I left Atlas in the kitchen after I said those words. I felt like if I stayed longer, my tears would stream down endlessly. I'm not mistaken, because after a few steps, my tears fell.
It hurts.
It hurts because I know that I'm just forcing myself to not be hurt by everything that's happening. I know that I'm cheating on myself, making me believe I'm strong and I will fight. But the truth is. . . I'm already wrecked, and I don't know if it's still possible to fix.
I walked straight to my room. I locked my door before I sat on my bed. I held my chest and tapped it gently. My tears kept on falling and I could hardly breathe.
I asked myself if I should just be like this everytime? Crying and hiding? Be
Seconds passed before I managed to push Ramn away from me. My eyes were wide as I looked at him. I can't utter a word. I was too baffled by what happened. I don't know what to do first, slap Ramn or meet Atlas' eyes that's been boring holes in my skin.I blinked many times to calm my raging heart. But, the moment I tried to say something to Ramn was the same time I felt someone grab my waist. The man behind me punched Ramn straight to his face.I blinked again. Even if I keep on denying, I know that my heart's not deceiving me. I know who's the man behind me because the scent of his musk has been engraved in my soul."Fuck you, moron!" Atlas shouted angrily. He pulled me out of the pool and carried me like a sack. I heard him cursing under his breath while I am still s
Atlas kissed me rough. Like he could erase his anger through a kiss. I tasted the blood from my lips. I badly wanted to push him away but just like every time, I couldn't. His arm was snaked around my waist while his other hand held my head.I shook my head when he let go of my lips. My eyes were full of begging while staring at him. He was staring at me, too. I forcefully pushed his body using my hands."No, Atlas. Please," I whispered.Atlas shook his head and pulled me close to him. He bit my lower lip so I'll ope n my mouth. It hurts, but after a while, it changed. Its rhythm became calm, like it was enthralling me. Like every pain he inflicted can vanish because of it.I closed my eyes. My body was almost froze
I glanced at my wristwatch. I shook my head when I saw the time. It is exactly three in the afternoon. One hour before meeting with Montreal.I sighed. I still can't believe that gay attorney made me agree. He used his scheming tactics on me, except for my interest when I heard Trina's name who was behind everything.I balled my fist. She will never get away with this. I've had enough. I already accepted the reality that she's Atlas' mistress, but I could never accept her attempt to humiliate me. I will make sure that she'll pay.After some time, I brought my attention back to the papers that are scattered around my table. I looked into it one by one. Being a good psychiatrist in the Metro means having the biggest responsibility. I had things to take care of and things to hi
Kraius and I ended up at a resto near BGC. It's already past six in the evening. We both felt hungry so we agreed to just eat dinner. We ended up at a turkish restaurant. I was a bit surprised when he said that he's half turkish.I ordered my usual salad and steak. I'm not really a fan of heavy foods in dinners. I'm usually fine with just juice and lettuce. Kraius, on the other hand, ordered a Kebab and Köfté. We both like orange juice."Is that fine with you? No wonder, you're so thin," he playfully said, his brows were raised at me. He was holding a fork with kebab."Stop staring," I scoffed.I brought my attention back to my food but Kraius was really a bother. I can feel his intense gaze towards me.
I've been awake for a while, but I didn't want to get up. My mind is being clouded with so many uncertainties. Questions that I don't know if I should find out or just let it be.I sighed and glanced at Atlas who's at the other side of the bed. His back was facing me and he looked like he's still sleeping.It's such a dream to see the both of us sleeping on the same bed. Just like the other couples, we also had a normal relationship. We may fight, but in the end, we'll still go home to each other's arms.I hope everything's that easy. We wouldn't have hurt each other. The wound in my heart wouldn't have deepened. I wouldn't have endured the little love I've been begging for.I sighed and looked at the bedside
"Olive, my dear! The house looks so beautiful."I smiled when I saw the happiness in Atlas' mom's face. Even if Atlas and I fought earlier, I still picked the best decorations based on my taste. No word had been uttered in the whole duration of our stroll around the mall.I chose to shut my mouth up because I know that every word I'll say, it will just be neglected by Atlas. He already concluded everything. His mind is closed for my explanations. It hurts, especially when I hoped that we'd at least treat each other better.I shook my head and sighed. I'm still the same woman that can be easily swayed by the man I love. I quickly hope for something, and even if I'm mad, I still can't deny the fact that I love Atlas. My heart has been a slave for him that after ten years
I drank until my heart's content. I have a high alcohol tolerance so I can still walk straight even if I already drank a lot. My sight was still clear, although my head started to hurt.I glanced at my wristwatch. It's exactly twelve midnight but the bar is still alive. Atlas and Trina already left. Although it pained me, I still stared at them as they walked out of the bar.I'm a masochist for I endured all the pain. I already accepted the fact that I would never win Atlas. I already lost even if the fight hadn't started.I shook my head and smiled bitterly. I've been inside my car for quite a time now but I don't know where I should go home, or if I still have a home. I don't know where to place myself anymore. What am I supposed to do?
My forehead crumpled into a frown. I fought his stare with the same intensity. Even if his grip was too tight and painful, I didn't back down. I forced myself to show that I'm not scared of him."Why, Atlas? Did you ask for my permission when you had your mistress?" I stopped and chuckled. "Are you scared that you'll see your own ghost?" I said sarcastically."You can't do that to me, Olive." His voice had a threat. He gripped my arm tighter."If I want to cheat, I will cheat, Atlas. I don't need approval from you!" I emphasized my words. I forced myself to get off from Atlas, and I didn't fail. I abruptly pushed him, which made him lose his balance a bit. I took that opportunity to enter my car.I instantly locked