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Mending The Spines Of Our Diaries: Chideziri POV
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2020-11-24 08:36:52I dial Amanda's line, lying on the fur rug in the centre of the sitting room. She doesn't pick up, but seconds after the first call, a text makes my phone chime.
Amanda: Hey
Amanda:You
I type: I wanted to say I am sorr—
I delete the entire text, re-text: Can we talk—
Delete, again.
Eventually, I settle for: Wassup.
She doesn't reply for such a long time I begin to imagine she's ignoring me, texting others. It turns my tummy, even though I will never admit to jealously.
Then, it appears, a pop up on my screen: The sky, chideziri, the sky.
What I have to say is too heavy for a text message, so I opt for the closest remedy; voice note. I speak hurriedly, before my courage fluctuates.
I say: I was wondering if we could...meet up? And hash out a few things we have to...At the river?
The typing notification shows on her profile and I get the abst
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