The ride is dead silent. Gaya kanina, walang nagsalita samin pero, mas naramdaman ko ang awkwardness at embarrassment ngayon.
After I blurted that words, tinanggal ni Jerwin ang kamay nya na nasa pisngi ko at tumingin nalang sa harapan. The rest of the party, nanahimik sya hanggang sa matapos. Hindi ko pa nga alam kung sasabay ba ako but when he opened the passenger seat's door, wala nakong nagawa kundi sumakay.
And, here we are.
Surrounded by awkwardness.
Bakit ba ang careless ko? Nakakahiya na ganun ang inakto ko kanina sa harapan nya. Sa harapan ng boss ko! Hindi ko naman magawang magsalita dahil may bumabara sa lalamunan ko.
"Kahit di ka pumasok ng maaga bukas, it's fine. I understand since we both went to a party. Wala din namang meeting tomorrow morning, tama ba?" He broke the silence. Agad ko namang inisip kung may schedule ba sya ng meeting bukas pero naalala kong wala.
<Ramdam ko na naupo sya sa tabi ko pero itinuon ko nalang ang pansin ko sa pagkain. I also feel him glance at me pero isinawalang bahala ko nalang. I'm still bothered. I heard Emman chuckled. "Chill man. Nakita ko lang sya dito, coincidentally" Again, I feel his stares at me. "Hindi ka dumiretso sa bahay nyo?" He asked me. Napahinto ako pero agad ding itinuloy ang pagkain bago sumagot nang hindi sya tinitingnan. "Nagutom ako kaya dumiretso ako dito" "But, you should have changed your clothes first. Malalamigan ka dyan sa suot mo" He said again habang si Emman, tahimik na nakikinig habang may ngisi sa labi. "I'm fine" sabi ko habang patuloy sa pagkain. "Excuse me. Kukuha lang ako ng makakain ulit" Rinig ko ang pagtayo ni Emman kaya napatingin ako sakanya. He glanced at me and I gave him the wag-kang-umalis look but he just smirked an
Weeks passed since I started working here at Rivera's company. Maayos parin naman. Nasanay na din ako sa trabaho ko at natututo na din. I got close with Hera. The girl in the marketing department. I discovered that she's working for this company for about 4 years. Nag working student daw sya at naging assistant dito non until she graduated and naging full time. She also said na ikinagulat nya noon ang anunsyo na si Jerwin ang bagong CEO. Sabi nya, naalala nyang wala namang anak ang mag asawang Rivera but they said, nag aral lang sa ibang bansa mula pagkabata kaya isinawalang bahala nya ang agam agam. "Lauren!" Speaking of. Namataan ko syang naglalakad papunta sakin. Naupo sa harapan ko. Lunch break namin lahat ngayon. Jerwin allowed me to go down since aalis din naman daw sya. About what I've heard, weeks ago. Napansin ko na madalas ang hindi pag uwi ni Daddy sa bahay. My mom told me
"Jerwin!" Yohan shouted habang nakataas ang kamay kaya napalingon sa gawi namin si Jerwin and the woman he's been with. Nakita kong napangiti ang babae then she pulled Jerwin papunta sa direksyon namin. I felt Jerwin's eyes on me pero pinili kong ipagpatuloy ang pagliligpit ng kinainan ko. "Hi Yoyo! Long time no see" sabi nang babae sabay yakap kay Yohan. I expected na babatiin nya si Tanya but I was slightly shocked ng ini-snob nya si Tanya then she turned to me. "You must be Venice Ocampo?" She asked while smiling. Ilang sandali ko syang tinitigan. Analyzing if her smile is genuine or fake one but I see that her smile is real kaya tumango ako and smiled a bit. "Nice to meet you! I'm Rhianna" she said and nagulat pako nang kunin nya ang kamay ko at nakipag kamay. Okay, she's friendly, I see. "I know you're confused by how I know you. Ganito kase yan, Jerwin always m
