MAXINE“I know I do,” he replied, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear. I leaned into his touch.“Then don’t let me go, ever,” I said, just loud enough for Liam to hear. I knew he would hear. I wanted him to.Ronan’s grip on me tightened. “I won’t,” he promised.Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Liam stiffen. He was hurting, and I felt guilty. But I couldn’t let it show. I had to stay in control and keep playing this game. Because as much as it hurt, I knew this was the only way. It was the only way to survive and to get what I needed.Ronan's hand slid down to take mine. Again, I glanced back at Liam. I hoped he understood. I hoped he knew that this was for both of us. Even if it didn’t look like it now. Even if it hurt like hell.Because no matter what, I couldn’t afford to lose sight of the endgame. Not now. I was going to have a special place in hell for hurting these brothers.RONANI noticed him almost as soon as he stepped into the garden. Liam’s presence was like a storm
RONANI felt her relax and I took a deep breath. I knew Liam was still watching us closely but I didn’t care. This moment was mine. She was mine. At least, for now, and he had to know that.I turned slightly, keeping Maxine close enough, and caught sight of Liam in the corner of my eye. His face was hard and his jaw clenched tight.His eyes were dark, filled with anger and pain. I knew he was suffering and a part of me felt guilt. But another part of me felt satisfaction.He had his chance. He had his time with her. Now, it was mine. It was my time to get her.I met his gaze. I wanted him to see me. I wanted him to know that I wasn’t going to back down.I turned back to Maxine, cupping her face in my hands. “You’re safe with me,” I said, loud enough for Liam to hear. “You don’t have to look back.”She stayed with me, her hand resting on my chest, her fingers tracing the pattern of my shirt. I felt a small smile. I was winning. It was slow, but surely, I was winning.Liam might be watc
LIAMI gritted my teeth and a growl escaped my lips. How could she do this to me? How could she make me feel this betrayed? She’s turned me into something I never wanted to be. Maybe this is who I am. Maybe she just brought it out of me.I opened my eyes and stared up at the ceiling. I felt something cold settle over me, a realization that made my blood turn to ice. What if she’s not worth fighting for?What if she never was?The thought hit me like a punch to the gut. What was I thinking? I’ve spent so much time trying to prove myself to her and trying to be good enough. I've been strong enough and worthy enough. But now, I wonder if I’ve been wasting my time.I wonder if she’s ever really seen me at all.I leaned my head back. My eyes were stinging. I didn't want to care. I didn't want to feel this way. I wanted to be angry and to be furious. I needed to let the hatred burn through me until there was nothing left.But I couldn't do that. Because no matter how much I tried, I still l
MAXINEThe moment he saw me enter, a smile lit up his face. "Good morning, Maxine," he says, his voice sounding as smooth as silk."Morning," I replied, forcing a smile. I have to be strong. I have to play my part.He rose from his seat, crossing the room with that easy grace of his. His eyes never left mine for even a second. "You look beautiful," he muttered, reaching out to brush a strand of hair from my face. I felt a shiver run down my spine.I hate myself for it. I needed to stay focused."Thank you," I say. I saw the way his eyes darkened with amusement. I forced myself to relax. I couldn't let him see how much he was getting to me."I’ve been thinking," he said, his hand playing with my hair. "I think we could be good together, Maxine. Don’t you?"I swallowed hard as he stepped closer, invading all of my senses. I didn't want to think about how his body felt nice against mine. I didn't want to feel the way his touch made my skin tingle. But I did. I couldn't help it."I think,
MAXINEMy heart fluttered and I cursed myself for it. I had to stay focused but his touch and his words made it so hard. He pressed another kiss to my lips.A moment later, I pulled back and stepped out of his embrace. “Thank you, Ronan,” I said.He smiled back, his eyes filled with something I didn't want to name. “Anything for you, Maxine,” he replied.And as I turned to leave, I felt a pang in my chest. A small part of me wanted to stay and I wondered if I was making a mistake. But, I pushed it aside. I couldn't afford to second-guess myself now. I've come so close.I took a deep breath and steadied myself. I stepped out of the room and threw a smile at Ronan over my shoulder before the door closed behind me. I had to remember all that was at stake.And I couldn't let myself forget again.The guard escorted me through the corridor. I didn't know where her new room was and today was my chance. I was surprised that Ronan agreed so easily.The guard stopped in front of a door. He fish
