Reagan
I saw white lights flashing in my eyes, moving quickly and slowly simultaneously. I felt hopeless when I slammed my right foot into the floorboard, pushing the imaginary brake on the car’s passenger side. Suddenly, I was watching myself, unable to look away from what was about to happen. I opened my mouth, screaming at the top of my lungs, gasping for air as no sound ever escaped my lips. My body tensed muscles I didn’t know I had suddenly tight and aching, trying to protect my stomach from the impact that was about to occur. I tried to move, but I was frozen with fear. A strong arm wrapped around the front of my chest, reminding me I wasn’t alone. Mason… Mason was driving. He was trying to save me as he turned the steering wheel so the driver’s side of the truck would take most of the inevitable impact. Violently, my body jerked forward as a snap and searing hot pain tore through my shoulder. Immediately, guilt overtook me. I didn’t put my seatbelt on, and now I am going to die.
I braced myself, waiting to be thrown out of the vehicle, but to my surprise, the airbag pushed my body back into my seat. The sound of metal scraping the asphalt as it molded itself to the other car engulfed the air, ringing through my ears. My stomach lurched as the spinning started throwing my body into something sharp as it penetrated my body, and then suddenly, the spinning stopped. Silence filled the air, and my vision started to fade. This was it, this is where I die! But I can’t die yet, not yet. I open my mouth, trying to call for help, to call out for Mason. He needs help, we need help, if I can just get some help! I can’t fight the darkness anymore as my body betrays me succumbing to the darkness…..
“NOOOO!!!!” I shot straight up, hitting my head on the bed’s backboard. I’m drenched in sweat, and I can’t breathe. It takes a few minutes before I start to recognize my surroundings. I’m safe at home. A home I haven’t been to in 5 years but home. The nightmares are back! I thought I was over this; what is wrong with me? Why am I so weak? I tried to force the tears out of my eyes that I so badly wanted to fall, but they wouldn’t. The glowing clock on the nightstand reminded me it was only 3 a.m. I contemplate returning to sleep, but I’ll have another nightmare. My control is completely slipping away. I reach for my running shoes. The quick movement reminds me that my ribs are still bruised, but I need to get lost. I grab my hoodie and throw it over my tank top. Looking at my phone I notice the weak signal and full battery charge. I can still listen to my music while I run.
With every step I take, the boards creak louder and louder. The last thing I wanted to do was wake up the cowboy sleeping down the hall and explain what I was doing; if I hadn’t already awakened him with my screaming. The moon was shining bright enough through the windows. I didn’t need to use a light to see my way down the hall. I tried my best to open the back door as quietly as possible, but the slower I cracked it, the louder it echoed through the near-empty house. Finally, I got the door open and slipped out, closing the door as quickly behind me as possible. The cool breeze hit my face, and I started remembering how peaceful it is here, nothing like my place in Seattle. Heck, I can hear the crickets and see the stars. When you look at the sky, I swear you can see the earth’s curvature and watch it rotate. The stars seemed to go on forever. The sky was dark and blue, with the moon shining just enough to give light to see the ground. I once tried explaining the view here to my friends, but they just didn’t get it.
Spencer would no doubt be disappointed if he knew I was running. I still hadn’t been cleared by the doctor. Chuckling at the thought, I put my headphones on and attached my phone to my arm. I need to clear my head more than anything and a little pain isn’t going to stop me. Yesterday my world fell apart all over again, the loss of control was killing me and I needed to get it back. I CAN NOT LOSE CONTROL! It’s the only thing that keeps me going from day to day. The last 48 hours have had me scared to death and hurting inside. I just need to breathe!
The moment my feet hit the ground I could feel my control coming back. My lungs felt like they were on fire as I started to adjust to the elevation change. My ribs only hurt for the first few yards before they went numb and I wait for the rest of my brain to follow suit. A few minutes into my run I forget where I am. My only concern is putting one foot in front of the other. I pick up the pace allowing my mind to wander back to earlier that day.
“Ma’am, I’m sorry for interrupting but there’s a man on the line and he says it's an emergency.”Ashley's voice is shaky, she knows better than to interrupt me during negotiations. Trying not to sound too annoyed with her I asked, “Did he say who he is Miss Tate?”, she was fidgeting, my patience was running out with her, I do not have time for this, “Um.. Yes he said his name is Riggin and it’s about your father….” my heart leaped up into my throat, as I tried to keep my emotions in check. What is going on with my Dad? Why is Riggin calling me? My mind was going a mile a minute as I just sat there not noticing everyone in the room watching me. “Ma'am, what would you like me to do?” her voice snapped me back to reality. I stood up making my way towards the door, ”Please send it to my office, sorry gentlemen you’ll have to excuse me. Mr. Jameson, will you please finish things up for me thank you.” I didn’t give them time to object, I can’t believe this is happening right now. I’ve been working so hard to close this deal for the last 6 months with these people. I was about to get everything I wanted. And now I’m leaving it in Jameson’s hands. He better not mess this up!
