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2025-02-20 21:29:23
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I HATE ME TOO
ZADE“you mated her?”“livie, I did try not to but-““you mated her! You completed the bond, and now she is your mate. You two are linked for life,” Livie is pacing in my bedroom, hands pulling her hair roots.“I need you to stop moving and calm down first,” I try approaching her, but she shakes me off hard and steps back.This is what I was fearing. This is what I didn’t want to see: the betrayal that’s in her eyes when she looks at me.“How can I ever listen to you? How can I ever believe you ever again?”“because it doesn’t matter to me who my mate is! You are the woman I love; I don’t care about her.”She stops and looks at me blankly before she starts laughing. “what? You don’t love her? You love me, and I am the woman for you?”“livie,”“no,” she raises her hand and looks at the floor. “I mean, I am the woman who has your love, right? What does it matter if I don’t get what I have wanted from you since I was ten? I mean, I have all your love, and nothing else matters.”“livie.”
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-20THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS TELL ME I AM ENOUGH
OLIVIAI have lost to her.Isn't it crazy how I have been labeled the obsessed one, the evil one in this story so far? Isn't it crazy how I have lost everything I have worked for my whole life? How cruel it is that perhaps this isn't my story, that I am not a main character in this lifetime.I am the quickest to point fingers at. Blame me for being cruel and mean, for being the girl who was obsessed with the Luna title and power. It is much easier to think of me as the bad guy because then it will make everyone else feel better about everything they are doing.“you are not breaking up with me.”My heart is breaking; I feel so much pain in my heart it is hard to breathe. Zade is looking at me with determination and fear. Fear that I feel is reflected in my eyes. What becomes of me now? Am I to be forgotten, and he will live happily ever after with her?What happens to me now? What happens in my life?“how can I be with you when you belong to another?” I fist my blouse above my heart. “
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-21THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I LOVE YOU COMPLETLY
ZADEShe tries to get away from me, but I only pull her closer to me as she stumbles on my chest. I wrap my arms around her, eyes closing as I kiss her head. A lone tear streaks down my cheek as I press her closer to me in a hug.“though good times and bad times, one thing you should know is that my love for you rings true,” my throat chokes up, but I don’t let her go. “we have to defy the odds, I will fight destiny, and prove myself to you.”She is shaking, crying as she presses her face into my chest.“I am going to show you that you are my only one.”Lifting her, her legs wrap around my waist, and bury her face in the nook of my neck. I start walking towards the massive bed in the middle of the room and sit down on it, livie on my lap.“I love you,” my hand pats her head, running it down her long hair before pushing it away from her face and gazing into that beautiful face. “I love you, Olivia Bates.”“I love you too.”I lean forward, kissing her tears, gathering her in my arms. Ol
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-21THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS SOCCER TURNS INTO A FIGHT MATCH
ARI“how fit do they need us to be?”“as fit as running off the teenage hormones to guarantee everyone is too tired to cause any problems.”“easy for you to talk,” I think my chest is carving in. I am in terrible shape, almost passing out after running one round on the track. “you get to sit on the bleachers and just watch as we die.”Mimi only pushes her glasses up. “with good reason. That field can turn into a hunger games sometimes. I would rather cheer you on from here.”“Where is the gym teacher anyway?” I look around, face crunching as I get my breath in control. I am a piss poor wolf, in awful shape human and wolf form.“I don’t know but your game is starting. You should run along.”“I don’t want to play with people who hate me. I don’t think I will be picked even if I showed up.” I start making my way up the bleachers before a whistle goes off behind me.“I guess that’s your cue.”“unbelievable.” Olivia is standing there, dividing the group into two teams, her skater skirt so
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-22THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS OFFICIALLY TOGETHER, RIGHT?
