Christian
"What the fuck! Christian!", Sunny yells as he comes inside the dorm room. I am continuously playing the guitar, glueing my eyes to the concrete floor.
"Christian", he jerks me as I stop, passing a frustrated look.
"What happened?", I grumble, placing the guitar on the bed.
"Buddy, isn't it Ivanna?", he panics, showing me a picture on his phone.
My eyes stuck on the screen when I see her in bridal attire, holding Adavan's arm. I feel my eyes burning with anger and frustration. I knew it would happen. Still, one of the corners of my heart wanted it to stop. I can't believe she had become someone's bride, not mine.
I drive my eyes away from the phone immediately and take my guitar again.
"I'm asking you something", sunny exclaims. "Isn't it Ivanna?", I shake my head.
"What the... How?", he looks at me in disbelief.
"She left me", I say in a heavy voice. The hangover of losing her is still so fresh. I don't know h
IvannaI fold my hands, attaching with my chest as he pulls the blanket off and yanks my waist, attaching me with his body. It gives shivers down to my spine. I look at him nervously, his face full of lust and need.He holds my neck while peering at me, his other hand working on my breast, filling me with nausea. I try to say something but my voice stuck inside my throat."You couldn't feel me well that night, no?", he keeps rolling his fingers on my cheek. "Let me make you feel out of the world""I....", I gulp, glimpsing at him. "Please not tonight. I'm not in a state of handling anything", I whimper. "I still have the pain"I plead to him with a lot of expectations. I know he is the worst. However, if he is claiming that he loves me, he will understand my condition and think about my health more than his desires. If I have to live with him the whole life, I'll have to adjust. For that, I'm trying my best to make him realize what I want."
IvannaI have been lying on the bed the whole day. Martha comes to check me every hour and gets me food. Until the evening, I start feeling a little better when Martha again comes with a phone. She gives it to me."Master", she says as I take the phone nervously."H...hello", I mutter."I'll be there in a while. Put on the red gown. You'll find it in the closet. I want you prepared in an hour", he says and cuts the call. I hand it to Martha.She brings out the gown for me and helps me to get ready. At this moment, I'm anxious about meeting mom. She can easily figure out I'm not well. How will I tell her? With every passing second, I'm being weaker. I thought it would be easy for me. However, it's not. Until I have soul into my body, it'll not be easy.*After Martha leaves, I look at myself in the mirror again. My body is weakening. I wonder how I will walk into the reception. Meanwhile, the door opens as Adavan comes inside. I gulp,
IvannaHe walks towards me like electricity as Helen moves aside"Good evening", he greets others with a smile."Good evening, Sir", Rushil mutters."I hope you're enjoying the reception. So if you don't mind may I steal my wife for a dance?", he acts to be humble but I know he is fuming in anger as I was talking to them. I feel goosebumps all over me as he holds my wrist tightly before anyone could answer.He takes me to the dance floor and pulls me close abruptly."I can't dance", I mutter nervously. My pain will increase if I dance on the floor."Why?", he grumbles. "You can't deny me. Didn't I tell you?""You did. But....", I strive to while he starts moving with the music."What were you talking to them?", he inquires, raising his eyebrows."Nothing. They were just congratulating me", I mumble."Really? I saw you were about to cry", he says rolling me around. I start to feel immense pain
IvannaMom runs her fingers through my hairs, nuzzling my cheek with another hand. I had been feeling so low for the last few days. After that night, mom didn't talk to me properly which weakened me more. I wasn't expecting her to be here today. Nonetheless, I don't want her to leave anymore. I wanted to plead to Adavan. He can do whatever he wants with me. But I want my mom close to me."Are you okay, Ivanna?", mom asks."Yes, mom", I mutter into her lap."I don't know why I'm not feeling like you are okay. Is there something?", she urges to know."I was just.... You didn't attend my wedding. You were mad at me. I had broken Christian's trust. I lost my childhood friend. There were too many things. I'm unable to keep up with these", I lie to her. Although all the reasons were valid, the biggest reason is still hidden from her which I can't even reveal."You are suffering
ChristianI stand by the slope as auntie opens the gate, coming inside. She gets surprised, seeing me there."Christian!", she exclaims. "You are here at this hour?""I wasn't feeling good. So, I thought to meet you", I pass a mild smile as she touches my cheek."Did you have the dinner?", she asks."I....""You didn't I know. Come inside. I'll make something for you", she unlocks the door as we come inside."Go and freshen up", she says."Can I use your washroom?", I mumble. Most of the time when I came here, I used to use Ivanna's room. I don't wanna go there now. Her memories will be weakening me more. Though her home is doing the same, that room had most of our silly, lovely and beautiful moments."Sure", Auntie smiles at me. Maybe, she figured out why I was saying this.*Auntie serves me the dinner as I take the chair. She sits beside me, serving herself."You didn't have dinner there?", I excl
Ivanna"You'll need to give me a kiss", he surprises me. He can do that on his own too. Why do I need to do that?"But you can do it", I say, lowering my eyes."I'm not saying that I wanna kiss you. I know I can do that anytime", he rubs his thumb on my bottom lip. "I'm asking you to kiss me. You'll take the initiative, capture my lips, suck them, nibble them and do whatever you want with them", he tells me in a seductive voice as my eyes pop out.I can't do it. It's impossible. I can tolerate him doing that to me. But I never thought that I would be kissing any guy with my consent except for Christian. I can never kiss a guy whom I don't even love. I'm not the kind of girl who believes in lust."What are you thinking?", he raises his eyebrows. "I could see you get numb while I kiss you. You don't even kiss me back", he shrugs. "I'm not married to a robot, no?"I start trembling in nervousness. It's tough for me to do what he wants."
IvannaMy eyes shine, my lips widen and my heart dances in happiness when I see Christian, singing on the road. His eyes are closed when his sweet voice is spreading magic all around. My eyes finally find the relief that they wanted for a long time. I was dying to find a glimpse of him, his adorable face. His sweet heavy voice. I quench the thirst of my eyes while glueing my eyes to him.Every time he sang before, he used to give a beautiful smile on his face. Today I can only find a kind of pain. My heart aches to see him. I feel something heavy on my heart. I wanna hug him, I wanna go to him, I wanna cover his whole face with zillions of kisses. I want him back in my life.It's all I want. But I can't get it. Tears roll down from my eyes, staring at him. He is only five-six feet away from me. He is so close, still, he is so far.At a moment, he turns sideways as our eyes meet abruptly. His mouth seals, h
Ivanna"I asked you something", he roars again as I close my eyes tightly. He yanks my hairs, clutching into his fists as I hiss in pain."I had warned you", he grumbles. I still don't open my eyes as I can't look at his scary face. "I had fucking warned you not to cross your limits""I didn't do anything", I whimper. He pushes me against the wall and grabs my throat as I choke."You didn't?", he spits. "Weren't you checking on your ex-boyfriend?"I can't react to anything because of his tight grip around my throat. I struggle to breathe."What did you think? I wouldn't know anything? You thought I would blindly trust you and set you free? I fucking gave you the chance to step out of my house and you were fucking around?", his voice booms against the wall. "Being a married woman, you were staring at another guy?"At this moment I only want to rescue myself rather than proving my point. I try my best to push him but he has blocked me t