Alyssa
I come from a long line of vampires. I'm the princess of the darkness, who longs to walk in the sun, but I keep to the shadows since the beautiful glimmering light would kill me.
Walking out at night isn't a problem, though. And tonight, my heart clenched too much to stick around after dinner. As usual, my father wouldn't leave me alone—I left as soon as he preached about my duties as the princess.
My father thinks he can control me, which has inspired me to climb out through my bedroom window more often these days. Fresh air is needed when you have spent decades in a house with more rules than you can count on one hand.
Hunching my shoulders, I duck under a tree branch to keep walking through the magical forest. Blue lights are dancing in the air; we call them will-o-wisps. My mother has told me to stay away from them—she claims they love to collect lost souls; meanwhile, my grandma says they are here to lead us to our fate.
Fate, that word makes me wrinkle my nose in loathing. My father wants me to marry Fabian, the vampire prince of another kingdom, but I don't want to marry the cocky brute who lives for the fight.
Fabian doesn't understand all life has meaning—the male vampire is too mean and doesn't mind drinking blood for the fun of it all. His kind is the reason we vampires have a terrible reputation.
My mood turns dark as I keep on trudging forward through the moss with my white dress stroking my knees. Then, like a quiet wind, I press on towards a clearing. Once there, I stomp the ground while pretending it's Fabian's smirking face I'm destroying.
It feels good to let out some steam. So I play around for a while but stop dead in my tracks once I catch sight of a creature I never expected to see out in the forest—an angel.
Ancient instincts and hatred for the much larger, more beautiful race get to my sharp canines, drawing blood from my lower lip. A hiss escapes my throat, causing the enormous creature to spread its wings as a defense mechanism. The action causes leaves to soar down from the surrounding trees, but the beast is still lying on the ground.
Usually, angels wouldn't hesitate to attack a vampire while in their proper dangerous form; angels can shape-shift into humans to blend into society. But this one is as long as a mountain range and gleaming like the morning star itself.
And since I've seen the angel, I wouldn't expect the impressive creature to let me keep on living; its hands are large enough to engulf me and crush my lungs within seconds.
Angels are also known for hating my kind since vampires hunt humans. In contrast, angels exist to protect them; we are opposites of each other.
So why hasn't this one attacked me yet? And what is an angel doing out here in the magical forest?
Suspicion circles my mind. Angels usually never enter our territory; they are creatures of the light, born to rule the sky with their mighty, feathered wings.
Another question pops into my mind: Why is this angel on the ground?
Despite the bell of danger tolling in my mind, I dare take a step closer to the literally fallen angel.
Glowing skin, bare for the eye to see, and ethereal beauty brings tears to my eyes. But, it's dangerous to study this beautiful creature for too long, and if you fall in love with them, you will die if the feeling isn't mutual.
And I definitely shouldn't approach this one; my people are in a constant war with them. I could get hanged by my strict father for simply staring at one because it's forbidden in our house to approach them. It's also illegal to lead them closer to our kind or give them a hint about where we live.
Our castle is hidden to the untrained eye, but if angels knew where to throw a revealing spell, my bloodline would be nothing but a memory—the angels wouldn't let us live.
"Don't come closer, vampire!"
I freeze, captivated by the young, melodic voice of the winged creature; it seems the mighty angel is a male. Is he a teenager or a young adult?
Licking my lips, I taste the air and laugh at what the universe has brought me—I might not know his age, but the angel is injured.
"You're hurt." My voice is low, not malicious or mean. I'm not here to make enemies, and while I'm not fond of angels, I don't think a single heartbeat is meaningless; every life holds meaning. "I can help you."
The angel snorts at me, definitely not interested in letting me get anywhere close to his blood or body.
"And how would you do that? Are you going to carry me to the nearest hospital? You would die if you tried; in my eyes, you're nothing but an ant! A filthy bloodsucker! Vermin!"
His words cut me deep, but I quickly recover—I'm used to people believing I'm a monster.
"Let me help you." My tone is calm.
The angel is hissing at me; it's in his blood to hate me, a bone-deep instinct. "How?"
I ponder my answer, telling him I'm the princess of the night would explain everything; my blood holds certain powers, most people have heard of me.
Then again, giving him my identity could also prove dangerous—his hands are large enough to choke all oxygen from my lungs. Facing an angel is difficult and usually not a very fair fight.
Sighing, I decide to trust him; without my blood, he will die—I can smell his weakening state from here.
