[Pasensiya na Ma'am. Nasa operasyon pa po kami noong tumatawag kayo kaya hindi namin masagot.] Sagot niya.
Huminga ako ng malalim at kinalma ang sarili. It's near 11 pm, nandito na ako sa condo ko.
"Kamusta?" Ngayoy kalmado kong tanong.
[Okay na po Ma'am.]
Napairap ako.
"Ikwento mo kung anong nangyari." Nakasimangot kong tanong. Ang tipid naman nitong sumagot. Hindi ko alam kung anong ibig sabihin niya sa "okay na po".
[Tama po ang lokasyon na panggagalingan ni Mr. Conrad. Hinintay po namin siyang lumabas sa building at sinundan. Nakorner po namin siya at dinala sa baba ng tulay. Tinutukan po namin siya ng baril sa ulo at sinabi ang pinapasabi niyo.]
"Tell me what you said." Baka pala nabanggit nila ang pangalan ko sa
Alasais palang ng umaga ay nakabihis na ako. Hindi sa maaga akong nagising, hindi ako halos nakatulog. Iniisip ko kung ano ba ang nangyari. Sabi nina Carlos at Joel ay successfull naman ang operasyong ginawa nila. Sabi nila ay natakot ang dalawa at nangako na iuurong na ang kasal nila ni Mama. But why the hell are they going to fetch me and visit a church together? Hindi ba dapat hiwalay na sila ni Mama at dapat wala na kaming koneksyon sa dalawa dahil hiwalay na nga sila. And this is just so sudden and unusual. Mama never invited me to visit a church together, she never asked me to attend a mass with her. Its not that hindi kami nagsisimba, pero ito talaga ang unang beses na inimbita niya akong magsimba at kasama pa talaga ang mag-ama. Sabi niya sa text niya ay alas-syete mag-uumpisa ang misa at alas-sais trenta nila ako dadaanan sa condo building ko. Hinihintay ko nalang ang tawag niya at baba na. I wore a black off shoul
Alasais palang ng umaga ay nakabihis na ako. Hindi sa maaga akong nagising, hindi ako halos nakatulog. Iniisip ko kung ano ba ang nangyari. Sabi nina Carlos at Joel ay successfull naman ang operasyong ginawa nila. Sabi nila ay natakot ang dalawa at nangako na iuurong na ang kasal nila ni Mama. But why the hell are they going to fetch me and visit a church together? Hindi ba dapat hiwalay na sila ni Mama at dapat wala na kaming koneksyon sa dalawa dahil hiwalay na nga sila. And this is just so sudden and unusual. Mama never invited me to visit a church together, she never asked me to attend a mass with her. Its not that hindi kami nagsisimba, pero ito talaga ang unang beses na inimbita niya akong magsimba at kasama pa talaga ang mag-ama. Sabi niya sa text niya ay alas-syete mag-uumpisa ang misa at alas-sais trenta nila ako dadaanan sa condo building ko. Hinihintay ko nalang ang tawag niya at baba na. I wore a black off shoul
"Don't mind what I mentioned earlier." Sambit ni mama sa gitna ng pananahimik ko. "Po?" Lito kong tanong. Tinignan ko siya at parang kinakabahan na hindi mapakali. "Sinabi ko kanina na nakipagbarilan sila, well, uhm, hindi naman talaga sla ang nakipagbarilan. There were just uhm, gunfiring na naencounter nila." Nauutal at tarantang sabi niya. I frowned, wondering why she's acting like this. "Ah... okay po." Alanganin kong sagot. Hindi ko naman iniisip iyon at wala na akong binanggit ulit tungkol doon dahil mula kanina ay hindi na ako nagsalita, takot na may masabing iba. Kaya ganito nalang ang taka ko nang biglang buksan nanaman ni Mama ang topic na 'yon. Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas ay nasa simbahan na kami. Sabay kaming bumaba sa van ni mama sunod si Conrad. Umikot ako sa sasakyan at nilapitan si mama. Tinignan ko kung marami na bang tao ang nagsisimba at baka wala na kaming maupu
"Where are we headed to?" I asked. Tinitignan ang daan sa labas. I mean I still know this area. Pero hindi ko alam kung saan nga bang restaurant kami kakain.Ma mentioned earlier na kakain kami sa labas. Wala akong matandaan na sinabi niya kung saan.Hindi ako nakarinig ng sagot kaya naman lumingon ako sa kanya. Nadatnan ko siyang nakatingin sakin. Napakurap-kurap siya saka umiling. Sumimangot ang mukha nang ibalik ang tingin sa daan. May regla ba'to? Ang asim ng mukha."Bakit ka umiling?" Tanong ko.Hinimas ko ang leeg ko pataas sa may batok. Kung tama ang nakita ko, nakatingin yata siya may batok ko bago ko lingonan at alisin ang tingin niya. Was it because of the lace?"I don't know." Supladong sabi niya. Napakunot ako ng noo."Ha?" Naguguluhan kong tanong."I don't know where. You don't know too?" He said.Nanlaki ang mata ko."Ano? Hindi mo al
