There's no class today but I'm so stressed. The thing that just happened days ago is still circulating inside my mind.
Mrs. Cambri's depressing face is what I can see right now. After General Cleofas sent us away, Mrs. Cambri cannot help but to cry. I want to tell her that we can still do something in order to save her son's life, but after the words of surrender came out from her mouth, I know that she already accepted her son's fate.
"Ugh! My head hurts!" I exclaimed while touching my head. I can't focus on what I'm doing. Instead of putting my attention on making my student's grades, I'm thinking about my student, Angelo Cambri.
What will happem to him? Will they execute him also?
I feel distraught just by thinking about my student. I can't believe that he has to suffer this kind of things in a young age. He is supposed to be in his home today, staying with his mother, but now he is inside a jail, alone and lonely, or maybe being beaten up by the Capital's police.
The ringtone of my phone stopped me from thinking more things. I looked at the screen and found out that Dhaile is the one who's calling.
I smiled and didn't answer the call. I let my phone ring until it stopped.
Seconds after the ringing ended, Dhaile called me again. I just laughed and click the red button.
She called me once again but just like earlier, I didn't answer the call. I'm sure Dhaile is now angry sick.
"10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5," I counted while having a small smile in my face.
"4, 3, 2, 1."
Someone kicked the door of my house that create a loud bang noise.
"You bitch!" a familiar voice shouted. I turned around to see her.
"Hi bitch," I greeted her back.
She walks towards me with her meeting eyebrows. She is clenching her fists and stomping her feet heavily. She stopped walking when she is already infront of me but the death stare remains.
"Why aren't you answering my calls, huh? Woman?" Dhaile asked with a raucous voice.
"Relax, Dhaile," I laughed after saying that words. "Your ears are turning red! HAHAHAHA!" I laughed once again. Just by seeing Dhaile's frustrating face, I can't help but to laugh loudly.
Her eyes became smaller like she is looking at someone that makes her mad. She is also gritting her teeth.
"Okay, I'm gonna stop now," I said and then holds my laughter. Well, I can see that Dhaile is dead serious now for she doesn't reacted like a child like what she is usually doing before.
"Are you done?" Dhaile asked with her normal voice.
"Yup," I nodded while I answered her.
"Okay," she pushed my waist using her butt so that she can sit on the same chair I'm sitting.
"Hey! You can just use the other chairs! I have plenty of them," I exclaimed at her since the two of us can't sit comfortably on one chair.
"Whatever," she replied while rolling her eyes.
"Are you mad?" I asked her using my childish voice. "Sorry," I hugged her. Well now I know that Dhaile called me because of something important.
"Next time, just answer my call. Load is too expensive nowadays," she answered without hugging me back.
"By the way, why did you call me?" I asked and go back to what I'm doing earlier.
"Well, today is Saturday," she said.
"Yeah. I know it's Saturday. What's the matter?"
"It seems like you forgot something," she replied.
I stopped typing on the keyboard.
"Huh? Is there a school event today?" I asked. I don't really have an idea what she is talking about. I looked at my schedule earlier when I woke up and I'm sure that there's nothing important today. My schedule said that all I have to do for Saturday is to make my student's grade.
"Girl, it's obvious that you forgot about it. Last time, Unah said that we're going to her house this Saturday for we're gonna continue our chitchat," she explained. "About the LGBT punishment, remember?"
"Oh," I said when I already remember what she is talking about. "I'm sorry. I forgot about it. I was just doing several things last time that I forgot to put it on my schedule," I answered.
"Okay, now that you remember it, fux yourself and we are going to Unah's house," she commanded while pushing me to the comfort room.
"We're going now? But it is still seven in the morning!" I protested.
"We need to go there early. I don't want to make Unah wait. Actually, she said that she will be the one who will give our food. So we will stay in her house until afternoon. Now, move," Dhaile said and pushed me inside the comfort room.
"Okay, okay. Calm down. I'm going to get my clothes," I said but Dhaile stopped me.
"No. I'll get those clothes for you. All you have to do is to take a bath. Make it fast, okay?" she said and then closed the door. I hear her footsteps to my room. I heard her opened the door.
I just don't mind it and started taking a shower.
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"Hi Unah!" Dhaile and I greeted her when we are infront of her house.
