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Healing Our Hurt: Amanda POV
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2024-10-29 19:42:56They hoot, holler, whoop, and cheer after I have finished.
They didn't even let me have a break to catch my air. To feel self conscious after the last full-stop.
The quietness that's overtaken Abe since Chantelle was hospitalized parts like a drape. He grins approvingly, and waits for a moment before he fills his ears with Nasty C, again.
Pascal leans over, daps me up and snaps fingers with me. He tells me, "You get flows die, leave am."
Ahmed does a wiggly waist dance thing in his sitting cross-legged pose. Joking, he says it's a good thing that not everyone in the squad lacks the essential sense of art.
Chideziri beams at me, so bright, so hard, it's as if he's the full moon and I'm a moonlit night.
Chantelle? Looks as if I gave her Mars, Pluto, and a crown and sceptre to rule over both of them.
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