My mom become silent. I'm really wondering kung anong iniisip nya. I know how much she wants to get back on our life before we became like this, eto ako, nagtatrabaho para atleast makaahon kami but why is she like... doubting? "May problema ba, My?" I asked nang ilang minuto na syang hindi nagsasalita. "You can talk to me, you know?" Sabi ko dahil tahimik padin sya sa kabilang linya. I'm not used to this. Nasanay ako na palasalita sya. She always reminisce how satisfied she is before at hanggang ngayon naman. She always told us na one day, makakabangin uli kami. Even though, she's one of the reason my heart broke years ago, I still love her as my mom. Walang magbabago don. But now, she's been quiet. Magmula nang marinig ko silang nag uusap ni Daddy. Does Daddy have some...like, I don't know, ayokong mangjudge pero, does he have.. illegal doings? Ayokong husgahan ang tatay ko at magcon
Napagpasyahan kong iuwi nalang ang iba kong gawain. Masyado kasing marami at hindi naman pwede na gagawin ko lang sa opisina. Mabuti nang gumawa ako sa free time ko para mabawasan at hindi kung ano anong iniisip ko. Hindi pa umuuwi si Dad ayon kay Mommy. Kung noon, iisipin ko na kaya wala pa sya ay dahil nag overtime sya sa opisina, ngayon hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi sya umuwi. Is he with his business partner? Natandaan kong nasabi ni Mommy na may mini-meet si Dad na business partner nya dati. Alas nuebe palang nang gabi at kakauwi ko lang pero matapos kong kumain nang hapunan, dumiretso na agad ako sa kwarto ko at pinagtuunan nang pansin ang mga papeles na inuwi ko. Mas okay na ito. Mas mabuting may ginagawa ako. Hindi ko pa feel na matulog. Ewan ko ba, parang may pumipigil sakin na matulog. Kaya gagawin ko nalang ito hanggang sa antukin ako. Hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal nakong nakatitig at nak
"Goodmorning Veni--- Ehh? Bakit mugto yang mata mo?" Napayuko ako dahil sa sinabi ni Hera. Umagang umaga palang, pumasok na ko. Pagbaba ko kanina, halos hindi nako kumain nang almusal. Dumiretso nalang ako agad paalis. Hindi na din ako nakahalik sa pisngi ng Mommy ko. "Uy! Ayos kalang?" Tinapik ako ni Hera habang sinasabayan ang paglakad ko. Konti palang ang tao dito sa opisina at isa na don si Hera na naabutan kong nagkakape nang dumating ako. "Ayos lang" sabi ko saka nagsimulang umakyat sa hagdanan. Hindi ko kasi sinasakyan yung elevator kapag wala si Jerwin. Pag nauuna ako, naghahagdan ako. "Sigurado ka? Eh bakit dyan ka sa hagdan umaakyat? Bakit hindi dun sa elevator ni Sir?" Eh bakit ang daldal nya? Humarap ako sakanya at huminga nang malalim. "Hindi ko ginagamit yang elevator kung hindi ko naman kasabay si Sir" sabi ko. Imbis
"You shouldn't ask me that when it's obvious na ikaw ang hindi okay. Now, get on my back. Nasasayang ang oras" I stared at his back, dumbfounded. Ano ba yang iniisip mo Venice? Anong propose propose sa pader? Kaya naman pala lumuhod kase balak akong buhatin. Pero, kelangan ba talaga? Kaya ko namang maglakad. "Sir, s-sigurado ka? Kaya ko naman pong maglakad" this time, umikot na sya paharap sakin pero hindi parin tumatayo. Ipinatong nya ang siko sa tuhod at tumingala sakin. "Please, just get on. Marami pang gagawin sa opisina, we shouldn't waste our time" he said, gently. Ibang iba sa tono na ginamit nya kanina while talking to Lira. I suddenly thought about our work. Tama nga naman sya, maraming gawain sa opisina at late na ako nang isang oras kaya hindi na dapat ako nagsasayang nang oras. Agad kong hinubad ang heels ko na mukhang susuko na saka ako sumakay sa likuran nya.
