Amber's P.O.V
I flicked my mom off and then walked back into my room. God I can't stand her! Why the fuck is she my mom out of all people? There's over 6 billion people in this world and I just had to get her. "Your a bitch." I heard Jack say. I turned around to see him leaning on my doorframe. "You think I don't already know that?" I said as I placed a piece of gum in my mouth. "You know you made her cry right?" He asked furrowing his eyebrows. I honestly couldn't help but laugh. The bitch cried, wow she's a pathetic piece of shit. "Why are you laughing." He asked. "How can you not laugh? Gosh she's pathetic." I said trying to contain my laughter. "She's pathetic? Look at you. Your the one who's pathetic." He scoffed before walking out. "That's not a very nice thing to say." I mocked. My phone rings and without checking the caller I.D I immediately pick up, whilst waving jack out of my room. "Party tonight hoe." Nina yelled through the phone. We have been best friends since we were five, along with Mia. It's always just been us three. No one could ever break the bond that we have built, no matter how hard they try. "What time?" I asked "It's starts at 8" "Bitch that's in a hour the fuck?" I said as I looked at my clock. "Well that sucks because your going, you don't really have a choice." She said. "Who's party?" I asked out of curiosity. "Um...sammy's" she said quickly. She knows that I'm very infatuated with Sammy and that I always get nervous around him so why make me go? When he was here I had a sudden burst of confidence that I doubt I would ever get again. "Well then I'm not going." I sighed. "Come on Amber, it's a party just go. It's not like he knows you like him so what's the problem. And plus Jack should be there so it should be less awkward if you decide to talk to him." She explained. "Nina you just don't understand, you get every guy you want. I don't. And if Jack's going to that party then I'm definitely not going. He's just going to ruin shit for me." I said while fidgeting with my nails. "Well me being your best friend it's my job to get you to overcome your fears so therefore your going. I'll be over in 20. Be ready bitch, oh and wear something sexy." She said before hanging up the phone. I look at my now black screen in disbelief. She just hung up on me. "Well shit." I chuckled as I continued to look at my phone. Looks like I'll be going. I love parties, my life revolves around partying. I love the high you get right before your officially drunk and the experience you feel each time you take a hit of marijuana. I love that you can be your complete self and not get judged because everyone is doing the same thing. I love being called 'the life of the party', it's such a thrill to me. I just don't want to go to sam's. I don't want to embarrass myself, I don't want him to think of me as something that I'm actually not. Most people see me as a complete and utter bitch who cares about nobody but herself. Which makes sense because I make myself out to be that. I hide the real me because I don't want to get hurt. The real Amber Elstastine is a insecure, self conscious freak. Who is absolutely worthless and tends to over analyze things. I get panic attacks that usually result in me shaking and crying like a little pussy. The only people who know those things about me are Nina and Mia. But they don't know everything, they don't know that I'm hurting on the inside. They don't know that I'm constantly crying and screaming at myself for being such a pathetic, revolting freak. So I tend to party my problems away. They don't know that I walk out side everyday feeling insecure and judged. But then again nobody will ever know that. I'm taken out of my thoughts by my phone buzzing. Mia😻: you going to Sam's party? I chuckled at the text, shouldn't Nina already have told her? Me: kinda have to now, Nina's basically forcing me Mia😻: oh cool, can I borrow your red shorts? Really? Is she really only texting me for my shorts? Me: Smh😒 that's a shame, and no you can't. Mia😻: Because? Me: because I said so hoe. Read 7:15 I roll my eyes playfully as I walk into my bathroom and hook my phone up to my speaker. I lock myself in the restroom and turn the knob to my shower to the perfect temperature. I strip my body down and stare at myself in the mirror. "Your disgusting." I say to myself before stepping into the shower. I grab my sponge and pour some VS body wash onto it as life is worth living by Justin Bieber started to play through the speakers. "Life is worth living, ou ou ou ou Life is worth living, so live another day. The meaning of forgiveness. People make mistakes, doesn't mean you have to give in. Life is worth living again." I sing along to the lyrics as I scrub my body. This was my favorite song in the whole universe, Justin's songs seriously speak to me. "Seen her scream and holler. Put us both on blast. Tearing each other down. When I thought it was over. God sent an angel to help us out, yeah. He gave us direction, showed us how to make it last. For that long journey ahead, said it ain't ever over. No, even in the midst of doubt" I sang as I rinsed my body off and stepped out the shower and wrapped my exposed body in a towel. I walked into my room and immediately started to shiver as the cold air hit my bare skin. I look at the clock to see that it's 7:45. And that's when I start to panic. "I only have 15 minutes to get ready, that's not enough time!" I muttered under my breath. I dry off any excess water and slide on my Calvin Klein thong along with my matching bra. They weren't fancy looking they were just, comfortable. It's not like I needed to impress anyone with cute and sexy lingerie. Nobody has any sort of interest towards me so there's no use. I made