"Do you trust me?" I ask.
Another snort. "You're a vampire; I would never trust your bloodthirsty kind!"
Rolling my eyes, I walk past his enormous leg. I don't even flinch when his large, storm cloud-colored wings flap in the air; he is trying to frighten me, but I'm walking with purpose.
His porcelain skin is smooth and creamy, and I try to ignore the enchanting glow coming from within him. Blonde hair covers his head, and I silently sit down next to his muscular neck that seems more robust than a bridge, able to withstand the weight of countless men.
Sudden fright enters my chest as I watch his muscles twitch, but I choke it down, determined to help the angel even if he faces the other way. Then, looking up, I discover his pointed ear twitching; he knows I'm close.
"Ouch, you're in worse shape than I thought," I tell him with mild amusement etched into my voice. Saving an angel goes against everything my kind believes in—I find it ironic that his life rests in my hands. Luckily for the angel, I fiercely believe every life is worth saving, including his. "What a shame the angel doesn't want my help; I could save his life."
The angel hisses at me threateningly. "I don't need anyone to save me!"
I roll my eyes again; typical men and their unwillingness to let anyone help them never cease to amaze me.
"Are you always this friendly and approachable?" I tease, hoping to lighten the mood. I've never met an angel before, but certainly, they all can't be as grumpy as this one.
"Friendly?" The angel sounds insulted, but strangely enough, I can also detect a tiny amount of amusement in his voice. "Do you have any idea who you're talking to?"
"Nope." I give him an earnest answer. "Are you famous?"
"Something like that," the angel mutters. "And I still don't want your help; I can handle myself."
Silently, I let my eyes roam his chest. His breaths are slow, and I glare at the spears and arrows digging into his skin. Blood trickles down his waist, pooling on the ground beneath him, and I glance away, afraid my instincts will weaken my resolve to save him.
"You need to swallow my blood." My voice is stern, determined. I might look like a teenager, but I've been around for decades; I know how to sound like an authority. "Or else you're going to bleed to death."
The angel shifts on the ground and I tilt my head when a pair of large angry eyes find mine—they are the color of violet crystals and shimmering like the stars. A slight blush covers my skin. Drowning in his pools of charm seems like a possibility. Still, I remind myself to stay focused and not fall victim to the angel's surreal beauty.
"You're the vampire princess." His words are a statement, and I swallow thickly when a thousand thoughts seem to flicker past his eyes. "I've heard a lot about you."
I tilt my head to study the fascinating gleam in his eyes; I might have found my new favorite color. "Is that so?"
The angel regards me with intelligent eyes. I wonder what he is thinking. He couldn't possibly be planning on kidnapping me. I'm here to save his life; he should be grateful.
Suddenly, the angel nods thoughtfully, smiling darkly at nothing at all. "People say your blood can heal any disease; some call it a miracle while others think you're a goddess,"
A smile latches itself to my lips. I like how my new friend pronounced goddess as if the statement held some truth. "And what do you think?"
Amusement rumbles from the angel's throat, and a telltale smirk spreads on his lips. "I think little of your kind; last time I checked, all vampires were evil, but maybe you're a missionary sent to change my opinion?"
Smiling, I question whether his voice held a flirtatious tone or if it was simply wishful thinking. The angel looks like sex-on-a-stick, and being stuck in an eighteen-year-old body has left me rather desperate. The boy I used to date outgrew me, but the angel seems to be around my age.
"Maybe," I tell him, letting my voice take on a playful tone. "Regardless of who I am, you need my blood, or you will never find out."
The angel doesn't seem happy, but he is not trying to scare me away; now is the best time to approach him.
Determinedly, I try to look past his size, remind myself he is a person, and lift my arm to his lush lips. Hesitation is written on his face as I lean my more delicate body against his rough chin, but I give him an assuring smile.
"Bite me," I tell him boldly while letting him support my entire weight; even his face is enormous. "It won't hurt me; I'm a vampire whose injury will heal within minutes."
I think the angel is unused to people touching him; uncertainty glimmers in his eyes as I lean further into him. Even fear flickers past his features, which I find funny since the angel seems built for war.
Is he nervous?
He shouldn't be nervous around me. I'm a nobody while he looks like combat himself. Ropes of muscle cover his entire body, and it's not helping that he is only wearing a pair of jeans; it's hard not to stare at him. I'm already appreciating his angled jaw and the curling strands of blonde hair covering his head.
