She will die. My beta insisted we stay out of it but I couldn't, she was melting away in the snow. Her eyes were beautifully golden and I was suddenly too frightened to never see again. I wasn't used to these tendencies but for once, I felt mercy. I needed to feel mercy for this wolf. I had already, recklessly fought to near death with the Azraels for her. It wasn't our war; it was her war and I was fighting it.
I didn't know her but I didn't have to. All I knew was that she radiated speciality. It was their pack they wanted but that didn't stop me from almost biting that guy's head off.
His eyes were dark and impossibly huge. He was above me as his deadly eyes looked into mine, a snarl as wide as my head. He had no emotion, just hunger. Blood at his claws, mine and hers. The scent of her blood caressed my nose. He was radiating heat and all he wanted was her. He didn't want her dead at all, he just wanted her and that didn't sit right with me.
I growled back at him and rolled him over, biting into his shoulder. He howled and another wolf pushed me off him. It looked identical to him, just smaller. I slipped into the snow, my blood staining the white.
“Protect her, always.” I mentally told my pack. Yolanda pounced on the smaller black wolf, she was our strongest female with her sharp claws and tawny fur. She was a beast.
The alpha was coming for me. Sneering as he slowly approached me. I wanted him and only him. A lovely scent caught my nose and I noticed I was beside her. She was still alive. Her lips trembled and her teeth gnashed in the cold at immense speed. Her skin was like toffee and she smelled just as delicious.
His eyes were not on me but on her, I got on all fours and growled at him. He was not shaken by my snarling. To my dismay, a little smile on his face turned back into want.
Was I a joke to him?
Was she food to him?
He wanted her and that drove me mad, I couldn't stand it and the fact that she was naked made it worse. I pounced through injury, onto him, bashing his head against stones that had uncovered in the snow.
We fought roughly and without mercy, trying to prove who was better. I was better. I had to be. We were outnumbered, not in numbers but in strength. It wasn't my thing to lose. I would either win or die. But after a while of scratching each other's faces and leaving scars that would haunt us later, I noticed I was fighting alone. He froze beneath me, looking into my eyes. He wasn't angry anymore, just looking at me with a blank stare. It became awkward. Had he seen something in my eyes? Had he suddenly fallen in love with me or something? I wouldn’t blame him. I think he caught up to what was going on. He pushed me off him strongly and my pack gathered around me. They had stopped fighting us and he started phasing into his human form. His feet took shape first, revealing his strong legs up to his heavy chest and jet-black shoulder-length hair.
Immediately I instructed Leo to carry her into the house before he could do any magic trick. The man watched him carry her limp body into the house. She wasn't dead, she couldn't be. I didn't want her to be, she couldn't be.
The man’s skin healed within seconds, faster than I’ve ever seen, leaving a huge black mark from his left shoulder to the beginning of his right abs. Another one came from his left hand, going up to his neck. It was like a giant stretch mark fading into his dark skin.
"I will not kill mate." He spoke with difficulty, with a coarse voice. He wasn’t used to being in his human form or English wasn't his mother tongue.
"Keep her for now."
I was still panting in my wolf form as he started smiling. His hair in his face, he wasn't scary now. He was just bulky. I suggested the fight was over as my tanned skin took the place of my fur. All the others remained as wolves. We stood there naked in the snow. It was cold but it didn't matter.
"What do you want from her?" I questioned.
"Her blood," he spoke again in an odd accent.
"But I won't take it, now. Time isn't prime. Take care of her, she is a special."
I knew damn well she was special; it was the only reason why I let her live. But something was in the way he said her blood. It seemed like more of a cover-up for what he truly wanted.
He started walking away.
"I will be back." He smiled fiendishly. His wolves strode before him and they disappeared into the thick forest. I felt my beta burning in anger.
"Jacob, don't," I told him. His dark grey fur was already flaring as he growled.
"Retreat," I commanded the pack through clenched jaws.
I wasn't the one to just drop a fight that easily. The usual me would never let him leave but, today was peculiar. A stranger landed on our territory and she was strikingly magnetic. Her aid was paramount.
Jacob phased too and took on his human of acne-prone skin and black hair. I tried walking as slowly as I could, trying to disregard the impulse to run into the house and see if she was breathing or not.
Yolanda, my younger sister, walked at my side, taller than me and now in her human form with her long tawny hair that covered her chest.
"Alpha?" she called. Concern and wisdom awaited me in her tone.