Bakit ba sobrang kinakabahan ako? Hindi niya naman siguro kilala si Romar. At bakit ba? Ano ngayon kung tumatawag sa akin si Romar at ganon na nahuli niya?Wala naman akong atraso sa kanya non. I'm single and free to mingle. Masyado yata akong nagpahalata na may tinatago ako tungkol kay Romar sa kanya.Dahil linggo ngayon ay hindi talaga ako magtatrabaho. Kaya para malibang ay nanood ko sa netflix. Pero habang nanonood ay bigla nalang nag-iba ang emosyon ko.I remember what happened earlier. Iba na ang kasama naming magsimba. Hindi na si Dad ay katabi ni mama. And that was the first time, Ma asked me to attend mass with her, tapos ay may kasama pang iba, ang bago niyang mapapangasawa. At ang dahilan kung bakit sila nagsimba ay para magpasalamat dahil safe sila sa trahedyang ako ang may pakana.I only did that because I really don't want her to get married again. I don't want a new father. I only want Dad!I bit m
Shit! Was that really Kingsley? Tinignan ko ulit ang banda kung saan ko siya nakita but he wasn't there anymore. I tried to look for him pero hindi ko na siya nakita pa. Was I just hallucinating? Or I just thought it was him? "Why?" Takang tanong ni Rom sa akin. Hawak ko ang panga niya para hindi pa muna makahalik sa akin. "I think I just saw Kingsley." I said to him. Tumingin na ako sa kanya. He frowned and looked around. Hinahanap ang sinabi kong nakita ko na si Kingsley. "Wala naman." Sambit niya. Ibinalik niya ang attention sa akin at sinusunggaban nanaman ako ng halik. I swerve his kisses again. "Baka nandito siya." Sambit ko habang iniiwasan ang mga halik niya. Dumadapo ang labi niya sa pisngi ko minsan ay sa bandang leeg. "So?" He asked. Umirap ako sa ere. "Baka makita tayong magkasama." Sambit ko. Tumigil siya sa paghalik. "So what?" He said clueless. Inirapan
Ilang minuto akong tulala sa kinatatayuan ko. May ilang bumabati sa akin pero hindi ko na pinansin. Nanginginig ang kamay ko at sobrang bilos ng tibok ng puso. Shit! Alam niya, sigurado ako doon! Alam niyang ako ang nag-utos sa mga lalaking namgambush sa kanila. He mentioned about commanding and giving orders and also guns! "Tell your men to use real guns next time." Real guns! He emphasized real guns! Alam nilang peke ang baril na ginamit sa kanila! It's clear he wants to say to me that he knows what I did! Sinubukan kong lumunok. Parang ang lapot-lapot ng laway ko at hindi ako makalunok. I licked my dry lips and walked back inside the restroom. Naghugas uli ako ng kamay. Kung maari nga ay maghilamos ako ng mukha pero ayokong mabura ang make up ko. Baka magkalat pa sa mata ko ang mascara at baka magmukha pa akong adik. Itinukod ko ang kamay sa sin
Should I apologize? But I'm not sorry for what I did. If I talk to him, what should I say? Other than apologizing, what can I do to make him agree to keep what I did to them a secret from my mother? Hindi ko naman siya masusuhol ng gamit or ng pera. He's richer than me. Hindi 'yan masisilaw sa mga materyal na bagay. And he isn't the type that can be swayed by flowerful words. Susungitan lang ako nun at magkakasagutan lang kami. Noong gabing din iyon ay naisipan ko pang bumalik sa bar at kausapin siya, manghihingi sana ng pasensiya at makiki-usap na huwag niyang sabihin kay mama ang lahat. Kaso nga lang ay pinairal ko ang pride ko. At disoras na rin ng gabi kaya hindi na talaga ako bumalik. At baka makita pa ako ulit ni Rom, baka hindi ko na matakasan pa. Uminom pa ako ng wine pagkauwi para makatulog kaagad. Hindi ako titigil sa kakaisip doon kaya nilasing ko nalang ang sarili ko. I even called Ma, buti