The angel laughs suddenly, and it warms the features of his face until he no longer looks like a supervillain. His dark eyebrows knit together. "This is the first time a vampire is offering their blood instead of wanting mine,"
Flutters travel in my veins upon hearing the friendlier tone in his voice. I squint my eyes in an attempt to force it out, nodding at the vampire weapons, drawing blood from his glowing skin. "Is that why my kind attacked you?"
"Probably."
Guilt passes through me like a chilly wind. My kind indeed hunts angels for their blood, they are stronger and more extensive than us, but our armies got them outnumbered. Angels usually keep to themselves and travel alone. They have mates like our kind, but they don't get to choose their partner by marking their neck as vampires do.
I press my arm against his sharp teeth, wincing in pain when blood drips down on his tongue.
Immediately, I withdraw my hand and stalk back towards the proud, giant oak tree standing behind me. Inhaling, I press my back against the tree trunk, eyes curiously studying the glow that turns brighter in the clearing—angel boy is recovering.
The angel sits up with incredible speed and stares down at the weapons that were previously hurting him. They quickly vanish into thin air due to his magical abilities; my blood probably gave him enough strength to activate them.
I silently watch the angel flick his wrist, taken by his size—he had seemed much smaller while lying down.
"A vampire whose blood can heal any injury... I find it poetic and ironic at the same time," The angel turns to face me, and I shiver under the newly won attention.
Carefully, I crane my neck to stare up into his crystal eyes imbued with interest as he let them roam over me. I feel his gratitude, another ability of mine, and smile when I realize he will not harm me.
"Thank you for saving me." His eyes flicker away from mine as if he can feel my tension, and I watch him curl his toes while smiling to himself. The grumpy, ill-mannered attitude is gone, replaced with wonder. "I'm sorry for doubting you,"
I sink to the ground, wary of the massive wings that are busy knocking leaves into the clearing. "You're welcome."
Slowly, the angel stands up, shooting for the sky while keeping his broad back facing me. His proud wings stretch out, easily rivaling some of the smaller trees that aren't magical.
"May I know your name?"
Smiling, I shake my head. "No, it wouldn't be wise to tell you. I'm not supposed to talk with you, and falling in love is out of the question."
A rumble vibrates through me; the angel is chuckling, making my heartbeat waver by the power in his voice. I bite my lips. Staying with the angel is dangerous—I'm already reacting to his intoxicating scent of roses and melodic voice. Another minute and I might fall victim to his charm.
"I suppose you have a point," the angel murmurs and turns around to grin at me; the sight freezes me on the spot. His beauty is effortless and imbued with magic—I can't peel my eyes away from him. I dumbly stare at him, up at his impressive form; he is darkly handsome, like a painting. "My name is Azrael, and I owe you my life, little vampire."
I'm released from his enchantment when he looks away, finally able to feel oxygen return to my lungs. I've heard of an angel named Azrael, but I can't remember from where.
"Little vampire?" I question and fold my arms beneath my chest with swelling mischief. "For all you know, I might be a tall vampire,"
Azrael turns around with an arched eyebrow; he looks mildly amused as he studies me looking up at him. "Are you?"
I laugh; it's hard keeping a straight face when I can't even reach up to his knees. "Not really,"
The angel briefly freezes. "You're a weird one," Azrael murmurs, with the ghost of a smile on his face. "We will meet again... Little vampire, and I look forward to our next meeting. I find you interesting."
I look up at him and gasp when he throws himself into the cloudless sky, disappearing into the night as if he was never here.
Blinking up at the stars, I question my sanity as tears fall from my wet chin. My heart is pounding against my ribcage. And I know with mortifying certainty that I looked at Azrael for a minute too long—he already stole my heart.