I hurried to my office feeling guilty for worrying about work when Daddy needs me. Riggin wouldn’t call me if it wasn’t serious. I silently prayed “please I can’t lose him too, I’m not ready, he’s too young, I’m not strong enough right now.” My heart was pounding in my chest so hard I thought it might burst. Gripping the phone I take a deep breath to gain some control back, ”Hello this is Reagan I understand there is an emergency?” doing my best to keep any sort of emotion out of my voice. “Yes Ma’am I’m sorry to have to call but Mr. Sutherland….. um your father has been in an accident. He’s at the hospital.” I couldn't hear anything else he said. My legs buckled and I fell into my chair. Daddy No! I felt like someone just punched me in the stomach, I couldn’t breathe, ”Ma’am I tried to call Randle but he didn’t answer….” Riggin stopped talking, at least I think he did. I couldn’t speak, we just sat there in silence for what seemed like an eternity. ”Ma’am are you still there?” he finally said, ”How serious is it!” I forced the words out. “They have him in surgery right now.” I could hear the worry in his voice, ”I wouldn’t have called if it wasn’t serious,” he was uncomfortable delivering this news to me. He probably would’ve felt better talking to Randle but it is what it is I guess.
My dad always talks highly of him. He even had me help add him to his will a few months ago, I knew how important he is to Daddy. I was extremely grateful for all the work he did for my dad in running the ranch. Daddy didn’t say it but I knew he was disappointed that Randle or I didn’t want to take over the family business. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to be short with you,”a nervous laugh escaped my lips,”if you could keep trying to get ahold of Randle I will be on the next flight out.” I hung up the phone quickly worried that any control I had would be gone if I kept talking and I went straight to the airport not bothering to stop at home to pack.
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Everything after that was a blur. I don’t even remember boarding the plane. I ended up having a 2 hour delay which made my anxiety levels go through the roof. I should have just taken my jet but I wasn’t thinking straight. By the time I remembered it was too late. I called Steven and let him know I wouldn’t be able to make it to dinner. I felt relieved to be getting away from him. Steven is a nice guy, he’s a businessman, lives for the city life and is very handsome. Any girl would be lucky to have him if they could handle the fact that he is married to his job. Which is what I like most about him. But lately, he was getting clingy wanting to spend more time together. I don’t know why he has to go and ruin a good thing. I made it clear from day one that I wasn’t interested in a serious relationship, I was only looking for someone to accompany me to social functions and maybe dinner every now and then. In return, I accompany him to his business parties. Plus it kept my father and brothe
Riggin “You have gotta be kidding me,” I groaned as I heard Reagan scream down the hall. A quick glance at the clock let me know I could’ve slept for at least two more hours. Now what do I do? Should I check on her? She made it quite obvious last night that she thought I was the scum of the earth. I still couldn’t believe how someone as beautiful as her could be so rotten inside. Her father was such a good man, even Randle but wow. I could hear her footsteps coming down the hall slowly. With each step she took the boards creaked loudly. I peeked out my door, she was a short little thing probably 5’2 I would guess a hundred and ten pounds soaking wet, maybe. Her blonde hair was a mess on top of her head. It was actually quite cute. You could barely see the hem of her shorts under her dark hoodie. She continued to tip-toe towards the door finally giving up and slipping out. I made a mental note to grease the hinges. Where is she going at this time in the morning? I walked up to the
Reagan I was so lost in thought listening to my music I didn’t even know what I hit. All the air in my lungs left leaving me gasping, everything was spinning. Strong arms wrapped around me as I felt my body hit the ground my vision darkening. ”It’s okay”, I heard a voice in the distance say. It seemed far away at first. I tried focusing on the voice unable to calm myself. “I’m so sorry I didn’t see you.” the voice was panicked. “Breathe Regan” recognition hit me it was Riggin. “Thats it slow breaths.” air was slowly returning to my lungs but I was struggling to keep it under control. I can’t let him see me like this, I tried to pull away from him but he tightened his arms around me and whispered in my ear, “It’s okay, deep breaths” fighting him was taking too much energy, the loss of control consuming me. “Relax, breathe in 2, 3, 4, and out 2, 3, 4.” I tried to breathe in rhythm with his count, concentrating on his voice and nothing else. My ribs felt like someone was crushing them