"Not now," I shot back at her as I opened the door. The rest of the fighters in the pack followed in as humans, naked and seeking clothes.
"What was that?" my mother stood at the kitchen window; she had seen it all. Her white hair was tied up as her worry lines creased.
"Azraels," I muttered, walking out of the kitchen.
"And they just left you like that?" she asked from the kitchen.
"Yes," I was walking to my room when I heard her following me. Mom always loved to press.
"Why?"
She tailed me into the laundry room. I searched for a pair of jeans, trying with all the might in my body not to panic.
Why did I care so much if she lived or died? Why was it so urgent? I didn’t know her.
"They wanted her," I spoke after a pause to look at her. Her bright brown eyes searched mine as she placed frail fingers on her hips.
"Is it her?" she asked. I knew exactly what she was asking.
Mom had been searching for my mate. I hadn’t bothered myself, I had a lot on my plate already.
"I don't know," I muttered under my breath and walked past her, putting on a simple shirt.
"Where are you going?"
My feet were already running ahead of me on the creaky corridor floorboards.
"She’s with Walter," my older sister told me.
"Thank you, Audrey." I nodded without a smile though she smiled so widely.
I decided to ignore mother or else her questions would never end.
"What’s up with that face?" I raised a brow to Audrey. She just kept on smiling, flashing her gapped teeth.
“What face?”
My eyes rolled enough to fall out of my head.
A part of me was afraid of seeing her too late. To find her dead, she was the only thing that has ever smelt so good to me. An image of her naked frame on the melting snow flashed in my mind and stayed. She was so restless in her rest. She was in pain but she just laid there wordless and shivering as if the cold was the worst thing ever. She had just escaped a pack of Azraels, how could I blame her for being scared for her life?
It was odd how the snow perfectly covered the right spots, like a snow queen.
Without hesitation, I took a step up the stairs to find Walter's room, which wasn't technically his room. It was our med bay, where we healed when our own healing process couldn't heal us fast enough. I found myself at his door instantaneously and I could already smell her. She was so sweet, like a good intoxication. A delightful drug. Sherbet.
I swallowed my nervousness; I was being foolish. I had never felt so uneasy to see a woman before. She was just another girl, wasn't she? Just almost dead, I guess that’s what made her special. She was dying.
"Khai," Walter called, almost out of breath in the dimmed room. I closed the door softly and spotted a bowl full of red liquid, the sharp scent of metal wafted by my nose. I wondered how Walter was standing it.
"Is that how you address your alpha?" I growled. He nearly trembled.
"Still getting the hang of it,” he smiled.
"After four years?" I scowled and walked past him to witness her beauty once more.
"Forgive me alpha."
Yeah, he better.
“How is she?” I could see her chest rising and falling. Alive for certain.
“She’s badly wounded but nothing is broken. She lost a lot of blood but she will live,” he confirmed.
She was curled into a ball on the bed. It wasn't a comfortable bed, more like a metal table. It made me angry at how foolishly they had handled her. Her lips were cut a bit and I noticed all her scars, all fitting their claws. Her toffee skin was pure and almost caramel. She had black long dreadlocks which were so thin and lovely. There was a deep scar on her back.
"Move her to my room." I almost growled, it made me crazy that he had seen her naked.
"Your room? I beg to differ alpha. We don't know her and to trust her in your room…" Walter looked up at me with his glasses.
A bored sigh escaped me. That was unwise.
"Move Grace. Give her the room." He paused and stared up at me "Today!" I added.
He nodded and left. I was left alone with her. I was glad she was alive but I knew what it meant. It meant that I had to prepare myself to be weak only to her. And only to her.