Alyssa As I run past trees and sneak through bushes to avoid being seen by the villagers, my heart is still pounding, reverberating every time I remember Azrael's smile—I can't for the life of me get him out of my damn head! Groaning in irritation, I rush the last distance home until it feels like my limbs will burn and fall to the ground. It feels good; anything is better than remembering the angel—falling in love with him would literally kill me, and I'm already crushing on the guy. "Ugh, I'm so annoyed!" I complain to no one in particular while brushing my fingers through my untamed, orange, or red, whatever hair in frustration. The spell set on our castle hums in the air, and I walk through the opening rift, glad to finally be home where angels with blonde hair and smirking faces aren't roaming around like free real estate. "Alyssa! You're finally back!" A happy voice calls out, and I jump in fright when a beaming smile swoops down from a
AlyssaMaze has left the castle together with my grandmother, and it feels so empty without them! My father isn't talking with me since I rejected Fabian for the billionth time, and my mother is her usual snarky tea-drinking self. Nose in the air, eyes half-closed whenever I catch sight of her delicate frame. It's as if she can never relax, not even around the ghosts of the castle.Sighing, I kick myself up from bed while still wearing my nightgown, it's white and old, but my grandmother gave it to me. So I guess wearing it makes it feel as if she never left.And wearing it isn't that wrong. There is a spell that blocks out the sun on our castle grounds—it's eternal night here.I walk out of my room, stopping in the window once I see a horse carriage standing in the courtyard. Dread immediately covers my mouth like death's hand, and I stand there, paralyzed as I witness Fabian set foot outside. Not a sound dares escape my lips. I'm terrified he will
Alyssa Leaving my family behind to die wasn't easy. I had to force myself to the village. The pressure made me stumble, cry out into the night as I searched the town for a horse carriage. People screamed at the terrifying beast searching for me; Fabian swallowed plenty of humans while looking left and right in his restless search for my blood. Fabian crashed through buildings with his heavy leather-clad wings, stomped over horses, and ate anyone who dared raise their gun at him. I'm guessing he felt offended by their courageous acts of self-defense because it's not like bullets could hurt him—Fabian has turned into a monster. The horse that is pulling the carriage neigh a complaint, and I blink away from my reflections as I return to reality. A farmer is yelling at the horse, whipping it angrily to speed up its pace, and I sigh from behind the heaps of hay surrounding me. I press my back harder against the wooden planks behind me and pray to t
AlyssaI don't know what I expected the castle's inside to look like, but this wasn't it. This place looks like a bordello!A red carpet covers the floor, and expensive lamps hang from the ceiling, ornamented with diamonds and other gemstones from different parts of the world.Couches are covering the walls, each one velvet red, and the candles positioned on every table give this place that ultimate touch of sex—it wouldn't surprise me if Azrael claimed he was a pimp. I'm expecting an escort to jump out at every corner!"Are you coming?" Azrael asks playfully as I hesitantly follow him up a staircase."This isn't really what I expected this place to look like,"Azrael chuckles. "Not as fancy as your castle, princess?"I glare at him, which earns me yet another chuckle. He leads me further into his cave, and it gets weirder by the minute.The other floor got way too many rooms for a castle. Music is sounding behind a close
Alyssa Waking up the next day in a room that hasn't been mine for more than twenty-four hours is strange. My eyes dart to the left, a chair is standing placed before my bed with clothes draped over it, but somehow, I find the letter stamped with a heart on it more compelling. Smiling and not knowing what to expect, I reach out my hand to grab the letter and bring it back to bed. Red hair in the color of flames is fanned out over my pillow, and my heart pounds against my ribcage in this beautiful rhythm as I claw up the envelope. Good morning, Princess Laughter finds me as soon as I spot my new nickname, but I keep reading, interested in what my new boss has in store for me. I left your new working attire on your chair while you were talking about me in your sleep. I shake my head, snorting through my nose. "I did not do that!" Maybe I made that up. "Hell, yeah, you did!