Riggin Why didn't I bring my phone? Stupid move! I could feel the cold ooze of blood dripping down my arm. Where could her phone be? The terrain was rough and my calves were burning “Riggin” I faintly heard my name as I continued searching. It was still dark out, the moon was hidden by clouds so I wasn’t having any luck. A shriek came from her direction as she screamed my name. Trying to be careful not to trip over my feet again I bolted in the direction I’d just come from. Dang it, she tried to sit up, she had to have a concussion, the gash on her head didn’t look too deep but I didn’t want to frighten her anymore than she already had been. She was showing signs of shock and I knew I needed to get her help. “Easy there I'm here!” I got to her just as she passed out. I need to get her home. Against my better judgment, I picked her up, gently cradling her head in one arm and legs in the other. I started back up the steep incline as quickly as I could. Watching every step I take so we
Reagan My mind was running a mile a minute, I didn't want to see Dr. Walker, I didn't want those memories coming back to haunt me. I had worked so hard the last 5 years at forgetting everything. We pulled into the parking lot, nothing had changed, it all looked just as I had left it. A wave of nausea tore through me. Riggin jumped out of the truck and ran around to open my door. I bite the inside of my cheek to keep from smiling at him. He reached his hand out to me and I couldn't help but think of the lightning bolt that had run through my arm the last time he took my hand. Reluctantly I placed my hand in his, there it is again. I originally thought it was just static but twice now? I tried to read his face to see if he felt it too, if he did, he wasn't letting on to it. “Reagan, breathe” he helped me down from the truck gently, embarrassed by my reaction I tried to turn away dang near falling to the ground in the process. “Easy not so fast” he smiled at me and I could feel the hea
We sat down and I waited for Riggin to start hammering me with questions about my name and why it was Hill, but to my surprise he never said a word. Maybe he already knew? I'm sure my father or Josh has told him. Josh probably told Riggin how crazy I am too. We weren't sitting there long before they took us back to a room. I am still in my running shorts and a tank top you could see the bruises on my thighs and arms a mixture of what happened today and some from sparring. My left arm still had some road rash from the accident last week but I'm sure it was blending in with everything else. I noticed Riggin had a small duffle bag with him but I hadn't really thought anything about it till now. “What's that?” I asked trying to break the tension in the room, at first he looked confused, “Oh Aunt Linda packed a change of clothes for you” He winked at me. “Thought you might want to head to the hospital to check on your dad when we leave here.” Aunt Linda thinks of everything I don't know w
Reagan The ride to the hospital was uncomfortable. Riggin didn’t say a word and I couldn’t bring myself to say anything either. I waited for the questions to start coming. His jaw was set tight, he seemed a little tense but I couldn’t read him and it was driving me crazy. I always could read people and tell what they were thinking. My dad said it was a gift I had, being able to tell what a person’s intentions were. It definitely was a good skill to have in the business world, and I took full advantage of it. I hated myself for worrying about what he thought of me, I shouldn’t care! I haven’t cared what anyone has thought of me for a long time. He parked the truck running to my side to open the door. His hands gently helped lower me to the ground ever so careful not to hold my waist to tight as he lifted me out of the truck. Normally I’m grateful for silence, not having to worry about entertaining someone else with conversation, but this silence with Riggin is driving me crazy. He’s
Riggin The elevator door closed before I was able to catch up to her. What was that all about? “I was broken before I got here”? What did that mean? I’ve never had a girl confuse me so much in my entire life! Normally it wouldn’t bother me but I can’t stop worrying about her. Last night I was so sure I had her figured out and then today happened. I thought there was something else going on, now I’m positive that there is something she isn’t saying. I push the button waiting for the doors to open back up. Maybe I should just take the stairs. I keep pushing the button again as if that will make it magically open faster. The ride here had been interesting, I wanted to ask her what on earth was the matter with her, going running when she knew her ribs were bruised. How did she even bruis
I wait for her to make a move first, taking her in and giving her a chance as we circle each other. Her footwork is great she is light on her feet but she is leaving her right leg open to me. I jab at her head to knock her off balance but I don’t shoot. I’m curisous what she’s got and I promised Jack I would go easy on her. “Come on girls stop stalling” Jack yells and a slight smile flashes on Jennifer’s face as she lunges forward grabbing my head. I lock on to hers as she tries to snap. I grab her wrist. I don’t pull on her right away though I let her think she has the upper hand.She tries to spin me and I keep it controlled but I can tell she thinks she’s has me and I’m just waiting for her to make her move. She’s cocky which is going to be her downfall. I keep her close to me not letting her swip my leg. I snap on her softly not wainting her to know I’m just toying with her at this point.She goes for my leg and I whizzer on her, but I let go of her jumping up without attacking h