Grief is not something to beckon with. It is something you ran away from. Avoid. I couldn't help the darkness anymore. I had been lying in there for so long, in indifferent perpetual cold. This couldn't have been heaven. Where was my goddess of the sun? It was too cold to be hell.Gravity, the pull all and everything over again. I was still here. I just couldn't wake up.My heart throbbed for my people. There was a void that could never be filled. Everyone spoke of ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends but no one ever spoke of ex-family. My mother was torn to shreds and all I did was tremble like a coward. I couldn't save her; I knew I couldn't so I didn't even try.Helplessly, uselessly, I watched the Azraels finish them off. Their ravenous dark claws pried my cousin's golden eyes and plucked them out like sunflowers.How could they be so brutal? I watched it all and they never came for me, saving the undeserved dessert for last.Father was already gone by that time - first in fact. The s
My breath caught in my throat. The door swung open and let in a breeze, a breeze that carried a delicious scent. I felt my naked body get warmer and warmer and I looked up. The hairs on the back of my neck rose. He stood there, holding the door. His eyes were on Walter and then on me, blue like the ocean. Walter held his hands out in reverence as if begging for forgiveness.I wiped my tears fast as he approached. He was the alpha I saw earlier. His eyes were filled with so much worry I assumed was for me."Are you okay?" His deep voice asked, I could feel it in my chest. I looked down to control my shaky breath."No.""Get out Walter,” he demanded.I could feel his authority over Walter like a bag of sand. Walter scurried out.Butterflies fluttered aggressively in my stomach. My temperature was high. He was far from me but he was close enough. The door closed.I wiped my tears and took a deep breath. What was happening to me? I faced him. Deep furrows formed on his forehead."I had to
Khai’s shirt was big and I had wrapped the sheets around my waist to cover up. When we got out, I was first overwhelmed by all the emotions I had been feeling. Pang, angst, pain and attraction at the same time, that wasn't a good mix. Secondly, I was greeted by countless eyes, eyes I didn’t know that varied in colour and intimidation, and shades of confusion. Back home, everyone’s eyes were golden like the sun, familiar and tender.My stomach tensed. I picked up some familiar eyes from the encounter with the Azraels. Some of their hair signified their fur. What confused me was why were they all just standing there at the foot of the stairs. As if they were waiting for me to exit. I had nothing special. I was just a mediocre village girl who had washed up at their door, begging for mercy. I was in debt to them. I owed them my life.I held on to his firm arms for balance and support, my legs were still tired and throbbing. He was tepid against me. The only warmth I've ever felt so amazi
Roman sat on the counter, silently taking in every ounce of the kitchen. Her golden eyes rested on the toaster, the checked tiles and all the kitchen appliances. She was uneasy, not only could I see it, I could feel it. She had loosened up around my sisters but I used my voice on her… I didn't have to do that.A bad habit now. Nothing got done around here without it. What did she expect?As uncomfortable as she felt she kept on asking me what each appliance was. I couldn't help but answer even if I felt annoyed by every question that left her plump lips. Had she never lived in a house before?"What is this one?" she pointed at the sandwich maker with an embarrassed pout. I groaned and pressed my head on the fridge."No, I promise it's the last one,” she said, flashing a bright smile."It's the sandwich maker or toaster.""So, you are making a sandwich?"She innocently played with one of her locks as I came closer and opened the maker to carry out my masterpiece of a sandwich."Don't y
I let him carry me upstairs, bobbing in his arms."Thank you for the sandwich," I mumbled.I indulge myself in his scent, the hardness of his chest. I can see his jawline and the veins of his tanned neck."Anytime,” he replied.Something about him told me he wasn't as nice as he made himself to me. He couldn't help it and neither could I. I saw the way he spoke to everyone like they were pawns. My father treated everyone with respect.I had a distaste for Khai bubbling in my mind, but the hold, the pull, overwhelmed me. I couldn't think straight.I wanted to jump out of his arm and walk by myself but the pain I’d suffer was too much. But it wasn't the pain. Something made me open space for him in my heart, to let his feelings matter.This bloody stranger.He placed me in front of the door.The redhead who was supposedly Grace's scent hit my nose behind the door; my nose scrunched. I hardly knew her but parts of his scent lingered on her like a layer of clothing.What had she been doin
I woke up on a bed. The room was strange and blurry in my eyes. The walls were grey with black accents. The air was dense around me. I felt complete. No pain, I was just okay.Numb, but not completely. A soft moan came from my side and I turned to shrug out of his grip. I had not noticed his arm around my waist.His eyes fluttered open with a scowl. His blue eyes sparkled in the dim morning sunlight, beaming through silver blinds."Roman," he spoke with a hoarse voice.I jumped to my feet on the bed."What's wrong?" he asked.Couldn't he see everything wrong with this?"We slept together. You touched me! I told you I was to be a priestess. I opened up to you!" I shouted and kicked his chest.My legs were stronger today. He rubbed his naked rigid chest at me and smirked. I kicked him again.This was funny?"How could you violate me like this?"Spending a night in his bed wasn't good for a first impression. Was this how city wolves lived? Immoral and untamed. Uncultured. Untraditional?