ZADE“she broke my nose!”I walk over to Olivia, leaving the unconscious girl alone as I kneel next to Olivia. “let me see.”Her bone is broken in two places. “it's going to hurt, so breathe in.” I snap the bones in place. She yelps in pain. “I am sorry. Are you hurt anywhere else?”“I think my arm is broken too.” Her left arm is limp on her lap.” she is a psycho. Did you see how she was just smiling even as she was being hit? Who behaves like that?”“don’t mind about her,” I align the bone with a snap and Livie winces. She is going to be all healed in five minutes.I look behind and see the teacher instructing two boys to lay silvers on a stretcher. They take her to the infirmary.“Can you walk?” I look back at Livie who is touching her face.“I am fine, I should go wash up and check if my nose is okay. I don’t want it to heal all crooked,” she stands up and walks off.With a sigh, I stand up and look at the girls who are all hurdled in a group talking about silvers.I walk in the op
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-22THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I AM GOING
ARIThe first thing I sense when I wake up is that I am not alone.Someone is flipping pages beside me. I open my eyes and turn to see who it is.“You're awake!”Mimi.I sit up touching the back of my head. I can't believe he hit me.“how long was I asleep for?”“mmh, about two hours. The classes are all done.”“Great,” I get off the bed and stretch. “why is everyone such a bitch in this school? We respect for you of course.”“you will get used to it.”“I don’t like how you say that,” I glance at her. “do you just sweep things under the rug because you don’t want to face them?”“Well yes. That’s me. I don’t like confrontation, I would rather die than put myself in that position willingly. But I do see how harsh they are to you. It's one thing to jump you but to hold a party and invite you to? Do they plan on killing you there?”That perks my interest. “what party?”Mimi looks like she has let something slip out. “oh, uh, no party. I never said anything about a party, what?”“you said
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-23THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS JUST WALK IN OR SHOULD I KNOCK?
ARICrowds are always jarring me.Loud noises and so much activity makes me feel like I am in the middle of a tornado and I can't escape it.Immediately I get near the massive black gate, the noises become more prominent. There is aloud heavy music playing somewhere in there, a stark difference from the dark, quiet path that leads to the residence.I look behind me, shoes scrapping on the pavement, and exhale. What do I need to do in there? I can be like Mimi, get in bed, finish my series, and sleep. Nothing will happen to me in the comfort of my bed. I didn't have to deal with this uncomfortable feeling or even the thought of how unpredictable things can get tonight.But I have been doing that all my life- laying low. In my comfort zone. I don’t want to hide anymore. I am itching to have some fun in my life and live a little and that means walking past the black gates and into that party.I dig in my blazer’s pocket and thumb the invitation card. Am I supposed to show it to someone,
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-24THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS MY DIMPLED GUIDE IS HOT
ARIEver since I stepped into this school, I have been seen.Eyes have watched me get stripped off, thrown to the ground, stomped on, and left there to lie in my own misery. They have seen too much. They have seen the emptiness, the desire to be seen by another that plagues me, the cracks in my soul.I didn't have anywhere to hide; still don’t.So whenever someone looks at me, they look at me like they know everything about me.Charming isn't looking like he knows me or knows of me. he is looking at me as someone who wants to know about me, from me.“are you going to take a drink?”I am still holding the cup. It smells horrible. I think I make a face because he starts chuckling. “it's supposed to smell like that but it makes you feel good.”“does it taste as it smells?”“worse.” he purses his lips and nods. “it tastes way worse.”I raise my eyebrows at him in curiosity. “I thought you would have encouraged me or even lied about it.”“I don’t want you to hate me when I have just met yo
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-24
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS ALL OR NOTHING