my way to my closet and decided on wearing black leggings, a plain grey crop top, and a camouflage jacket that ends mid thigh. I put on my outfit chosen for the party and decide on straightening my hair. I turn on my straightener and lurk on sammy's I*******m while waiting for it to heat up. I go through his tagged photos and see a picture of him and this girl kissing. A wave of jealous instantly came over me as I start to regret lurking on his profile. I knew Sammy had a reputation as the schools fuckboy which makes sense, since he's friends with Jack. All jacks little group of friends do is sleep around with girls, fuck around with their feelings and then leave them after they get what hey want. It's really annoying but to be quite honest, I wouldn't mind if Sammy were to use me. As long as I got the chance to have any sort of relationship with him. Even if it were just a temporary thing that wouldn't last a week. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my doorbell ringing. "Shit." I say as I looked at my messy hair that so desperately needed to be done. Nina's P.O.V "Uh... Hey jack." I said blushing as he answers the door. God why is he so hot? I seriously don't know. "Hey babygirl." He smirked. He looked me up and down before biting his lip, causing my heart rate to rise. "Um is Amber here?" I asked innocently as I placed a piece of hair behind my ear. He opened the door wider for me to come in. I walked in being greeted by Mrs.Elstastine or Mrs.Gilinsky and Mr.Gilinsky. While talking to his dad, I felt like someone was staring at me. And considering the fact that I was wearing ripped booty shorts and a crop top I figured it was Jack. I turned around to see him staring straight at my ass whilst biting his lip. I clear my throat and jacks eyes immediately dart to mine. He walked up to me and just looked me up and down with a smirk planted on his face, making me feel confident in my body. "I'm fucking you later okay baby girl." He whispered into my ear. I nodded my head in response and he simply walked away. I walked up the stairs to ambers room knowing my way around considering I've been here multiple times before. " Amber you ready?" I asked as I walked into her room. "No I still have to do my hair." She said sounding flustered. "Will you straighten it for me." She sighed while looking down. Why does she always look so sad and depressed? Amber's P.O.V Nina perfectly straightens my hair and I carefully place a white SnapBack on being careful not to mess up Nina's hard work. I apply some simple and natural make up with darker lips before going down stairs. "That's what your wearing?" I hear a deep voice say. What's wrong with it? Should I change? I probably look like a fat whale in this out fit. "Yeah problem?" I asked trying to sound confident. He scoffed before pushing past me and walking down the stairs before I could. I look at Nina and notice that she had a very amused look on her face as she stares at Jack. I shrug both of them off and walk downstairs. "Where are you going?" My mom asked sounding concerned "Out." I reply bluntly as I give mr.Gilinsky a hug goodbye and completely ignore my mom. "We're going to Sam's party." I hear Gilinsky say. I glare at him, before making my way towards the door. "Amber!" I hear my mom call out. "Bye mother." I reply before walking out the door with Nina and slamming it behind me. Nina looks at me weirdly but I just ignore her and act like I didn't notice it. "Want to see if Jack needs a ride?" She asked smiling widely. "Um, no that little dickhead can drive himself." I said as I jumped inside her red Audi. "He's not a dick head." She defended as she started driving. "Yeah...okay." "Where's Mia?" I asked trying to change the subject. "She's on her way, we're gonna meet her there." She explains. I simply nod my head as possibilities of tonight start to play out in my head. Tonight's gonna be a long night.Amber's P.O.V "Are you really going to make me go through with this?" I asked in disbelief as we pulled up to sam's house"Relax, you'll thank me later." She said as she turned off her car. I took a deep breath and looked at Nina who was analyzing my expression. "Chill it's not that big of a deal, now get your ass out the car hoe." She said as she hopped out her car with me following closely behind. We walk into the party and a distinct smell of alcohol and weed filled my nostrils. As we looked to find Mia we passed by many people who were making out. I didn't care for any of them, but then I saw jack kissing some slut. Anger possessed my body as I stormed over there and pulled jack off of her. "Aye, the fucks your problem?" He asked clearly pissed off. "You are, now can you please go and find a fucking room because nobody wants to see you two basically mouth fuck each other." I scoffed. The petite brunette looked at me as a smirk crept
Amber's P.O.V "What are you going to do to me?" I asked curiously. He didn't respond, he just continued to walk up the stairs. I followed close behind him since I had no idea where I was going considering I've never been here and his house is a mansion. We came across a empty room and Sam pulled me into it, closing and locking the door behind me. I kinda just stood there awkwardly waiting for him to say something. "Strip." He said sternly while smirking. "And if I don't?" I asked while stepping towards him. "You don't necessarily have a choice, it wasn't a question. It was a demand." He started. Explicit sex scene I obeyed, slowly taking off my clothes trying to tease him in the process. "Fuck." He groaned lowly as he watched my movements. I slowly pulled off my clothing, making sure to sway my hips in the process. Once I was undressed and left in only my undergarments I started to feel extremely self conscious. "