Alyssa Entering the maze was a different kind of mindfuck—the lush, green walls made of bushes straightened higher as we walked in, and now I'm almost convinced I could climb them to reach the sky. "I don't like this place," Sleepy says. "I can't believe I agreed on this," An eerie howl sound in the distance, and Sleepy immediately hides under my red hair. I resist the urge to laugh. When I met him, Sleepy had such an attitude that it surprises me to see him act like such a scaredy-cat. I clear my throat to draw Sleepy's attention. I'm still fighting that inner urge to pick him up like a toy. Although small, his presence now burns at the side of my neck. "Can you fly above the walls and look where we are going? I don't want to walk around in circles," The fairy peeps out from under my hair with a grimace. "Azrael's spell would shoot me down from the sky in an instant. I can fly in here, but only as far as the walls can reach," "Huh," I
AlyssaAs we run for our sweet, fragile lives from this Arachne person, I dig my eyes into Sleepy while panting in exhaustion."You called-..." I lick my lips and press on forward, ignoring the headache building behind my eyes. I'm about to have a migraine. "You called her a dridder?""Yup,"Sleepy is flying as fast as he can, entirely stretched out with his wings barely even moving—if he were a little bigger, he would probably be faster than the rest of us.Bigger!Suddenly, my chest sparkles with newfound hope. "Sleepy!"The fairy blinks down at me. "Should I be worried about the look you're giving me?"I shake my head while running and almost stumble over Malia's dog in the process; the little furball seems to think this is a game."No," I pant like a dog while talking, probably something I picked up from the actual dog. "I mean, can't you size-change and carry us?""You don't think I would have done that
AzraelShowing emotions or even flashing someone a smile is something I try to refrain from doing. It could result in the other person dying. Falling for an angel without them loving you back will slowly crumble your heart to dust, kill you from the inside out in the most excruciating way possible.Therefore, I try to act like a heartless bastard and never carry a smile.It makes me miserable, but I've been telling myself that finding my mate is the cure, my savior, and blessing from this bitter lifestyle. Once the mating ritual is completed, the angelic charm will wear off, and people will no longer die when they fall in love with me—I think it's a cruel way for destiny to make sure an angel always picks their mate.But I have a big problem.Alyssa.Sighing, I trace the tip of my thumb down her back. My other hand is cupped under her, holding her fiercely as I stroll down the road. The feelings I have for the vampire are rising within
AlyssaThe plan is simple: find Sleepy and somehow return to our world. Azreal is going to try and open up a portal. But first, we need to find my mate. I can faintly sense him. It must mean we are getting closer. Sadly, it's dark, and Azrael and I have found a cave for shelter. A fire is lighting up the cave walls, and I'm sitting with my hands reached forward. The warmth feels nice on my skin. "I didn't think vampires could get cold," Azrael comments from the other side of the fire. He is wearing a curious smile. "Yeah, but..." I hesitate before speaking, unsure if I should tell him what I'm about to say. I'm still not sure. "I think I'm becoming human again. This realm is doing strange things to me, and I'm not even weak to the sun anymore. My skin might be pale, but I no longer burn.""Interesting... Do you think it's only because of this being the realm you came from? I have a hard time believing you could handle the sun back in our realm, err, the realm we lived in."My chest
AlyssaI stare at Azrael, unable to move because he has hit me with the truth. The strings of my heart are playing a tune of surrender. It's tired of running from the spiraling heat in my chest.And I agree—I can't flee forever. Not when Azrael's eyes are imprinted into my mind. He is like a spreading infection. When he was gone, I couldn't focus. It was like someone had taken all the colors from my eyes and painted the sky black.I was in pain when Azrael was gone, and now he is here—so why can't I just be honest with myself and take what I want? Why am I afraid?I wet my lips. "We should..."I can't finish the sentence. Something unnamed is swelling between us, warm and tender. It gives life to Azrael's eyes, and his features show radiant humor. Does he have to be so beautiful? He gives me sappy butterflies without even trying."We should what?" Azrael is watching me while walking. "Fuck? Because that would be a great idea."
AlyssaAzrael is eyeing me with severe eyes. "So you said the ones who kidnapped Sleepy smelled like cat people?"I inhale. In the past, I was more at ease with Azrael, but now there is electricity in the air. I should focus on the mission to find and save Sleepy before making it back to our world, but Azrael is making it somewhat hard.He has those bedroom eyes, and the mate-bond is like a sweet, romantic melody in my ears whispering, "You know you want him,"I need to get a grip, but it's easier said than done. Azrael is all curious eyes and smiles. It's seriously distracting. One glance and the man can reduce me into a nervous wreck."Yeah... And the other cat person called Sleepy's captor for "boss," so I imagine he is someone powerful.""Hmm..."Azrael taps his chin with his blonde hair falling into his eyes. He seems deep in thought, so I steal a glance of him. I absorb the view of his large shoulders and follow them down to his
AlyssaI slowly back away from the large angel. Azrael is glaring daggers at me, and it's making me uncomfortable. Blonde hair falls into his eyes, and his jaw is ticking with words unspoken. I'm not sure what Azrael's intentions are, but they can't be friendly, judging from his angry expression.And I would be a fool to stick around for too long—the angel could harm me with a move on his hand, squish me like a bug.Azrael is scary."Hello..." I lick my lips, trying to find words: his eyes, violet crystal, zero in on me, and it adds pressure. "I've been looking everywhere for you, but uh... Something tells me you don't remember me?""You're wrong." A smile, cruel and cold, seizes his lips. "I remember you, Alyssa. I gave my life to save you and—"I gasp, interrupting his hateful speech. I've never experienced a true mate bond in my entire life, but there is no doubt about it. Flames are dancing in my chest when I lock eyes with A
AlyssaWhen I open my eyes, an elderly lady with cat ears glares down at me while holding clothes in her arms. She is dressed in this medieval maid attire and throws me an identical-looking set of clothes. The colors are mainly white and brown."Well, get on with it then! Put on your clothes, lass!" The lady sounds upset with me, stressed. "My name is Esme, and the master doesn't like to wait! He is sleeping right now, and it's our job to clean him up after his latest battle. Hurry!""E-Excuse me?" My voice comes out high-pitched."What is it you don't understand?" Esme pulls me up from the mattress beneath me, and I squint at the sun coming in through the window, but I'm not hurt by it. It seems the feather around my neck is still determined to protect me."Stop dreaming and put on your clothes!"Startled by the tone of her voice, I stand straighter and nod at the bossy lady—I can already tell it's not wise messing with Esme. "Yes!"