ARI“What's going on inside this little mind?” his voice is so close to me, nose brushing my temple.I should feel something. A tingle, but I am so damn tired. All I want is to sleep, forget that I exist for a few hours before I start going back to my life. I can't escape it anymore, now can I?“Nothing,” I sigh. “I am just a little sleepy.”Is he expecting more from me tonight?I wish I had the girls with me. They would allow me to be in your space. Maybe I should call them, text them, but I don't have my phone. I remember crashing it in the hotel suite before I walked out into the traffic.Maybe I am not as okay as I think. But getting a grip is important.If I am going to avenge and face the people who ruined me to begin with, I can't let go of the reality. I need to be focused and work hard to make sure they don’t destroy me before I destroy them.I know I am not going to come out of it. The plans I made to go study law as further studies, get out of the pack and live my life as a
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS BROKEN DOLL
ARIMy life is a mess.It’s a fucked life, painful, dry, bland, void of colour.I am ugly too, rotting slowly inside, underserving of anything good because that’s just what is set in stone for me.Despite it all, despite feeling all of that, as Zade looks at me like I mean something, like I matter … I can't help but want to be under that gaze for a longer time.He is looking at me how he used to look at Olivia, like he might love me, like I mean something. He wants to know if I am okay, taking care of me, a gentle, caring touch on my cold, withering soul.I don’t deserve it, and yet.I yearn for it. Crave it. I can't not shudder under it.“Do you want me to ask you?”Yes. I want him to ask me. I want him to push for me to tell him what's going on in my head. For him to fight for me. I am selfish like that. Mother didn’t say anything untrue, because here I am, asking and taking what doesn’t belong to me.I came into this life, took Olivia’s man under fate’s guidance, and yes. It hurt.
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WHY WONT YOU ASK ME?
ARII don’t think I have ever truly let myself think deeply about Zade, who is becoming, and his birthright. I am not one to attach my identity to the boy I am seeing or crushing on, and in this case, the boy I am mated to.But it's still heavy. I find it … sexy that he is already so mature, powerful too, and it's only going to get even better.Yes, I think I am crushing on Zade, and I can't control choking on my water once that fully hits me.“Are you okay?” he asks me as he rushes to my side, rubbing my back.“Yeah,” I wheeze out. “Guess I am a little surprised.”“Why?” he chuckles as he gets back to cooking.“The first thing someone sees when they see you is how spoiled you are.” That’s not true.The first thing I saw and felt when I first laid my eyes on him was just how magnetic and powerful he was. Yes, you could tell from miles away that he is wealthy, but it wasn’t the kind I got from the rest of the students.No, his was the quiet, generational wealth that just didn’t come fr
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS THIS IS STRANGE, BUT I AM NOT SAYING I DON'T LIKE IT
ARIIt’s weird.I woke up feeling this gut-wrenching painful reminder that I was still alive, that I am still feeling, and my mind is still as loud as before.I wasn’t ready to face myself, the world, or even reality, so I went back to sleep despite not knowing where I was. I could hear someone, a female, who would come and look after me once in a while. I should have been worried that a stranger was hovering over me.But I didn’t care. That’s how gone I was. I did manage to sleep more until I woke up again, and the tension in my temples was lessening.Someone was touching me like I was so fragile, and I could feel how gentle they were being. I knew it was Zade even before I could open my eyes.It felt better, the chatter, the exhaustion… it all lessened when he was around like this. It’s something I have come to notice, not ready to admit it yet, but it’s there.I could hear his thoughts. They were so unguarded, I wondered if he knew I could hear them, and it’s the first time I've be
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS FEED ME NOW
ZADEShe is so beautiful.I exhale softly as I sit on the bed, watching her sleep. I can't resist reaching out with gentle fingers as I push back her hair off her face.Her hands are tucked under her chin, pressed to her chest, her body curled in as if she is feeling cold or protecting herself from something.But she isn't feeling cold; her body temperature is higher, too, which prompts me to stand up and walk over to the screen door. I slide it open, and the soft light curtains let the air in, billowing soundlessly.I had this bedroom built with a terrace garden, so it feels like someone is sleeping in a garden. I know she will love it when she wakes up.I sit on the floor, watching her as she exhales softly once cool air hits her skin.She had a massive panic attack, and I wasn’t there to help her. The first one she ever had was when she saw me kill that crush of hers –something I don’t regret, but I do regret triggering it- and she broke down in the bathroom.I knew she didn’t want