"Hi Casy! Hi Dhaile! Please come inside," Unah said while leading us inside her house.
"Woah," Dhaile reacted when we are finally inside Unah's house.
"Just sit on the couch. I'll get some food for you," Unah told us and leave me and Dhaile in the living room.
"Hey, Dhaile. You're too amaze. Is this your first time seeing a large house?" I asked her while she is exploring her sight inside Unah's house.
"Actually no, but I'm amazed for I didn't expect the Unah's house is this beautiful," she replied.
"Well, unlike you, I already expected this," I said.
"Huh? Why?"
"Dhaile, Unah is one of the Superior teachers in FNHS. Of course she is getting a high salary compared to us," I answered.
"You have a point, but still it's amazing for me. I want a house like this," Dhaile said.
I hear footsteps coming to us. I turned my sight to my right side and I saw Unah holding a tray of food.
"Here's your food. I bet you didn't eat your breakfast since you came early," Unah said.
The doorbell rang and Unah rushes to opem the gate.
"I bet that's Kate," Dhaile said and extend her arms to get some food.
I tapped her hand.
"Why?" she asked.
"Can't you just wait for the others to come so that we can eat together?" I asked her back.
"But I'm already hungry!" she exclaimed.
"Your tummy can wait, oh, here's Kate," I said when I saw Unah and Kate entering the house. "Hi Kate!" I greeted her with a smile.
"Hi Kate!" Dhaile greeted her also.
"Hello to all of you," she smiled to us back.
"Take a sit," Unah said to her before she went back to the kitchen. Maybe she is going to get foods for Kate.
Kate looked at me, worried. I don't know why she is looking at me like that.
"Kate? What's the matter?" I asked her.
"Are you okay?"
I was shocked because of her question. Her voice became so soft and sweet. This is the unusual of her.
"Yeah. I'm fine. What makes you think that I'm not okay?" I asked her.
"I know what happened to your student, Mr. Cambri. I heard the conversation of Madam Principal and Mrs. Avena," Kate said.
"Oh, about that."
Actually, I already forgot that when Dhaile went to my house, but since Kate said it again, I feel guilty again.
"I failed to save him," I said with a low voice.
"It's not your fault. General Cleofas is just too inconsiderate and hungry for power," Kate said.
"Uhm, guys? Mind telling me what happened?" Dhaile asked.
I looked at her. "I'm gonna tell you about that later."
"Casy," Kate touches and caress my shoulder. "Again, it's not your fault. You tried to help. Besides, the mother of your students isn't mad at you anyway. Don't worry about that."
"But that child will die," I said.
"We can't control that anymore. In this country, we are just the followers. We can do nothing but to follow orders."
"I agree to what Kate said," Unah stated. "Fighting back won't help. The people with powers and money are the superior, while the others are becoming slaves and victims of their cruelty," she added.I can't believe what I'm hearing from them. It looks like they already accepted that Felghana is a cruel country because of its government."Casy, don't mind the student. Never again. It's not your obligation. Besides, God is here. He knows what is the truth," Dhaile said as she stands up."Uhm, Unah, can I use your comfort room?" Dhaile asked."Oh yes. Just enter that way and you will see a blue door. That's the comfort room. The switch for the lights are inside," Unah answered."Thanks," Dh
"I don't know that you have that kind of past, Casy," Kate said."I just tell that story to the people close to me. Actually, Dhaile is the first one whom I told that story," I replied. "That's kinda terrifying, and also traumatic, but atleast I already overcome that," I added."That's sure traumatic. Imagine, a seven year old will witness that kind of scene. That will give fear to that child," Unah said."Let's just forgot about it," I said. "Do you have any more questions, Kate? We can help you as long as we know the answer," I told her."Well, let me see," she posed like she is thinking deeply about something. "Hmm, I can't think of any questions. What about telling me why other Ministers after Minister Kang didn't change the law about
"Hey, Kate. What's up?" I asked her when I finally get over my emotion. The feeling earlier stopped, maybe because I forced myself to do it so."Nothing special," she answered. "By the way, are you okay now?""Huh? Of course, I am. Why wouldn't I?" I asked her.It's too late before I realized that I sound so defensive. I almost shout when I answered her."Okay. I'll just agree with what you said even if I'm not convince," she said before letting out a sigh."Why did you call me, by the way?" I asked Kate to change the topic of our conversation.It's a bit unusual that Kate is calling me in the middle
