Chapter 3 I guess we're destined to not be destined

From a peasant to an old man who was in despair from the unfairness of life. Thereafter to a suicidal office lady, and back to being a man again but it was a divorced gal who longed for his children's presence and back to an ambitious man of greed and at last to my hundredth and unfortunately last body. If I am going to fail again then, I have to pack up and surrender to the underworld. And for the love of the universe, I ended up in a dying body. This girl's body is as weak as a granny even weaker perhaps.

How can I find her if I have to take over this body? I got up from bed and stared long at my window. This family is well off, not bad but they are damn chaotic there are banters everywhere the patriarch of the family is quite an autocratic, misogynistic son of a bitch that everyone is scared of him even the wife. How can men treat their women awfully? I'm not generalizing but as I've ventured into this modern era 70% of men are the same. Women can't be ahead of men, which I think is so unfair. Controlling and gaslighting their partners, abusing their love and submission.

"You're awake darling, how are you feeling?" the old maid entered my room with a tray of food. Her warm aura made me at ease.

"Are they home already Nana?" I asked politely. Kana's memory is shallow this girl is so easy to read.

“Not yet home darling but they will for sure.” she tapped my chair and I gladly obliged.

“These are delicious Nana. Thank you.” I smiled and continued eating

“I am glad you liked it. You should eat more so you’ll get better.” she smiled and reach for my hands.

"No matter what happens please make a room in your heart to forgive people. No matter how chaotic the world, don't ever let anything stir your peace." Nana kissed the girl's forehead and strode towards the door. Wow, that was deep! I exclaimed after the woman left.

This girl is innocent and pure her memories are just full of happy ones but there are blurry faces that I can’t still grasp. They are filthy rich but there is something that is bugging me about this girl's family. Kana is just eighteen and she is sick. I decided to check for things in this house. I fished some coats in her closet and silently opened the door. The hallways are cold and the unusual figurines are scattered everywhere. Kana's family is of middle eastern descent it's her mother who has mixed culture from western blood and that makes Kana have unique features. The door on my left has left a jar I heard a pleading voice more like a crying woman I was about to peek inside when someone held me tightly and dragged me back into my room fucks! I gasped in surprise which made her cover my mouth.

“Nana!” I gasped but she hushed me.

"Why did you roam around at this hour. Aren't you been told by your mother to stay inside your room at this hour?" her face was scarred as am I at the moment. Fucks this old woman scared the life out of me.

"But Nana I am thirsty that's why. " good thing I drank my water a while ago. That was a good excuse.

"You have a buzzer all you have to do is press and ask for the maids to get you some?" Nana is obviously distressed about what I have done. Aren't they suspicious?

"Sleep now, child. don't ever dare to go out. Are we clear?" Nana has a middle eastern descent that's why her accent is thick but I find it cool. I wonder how come Kana is a natural English speaker.

"Okay. Okay. Alright, good night." I jumped on my bed and pretend to be really sleeping. With a puzzled look on her face, the old woman closed the door. I hurriedly went to try opening it but fucks it's locked. They are absolutely hiding something. This household is mysterious and I needed to know their secret.

The sun shines brighter than the few days I woke up in this body and this is the first time that I went out to see the garden Nana is my companion it's just I'm in a wheelchair. I feel perfectly fine but the old woman bargained this two-wheeled shit on me so in return I could have to go out in that weird bedroom of Kana. I sensed that Kana is just playing tricks on me. How could her subconscious know that some kind of entity is controlling her body? I think she wanted me to figure it out on my own. This kid wanted me to play a mysterious fucking case. She is so stubborn to lend me two-thirds of the information about her family.

"I really love to feel the sun Nana," I said nonchalantly but I like its warmth on my skin and I think this child should be getting more of it. I mean look at her skin she is so pale.

"You now love the sun? I thought you hate it. I even wondered how come you did not ask for your aviators?" Shit, are you some kind of vampire Kana? Really am I even thinking of it?

I laughed which made the old woman eye me like I'm some kind of freak.

"Oh, some things change Nana." was all I could say. I was not able to grasp Kana's likes and dislikes. I thought Avant's personality was the hardest. I was wrong again because this kid is a pain in the ass. I wish I could have landed in an assassin's body so I could use my time cleaning the filth of this society.

“Nana where is my mother?” her child is sick how can a mother not care at all?

"Kana, you are confusing me? Is this what you get from jumping in your window and sleeping for days?" now I know how come her windows are newly built and the glass is as thick as piled ice. Did Kana try running away or did she commit suicide? This kid is a moron then if it's the latter.

“I cannot recall some of my memories Nana.” and now she looks really worried. It was too late when I realized what I just said.

“Oh, dear I have to call the doctor.” she hurriedly pulled the wheels inside the house.

"Nana, I'm just—no need! Por favor!Están todos locos en esta casa!" Shit, I covered my mouth again. The woman is really freaking out. I didn't know this child can speak Spanish.

The doctor arrived she was really young and good-looking. Her eyes are warm and friendly. She is on her formal white coat which complements her looks, the curls of her hair suit her. Her lips curved into a smile when she figures I was checking her out. She is talking to Nana about something they are talking about in a distance I am the patient I should know my whereabouts they can't just let me be an outcast of my own well-being. I mean this child's well-being.

“Doctor care to tell me my whereabouts?” she raised her eyebrows at me. I thought she was nice.

"I was asking your guardian about your medications," she said while getting her things out of her bag.

"It has been 3 days since you woke up. Your guardian has told me you cannot recall some of your memories?" she inquired and lit a pen into my eyes. Shit, what I said a while ago will get me in trouble or I could just pretend at all?

“Yeah, I don’t even know what happened to me.”

" It could be a retrograde amnesia but don't worry you will remember in due time," she said and look straight into my eyes. Fucks her eyes are familiar. Is that you Adelaide? Were you trapped in that body? Tears stream down my eyes this is so crazy. I felt her wiping the tears on my cheek.

"Hey don't cry. It's okay. You will have those back. Alright?" she said in a soft voice. Is this really you my love? It is me remember me with your heart, please. I reached for her cheeks too. She froze on her track.

“Remember me…”

"Adelaide." I sobbed. She held my hands. Confusion is written on her beautiful face.

"My name is not Adelaide. I'm Andromeda."

"But my grandmother's name was Adelaide." She added.

"Can I see her?"

"Oh, she's long gone. She passed away like 12 years ago." She smiled at me. I swear they have the same smile, how their lips curves perfectly showing their dimples. The shape of their faces is alike. This lady is blonde while my Adelaide has midnight black hair.

"I have a picture of her on my necklace." I can no longer hold back my ugly sobs when she showed me the photo in a small locket.

"It's her. It's her." all I can manage to utter.

"And I am too late," I said almost out of breath.

You are a fucking bitch Katara. I trade my life in return for this but you deceived me. I lived hundreds of fucking lifetimes granting people's wishes. How can't I grant mine!

I screamed my anger and frustrations. The doctor held me in her arms. Trying to console me.

She may think I am crazy and I may be adding to her million unanswered questions right now.

“I think you have to rest Miss. Al yuher,” she called the old woman, confusions are evident on their faces.

"Forgive me, Adelaide, it's too late, I guess we're destined to not be destined at all," I said as she turned her back and went to the door. A maid went to close it but as she face me one last time, I saw how her eyes glistened in the midst of confusion. Nana injected something into my veins and slowly the darkness consumed me.