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Chap 1: [A HALF OF EXISTENCE] - Doctor (1)
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2022-08-05 03:43:51The patient then was very special. Her wealthy husband paid a large amount of money for me to stay at her bedside and find a way to get rid of her.
When the girl opened her eyes, she narrowed her eyes slightly because of the sunlight outside and asked me:
- Where is this? Who are you?
- I'm a doctor. And you?
- Erin Lewis.
- So… what happened? - Starting to notice the wires, equipments and white bandages all over the body, she asked bewilderedly.
I was not in a hurry to answer, considered to select a reasonable approach. That girl’s husband said that she was very clever, it wouldn't do much to keep the situation hidden, so I went directly to the topic:
- I'm not sure. Can you tell me?
- What is the date today? – She asked.
- August 17th.
- Then I can't help you.
- …What was the last date you appeared?
- You… know? – The girl showed a surprised expression.
- I have heard about another Erin Lewis. Can you tell me your story?
Again, she narrowed her eyes slightly, I noticed she had this habit. She looked carefully at me, her surroundings, and herself again. Finally she noticed the slightly long silk band which has one end tying her limbs and the other end fixing to the four sides of the bed.
- Tell me the current situation first. - She said.
- ...
- He… Han, is he okay? – I was a bit surprised by her question.
- He is still healthy.
- You call him, let me hear his voice.
- Well, I'm not that kind of kidnapper...
- Just call first. – She interrupted my saying. I opened my phone, turned on the speakerphone. The line was so quickly connected.
- Something happened? – Asked Han Lewis.
- No, I just wanted to let you know she's awake.
- Who?
- She said she hasn't appeared for a long time.
The guy did not wait for me to finish, just took a cold breath and abruptly hang up. I glanced at the girl's expression, but she looked so normal that make people feel abnormal.
- I'm seriously injured, he's fine, but he's not here, plus that fierce attitude... These wounds, aren't they counted on me? – The girl questioned. As being said, she was really clever.
- Mr. Lewis said that you attacked and wanted to kill Mrs. Lewis.
- I attacked her? – The girl raised her voice like she have just heard a sensational story, opened her mouth to say something, but stopped. Her expression changed rapidly, hastily turned over her stomach, looked at the red patches spreading on the ice, then asked with a trembling voice:
- Is the child… the child… still here?
Actually, it’s a question no need to be asked. I shook my head.
She looked at me with a look of frightened, stunned for a long time, mumbled in her mouth:
- I attacked you?
- Just because don't want to share this body with me anymore, you blame me this way, want to get rid of me?
- Just for that?
Then all of a sudden she jumped up and yanked on the wires and the equipment, knocked over the transmission racks. The sound of crashing echoed from everywhere. I was startled to see her using all energy to hit her head, bell, tear the bandages on the body, and scream:
- You crazy, you want me to attack you, okay, I'll attack you. I beat you to death! Kill the cold-blooded demon!
I rushed over and grab her hand. The nurses waiting outside also rushed in, panicked, tried to do something, but the girl was like a wounded beast, putting all her last strength to protest, slam herself with deadly blows, and howl miserably:
- The child! The child! It's your child! It's his child!
- You have so many other ways, so many other time, you're crazy, you're crazy, aren't you?
- You used even your own children to harm me, what kind of animal are you? Even tigers don't eat their cubs! Even though your are a demon, it is also y…
The scream suddenly stopped. The girl fell limply in the arms of one of us. The male doctor quietly removed the towel from her face.
She slept all day and night. The device showed that she slept very deeply. But she cried again. The cry of pain and agony persisted until it becomes hoarse in delirium, gave anyone who heard it an urge to wake her up. But no one could make sure that when waking up, she would stop crying. Even she said that the fetus was not hers, in the deepest sleep, she cried like her heart was broken. Or maybe not her. I suddenly wanted to know, who is the crying person?
After such a long day, everyone around was in a heavy mood. However, when waking up, the girl became so calm like nothing happened, obediently let the nurse wash her face, wipe her body, change her clothes, like a harmless little animal that could not be associated with the horribly mad woman of the day before. When the nurses were about to go out, she said in a hoarse voice:
- Doctors, nurses, I'm really sorry, I was too agitated that accidentally hurt you all. I want to directly compensate everyone, but the current situation doesn't allow it. Please help contact my husband, so that he compensates somewhat.
- No need, he pays us very well.
- He pays for taking care of me, not for being beaten up. Please don't be worry, he is very understanding, even though he hates me, he will definitely take responsibility. – She looked at us again, continued – Even if you really don't want to take it, please accept it for me.
- Okay, I'll tell him. - I replied.
- Thank you. – She smiled – Doctor, sorry to confuse you. I think again, it doesn't matter who attacked whom. The child is not mine, and it has already gone, can't do anything else with that. Have you figured out a way yet?
- Way? – I asked, quite uneasily.
- Don't worry, I'm not a two-faced person. Honestly, I will coordinate, you just follow the customer, start eliminating me!
I raised my head in surprise.
- Doctor, why do you so much insist on my story?
- You hesitate to tell me how to do it, afraid that I will be on guard, right? If you know how much time could be saved by directly drawing the way for the deer to run, maybe you will regret. - The girl kept talking, and I had no other way than replying:
- I still can't think of a way, I need to hear your story to determine the direction.
- All right, I'll tell you, on a few conditions. - The girl thought in a while and answered.
- What's condition?
- Talk later. Don't be worry, not killing, robbing people or setting fire, just some condition you surely can meet.
Perhaps because seeing the hesitation in my eyes, the girl smiled:
- What are you worried about, after I told you, if you find the conditions unreasonable, you can just shake your hand, what can I do to you?
- I'm not that kind of people.
- Okay, just forget it! Now will you hear the story?
I nodded.
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