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A PRINCE OR A MATRY?
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2025-02-16 18:24:26
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WELL, LOOK AT THAT
ARII have been bleeding.I haven’t left my room ever since the party, afraid that the outside world is going to be unbearable. I have been having nightmares, too. From dreaming about Olivia circulating the video of Zade and I making out, but it's not just making out this time, it's more to me being beaten up because I am a slut.How did I end up getting here? From being uninterested in boys to having my first kiss stolen to now dreaming about being shamed about my sexual endeavors?It's not like there are any sexual endeavors, but it's there. It's implied, and it's all because of Zade. He is the root of all my problems.Classes are going to resume tomorrow; the long weekend is over, and I am terrified.My phone has been off for a reason.Groaning, I curl up in a ball and pull the duvet over my head, sinking deeper into bed. If I don’t have to deal with it today, then maybe sleeping until I have to is the remedy. I just wish I could disappear or be told I don’t have to go here anymore
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-17THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I DON'T NEED AN AUDIENCE
ARI“let's bond. But I will have one wish that I will ask of you in the future. Se it like a business deal. You get what you want, and I will collect my wish whenever. You must do it, though.”He looks at me, probably trying to see if I am tricking him or if I am telling the truth. Whatever he sees makes him nod once. “deal.”“if you break it-““it’s a promise formed under the completion of the bond, sort of like a blood covenant. I can't break it. Have a little faith in me.”“That’s something I will not do, but sure. Let's do it then,” I clap, sit on the couch, and pat the space on my left.He looks confused. “what?”Rolling my eyes, “I don’t need eyes on me as you sink your teeth into my neck, so let's do it now.”He walks over in quick steps, eyebrows raised, looking at me incredulously. “we need to have a ceremony for this. You do know I am the next king alpha, don’t you?”“And I know you don’t want your sweet girlfriend seeing you claiming and marking another woman in front of ev
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-17THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS AND I CAN STILL FEEL IT ALL
ARII am going to burst into flames, and yet, I can't move.I am weak, my body, not my own, as I feel myself falling, but strong arms catch me before I slump on the floor.Zade finally retracts his fangs and looks at me, his eyes like the snow of my Alps… my home. I feel like I am in a fever dream the longer I stare into those pale eyes, no longer silver.There is blood trickling down his chin, mouth slightly open.“Ari.”My eyes shut close as the feeling finally starts coming back to my body, but the fire in my blood isn't ceasing.Zade doesn’t utter another word but tilts his head to the side, baring his neck open for me. It feels like I am moving in slow motion as I kneel and lean forward, getting closer and closer to his neck.I can't call in my wolf; I can't extend my sharp fangs out, either. My feverish brain is registering all of this, but I still clamp down on his neck. His soft grunt is the only indication I get that, yes, I have bitten him.Not enough to sink deeper, but I d
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-18THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN WAITING FOR?
ZADEShe is everywhere.I can feel her in my blood, in my bones, under my skin. She envelops me, traveling through every neuron from my head to my toes.But then it's gone too soon.She slumps down, my neck tingling where she has bitten me. All I want is for her to bite me again, for me to feel that closeness that I have never known existed. It's heavenly to be close, to be one with her … her blood still in my mouth, her scent intertwined with mine.But she is twitching on the floor. She is in pain, and I want to help her. But I am weak; my body doesn’t feel like mine. Something is making me immobile, this heavy=iness over my body.I can't breathe as I watch her from where I am kneeling on the floor.But then she exhales, as if she has been released, just as the feeling of being repressed fades away, and I am back to myself.My head is feeling hazy still, in a good way. I feel high. I am high on her …She is shifting. Her wolf seems to be awakening …She is beautiful. She is so beauti
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-18THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS FIRST HUNT AND YOU RUIN IT?
