For the first time, she didn't cry as she walked away from him.She didn't crave his attention. She didn't want to be held in his arms as she cried because of him. She was better than that.She kept hurting herself over and over again and went in blaming him for her mistakes. If she had read the contract and toon it seriously they would never be in the place that they were.The footsteps she heard behind her proved to her that she was not done. The only difference was that she was not expecting him to tell her how she loved her.She did not want to hear that from him. All she wanted from him was respect because no matter what they felt towards each other she was still his wife at the end of the day."Am driving you to work ", he said and she didn't object she just walked to his car and entered the passenger seat, and waited for him to enter the car.The silence didn't last that long before he started speaking."Am so sorry I hurt you it was not my intention. I know how you feel about
As she went to the elevator it was then it hit her. She had lied to him again.Her heart had melted the moment he had said that he wanted her. She had felt that finally, he was going to love her right.That was not what he had said though. He had told her that she was the most amazing person yet he couldn't love her the way that she wanted to be loved.She had wanted to tell him that he was being selfish by telling her that. He was being selfish by expecting her to wait around till he learned how to love her the way she wanted.There was a time when if he had told her though he would have jumped in excitement and told him how she would wait forever if need be.She did not feel that so even if her heart still craved him she had started to love herself a little.He didn't deserve her at all and she knew that but somehow still kept him around. She was so disappointed in herself all over again but it was all done with."Are you okay ?", he asked her.She had forgotten for a second that th
The opening of the door startled Vincenzo as he looked up to see it was Anna .age glanced at the couch in his office where Briana was sleeping and Anna's eyes followed too.She didn't say a word to him she just went to where Briana was sleeping and woke her up.He didn't know what was going on. He wanted to just let her sleep but it seemed she was beside herself given how angry she looked.He possibly couldn't have done something that wrong again when the elevator ride had been smooth."What is wrong with you ?", Briana asked the moment she opened her eyes and found it it was Anna who was waking her up."What is wrong with me? I would honestly like to know what is wrong with you because it's always something new you're pulling with me and I have heard enough of it ", said Anna as she started pacing around the room.It caught Vincenzo's attention because she was not a person who was quick to anger and seeing Briana wouldn't have made her that mad."Can you please calm your wife, she go
As she left his office her hands were shaking. The anger was rising and she needed to calm down.She went to the washroom and stared at herself in the mirror. She could see the anger subsiding from her eyes as she tried to collect herself.She tried smiling but it looked like it was forced. The door of one of the stalls opened and she realized who it was. It was the woman who had sat with her on the floor when she had a panic attack.The woman recognized her and smiled at her."Did it happen again ?", she asked still smiling."Yeah it did, we must stop meeting like this ", Anna said as she chuckled."I never see you around though and I understand the people here can make you lose your mind ", she said as she lined against the mirror."Well am Anna, what's your name ?", Anna asked her and she felt stupid for asking that.She had never had a friend before so she didn't know how this worked out."Am Maggy I work down at finance ", Maggy said as she smiled at Anna."Well I work as the bos
As Anna made her way through campus she could feel the eyes on her but there was nothing that she could do about it.The only good thing was that she knew the lecture hall she was going to so she didn't have to ask anyone for directions.She wanted to know what the people who kept looking at her were thinking about. She could guess what most of the girls were thinking about.Everyone knew who she was married to so it was obvious to assume that she was with him for money.Sometimes she wished that all she ever wanted was money though. She wanted love and money. She wanted someone to talk to, someone who would listen to everything she wanted to say even if they didn't understand half of it.That wasn't what the people were talking about though. Everyone was wondering why she had someone following her.Raul looked like a scary dog behind her as he carried a bag that contained her food. It's not what she had wanted though.She had suggested that he waited in the parking lot until her clas
Anna was all smiles as she left her lecture hall she did not even bother to find Raul.It wasn't because the lecture was amazing or because she had understood everything she had been taught. Dylan was the reason.She wondered how was going to end as she walked to the parking lot smiling.She was patiently waiting for the time to reach so he could go see him.Was she cheating? She asked herself but there was no way going to see him would lead her to cheat.The moment that thought struck she remembered what had transpired the night before. The just in his eyes was something she had never seen before.She could feel a tingling sensation between her legs but pushed it away but she couldn't take him out of his mind.She remembered how his eyes had raked over her. She had wanted him to touch her so badly but was scared of what was going to happen next.She knew she wanted it to happen but yet again she didn't want to regret it after it happened.It was then she realized she wasn't doing it
