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Chapter Nineteen: What are these feelings?
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I heard his footstep as he begins to walk away from the door. Immediately my tears stop, and my heart begins to beat heavily with every move he made away from the house. As I no longer heard him, I again found myself weeping. I pull my body down to the floor pulling my back against the hard door. I sat down onto the warm floor continuing to cry.
"Why am I crying?" I said sadly in tears as I curled up onto the floor and lower my head onto my knees. My legs and knees were now soaked by my salty tears.
I didn't understand why I was crying. All I know is the strong mixture of feelings I was having within my body causing me to. It is so much that my body can't bear it.
What is wrong with me? I thought as I remain to rest my head on my knees.
Finally, I stopped crying. I gently turn my face to the right onto my knees, staring at the entrance of the kitchen sadly.
I sat onto the floor staring blankly, melancholy until my butt hurts. I stood up and walk st
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