Roman shone like a star that emitted rays of majesty. Her gilded brown fur reflected the Sun before it hid behind the clouds. Her glowing eyes went back to normal as she looked at me in her never-seen-before wolf form.She had a lovely posture and a gorgeous mane. It made me wonder where she was from. Who could've bred such divinity?I felt an unusual urge to bow before her like she was a queen of some sort.My queen. And I would serve her to the end of my days.It nearly made me sick to feel such respect for anyone, but, Roman was majestic and her eyes were like a river of honey glaze.Those same rich eyes were poor of emotion. I could not read anything. This whole time she had been a book of sorrow, grief and confusion but now, she was blank like a naked page. She just stood there in the breeze of the cold season, looking into the distance, no longer at me but beyond. Her eyes were deep into the forest.What are you thinking? I asked telepathically only to mentally slap myself for b
Running beside her in the wind, was the most freedom I'd ever felt. She led the way and I followed.In the winter of the woods, she glowed in the gloom and I was a black spot, blending into the background. She stood out with her sun-kissed fur. Anyone could see her from a distance which made it more dangerous for her to be alone.An odour stung my nose. An unsettling lethal smell of death. The air became thicker as Roman slowed her pace.A village came into view behind a wall of trees and sorghum. Around 11 to 20 huts surrounded a well made of mud and thatch. Old blood filled the air as I saw the complete opposite of paradise. Flesh and bones and broken homes everywhere. I stood before the village, too unsettled to stumble upon dead bodies.Roman stalked deeper, analysing each home carefully.It was traumatic, and the smell was gut-wrenching. It was colder here, colder than anywhere in the forest. Shredded fur like hers and an eyeball laid before my paw and I shuddered back.At a sho
We found ourselves outside, everyone had transformed into their wolf forms. The majority of the pack had already gathered to watch. Malcolm stood opposite me, snarling and growling.Traga wolves, please hear me. This is not my doing but that of your great ancestor and Khai. This is not my will but that of your own. Blasphemy! A wolf shouted.The pack was clearly split into sides. Those who wanted to remain Traga wolves were in the majority, standing behind Malcolm. I saw many wolves I thought would be on my side.The only one on my side was Grace in her brown wolf form which shone red under the sun. Her love for Khai brought her here and also a pack that never chose her. My heart expected Yolanda to be on my side, Linda or Edna but they stood fiercely behind Malcolm.A howl ripped from the forest and a grey wolf appeared. Audrey. Her blue eyes were like ice.I will fight as well. she growledTwo against one is hardly fair, even for an alpha, Grace said.She stepped forward and nodded
I had not seen her in months. Her absence even made me believe she wasn't around anymore. I never passed her anywhere.Even at the funeral. I knew she was there but I didn't see her.“You better sit down,” Whitney warned.Grace glanced at her without any emotions and walked toward me. I stood up as she approached. She looked tired and broken.“I heard him before he went away," she continued.“If you want to make yourself useful, do it by going back to that room!” Whitney shouted.Whitney charged toward Grace. I found myself running to block her from striking Grace.I gripped her hand in my hand inches from Grace's face. Grace had her arms up in defence. Whitney's wide eyes locked with mine incredulously.“You will sit down!” I said in my alpha voice and it brought her down to her knees."Oh!" Whitney grunted and she found herself crouched on the floor.My voice was so heav
When the elders gathered in the living room, winter was coming to a visible end. Their eyes were still full of grief and heartache, but Raymond was as cold as stone.I told no one else about what Yaga and Khai told me to do after Audrey's reaction. I kept it to myself. Malcolm could read a difference in me but he couldn’t put a finger on it. Most of the time I avoided his advances and efforts to make something out of the proposed arrangement but I gave him no opening.My stomach turned; I could feel another war coming on.“Roman, the time has come. We understand that you may not want anything big but we will need it on paper,” Khai’s grandfather said to me.I sat alone on the single couch while everyone sat around me. This must’ve been how Khai felt when he led. All these eyes and weight on him. No wonder he was broken.My mouth remained sealed and I looked over at Malcolm who for once in one of these meetings was looking me directly in the eyes. Bold and immovable.“By the end of tom