Anna staggered as she entered the house and couldn't help herself but chuckle. Dylan came to her side immediately and held her hand ."I can walk on my own ",she said as he yanked her hand away from his ."It doesn't look like it ",he said stifling a chuckle as Anna tripped herself at the bottom of the stair ."Can you help me get to bed ?",she turned to look at him .She had never really taken time to look at him,to study his features .He stood tall above her and she thought of herself as a child as she looked up at him.His hair was a mess on his head ,but it was never like that that she knew .The buttoned shirt he was wearing was bulging as he filled it and she couldn't help herself but stare at his arms .As he walked closer to where she was standing her eyes followed each step he made . He walked so gracefully."Is something wrong with my outfit ,why are you staring ?",Dylan asked Anna as he observed her eyes on him."No it just needs to stay off",she said as he scooped her up a
Anna made her way downstairs where Dylan was already prepping what they were going to need while baking.She couldn't help the smile that spread across her lips as she watched him try to make sure they had everything.She had never baked before even though she always wanted to. He looked so concentrated she didn't want to disturb him so she just pulled a stool and sat down.He knew she was in the room but they didn't always have to talk. The silence wasn't defending though. It was a comfortable silence.She sometimes wondered if it was possible to love two people.She knew what she felt for Vincenzo. What she felt for Dylan was a mystery though. She knew she felt something for him though.There was peace when it came to Dylan. Something that she had never experienced with Vincenzo before."Come on ", Dylan said as he handed her an apron."What are we making ?" she asked him."A birthday cake ", he said as he helped her tie her apron around her waist.She couldn't help the chuckle tha
VANESSA'S POV. The silence in the car as we drove over to Austin's house did not bother me. I did not know how I was even going to tell him. I was pregnant.I didn't know how he was going to react. I knew what my choices were but they were not what I wanted. I had never been in such a position before so I had no idea what to do. I had never even thought I would get pregnant, to begin with. I had turned into what I had hated. I had turned into my mum and I hated that discovery. It wasn't like she wasn't a good person or a good mum, she was just sad. She had spent all her life being a mum and I did not want to be her.We were her everything it was as if her life revolved around us. We were all she knew and I sometimes wondered what would have happened if she had never gotten pregnant with me.I always wondered what her life was like in another lifetime. Did she get to pursue her dreams and get everything she always wanted?Was she happy?What did she even look like? My father was th
VANESSA'S POV "Positive "A world that could be so much, good and bad. I still hadn't wrapped my head around it. I stood there like a zombie. I could see the blondie's mouth moving but I could not hear anything she was saying.I felt like I was caged and I couldn't breathe. My vision was starting to get hazy and my legs weaker as I stared at the test that was clutched in her hand.It couldn't be true there was no way it was true.It couldn't be positive maybe she had read it all wrong. I could feel the world closing in on me.I wasn't even crying anymore I just stood there in shock as someone who had found out someone had died."Vanessa ", she said tapping me and I turned to look at her. It was only then that I allowed the tears to flow."It can't be true ", I said amid tears."Baby it's true ", she said as I sat down on her bathroom floor. I didn't care if it was clean or dirty I just wanted to sit down before my legs gave up. It can't be. I couldn't have just ruined my life like t
Tick ...tock.I had a raging headache and I was all to blame. My body hurt and I wondered if I had gotten into a fight. I opened my eyes and immediately regretted it. Why would anyone open their windows after a night out?Wait where was I?I opened my eyes this time round I did not care if they stung. I was not at my place and neither was I at either of my friend's places.I could feel a body beside me and I was scared. What had I done?Did I come home with someone?"Calm down it's me ", an unfamiliar voice said and I wondered why they would. think I know them.I turned around to come face-to-face with her. Her blonde hair was even prettier when it was in a messy bun. Her button nose sat perfectly on her pretty face."What am I doing here ?", I asked her as I sat up. "Sleeping, what does it look like you're doing ", she said scoffing. "I meant what am I doing at your place why am I not at my house ?", I asked her.I had no recollection of the night before. Everything was a blur a