I always think why I was born in this country. Sometimes, I wish I live somewhere peaceful, somewhere that law is fair, unlike here in Felghana.I know that people should be nationalistic, and that they should love their own country, but how can you love your own country if it doesn't love you?"Argh, stressful," I said out of nowhere while lying down in my bed. I just woke up but I feel so exhausted like I already did tons of work.While lying in my bed, what happened yesterday comes back in my mind. I remember how Kate holds my hand, and how soft her voice even if it is over the line. I remember how her eyes look at me with so much... affection?I shook my head. That's not a right thing to think. Maybe I was just over-acting yester
After the day when Mrs. Cambri was killed, I'm so furious. I'm furious by the fact that I don't possess the ability to save her and his son from death. I feel so hopeless and weak. "AAAARRRGGHH!" I shouted while kicking my bed and throwing everything I can hold. I don't even know the things I'm throwing away; all the I know is that I need to release the anger I'm feeling right now. "D*mn it! D*mn it!" I shouted repeatedly. I almost bang my head to the walls because of frustration. I feel my hands getting numb but I can't stop. I can't control myself and it feels like I need to create more things that can hurt me. The sound of crashing glasses and falling books filled the entire room. My sight looks blurry, maybe because of the tears my eyes kept releasing for minutes. My feet...hurts? Or numb? I don't know. I can't even explain what I feel right now. I know that I have
I'm the type of person who doesn't want to be in a circle of several people, but I guess 1-3 people are fine.For years, Dhaile is the one person and friend of mine whom I hang out with. Our hangouts are like, making lesson plans together, creating questions for recitations, and other things connected to school. Sometimes, we stayed in my apartment to watch movies together, but that is very seldom.But today is different. I'm not just with Dhaile, but also with Kate and Unah. Though this is not the first time we went out together, it still feels new. I think I haven't adjusted fully yet, but I'm sure that sooner or later, I'll be."Let's forget our problems for awhile," Dhaile exclaimed while she excitedly jumps on Unah's car. It looks like she really prepared for this moment. We're just going to mall to have a little fun, yet she's dressed to kill."Yeah, we must enjoy the following days
Lots of days passed and the final exams week has come to an end. While looking at the window from my table, I saw bunches of students with smiles on their faces while walking home. A lot of them are also talking to other about who knows what. I miss being a student. For the students, the week after the final exams is their week for rest. They can do whatever they want, may it be going shopping, playing online games with their other classmates, or just chilling inside their houses while eating their favorite foods and watching their favorite movie. However, for teachers like me, it is a hell week. There are a lot of paperworks to finish. Aside from checking their exams, we need to find the frequency of correct answers and make a report about it. After that, we need to finish computing our students' grades, which is not only about encoding scores, but also sending follow-ups and conducting remedial classes. "My back hurts like hell," Dhaile complained while standing up and stretchi
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Lots of days passed and the final exams week has come to an end. While looking at the window from my table, I saw bunches of students with smiles on their faces while walking home. A lot of them are also talking to other about who knows what. I miss being a student. For the students, the week after the final exams is their week for rest. They can do whatever they want, may it be going shopping, playing online games with their other classmates, or just chilling inside their houses while eating their favorite foods and watching their favorite movie. However, for teachers like me, it is a hell week. There are a lot of paperworks to finish. Aside from checking their exams, we need to find the frequency of correct answers and make a report about it. After that, we need to finish computing our students' grades, which is not only about encoding scores, but also sending follow-ups and conducting remedial classes. "My back hurts like hell," Dhaile complained while standing up and stretchi
I'm the type of person who doesn't want to be in a circle of several people, but I guess 1-3 people are fine.For years, Dhaile is the one person and friend of mine whom I hang out with. Our hangouts are like, making lesson plans together, creating questions for recitations, and other things connected to school. Sometimes, we stayed in my apartment to watch movies together, but that is very seldom.But today is different. I'm not just with Dhaile, but also with Kate and Unah. Though this is not the first time we went out together, it still feels new. I think I haven't adjusted fully yet, but I'm sure that sooner or later, I'll be."Let's forget our problems for awhile," Dhaile exclaimed while she excitedly jumps on Unah's car. It looks like she really prepared for this moment. We're just going to mall to have a little fun, yet she's dressed to kill."Yeah, we must enjoy the following days