ARII feel alive for the first time in over ten years.The first thing I wanted to feel was freedom, and that meant running until I forgot everything and everyone. I became one with the wind until someone started tailing me.My senses are open: the wind, the smell, the ground beneath me, the surroundings, it all feels so different from how I have been used to now.How did I live for so long, feeling like my head was underwater all this time? I lost Lin when I was a child, fear and grief crippling me that when Lin left, it just added to the pain that I felt.I didn’t think much about it then, growing up feeling like I was just floating in the world, running and always afraid.Every child gets their wolf and forms a bond with them, and it gets harmonious, bonding and blending into one as you mature. It might be because I am not used to the strength and all these sensational things I feel, but I don’t hate it.I have always thought that I would feel disconnected from my wolf, but it's lik
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-19THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS OF YOU KEEP THIS UP, I MIGHT GET THE WRONG IDEA, MATE
ARII hesitate.Even in my hesitation, he doesn’t do anything but wait. He hates me, doesn’t he? Then why is he letting me get this close to him? I deflect, going for his jugular, and instead bite his shoulder instead, as if marking him a second time. His blood is so refreshing, those pheromones tingling my whole body I have to get off him, shaking off that weird feeling as I glare at him.“you. what are you doing now?” he is pissing me off with this act.“I should ask you that. You are the one who is attacking me and wounding me.”So annoying.All the fun is now ruined, like always, whenever he shows up.“you need to get back to the academy. No one knows that you have your wolf back.”“did you come all this way to tell me that?”“it's not safe out here; you are alone and vulnerable in this state.”“I have never been less vulnerable.” I pointedly look at the brown wolf that’s watching us from a distance in wary. Who the hell is he anyway?“I get that, but you haven’t gotten a pass to
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-19THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS YES, I FEEL A LOT
ZADEI don’t understand why I care that she is hungry.I don’t understand why I feel the need to make sure she is well-fed and then get her back to the academy safely. She is not my concern; she never has been and never will be.Yet here I am, feeling satisfied as she is eating the hamburger, gulping it down, and not even raising her eyes to look at me or bother talking to me. She hasn't pretended not to be hungry; I know she must have been starving. A bonding ceremony is exhausting, mentally, and draining on the body.I feel like I can sleep for a week. Adding to shifting, too, I know she is bone tired. Being bonded to her is a curse. Before, I could feel most of the things she felt, that is, if I didn’t block her.Now, it doesn’t matter if I block her or not, she has shit me out. It's very weird, something being taken from you, a thing you didn’t even care about that existed in the first place.I feel like my whole life is cursed. I am not lucky; I am not favored, unlike what people
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-20THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I HATE ME TOO
ZADE“you mated her?”“livie, I did try not to but-““you mated her! You completed the bond, and now she is your mate. You two are linked for life,” Livie is pacing in my bedroom, hands pulling her hair roots.“I need you to stop moving and calm down first,” I try approaching her, but she shakes me off hard and steps back.This is what I was fearing. This is what I didn’t want to see: the betrayal that’s in her eyes when she looks at me.“How can I ever listen to you? How can I ever believe you ever again?”“because it doesn’t matter to me who my mate is! You are the woman I love; I don’t care about her.”She stops and looks at me blankly before she starts laughing. “what? You don’t love her? You love me, and I am the woman for you?”“livie,”“no,” she raises her hand and looks at the floor. “I mean, I am the woman who has your love, right? What does it matter if I don’t get what I have wanted from you since I was ten? I mean, I have all your love, and nothing else matters.”“livie.”
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-20
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS ALL OR NOTHING
ARI“What's going on inside this little mind?” his voice is so close to me, nose brushing my temple.I should feel something. A tingle, but I am so damn tired. All I want is to sleep, forget that I exist for a few hours before I start going back to my life. I can't escape it anymore, now can I?“Nothing,” I sigh. “I am just a little sleepy.”Is he expecting more from me tonight?I wish I had the girls with me. They would allow me to be in your space. Maybe I should call them, text them, but I don't have my phone. I remember crashing it in the hotel suite before I walked out into the traffic.Maybe I am not as okay as I think. But getting a grip is important.If I am going to avenge and face the people who ruined me to begin with, I can't let go of the reality. I need to be focused and work hard to make sure they don’t destroy me before I destroy them.I know I am not going to come out of it. The plans I made to go study law as further studies, get out of the pack and live my life as a
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS BROKEN DOLL
ARIMy life is a mess.It’s a fucked life, painful, dry, bland, void of colour.I am ugly too, rotting slowly inside, underserving of anything good because that’s just what is set in stone for me.Despite it all, despite feeling all of that, as Zade looks at me like I mean something, like I matter … I can't help but want to be under that gaze for a longer time.He is looking at me how he used to look at Olivia, like he might love me, like I mean something. He wants to know if I am okay, taking care of me, a gentle, caring touch on my cold, withering soul.I don’t deserve it, and yet.I yearn for it. Crave it. I can't not shudder under it.“Do you want me to ask you?”Yes. I want him to ask me. I want him to push for me to tell him what's going on in my head. For him to fight for me. I am selfish like that. Mother didn’t say anything untrue, because here I am, asking and taking what doesn’t belong to me.I came into this life, took Olivia’s man under fate’s guidance, and yes. It hurt.
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WHY WONT YOU ASK ME?