-----fast forward----- ***Artia's POV*** "How about you two? Hindi niyo pa ba naiisipang magpakasal? You're on your right age naman. Maaari na kayong magpakasal." "Honestly, I've thought about that. Matagal na kayong magkasintahan, alam kong mauuwi kayong dalawa sa kasalan. Why don't you start planning about it?" Keep remembering it Artia. Keep thinking about it. About their conversation earlier on your dinner. Hindi kapa ba natatauhan? Even your mother and his father are pushing the two to get married. Hindi pa ba sampal sa iyo iyon? You should stop now, before you drown yourself you might not be able to save yourself. Nalulunod kana sa sarili mong patibong. Your great f*cking plan won't work. Ang tagal tagal na pero wala pang improvement ang plan mo. Ang sarili molang ang sinasaktan mo at isinusugal dito. Don't you think its time to back out? Now is the time to change your mind. Wake up, Artia! None of your plan will
Artia's POV Kinabahan ako, akala ko may nagwawala na. Akala ko sinadya ni KIngsley na basagin ang mga bote dahil sa ginagawa namin ni Iulian. But why would he do that? Mukhang wala naman silang pake kahit pa magsex kami dito ni Iulian. Sila nga naghahalikan din kanina. The wine from the broken bottle is spilled on the floor and flow down to the water pool. Some broken glasses fell down in the pool also. What happened became clear to me when I saw a cat near the bottles. Mukhang tumalon ito at iyon ang mga natamaan. Kingsley doesn't own a cat. Kanino kaya ang orange na pusang ito at bakit nandito? THe cat looked like the famous cat in the movie. I forgot the cats name. Mahihirapan akong alalahanin iyon lalo na't lasing. My eyes glance at the two. Courtney slightly in panic moving away from the pool. And then Kingsley, eyes blanked looking at us. When our eyes met he immediately looked away, turned around and left the pool too. I blinked
***Artia's POV*** I couldn't fall asleep why I decided to take a bath. After taking a bath I just wore a thin silk of dress and sat on the floor facing the mirror and resting my back against the table placed in the middle of my walk in closet. I stared at my own reflection in the mirror. From my face, to my body and back to my face. My lips trembled, and my eyes started to sting. I have the face. I have the body. But I have no one. Unlike Courtney, she have friends, she have Iulian and Kingsley beside her for years. She have Kingsley who's loving her. I bit my lips hoping I could stop it from trembling. Now I know the answer to my questions earlier. The kiss I shared with Iulian felt empty. I've kissed many guys, and the truth, it all felt empty. Ako lang itong naglalagay ng meaning at emosyon doon. Sa paraang iyon, nababawasan ang kalungkutang nararamdaman ko. Something really changed, because now I know and have realized that all those
***Artia's POV***Our lips touched and dance together. Just like the music being played, it was slow at first but then coped up with a steady pace. His lips are tender and warm just like Kingsley's lips but it didn't made the butterflies in my stomach fly. I was the one who cut the kiss.I stared at his lips, didn't want to stare at his eyes so he wouldn't see I was distracted while we are kissing. I'm confuse. Why do I feel like something is missing? Why didn't it felt good? Its not because he's not a good kisser, but I didn't enjoyed like how I enjoyed the kisses of Kingsley.Isinantabi ko muna ang mga katanungan na iyon. I should say something. Iulian might get offended with my reaction."Walang magagalit?" I tried to joke. I felt relieved when he chuckled."Sayo? Walang magagalit?" tanong niya pabalik may ngisi sa labi. Umiling ako at itinago ang pasimpling paglunok ng laway.I hope meron. Sana may magalit at sana ay si Kingsley iy
***THIRD P POV***"I feel better with you, next to me."It's strange, how he can remember the words she said. Kingsley looked away and turned his attention to his girlfriend. He didn't want to start a conversation with Artia now that Courtney, Iulian and their other friends are next to them.He just had an argument with his girlfriend, he doesn't want her to have another reason to argue with. Courtney might get jealous. Artia didn't talkedtoo since she really doesn't have anything to say. She stretch a small smile to Courtney, she smiled back but