I want.But then she wasn’t around. Not in school, not in class, not in her dorm; I couldn’t find her anywhere. She had blocked me out, too, from even feeling her.For three days, I have been anxious, looking everywhere for her, doing everything to get her location and when I find out she has been in this hotel, one of my father’s … I relax a little.I found out two hours ago, and nothing was keeping me away from her anymore. I have to clamp my tongue down to avoid asking her if she is okay and if she can let me in.Yes, I am standing right outside her door, and I can hear her getting back to sleep again before I send another text threatening to kick her door open if she doesn’t get out.I ache to see her, I want to