VANESSA'S POV. A MONTH LATER.It had been a month since it had happened and I was starting to be happy again. I had gotten out of my depressive episode. I was going back to school and I was finally starting to make friends, life couldn't be any better. I rarely thought about him. He had forgotten me and I was trying to forget him. I did not miss him, I just missed some. moments we had.I had seen him around but he was ignoring me the same way I was avoiding him, not that I wanted to talk to him.My friend never mentioned him and no one ever asked what led to our separation they were just glad it had ended.As I stared at myself in the mirror I smiled at myself. There was no way I was going to let a stupid boy make me sad.He had started dating the blonde girl and was walking around with her just like a trophy.He had not even waited for a day to go out with her after we had ended things, showing how much he had loved me.I had lost so much weight in the month that I did not even r
VANESSA'S POV. "You're not being fair you know ", he said and I was taken back a little."Please tell me how am not being fair 'cause I would honestly love to know ', I said."I loved you and you knew that. You are just here talking about all the bad things I ever did what about the good things? Didn't they mean anything to you ?", he asked me."I didn't say you didn't do anything good. Just because you loved me doesn't mean I felt loved by you. Most of the time I felt unlovable, you even told me once during an argument I would never find anyone who loved me the way you did ", I said to Uim and he looked like he was shocked."You loved me in your language or another girl's version. Just because whoever you were with before me preferred things a certain way doesn't mean that is what I like too ", I said to him.Were all boys dumb?I couldn't believe there was a time when I had wanted a family with him. I had seen myself with him for years with kids and being happy in love. Maybe it wa
THIRD POVThe truck outside told him what he already knew. Scarface was in the house. He hated the days when they got to see each other. One could think that he hated his brother but for some reason, Scarface hated Raul more than anyone he had ever encountered in his life including the people he worked with.He forced a smile as he opened the door to the house and he could hear lively chatter from the kitchen and wondered who was in there.He saw Scarface in the living room and there were seconds of silence as the two brothers stared at each other as they both waited for one of them to break the ice.Raul could not blame his brother for hating him."Hello I didn't know how you were coming around ", Scarface said as he shifted from the place he was sitting and his face scrunched in pain.Raul could not even start to say sorry or tell. he knew he knew how he felt cause he didn't. Every time Scarface saw Raul he wanted to rip him apart. There was nothing in this world that Raul could
The smile on her face did not match what she was feeling on the inside. There was a fire inside her that was burning. She could feel everything in her collapsing but she couldn't let people see her like that.She couldn't be weak. She was a woman. If she cried she was going to be branded like a weak person. She hadn't gone through everything that she had gone through just to be called weak.She smiled.Smiled and pretended that everything was going okay cause what was she going to do?Was she supposed to sit in bed and cry herself to sleep? That was like giving up and there was no way she was allowing herself to fall into that cycle.She waited to have that longing to go back to Vincenzo but it was but there. She felt nothing for him.It wasn't hate and neither was it live She was just dining and for some reason that made her sad. He was someone that she had planned her future with. Someone that she had wanted to start a future together with. To have a family with. As she said this
I always wondered what it felt like to have everything you ever wanted. What it felt like growing up in an environment where you were loved.It was an environment where you were allowed to be a kid and do what other kids did. I never had that and maybe that's why I felt like there was something in me that was broken.I had wanted that life too. I wanted to have a mom and dad that loved each other not ones that wanted to kill each other.Was it fair?Was it fair that I was put in that situation as a child? Sometimes I sat down and thought to myself and said maybe she didn't know.She didn't know that any of those things were going to happen but that did not excuse her.Was I being mean for blaming her for putting us in such a situation?I know people said things like it's their first time being a mom or a parent but weren't parents supposed to protect their children?She didn't and every waking day it was all I could think of. The things that I could have avoided if she had fallen in l
Some people are born sad. There's no reason as to why they are like that it just happened. They bruise easily and cry easily. Raul was that kind of person.There was a reason why he was the way he was. He was closed and people found him to be exciting at all.It was hard to be a chirpy person when you didn't even have a childhood.To him, he was still the sad little bit that he was while growing up.I think that it's best if everyone had their childhood while growing up. A childhood where they could play with people their age and not worry about how things were going to be at home that evening.Running around with friends chasing the sunset as if that was the last day they were going to see the sunset.It was so sad not to have that. I wish every child could be able to have that freedom as a child. Not them to have to worry if they had something to eat at home.No matter how much people tried to blame their parents for everything they did, maybe they were also clueless.They were pare