MAXINEThe next phase of the plan required complete precision.We didn't need a small amount of luck. I clutched the objects Zel gave me. The leather pouch hung at my side. Each piece was carefully prepared, imbued with Zel's magic. Each one was intended to bend the magic enough to give us an edge against Ronan.I kept my face composed as I made my way through the halls. I had managed to lose the guard with me by entering into a bathroom. I entered the male bathroom and when I heard him try to check up on me in the females, I slipped away.I didn't want to draw attention. The guards were everywhere. Their eyes were trained to notice even the smallest change in routine. I have to be very careful.The first location was a small room. I dropped the object in a corner and quickly left. I moved on quickly. As I passed through a seldom-used sitting room, I heard footsteps approaching. I hid behind a large, dusty curtain, holding my breath.Two guards pass by, chatting about their next shift
MAXINEAs I turned to leave, Varis called my name. I paused and turned back to look at him, trying to mask the anxiety I felt. The look on his face was unreadable.“Maxine,” he began, “I just have one question: are you truly in love with Ronan?”The question caught me off guard so, I gave him a small smile. “No,” I said even though my heart raced. “It’s all part of an act.”As I said that, I knew it was a complete lie. But they couldn't know that. Kris crossed his arms over his chest. His brows were furrowed. “You’re a damn good actress, then,” he said. “But why not tell Liam the truth? He deserves to know what you’re doing that you’re on his side.”My breath caught in my throat for a moment. I felt the guilt deep in my chest. Liam... “No,” I replied, shaking my head. “He doesn't have to know. He’s better off hating me. It’s easier this way.”Varis frowned, not getting it. “Easier? For who, you? It would be easier to have Liam’s trust.”I sighed, rubbing the back of my neck, searching
RONANI went to Maxine's room early the next morning, just as she was coming out of the shower. I watched Maxine as she sat on the chair, her back to me. Her dark hair was cascading down her back like silk.She was. Running a comb through her hair. Just that simple gesture. There was something about her that drew me in. It was something I still couldn't quite place. She was different from the others. More dangerous somehow and more intoxicating.For a moment, I wondered what was running through her mind. The look on her face gave nothing away, as usual. But there was just something about her. I decide to break the silence.“Maxine,” I called out.“Hmm?” She replied, not looking at me.“How about we get out of here for a while?” I suggested. She looked over her shoulder at me, pausing as she combed her hair.She looked surprised. Her eyes narrowed at me in suspicion. I could see the question in her eyes. “Out? Like outside the mansion?” she asked, trying to clarify.I smiled, leaning a
MAXINEI got a job working at the pack hospital again. This time, I signed up to be a real medical practitioner. I was going to become a midwife. There were a few familiar faces at the hospital and lots of new ones.Still, I was grateful to Ronan for giving them this opportunity again.That evening, I walked back into my apartment. The dead herbs were still in a box on the floor in the kitchen. I wondered if I would go back. I used to pick herbs and sell them to women who wanted to get pregnant.It felt like eons ago. Times were simpler. Back then, I saved lives not help take them. That was a time when I didn’t have blood on my hands.I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. I wanted my simple life again. It was simple but everything made sense. I didn't have to try to untangle myself from this mess that was my reality.A knock on the door brought me back. Zel was back from work. She worked as a bartender a little while from our apartment. Zel had gotten the job. After the manag
MAXINEI nodded, not trusting myself to speak without crying. Ella was right. I needed to let myself grieve. The love I once had for Ronan still occupied my heart.Lindsey reached out and held my hand. "We’re here for you, Maxine."I squeezed her hand, grateful for their support. They were right. I didn’t have to go through this alone. I had them.Maybe it wasn't so bad after all.***Going back to my old life felt like stepping into a strange place. There was the feeling of losing something. My apartment felt like a place from a faraway memory. Zel was gone and I was feeling so sad.I was back from saying goodbye. I unlocked the door and stepped inside. The space was just as I’d left it. There was still dust over everything. At least, I had something to do with my time.I took a deep breath. I hadn't lost everything. I was still okay.I began to clean up slowly. Lindsey stopped by to help me out and together, we covered a lot. As I was cleaning, I heard a knock on the door.“Are you
MAXINEI wanted to believe her that everything would be okay but deep down, I felt guilt and grief. This was my fault. I pulled back from her and wiped my eyes. I gave her a shaky smile. “It doesn’t feel like it.”She cupped my cheek. “Everything isn't always as it seems, my dear. But, I can tell you one thing I know for sure.” She said.“What's that?”“It's not your fault. I'm sure you don't know where to go from here, what to do, or where you belong. You want to come with me, you want to continue your life back at the place where you and Zel liked and you want to go back to how things were in this pack.” Cinder explained.“But, I see you staying here. This is where your strength lies, where hope lives, where you have friends and support.” She lowered her eyes and winked. “It's where you have a future.”“And, we'll always be here for you to fall back on, regardless of what happens. We're your home away from home.” The Luna Queen said, putting her hand on my shoulder. “I'm very proud.