An hour before my shift ends, tinawagan ako ni Reishell. Nangangamusta at nagtatanong kung ano daw ang gusto kong pasalubong. I was confused but then she told me na nagtravel silang dalawan ni Yuan. I just told her that I want them to enjoy and go home safely. I don't really need any material things. I learned that I should work for what I want. If I want one thing, I shouldn't just rely on others, I need to work on my own para makuha ang gusto ko. And, ano nga bang gusto ko? I just want our family to be fine. I want to bring back our life before but I know, suntok sa buwan yon and I need to be contented on the life we have now. As much as I want to go back to what we are before, ayoko din at the same time. I experienced being broken and lying to the love of my life back then. I sighed as I force myself to forget the regrets. Gusto kong kahit sandali lang, makalimutan ko yung pain at regrets. Kahit isa
Warning: Violence Nakakunot ang noo ko nang makaharap ko si Aling Tere. Yung kapitbahay naming napakiusapan ko na bantayan si Nanay. Walang kabuhay buhay ang mukha nya ngayon na syang pinagaalala ko. Asan si Nanay? Gusto ko syang makita ngayon. Gusto kong humingi nang comfort sakanya at yakapin sya. "Aling Tere?" Inangat nya ang tingin sakin at nagulat ako sa luhang tumulo sa mata nya. "Jeff iho. W-wala na ang nanay mo" Posible pala yung sinasabi nilang pagtigil at pagkasira nang mundo mo. Dahil yun mismo ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Isama pa yung pagkabasag nang puso ko. Napuno nang sakit ang buong sistema ko at napaluhod nalang ako. "Iho, p-pasensya na. H-hindi ko alam n-na may sakit pala syang d-dinadamdam. Jefferson, pasensya na!" Sambit ni Aling Tere pero hindi ako nakasagot. Hindi ako makasagot dahil napalitan nang hikbi ang bawat salitang lalabas sa bibig ko.
After my mom's burial. I stopped working. I also payed my Dad's debts but as my mom says, hindi ko sya pinyansahan. Ginamit ko ang natitirang pera para magsimula ulit. It's been 5 months since my mom's burial and still, the pain is with me. The pain is still buried through my system. I stopped working and just focus on fixing myself. I also went away like how I wish. About Jefferson, he's seems hesitant at first pero pinayagan nya ko. This is a good way to heal myself, he said. He always texts me. Pati sila Reishell. Her wedding happened one month after my mom's burial but I'm not able to attend. I just facetimed her after the ceremony. I apologized and congratulate her. Yohan and Tanya, I heard they are now a thing. They started dating months ago. Hera and Emman, they fixed their relationship. They clarified what they really are. I'm happy for all of them. Me and Jefferson didn't clarified yet what ou
I woke up and my eyes immediately shuts dahil sa hapdi. My head also hurts. I got up and glance around. I stared at the figure beside me. There's Jefferson, sleeping beside me. Hindi ko man lang napansin but I found myself staring at him. This man is always there for me. Mula noon hanggang ngayon. Kahit nung panahong hindi ko pa alam na sya pala si Jefferson. He's always there. He always cares. I slowly leaned forward and kissed his forehead before I stood up. I wanna see my mom. Naghilamos ako at nag ayos. I didn't change my clothes. I'm still wearing a black blouse and black jeans at saka ako lumabas. I'm surprised to see Yohan, Tanya, Hera and Emman on the living room, sleeping. Where's Reishell and Yuan, tho? I glanced one last time at them and a small smile etched on my lips and I go outside. There are some people who's already there and I saw
Warning: Violence I quietly sit infront of my father. Andito kami sa sala kwarto ko nag usap. Jefferson is also with me and some police officer for my father. "Start speaking now" I said. My father cleared his throat. "I was upset when I knew about your relationship with Madrid. Alam mo kung gaano ko inaalagaan ang imahe nang pamilya natin at sa nalaman ko, nagalit ako dahil alam kong kahihiyan yon sa pamilya" I gritted my teeth and continue listening to him. "I did blackmail you to ruin his mothers life if you didn't break up with him pero hindi ko pinakialaman ang nanay nya because you broke up with him" "I was happy when that happens. Walang dahilan nang issue na magiging dahilan nang kahihiyan. Pero, ilang araw lang, muling nagpakita si Jefferson sa tapat nang mansion naten at sobra akong nagalit don. Nalaman ko na ilang araw syang andun sa labas" I already heard this pero hindi a