After the day when Mrs. Cambri was killed, I'm so furious. I'm furious by the fact that I don't possess the ability to save her and his son from death. I feel so hopeless and weak. "AAAARRRGGHH!" I shouted while kicking my bed and throwing everything I can hold. I don't even know the things I'm throwing away; all the I know is that I need to release the anger I'm feeling right now. "D*mn it! D*mn it!" I shouted repeatedly. I almost bang my head to the walls because of frustration. I feel my hands getting numb but I can't stop. I can't control myself and it feels like I need to create more things that can hurt me. The sound of crashing glasses and falling books filled the entire room. My sight looks blurry, maybe because of the tears my eyes kept releasing for minutes. My feet...hurts? Or numb? I don't know. I can't even explain what I feel right now. I know that I have
I always think why I was born in this country. Sometimes, I wish I live somewhere peaceful, somewhere that law is fair, unlike here in Felghana.I know that people should be nationalistic, and that they should love their own country, but how can you love your own country if it doesn't love you?"Argh, stressful," I said out of nowhere while lying down in my bed. I just woke up but I feel so exhausted like I already did tons of work.While lying in my bed, what happened yesterday comes back in my mind. I remember how Kate holds my hand, and how soft her voice even if it is over the line. I remember how her eyes look at me with so much... affection?I shook my head. That's not a right thing to think. Maybe I was just over-acting yester
"Hey, Kate. What's up?" I asked her when I finally get over my emotion. The feeling earlier stopped, maybe because I forced myself to do it so."Nothing special," she answered. "By the way, are you okay now?""Huh? Of course, I am. Why wouldn't I?" I asked her.It's too late before I realized that I sound so defensive. I almost shout when I answered her."Okay. I'll just agree with what you said even if I'm not convince," she said before letting out a sigh."Why did you call me, by the way?" I asked Kate to change the topic of our conversation.It's a bit unusual that Kate is calling me in the middle
"I don't know that you have that kind of past, Casy," Kate said."I just tell that story to the people close to me. Actually, Dhaile is the first one whom I told that story," I replied. "That's kinda terrifying, and also traumatic, but atleast I already overcome that," I added."That's sure traumatic. Imagine, a seven year old will witness that kind of scene. That will give fear to that child," Unah said."Let's just forgot about it," I said. "Do you have any more questions, Kate? We can help you as long as we know the answer," I told her."Well, let me see," she posed like she is thinking deeply about something. "Hmm, I can't think of any questions. What about telling me why other Ministers after Minister Kang didn't change the law about
"I agree to what Kate said," Unah stated. "Fighting back won't help. The people with powers and money are the superior, while the others are becoming slaves and victims of their cruelty," she added.I can't believe what I'm hearing from them. It looks like they already accepted that Felghana is a cruel country because of its government."Casy, don't mind the student. Never again. It's not your obligation. Besides, God is here. He knows what is the truth," Dhaile said as she stands up."Uhm, Unah, can I use your comfort room?" Dhaile asked."Oh yes. Just enter that way and you will see a blue door. That's the comfort room. The switch for the lights are inside," Unah answered."Thanks," Dh
There's no class today but I'm so stressed. The thing that just happened days ago is still circulating inside my mind.Mrs. Cambri's depressing face is what I can see right now. After General Cleofas sent us away, Mrs. Cambri cannot help but to cry. I want to tell her that we can still do something in order to save her son's life, but after the words of surrender came out from her mouth, I know that she already accepted her son's fate."Ugh! My head hurts!" I exclaimed while touching my head. I can't focus on what I'm doing. Instead of putting my attention on making my student's grades, I'm thinking about my student, Angelo Cambri.What will happem to him? Will they execute him also?I feel distraught just by thinking abo
"Good afternoon," Mrs. Avena greeted the guard of General Cleofas' office."Good afternoon, ma'am. What can I do for you?" he asked."We want to talk to General Cleofas. May we?""I'm sorry, but those who are allowed to talk to the General are higher person only or those with permission from them."