Alyssa Sleepy and I are walking through the forest after disembarking the ship. The impossibly tall pine trees seeming to reach for the stars reminds me of home, yet the atmosphere is different. The winds traveling past us seem colder somehow, and the air is heavy to breathe. Every pant vaporizes, and I blink away frost from my eyelashes, shuddering. "It's so freaking cold!" My lips are quivering. Sleepy chuckles. "Well, it's autumn, not summer." "The seasons seriously change too quickly in this world!" "Agreed." "I'm starving too," I complain, wishing I had a coat to pull over my body. I'm snotty and probably close to running a fever. "But it doesn't look like we will find any nearby restaurants." "Meh, why not eat from nature?" My mate shoots me a charming smile. His hands are resting behind his head, and the muscles in his arms are bulging. How he isn't freezing is beyond me. "From nature?" I snort. Sleepy ca
Alyssa After some fun with shrinking and some much-needed cuddles, I'm sharing a blanket with Sleepy on deck. The boat is approaching land, and the skies have cleared, leaving the morning sun to sweep in through the cracks in the clouds. I sink further into Sleepy. I'm sitting in his lap, and with a content sigh, I relax my entire body weight against his chest, which seems to be made of steel. His arms curl tighter around me in response. My head is tucked between his shoulder and neck, and he smells great, like sea salt and the ocean mixed with his usual nectar. Neither of us says a word as the sun shines brighter above us. I'm so warm and reasonably confident I could die a smiling woman nestled against the firm expanse of his chest. I don't think I will ever be able to return to sitting alone, not after using him as my couch. "Alyssa, look over there!" Sleepy nods ahead of us, whispering into my ear in a tender voice. "I think I see our new h
AlyssaStrength isn't how you avoid trouble—it's how you act when put under pressure and your solution to getting out of the darkness. Right now, I'm battling for my life. It's getting harder to fight by the minute, yet the pain in my limbs is only fuelling my will to survive.I scream and punch a siren in the face, gritting my teeth and roaring before slamming my boot into another one's stomach. Even though I'm engaged in a losing game, a fire is raging on within my chest. The night might be cold, but my fists are heated."Why won't you give up?""Girl, you won't win this fight."I keep on struggling."Ah, you're getting tired."I throw another punch, screaming in vain when the sirens won't shut up. They keep harassing me, hugging my exhausted body when sweat has broken over my skin.A tongue flickers by my earlobe. "You're weak."Those words awaken more adrenaline, and I break free, crying out into the night as I
Alyssa Two months have passed since we defeated Fabian. And I still long to hear your voice again, watch your lips as you form the words to call me princess. I've been working hard on getting on this boat, and Sleepy has been making money too. We are fine. We are smiling. We are surviving. Yet I still miss you. "I swear to god that I will commit suicide and throw myself overboard if we eat the same slobbery fish for another day!" I grimace at the bitter flavor and shudder in disgust. "Surely, there must be better things in the sea. Why aren't they catching shrimp or lobster?!" I grumpily dig into the fish again, aware of the amused laughter coming from above. "Hey! It's not that bad!" Sleepy hangs his head like a bat and smiles down from the top of our bunk bed. Green hair falls around him like a mane, and I laugh at his big smile. We are eating dinner and praying the boat won't sink and disappear in the waves—t