ARII don’t think I have ever truly let myself think deeply about Zade, who is becoming, and his birthright. I am not one to attach my identity to the boy I am seeing or crushing on, and in this case, the boy I am mated to.But it's still heavy. I find it … sexy that he is already so mature, powerful too, and it's only going to get even better.Yes, I think I am crushing on Zade, and I can't control choking on my water once that fully hits me.“Are you okay?” he asks me as he rushes to my side, rubbing my back.“Yeah,” I wheeze out. “Guess I am a little surprised.”“Why?” he chuckles as he gets back to cooking.“The first thing someone sees when they see you is how spoiled you are.” That’s not true.The first thing I saw and felt when I first laid my eyes on him was just how magnetic and powerful he was. Yes, you could tell from miles away that he is wealthy, but it wasn’t the kind I got from the rest of the students.No, his was the quiet, generational wealth that just didn’t come fr
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS THIS IS STRANGE, BUT I AM NOT SAYING I DON'T LIKE IT
ARIIt’s weird.I woke up feeling this gut-wrenching painful reminder that I was still alive, that I am still feeling, and my mind is still as loud as before.I wasn’t ready to face myself, the world, or even reality, so I went back to sleep despite not knowing where I was. I could hear someone, a female, who would come and look after me once in a while. I should have been worried that a stranger was hovering over me.But I didn’t care. That’s how gone I was. I did manage to sleep more until I woke up again, and the tension in my temples was lessening.Someone was touching me like I was so fragile, and I could feel how gentle they were being. I knew it was Zade even before I could open my eyes.It felt better, the chatter, the exhaustion… it all lessened when he was around like this. It’s something I have come to notice, not ready to admit it yet, but it’s there.I could hear his thoughts. They were so unguarded, I wondered if he knew I could hear them, and it’s the first time I've be
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS FEED ME NOW
ZADEShe is so beautiful.I exhale softly as I sit on the bed, watching her sleep. I can't resist reaching out with gentle fingers as I push back her hair off her face.Her hands are tucked under her chin, pressed to her chest, her body curled in as if she is feeling cold or protecting herself from something.But she isn't feeling cold; her body temperature is higher, too, which prompts me to stand up and walk over to the screen door. I slide it open, and the soft light curtains let the air in, billowing soundlessly.I had this bedroom built with a terrace garden, so it feels like someone is sleeping in a garden. I know she will love it when she wakes up.I sit on the floor, watching her as she exhales softly once cool air hits her skin.She had a massive panic attack, and I wasn’t there to help her. The first one she ever had was when she saw me kill that crush of hers –something I don’t regret, but I do regret triggering it- and she broke down in the bathroom.I knew she didn’t want
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS IT'S ME AND YOU NOW
ZADEMercy.That word alone makes me hit her at the back of the neck as gently as I can, rendering her unconscious. I hold her limp body, my eyes on her now sleeping face, as I breathe hard.I am scared.I almost lost her a few minutes ago, and then watched her as she almost slipped out of her mind. I stand up as I carry her bridal style to my car, where I am parked. I don’t mind the eyes on me, murmuring bout the girl who almost got run over by walking to the busy highway.I secure Ari on the seat before I get in myself and drive away.I knew something was off, from the moment I saw her mother walking out of the hotel, minutes after I had dropped ari and then the coldness that overcame me like I had been pushed in an extremely icy frozen lake.I don’t think twice, taking her to my private home, somewhere no one knows, not even my father. She is still out cold, and I start to worry that I might have hurt her. Lying her gently on the bed, I clean her up, making sure she is comfortable
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS LET ME GO, PLEASE
ARISomething is breaking inside me.I can’t feel my touch, even as I touch my chest. I have gone numb, nothing truly registering as I sit on the floor, remaining in a state of static as she has left me.What you are doing is not worth it.Not worth it.Nothing is worth it.What do I do now?A murderer. A misguided child. Doing things that I shouldn’t, wrecking her life.A broken wail escapes my lips as I hunch down, feeling like I am taking my first breath.This is not how it was supposed to go. How can this happen? I killed someone, but I don’t know why. I don’t know why I keep getting angry, like I am in a cage, and when I am let out, I lash out at the first person closest.I wish I could stop, remember myself, and stop getting so angry, to stop my actions before they are thrown back at me, like I am going crazy and need to be put down.Everything I am doing feels wrong. Everyone keeps telling me that I am doing the wrong thing the wrong way.I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS IT'S ALL PILING UP, I DONT THINK I WILL MAKE IT OUT
ARIMy phone starts to vibrate incessantly, but I choose to ignore it.Everything is overwhelming. From this car ride, to the boy sitting next to me. I just want to be alone, maybe stare at the wall in silence for hours until I feel like I am coming back to myself.But it won't stop, now starting to ring nonstop. I sigh, picking it up and seeing that my mother has sent me a bunch of texts, starting calm, asking if she can talk to me until they all progress, calm evolving to anger.“Stop calling me,” I say as soon as I answer the tenth call.“Where are you?”“Why?”“I need to speak to you,” she sounds like she is out of breath.For a second, I thought the bad guys who had been chasing us had come back, and she was in danger.“Are you okay?” I sit up, alert. “Are you in danger?”“No, but we need to talk immediately. If not, I will go to your dorm and then we can talk there, but I am sure you don't want people to eavesdrop on this conversation.”My heart is hammering, and I can feel the
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WE BOTH KNOW I WAS HEADING HERE
ZADEI don’t think twice, swerving the car by the side of the road and killing the engine. It happens all too fast, and Ari is heaving fast, palm pressed on her chest as she looks at me like I have lost my mind.Maybe I have, but I can't have this conversation while driving.“Why did you stop? Let’s get going, I need to get my car back and go on about my day.”“I am sorry.” It comes out in a whisper, where I bow my head, forehead pressed on the wheel.“Call it even, I left you for dead anyway,” she says, sitting back.“I am sorry,” I repeat, this time a little louder. When she doesn’t say anything, I turn my head to her. She is looking anywhere but at me.She knows what I mean, it’s the very thing that has been hanging above us, the thing that has been suffocating us both. The unspoken thing.“I don’t know what you are apologizing for.” She can't even look at me.“I am sorry for rejecting you, Ari.”The silence that stretches between us is deafening.Until she breaks it with a word th