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS IT'S ME AND YOU NOW
ZADEMercy.That word alone makes me hit her at the back of the neck as gently as I can, rendering her unconscious. I hold her limp body, my eyes on her now sleeping face, as I breathe hard.I am scared.I almost lost her a few minutes ago, and then watched her as she almost slipped out of her mind. I stand up as I carry her bridal style to my car, where I am parked. I don’t mind the eyes on me, murmuring bout the girl who almost got run over by walking to the busy highway.I secure Ari on the seat before I get in myself and drive away.I knew something was off, from the moment I saw her mother walking out of the hotel, minutes after I had dropped ari and then the coldness that overcame me like I had been pushed in an extremely icy frozen lake.I don’t think twice, taking her to my private home, somewhere no one knows, not even my father. She is still out cold, and I start to worry that I might have hurt her. Lying her gently on the bed, I clean her up, making sure she is comfortable
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS LET ME GO, PLEASE
ARISomething is breaking inside me.I can’t feel my touch, even as I touch my chest. I have gone numb, nothing truly registering as I sit on the floor, remaining in a state of static as she has left me.What you are doing is not worth it.Not worth it.Nothing is worth it.What do I do now?A murderer. A misguided child. Doing things that I shouldn’t, wrecking her life.A broken wail escapes my lips as I hunch down, feeling like I am taking my first breath.This is not how it was supposed to go. How can this happen? I killed someone, but I don’t know why. I don’t know why I keep getting angry, like I am in a cage, and when I am let out, I lash out at the first person closest.I wish I could stop, remember myself, and stop getting so angry, to stop my actions before they are thrown back at me, like I am going crazy and need to be put down.Everything I am doing feels wrong. Everyone keeps telling me that I am doing the wrong thing the wrong way.I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS IT'S ALL PILING UP, I DONT THINK I WILL MAKE IT OUT
ARIMy phone starts to vibrate incessantly, but I choose to ignore it.Everything is overwhelming. From this car ride, to the boy sitting next to me. I just want to be alone, maybe stare at the wall in silence for hours until I feel like I am coming back to myself.But it won't stop, now starting to ring nonstop. I sigh, picking it up and seeing that my mother has sent me a bunch of texts, starting calm, asking if she can talk to me until they all progress, calm evolving to anger.“Stop calling me,” I say as soon as I answer the tenth call.“Where are you?”“Why?”“I need to speak to you,” she sounds like she is out of breath.For a second, I thought the bad guys who had been chasing us had come back, and she was in danger.“Are you okay?” I sit up, alert. “Are you in danger?”“No, but we need to talk immediately. If not, I will go to your dorm and then we can talk there, but I am sure you don't want people to eavesdrop on this conversation.”My heart is hammering, and I can feel the
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WE BOTH KNOW I WAS HEADING HERE
ZADEI don’t think twice, swerving the car by the side of the road and killing the engine. It happens all too fast, and Ari is heaving fast, palm pressed on her chest as she looks at me like I have lost my mind.Maybe I have, but I can't have this conversation while driving.“Why did you stop? Let’s get going, I need to get my car back and go on about my day.”“I am sorry.” It comes out in a whisper, where I bow my head, forehead pressed on the wheel.“Call it even, I left you for dead anyway,” she says, sitting back.“I am sorry,” I repeat, this time a little louder. When she doesn’t say anything, I turn my head to her. She is looking anywhere but at me.She knows what I mean, it’s the very thing that has been hanging above us, the thing that has been suffocating us both. The unspoken thing.“I don’t know what you are apologizing for.” She can't even look at me.“I am sorry for rejecting you, Ari.”The silence that stretches between us is deafening.Until she breaks it with a word th