Amber's P.O.V I sat on the bed fully unclothed as an overwhelming feeling of embarrassment and shame washed over me. I wiped away some tears that had fallen as I quickly grabbed my clothes and changed into them before quickly walking out of the room. As I walked through the halls trying desperately to find someone I knew tears started to brim my eyes. I felt so dirty, pathetic, useless and unwanted. I didn't think that if Sam used me that I would feel this way. I thought I would be happy and proud of myself for getting the guy I so desperately wanted. But I don't feel that way at all, I feel so naive. As I pushed past a group of drunken people who were grinding each other, I spotted Nina straddling Jack as they made out. "Nina can we please go?" I sniffled as I tapped her on the shoulder, waiting patiently for her to respond. She turned around with blood shot eyes as her face instantly lit up. "Hey biitchh what happened with you and Sammy?" She slurred as sh
Amber's P.O.V "Jack please just go away I'm not in the mood." I sniffled as tears streamed down my face. He looked around my room and noticed all the glass scattered around my room and the holes that were punched into the wall. "What the fuck you'd do?" He asked referring to my room. "Jack please just go away." I asked as I winced in pain. The other figure that I was not able to see chuckled deeply before stepping forward. Sam? "You really that mad at me babygirl?" He asked whist biting his lip. "Baby you're so sexy." He said while looking my body up and down. "Jack why is he here?" I asked whilst whining. "Why are you so pissed off, you literally just fucked him not even 30 minutes ago." He scoffed. "Can y'all both just fuck off." I said in a hush tone. "The fuck this bitch just say?" Sammy asked Jack. Jack looked at me in disgust before walking closer and punching me in my face with full force. I yelped out in pain causing Sammy to laug
Amber's P.O.V"Wake up!" I heard Nina's voice say. Her voice sounded hoarse and raspy. Almost like she had been screaming for 5 hours straight. But I know it's because she's been sleeping, throwing up and the fact that she was drinking all night. "I'm up." I croaked as I sat up in bed. My voice was raspy and sore from all the screaming and crying I had did last night. "What happened to your face?" She said bluntly. "Nothing." I croaked. I knew that if I told her what actually happened that she would confront Sammy and Jack. And I'm too scared of what they might do to me if I told anyone. "Okay well what about your hand? Or your foot? Or your room." She said naming off the list of things that were wrong? "Nina I really don't want to talk about it so please just leave it alone." I spoke softly. She looked at me, analyzing my expression. She saw me pleading for her to just leave it alone. Her face softened before she spoke. "Fine." She said befo
Ambers P.O.V "Um...Amber?" Mia said as I sat down next to her. "Yeah what's up?" I said as I shoved sour patch kids in my mouth. "Hate to burst you sudden change in attitude, but have you gotten on twitter lately?" She asked me My expression immediately changed. I started shake remembering all the thing that people had said to me. "No." I said as I slowly pulled out my phone and clicked the Twitter app I immediately regretted it once all the hate comments filled in. With every comment that I got, my self-esteem got lower and lower. But there were 2 comments in particular that really hurt. @jackgilinsky: She's a pathetic excuse of a person😂 like what the fuck? @sammywilk why would you even tap that? That's so fucking disgusting.😷 There aren't even enough words in the English language to describe her. Jacks tweet had 267 retweets and 359 likes. Which made it impossible for me to not notice it. If that many people agree with him and feel
Amber's P.O.V The rest of the class period was a blur. I didn't take any notes or listen to any of the teachers words. I could hear some whispering about me that I tried desperately to ignore but I couldn't. I couldn't get over the fact the everyone hated me, or the fact that I know that everyone's talking shit about me. Even the teachers. But my mind kept going back to one thing, Jack. What did he mean when he said he was going to give me another bruise? Was he going to hurt me again? Maybe he could fuck me like he fucked Jova- stop! He's my fucking step-brother. What is my fucking problem? Why am I thinking these things? All he does is hurt me physically and mentally! He's a dick and there no way in hell I have feelings for him. The bell rang indicating that our first period was over. I quickly gathered my things and ran out of class trying to make it to my second class with little interaction as possible. I was almost successfully there unti
Amber's P.O.V I walked up to my room and closed my door, not wanting to see Jack again. But within seconds of doing so he comes bursting through my door. "Who told you to close your door?" He said as he stared at me with dark eyes. "N-no one." I stuttered from fear. A smirk appeared on his face as he started taking steps towards me, causing me to take steps back. My back soon hit the hard wall behind me, trapping me between him and the wall. "I can get you wet in a matter of 2 seconds, it's not really that big of a challenge." He said as he glided his hands down my body. I shivered at his touch, which caused a sadistic smile to form on his lips. My eyes flickered from his eyes to his lips. His lips were so pink, and plump. I wanted nothing more than to just kiss them. "Do it then." I dared. He smirked as he attached his lips to mine, having our lips move in perfect sync. His tongue traced over my bottom lip asking for entrance,