Seeing the garden is suddenly the last thing on my mind. Crawling back into Jade's lap and having him feed me seemed to be a lot more enjoyable way to spend the morning. He appears to understand what I'm thinking based on the curvature of his lips.But, with Sam presumably staring at me and Jade and wondering what happened, I push myself to resist temptation.I anticipated him to treat me differently after I broke down and wept myself to sleep. I expected to treat him differently because he was the one who compelled me to speak. But he wasn't attempting to harm me. I'm not sure how I know it, but I do, and it feels weird to be furious at him when I've slept better in the previous few nights than I have since I woke up in the hospital."Finn is wandering around out there," Dan says as I move over to Sam, who is waiting for me at the doorway. "So it's safe."I turn to face him and grin. "Thanks, Dan."He returns my grin, and as usual, it makes me want to trust him.I'm still not sure wh
I come to a standstill and then wonder why I'm stopping at all. "What did you not mean?" Because there are a couple of things you've said that I hope I could forget."I lock my eyes shut and fold my arms across my chest, biting my bottom lip in the hope that it would be enough to quiet any more remarks I should keep to myself.Why are you provoking a shifter that has previously attempted to murder you twice?"You're right," he acknowledges.If this is how an alpha's apology looks, it's deficient. Significantly deficient.Anger eats at my ankles, causing me to turn when I know the last thing I should do is face this alpha who wears costly fitted shirts, conceals his emotions behind a mask, and bears too much likeness toDarius for me to want to spend even a second with him.I fold my arms and push them against my chest like a shield, meeting his vivid green glare. He stands with his hands in his pockets, staring at me with those brilliantly bright eyes. "It's not what you said that irr
"You still haven't told me what that is," Jade said earlier in the Cerberus. "Jade said..." I come to a halt because my mouth is too dry, so I swallow while I search for words that have chosen to forsake me.Dan waits with the same patient expression on his face.Then I realize what I'm up to. Or not doing anything.I'm sitting cross-legged on Dan's bed, wearing Jade's shirt, settling into a house that isn't mine and a life that can't be mine.Darius is likely to burst through the front door soon. He'll be bringing his pack with him. They'll rip Jade, Dan, and Finn apart, and he'll take me back.What exactly are you doing, Amanda? Why are you acting as if the threat has passed?I scoot to the edge of the bed, unwrap my legs, and set one foot on the floor, ready to rise. Dan arrives before I can, one moist hand clutching my right forearm as he lifts me to my feet.He refuses to let me go. "What do you want, Amanda?"I want to block my eyes, ears, and thoughts from anything awful for a
His lips brush against mine, and I hold my breath, the throb of my pulse pounding loudly in my mind.He brushes his lips against my scars, which I shall bear for the rest of my life. "A word, Amanda," he says against my throat before placing light lips on my skin, releasing the tension in my body.What exactly does he mean?My eyelids flutter shut as I shake my head. That feels fantastic."To stop." His fingers brushed on my hip. "Give me one."How can he expect me to think when his lips are on my throat and his hand is brushing up against my naked hip?"I…" His fingertips whisper under my shirt and skim across my stomach before stopping less than an inch from the underside of my right breast. When he glides his hand back down to my hip, I let out a breath I hadn't realised I was holding."You?" he asks, raking his fangs softly across my throat before soothing the little burn with a leisurely swipe of his tongue."Why not just no?" As he trails more kisses up my jaw and up to the corn
My want is so strong in the air that I can smell the musky perfume of my arousal.I return my attention to Dan and wait for him to tell me what he wants. Because he desires something.My gaze falls downward, and I notice him. He's not as thick as Jade, but he's long and golden, and he makes my fingers ache to touch him, to see whether he's as warm and silky as he appears.His fingers tighten around my chin, and he raises my head to meet my gaze. "A distraction," he says softly, smiling. "That's all there is to it." Amanda, this is all about you."And then he waits, as do they both, for the phrase that will inform them I want to quit. This is all over with only one name. Dan would let me go, giving me my clothing, and I'd go to my room and sleep.All you have to do is speak Finn's name, and this bizarre fantasy of two guys sharing this bed with you will be over.Jade takes a big breath. "Hunger."I'm afraid to look at him. Instead, I keep my gaze fixed on Dan."Need. That's what I'm ge
In a strong kiss, Jade's lips seize mine. "You can." His eyes are filled with amusement. "You remember your word?""Yes.""Tell me right away. So I know you recall.""Finn," I introduce myself."You're a good girl. "Turn right now." Jade smiles as he slips his hand on my lower back and pushes his fingers into my skin, bringing me flush against Dan's chest.I wait for Jade to shove his thick length deep within me, but instead, his hands brush over my ass in a hard massage, again and over.Dan gently massages his hands up and down my back, as if to soothe me. It begins to function after a few seconds.But as Jade gets closer and closer to my entrance, I stiffen myself, ready myself for agony.The tip of his smallest finger brushes against my passage but doesn't enter, as if he's getting me acclimated to the sensation of having him touch me there."I need you to relax for me, angel," rumbles Jade.I take a big breath, hold it, and then exhale, intending to release all of my stress with i
Until the snarls in my skull reminded me that whatever was wrong with my wolf was still wrong with my wolf. Accepting that Dan was correct that Amanda belonged to us all hasn't altered that.It helped me make my decision. It's not easy. But it's simpler.I promised myself that we'd deal with Darius and then I'd go before my wolf attacked Amanda for the third time and killed her. In the meanwhile, I'd continue to avoid her. It would be in everyone's best interests if I did.I went about my days and nights, trying not to think about her, avoiding Jade and Dan's attempts to draw me into any conversation involving her, and failing. Even when Amanda would sleep, allowing us the freedom to plan for Darius's attack, one look into Jade's amused grey eyes and Dan's perceptive hazel stare told me they knew I was still thinking about her.And then I saw her, clad in Jade's white t-shirt, skinny naked legs, her hair loose and a bit wavy over her shoulders, looking stunning. As lovely as she'd app
I wait, but the argument in Jade must have died down since he doesn't respond.Another transformation in Jade to lie at Amanda's feet.He'd have gone out there and done whatever the fuck he wanted before Amanda, regardless of what I said. But he's thinking about someone other than himself now. He's considering her.I push open the door. "Sam told her about Monica." If she approaches you with questions—" "I know what to say," Jade says. "We all know what to say."I nod and return inside."You haven't told her that the only reason I was able to save her was because you knocked Darius away." She could be more forgiving if she understood how important you were in her rescue.""She might," I concede.It's not as if I haven't contemplated it, just to dismiss it a split second later. She could perceive me differently. But she could assume I'm telling her she owes me anything for saving her life.That's not going to work to gain her forgiveness.I enter and proceed to the stairs. Halfway ther