He quietly went beside me and lied down. He faced me but he didn't say something. He just stared. "My mom... I know, h-how she h-hurt us by how she insulted you back then" I started speaking. Umayos nang higa si Jefferson. Lumapit sya nang mas malapit sakin but still, he didn't speak. "But, I can't stay mad at her. I c-can see how she regret that and on those y-years, I manage to forgive her and also, my Dad. She always tells me how sorry she was and ramdam ko naman na bumabawi sya don. When I told her that I wanted to work, she seems hesitant but I insisted since I know how much she missed our life before. I started working to your company. She seems hesitant to let me at first when she heard about me working at Rivera's. Yun pala, alam nya yung nangyari noon. She knew what my father.. did to you.." My tears started to fall. Jefferson immediately wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. I leaned my head on his chest
Warning: Suicide Mabilis ang flight namin pauwi sa Pilipinas. Jerwin's parents immediately allowed us after knowing what happened. Nung makita nila ang pagkabalisa ko, they immeduately said yes at sila na daw muna ang bahala sa upcoming deals. Jefferson is now driving. Papunta sa mansion namin. I'm nervous at ilang ulit akong huminga nang malalim. I'm nervous in what I would see when I got there. Sana nalowbat lang si Mommy o kaya naman nahulog lang yung phone but... her words. Her words hunts me. Her words sounds farewells. Para syang naghahabilin. "Venice.." Jefferson's voice invaded my thought. I felt him held my hand and gently squeezed. I held back his hand. "Don't overthink. Okay?" He softly said. I just nodded and wait till we got home. Mabilis akong lumabas nang maiparada ang kotse sa tapat nang mansion namin. The whole mansion is so silent. Mukhang walang tao. I hesitantly st
I immediately go to get my things and pull out clothes to change when we got to his condo. I sighed as I started to comb my hair. Nahiga ako sa kama at kinuha ang phone ko. I remembered my Mom. I should call her. Jefferson opened the door and smiled. He's now wearing a white cotton shirt and black shorts. He sits in my bed and taps the space beside me, asking if he could lay down. I nodded and started dialing my mother's number. Jefferson wrapped his arms around my waist and burried his face on my hair. I closed my eyes and leaned on his chest as I wait for my mother to answer. "Who are you calling, hm?" He whispered. "My mom. I want to know how she's doing" sagot ko kasabay nang pagsagot nang tawag mula sa kabilang linya. "Mom?" I called. A silence greeted me. Until I heard sobs. My eyes instantly opened and I immediately sit up causing Jefferson to sit up too.
The meeting started and Jerwin immediately became serious and focused. Nawala yung kaninang nagtatampo nyang mukha. His father and mother seems calm too. And here I am, focusing on the meeting too. Mr. Gutierrez, the man who's making a deal with the Rivera's is speaking right now and I've been noticing how his secretary looks at the man beside me. She's quite young but older than me, I think and eversince she stepped inside with her boss, she can't take her eyes off Jerwin. And it irritates me but I calmed myself. It's immature kung papatulan ko at isa pa, I don't think I have the rights to act possessive. "Is that okay with you, Mr. Rivera?" Mr. Gutierrez asked. He smiled at his friend and waits for his answer. "Of course, your works and ideas always amaze me. And I already know that you're ideas would impress me" Mr. Rivera said. They shook hands and Jerwin did also.
"Ready?" He asked while fixing his tie. Humarap naman ako sakanya and I immediately smile when I saw him looking at me with a smile. Last look at my appearance, I nodded and walked near him. Last night when he confessed that he's Jefferson. We talked and talked until we both fell asleep. I asked him why his face changed but he diverted the topic kaya hindi ko na pinilit. He seems uncomfortable talking about that. Did he change his face so that my Dad wouldn't continue his plan on killing him? But, my Dad seems to know that it's him since narinig ko yung usapan nila ni Mommy non. After talking, we both fell asleep. Next to each other. I remembered hugging him. Feeling the same feeling back then and it all come back. My heart feels satisfied after a long time knowing that Jefferson is back now. "Hey? Come inside now. Mainit dyan baka mapawisan ka" My thoughts vanished