MAXINEI didn't feel anything. No pain from a stab whatsoever. I looked between us and that's when Ronan smiled. His lips were close to my ear and he whispered, “I would never hurt you on purpose, love.”I didn't know when I screamed.Ronan collapsed into my arms, taking the both of us down to the ground with him. I tried my best to hold his head up on my lap. My eyes traveled down to the blood pouring down the stab wound in his belly.“Ronan,” I called, tears filling my eyes and rolling down my cheeks. He had stabbed himself.My hand shook as it hovered over the wound. I didn't know what to do. The dagger was in his chest.Ronan had chosen death. Death over a life without me.“Maxine…” he called, his voice unnaturally calm for someone who was dying. He reached up to touch me and I guided his hand to my cheek.“I'm here, I'm here,” I cried. “I'm sorry,” I whispered the last part. My hands shook as I held him. I never wanted this. I didn’t want him to die.Ronan gasped. He looked up
MAXINEI held my breath as Ronan kept his eyes on mine. When he was close enough, he stopped. Neither of us said a word. The battle continued around us but I couldn't get myself to make the first move.He didn't either. I wondered if it was hard for him to see me. I wondered if he thought he could fight me. I also wondered if he thought that he could kill me.I spoke up first. “Ronan,” I called. My voice was sounding more longing than I wanted.I missed him, to be honest. I missed sitting down in the quiet and reading books. Strangely, I missed making his cinnamon coffee.Ronan didn't say anything. Instead, he took a step closer. “You don’t have to do this,” he said.There was no hurt, no anger in his voice, just nothing but kindness. I wished he would yell. I wished he would curse me and call me evil for everything I've done.“Come with me.” He said, softly. I heard it regardless of the noise. “We can fix this, Maxine. We'll leave everything behind together.”It sounded so good. But,
MAXINEHe caught me off guard. It meant that he still cared about me. I didn't focus on that though. “I won’t, I promise,” I replied.We stood there in silence for a while, neither of us knowing what to say. I could feel it though. I could feel it. The unspoken feelings and questions we didn't have the time to ask.Or we didn't dare to ask, I guess.After everything that had happened, I still wasn’t sure where we stood. I said I was okay with him hating me but, I didn't know anymore. The lines between us were confusing now. I didn't know how to fix that.But now wasn’t the time to focus on that. We had a mission and that was a priority. Every other thing could come after. We would cross that bridge later.For some reason, Liam stepped closer and I held my breath. “Regardless of what has happened between us, out there?” He said, “No matter what happens, we’ll get through this together. Do you understand?”I nodded. “Together,” I repeated.Before I could say anything else, Zel appeared
MAXINECinder gave me and Zel a brief of the plans that night when she showed us a bedroom. She and the Luna Queen were sharing the one right next to us. They told us to come to them if we faced any issues.Sleep didn't come easy because my mind was entirely on Ronan. I didn't know how I was going to face him again after betraying his trust. But, I knew I couldn't sit out of this fight.The sun had not even risen when I was woken up by the sound of Liam's voice. He was given instructions and I heard more footsteps around the house than the number of people I had seen the previous day.It meant that Liam was already up and gathering the troops. I could hear him giving commands like it hadn't been two months since he was last in power. He was a natural-born leader. He carried this air of authority around him.He was giving orders, explaining ranks and positions for this fight. Every single detail was important to winning.Zel was still asleep, of course. She wasn't a wolf so she wouldn'
MAXINEI chuckled bitterly. “What about now?” I asked. “Will you take me back now that I have a wolf? Isn't that what you've always wanted?”His eyes widened slightly but he kept himself composed. “That would be unfair to you. It would be wrong. If you want to come back to me, I will take you but the choice is yours now. You have a choice and I see now that I was wrong. I’m so sorry, Maxine. I hope you can forgive me.”Tears welled up in my eyes. I hadn't thought about this but I let the anger roll away from me. He was still family. He was my father. “I forgive you. You're my father, whether you abandon me or not.” I said.“Thank you, Maxine.” He said. He reached for me hesitantly. I would have settled for a handshake but he wrapped his hands around me. For the first time in what I knew was forever, my father hugged me.I didn't know what to feel about that.LIAMAfter Maxine spoke to her father, they returned to the living room. However, she moved toward the far end of the room, away
LIAMDespite everything that was unfolding in front of me, my thoughts were stuck on one thing.Maxine had a wolf.I couldn't wrap my head around it. After everything that had happened to her, it didn’t make sense. I glanced at her. The strange white-haired girl was sitting between us.Maxine was staring out of the window. The white-haired girl squeezed her hand. Maxine turned to look at her and offered her a small smile. That was when she caught me staring. She looked away, taking her eyes back to the window.It left me confused. Was she pissed at me? I was the one who had the right to be mad at her. She had chosen him over me. Well, the distance between us was necessary.I didn't know what I would say or do if I were sitting next to her. Kris took a sharp turn, causing Maxine to grab the handle of the car door. I opened my mouth to say something but I stopped myself. There would be time for questions later.“You alright back there?” Varis asked.“We’re fine,” I said. I didn't know i