Amber's P.O.V I'm awoken from my sleep by the sound of my phone ringing on the nightstand. My eyes adjust to the darkness in the room, causing confusion to take over me.How long have I been out for ? I look over at Jack, seeing him still sound asleep next to me as the loud ringing doesn't seem to bother him. Slowly, I remove Jack's possessive arm from around my frame as I reach over his body in order to grab ahold of my phone. Once I finally reach the device, I quickly turn it over, allowing me to see Giannas contact on display. "Hello?" I whisper quietly into the phone in efforts to not wake Jack up. "Hey." She says as I slowly sit my body upright before climbing out of the bed and into the restroom. As I bring myself into the secluded area, I make sure to close the door behind me in order to finish our conversation privately. "What's up?" I say, now speaking with a normal volume. My eyes begin to roam around my body as I st
Amber's P.O.V As soon as we reach Jack's apartment he immediately pulls out his key from his back pocket in order to unlock the door and grant us access to the space. Jack slowly pushes the door open, revealing both Zac and Violet standing in the kitchen. "Amber?! Hey!" Violet chirps upon our entrance as she acts excited to see me.She's so fakeI see right through her bullshit and I always have. "I didn't know you were coming out with us tonight?" She smiles while slightly furrowing her eyebrows together as she looks over at Jack, almost as if she were talking to him instead of me. "Yeah it's gonna be a fun time." Jack says to her briefly, having Zac quickly chime in. "Fuck yeah!! Amber's first frat partyyy!!!" He cheers as he smiles widely while lifting his glass in celebration. Jack and Violet remain silent, leaving me to awkwardly laugh alongside him. "Do you want to take a celebratory shot?" Zac a
Amber's P.O.V As we walk into the massive party I immediately turn my phone off and place it back into my pocket, completely disregarding Gianna's message. Jack's hand reaches for mine, having him hold onto me rather firmly as he leads me through the crowd of dancing people. I walk a little bit behind him, allowing him to lead the way as my vision becomes slightly impaired by all the flashing lights and thick clouds of smoke. The further we walk into the house the more prominent the smell of weed becomes, making me feel as though I'd get high just from being here. We all eventually make our way into the kitchen, seeing the multiple bottles and packs of seltzer's filling the countertop as a small crowd of drunken people fill the space. I notice Zac glaring over at one of the guys across from us, having his whole entire demeanor shift as he begins to approach him. He places an intimidating hand on his shoulder, pulling him in close as if they were friends. "
Amber's P.O.V I feel a sense of adrenaline rush throughout my entire body, making me feel alive. "Jack, I can literally hear my heart beating in my chest." I say as he pulls my body closer to his now that we were standing in the middle of the dance floor. "I know, but it makes you feel amazing doesn't it?" He asks as he runs his fingers through my hair. I nod my head at him honestly, feeling all the energy in my body pulsate throughout my veins.I never want this feeling to end. "Dance with me because this high isn't going to last long." He says before turning my body around so that my backside was now pressed against him. I lean my head back, allowing it to rest against his shoulder as I begin to move my body to the rhythm of the music. Jack's hands slide down my frame, having them stop at my hips as I start to grind them into him, knowing that that's what he wanted me to do. The song 'Electric Soul' begins to play throughout the speakers
*TRIGGER WARNING*Amber's P.O.V Jack wraps his arm around my frame, tightly holding me in place as I drape my legs over his. My eyes scan across his group of friends, noticing that Zac was now missing.I wonder where he ran off to. I shrug my shoulders at the thought, as I choose to focus my attention downcast while feeling out the effects of the alcohol. My thoughts begin to bring me back to Gianna, causing a sense of happiness to rush throughout me. I love hanging out with Gianna.She's such good energy and I'm so happy I got to spend some time with her tonight.I just hope she's okay, I felt so bad leaving her alone but I didn't have a choice. "Oh! Hey Amber." I hear a deep voice say, taking me out of my thoughts. I immediately look up to find a familiar looking dude standing next to Zac as they approach our area. Jack's body instantly tenses underneath mine, having him furrow his eyebrows at me as he flickers his eyes over to the very familiar look
"So, why is my heart broke?" -Lana Del Rey Amber's P.O.V I remain in Jack's hold, crying within his arms for what felt like forever as we sit silently against each other, allowing nothing to be heard other than the music playing in the background. Jack rubs a soothing hand against my back in efforts to get me to calm my emotions, and in some sick way I'm somehow able to find a sense of comfort in it. "Are you okay?" Jack asks as he slightly pulls away from me, looking me directly in the eyes as he uses his thumbs to wipe away my fallen tears. I avoid making eye contact with Jack, choosing to focus my attention on my sweaty palms instead as I timidly shake my head no to answer his question. "I'm sorry baby, I love you. I don't want you to feel like this. Do you want to leave?" He asks, having me nod my head immediately in response. "Okay, I'll get us an Uber right now."
Amber's P.O.V I sit in a cradled position against Jack's tub, allowing the water to flow freely down onto me as my mind begins to take me back to tonight's events. Everything that Jack has done and said to me tonight proves to me that he is unstable. It's almost as if he's incapable of comprehending or understanding the emotions of others. It's all about what he wants or what he sees fit He said it himself "he didn't think he was capable of actually caring for anyone other than himself" and it's true. He doesn't care, and maybe it's not his fault, maybe there's some type of chemical imbalance in his brain that prevents him from being able to. But I need him to start caring enough about me to control his actions towards me whenever he gets angry or upset. Because I'm not sure how much more of his abuse that I can take. It hurts me to be with Jack, not only physically but, mentally and emotionally too. And even though deep down I still love him, it's not enough to make me
Amber's P.O.V I'm awoken from my sleep as the feeling of someone's lips against the skin of my neck causes me to become alert. My eyes shoot open, only to be met with Jack as he leans his entire body over mine. "You're awake!" Jack says in satisfaction as he smiles down at me. I awkwardly smile back up at him in response as I cautiously sit my body upright. "Are you hungry? I made you some breakfast." He asks enthusiastically. I hesitantly nod my head at him in response, allowing him to grab onto my hand before bringing me with him into the living room. The smell of freshly cooked food fills the open air, causing my stomach to growl as I take in the aroma. I sit myself down at one of the barstools in the kitchen, watching Jack as he makes my plate for me. As Jack begins to pile my plate with a variety of different foods, my mind begins to take me back to our conversation from last night.I want to learn more about Jack's disorders and how they affec