she know she's not really okay that she's here.She chitchat with Iulian and sometimes with the other guys whose name she can't remember. Well, she's not really interested, her mind is clouded with the couple next to her and the trauma Rom left to her.She's thirsty but she don't have the spirit to drink the glasses of alcohol served in front of her. She didn't voice it out. At kahit pa gustuhin man
Kingsleys POV"Bukod sa gusto kitang kasama, wala na akong ibang kaibigan.""Look out for, Artia.""I lost everyone. My Dad's dead. I have no more friends."I closed my eyes tightly hoping I get to focus and stop remembering her voices and those words she said and what her mother said to me too. It keeps visting my mind. I can't stop thinking about it.[Why do you have to take her with you?] I looked out of the window for a second. I can feel her staring at me, listening to my conversation with Courtney on the phone."We already talked about this." No matter how much I lower my voice she can still hear me. I glance at her and her face says it. She's asking if we are arguing.[Yes, we talked about it but I want us to talk about it again. I thought it will just be for a while. Don't tell me she'll come with us sa lahat ng lakad natin.]"Mamaya natin ito pag-usapan."[Fine! Let's just meet there. Hin
Artia's POV "What?" He asked stern now back to being suplado. It was only for a short moment but it was gold for me. Him laughing together with me. Staring at my eyes not to others. Finally he laughed with me. I can't hide the smile formed in my lips. I shook my head and looked away, not wanting him to see that I was too happy just seeing him laughing with me. My heart still feels like its floating in the air above the clouds. Butterflies inside my stomach flying around. Giving the feeling that I haven't felt for years now. "Nothing." I answered. He noticed I was staring at him for a long time why he asked me what. I admit I stared at him so intently. It was too obvious. I should've been careful so he wouldn't get back to being stern so quickly. "I feel sorry to Iulian. I didn't know it tasted so salty. Ang dami niyang kinain," mahinang sambit ko habang nilalaro gamit ang kutsara ang sinangag na niluto ko. Buti nalang pala at hindi si Kingsl
Artia's POV "I just want to say sorry too, about what I said yesterday. No woman wants to be disrespected and molested. Sorry." Parang naisama ko sa paglunok ko ang dila ko dahil hindi ako nakapagsalita. Parang lalabas na din yata sa d****b ko ang puso ko sa lakas ng tibok nito. Dang! What is wrong with me? Bakit ganito makapagreact ang puso ko sa ginawa niya? When I recovered I smiled sweetly at him and said, "Babe, its okay." I bit my lips after talking. Dang! Baka magalit ulit sa akin dahil sa pagtawag ko sa kaniya ng babe. Hindi ko naman sinasadya! It just slip out of my tongue. "You're forgiven." I said my voice automatically turned husky. Our eyes wandered at each other for a while before he looked away and walked. Akala ko ay aalis na siya pero napangiti ulit nang makita siyang sumandal sa may bar counter. I giggled and open the fridge to look at the sandwhich he made for me. Ngiting-ngiti ako habang tinitignan iyon at
Artia's POV "You two already kissed." Mula kanina ay hindi na ako tinantanan ng batang ito. She keeps on asking the same question over and over again everytime she sees me-- no she's following me. "Why are you so eager to know if we did kissed or not?" Gaya ngayon, sinusundan niya ako kahit saan ako magpunta. Kanina ay may kinausap kami ni Kingsley why we left her for a while. Pagkatapos doon ay naghiwalay kami ni Kingsley. I don't know where he went to and if he talked to someone but now I can see him and I'm walking towards his direction. "I heard the other girl is Kuya Kingsleys girlfriend. So if you two already kissed, maybe you seduced him to kiss you. Or you stole a kiss from him since you like him." Tumigil ako sa paglalakad at binalingan ang batang nakasunod sa likod ko. "I like him?" I asked. Parang sure na sure sa sinasabi niya. "Yeah. I can see it in the way you look at him