I reached out for her and she moved her hand away. That's when I knew there was division between us."Do you know what you sound like?" she said as she glared at me.I shrugged helplessly."A colonizer.""Excuse me?" I breathed.I wasn't sure if I heard her right."I should've listened to Malcolm. You've made Malcolm a reliable source. Do you know how insane you need to be to make Malcolm sound reliable?" she shouted.The workers around us watched us and all the harvesting had stopped. Audrey saw the eyes and closed the space between us and lowered her voice."How dare you use Khai's name to justify your schemes," she said through clenched teeth."This is not my scheme Audrey. I don't want this either but Khai said-""How dare you?"Her eyes became glossy and she jabbed a finger in my chest."Doing that will eradicate everything that makes us Traga. You came in here and usurped our leader and now you
Winter covered the garden with its cold whiteness and a few months breezed past. The trees grew bare with leaves and frostbite crept up my fragile human toes.I never had to worry about these things when I spent every day and night as a wolf. My fur always kept me warm but as a human, which I spent most of my time as - I found sickness and shivering to be commonplace.They were generous with the mourning period but time was running out. I couldn't avoid the subject of marriage to Malcolm any longer. Eventually, the elders would end their kind silence and come to the house again.Intimidated and confused, I had said yes to marrying Malcolm under the condition that they would lend me the guard dogs in my fight against the Azraels. They had done that for me.This was against my moral code. Growing up, my father taught me to keep my word but then I felt Khai, heard him in my head and promised him I’d never marry Malcolm and see the plan through - my mor
It became apparent why I was here. Why it was the doorstep of the Tragas I fell upon. It was for this moment right here. Khai and I were nothing but collateral, a means to an end.I was but a small cog in the machine, a pawn in a chess game played by the gods. Traga was willing to sacrifice himself to Yaga so his children would get stronger and live longer. My blood would certainly guarantee that.After Khai left my mind and body I felt lonely. Lonelier than I’d ever been or believed was possible. I sat in the desert crying for what felt like an hour as the black hole in my chest gaped wider.I saw them looking for me in the distance and I ran to hide so I could cry all the cowardice out of me.I couldn’t continue like this anymore. I needed to take the first step. Move out of the passive and into the active.For the first time in a long time, I got on my knees and said a prayer.Give me the strength to see these plans through. Please soften the hearts of Traga Wolves so they may rece
The night went on and I left the crowd to sit alone with my fourth drink. I wanted to cry but my body felt too tired of all the sadness and pain. Also, I was tired of forcing smiles.I walked a mile off and sat on the dirt, gazing up at the moon.I’d never given the moon much thought till I came to Traga. All I cared about before was the sun and now I was of both the sun and the moon.As I stared the moon it began to glow. I kept my gaze fixed on it and I felt my blood rushing through my veins. I stood up to my feet as my heart pounded in my chest.What was happening?It went on for a while until my chest felt warm. Tears brimmed at my eyes as I felt it again. His love. His warmth, his presence glowing from inside of me.It was Khai. How?Roman. Khai?Yes. How? I laughed, a mix of joy and tears.How was this happening. I’d never felt so whole in my life. My
Ginos was a place out of town, randomly in the middle of the dessert like area. It was made of shipping containers huddled into a circle where people could sit and have drinks. They only served barbeque meats and alcohol. The air was heavy with spices, smoke and charred meat which made my mouth salivate.I couldn’t believe the Tragas had finally managed to get me off raw meat. I couldn’t imagine eating it.We joined two tables and sat together, the loudest group in the whole place. Hannah, Falcon, Jacob, Yolanda, Audrey, Malcolm, Linda and apparently Greg was coming. The idea didn’t excite me and I felt that it was disrespectful seeing as Khai was barely gone for a week and she was already going over his head.Khai never wanted Greg around them. He could do nothing about Linda’s love for him but he made it clear he didn’t want him around other wolves.I didn’t have the energy to argue and fight a losing battle. No matter what I said, Linda would justify his presence in her head. And on
The guard dogs ran ahead of me, howling in celebration. I turned my head away from the corpses and tried to convince myself I was walking back from somewhere else. But I couldn’t forget what I did, not while I had his skull in my mouth.The howls filled the air all the way back to Traga land. Outside the house many wolves in their human forms had gathered, ready to receive us. They were so excited to see us, cheering and joyful that the reign of Azraels was finally over. I placed Intiyago’s head in the middle of the garden and everyone erupted in joy.Where was my joy, I wondered. I couldn’t feel a thing.Intiyago haunted me for so long, made my life a living hell and now that I had ended him I felt no joy nor sense of completion. I entered the house and phased into a human in the kitchen.My behavior offset them but they continued to cheer and celebrate outside, hoisting Intiyago’s head and parading around with it. The house was e