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Chapter 41: Facing the World
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2025-03-15 18:48:01Selena’s POV
I was laying in bed for hours after Elijah left, staring at the ceiling while silent tears slipped down my cheeks. Eventually, the tears ran out and all I was left were my thoughts and emotions. This was why I was convinced that divine punishment was to be trapped in one’s own mind because this was hell! My thoughts were all so dark and vile, telling me how worthless and naive I was. How I was nothing but a foolish little girl, hanging onto a dream my whole life, instead of doing something to change my life…
Even if it killed me!
My emotions didn’t clear things up much for me. They were like an ever-tipping seesaw, teetering on a razor’s edge. One moment, I was angry at Rain for hiding who he was from me. The next, I was angry at myself for not seeing the truth sooner.
How could I have been so blind?
A bitter laugh bubbled up, but I swallowed it down. Of course, I hadn’t se
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Surrogate to the Blood Alpha Chapter 42: Shattered Dreams
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Selena's POV“Was there something you want to say?” Katie snapped, turning my attention back to her. Locking gazes with her, I could see that she was itching for a fight. Unfortunately, one hit from her and I would be down for the count. But if this bitch wanted to throw down, who was I to deny her?“Just wondering if you felt like this before or after you cheated on your mate,” I replied, knowing that while I wouldn’t physically hurt her, I could still shatter egos. “Several times, I might add.”She looked like I’d just slapped her. Wolves frowned and a couple of judgmental glances were shared across the room. Like I said, to most wolves the world began and ended with their mates. Betraying their bond and the sanctity of the Goddess’s gift was frowned upon by the majority of all packs.Looking at Katie, I could tell she was fuming. But she couldn’t deny it in a room full of were
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Selena's POVInstinctively, my hand drifted to my belly, pressing lightly against the barely-there swell, as my mind filled with thoughts about the small life inside. A tiny, fragile existence that had no say in the cruel world it was being brought into.My body shivered, as the realization of what this meant slowly sat in. Soon, Katie would be pregnant too and when that happened, she would see my child as a threat. She wouldn’t tolerate any competition to her baby’s birthright. And she would do anything to eliminate it!I couldn’t let that happen!So two things were clear to me now: there was no way I could ever tell anyone about the father of the child. And I could never let the baby near any werewolves. Sure, there was a chance that this baby would be like me – born wolf-less and with no way to protect themselves. But there was a slight chance that he would be born with a wolf...An Alpha Kin
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Selena’s POVHe knew!Rain knew about the baby…I was shaking from the inside out. Fear clawed its way up my spine and crushed its cold fingers around my throat, making it hard to breathe. My stomach twisted violently and I felt sick.He knew!He would never leave me alone now. He would follow me to the end of the earth and I could never be free. I would have to escape and live for the rest of my life looking over my shoulder. Wondering if every little sound was him coming back to blow my life up once more. Never knowing if I was safe. Never knowing if the people on the street were strangers…Or sent to kill us!And I couldn’t protect us! I was just a human. I didn’t have claws or canines to protect us. I didn’t have a wolf’s senses that could alert me to danger or their superior strength and speed. There was no way I could protect us from