Jack was waiting when we arrived looking chipper as ever. “Hey Jack this is Riggin, Riggin this is Jack my coach.” I said turning between the two of them. The confusion on Riggin’s face was priceless. “Nice to meet you Riggin, are you going to get on the mat?” Jack asked looking Riggin up and down. It took him a moment to realize what he was talking about. “Haven’t decided yet.” he said. Now it was my turn to be surprised. I gave Jack a hug as he checked me out. “What happened to your eye?” I had forgotten about the cut above my eye. Before Riggin could fill in the blanks I hurried and answered. “It’s nothing I tripped and hit my head no big deal.” I played it off. Riggin tensed up but didn’t say anything. “I’d tell you to go easy but I know better than that.” He said in a serious tone.Jack is one of the only people who takes me as I am. He doesn’t try to sugar coat anything and thats what I like most about him. “So I know you aren’t big on girls but” Jack started saying grabbing
“Tiny wait! I’m sorry!” Mason said grabbing my arm. I tried to pull away but he was stronger than me. He pulled me close wrapping his arm firmly around my waist as he kissed the top of my head. He knew how much I loved when he did that, he also knew I honestly couldn’t stay mad at him. “Mason you know Jason and I are only friends, I can’t believe you’d ever think that.” I couldn’t help the pain in my voice.The tears were threatening to break free. “I know, I know, I was just jealous…” the panic in his voice was evident as he held me tighter. No, no not this time, I’m not letting him off the hook this easy,“Mason just take me home!” I said breaking free of him and heading for the truck. “Tiny its late lets just stay at the hotel like we planned.” He pleaded with me. “No Mason you can stay I’ll drive myself I just want my own bed.” I started to walk around to the drivers side. He placed his arm on the truck blocking my path and opened the passenger door. I climbed in not bothering to
We drove in silence as I followed the directions Reagan had placed in my phone. She stared out the widow biting her lip as we drove. “Do you want to tell me where we are going?” I asked her. “Umm ya it’s just up the road we are almost there.” She said. We had been driving for a couple miles and I hadn’t seen a house. Finally as we turned a corner a two story farm house came into view. “Pull down that driveway” she pointed at the house. I pulled down a long driveway that wrapped around the back to a garage that looked like it could be a separate house. The porch went all the way around the house with shrubs that were spaced a foot apart. The white railing matched the white house that had large windows everywhere. A solid red brick chimney rose out of one side of the house and the brown shingles blended in nicely. The second flood had three windows that popped out of the roof which I imagined are connected to three separate rooms. The yard had a lush green lawn that looked perfectly ma
Riggin I wasn’t sure where we were headed but I knew I didn’t want to go home yet. Reagan was lost in thought and for the time I was ok to ride in silence. My mind was swirling. I couldn’t stop thinking about our dance earlier “I’ll deal with the guilt in the morning.” what did she mean? Guilt... at first I just thought she was playing me. Like I was another game like Steven, but she really seemed upset that I heard her. Then Jason and Sheri butted in. Just thinking about him dancing with her made my blood boil. I couldn’t pull my eyes away from them. Maybe Sheri will finally be able to take the hint. She sure was mad enough at me. Reagan didn’t look like she was enjoying herself but I couldn’t quite tell what was going on. He upset her enough to send her running for my truck. Something happened between them but I wasn’t sure if she would tell me what. Aunt Linda’s words kept echoing in my mind,”Be patient.” “Watcha thinkin about?” Reagan was the first to br
Riggin doesn’t move he doesn’t even look at her his eye’s are on mine. I am frozen where I stand, he is waiting for me to say something. But I can’t find the words just like earlier with Jordan his jaw tightens. He’s upset I don’t blame him. “I think I’ll cash in now” I hear Jason’s voice as he grabs my arm jerking me towards him. Apparently not noticing the awkward moment Riggin and I were having. Not now Jason! Not now! Is all I can think but I didn’t say anything. I turned my head back catching a glimpse of Riggin as he took Sheri in his arms dancing away! Crap now I’m in Jason’s arms and I can’t hide from him. I want to scream at him then go rip Sheri out of Riggin’s arms,but I have no right to interfere, after all I’m the one who should be staying away from him. “Penny for your thoughts” Jason’s voice brought me back to him, his brown eye’s bringing back too many memories that I can’t handle right now. Jason was Mason’s best friend. I used to joke that I didn’t marry Mason I m
“REAGAN HOPE SUTHERLAND!” a female voice shouted above the noise. A brunette girl was standing at the table staring Reagan down. Her hands were on her hips and she looked angry. “I am gonna kill you!” she said it not as loud but in a stern voice that sent a chill through me. Reagan choked on the water she was drinking. She seemed to be in shock not moving or saying anything just meeting the girls stare. People started to stop and watch as the brunette stood there waiting for a response. The brunette was taller than Reagan by about two or three inches but they probably weighed about the same. Reagan seemed to be frozen until another voice I don’t recognize joined in, a male voice. “You’re gonna have to wait in line.” he appeared behind the brunette. I didn’t recognize him. He looked about six foot even with dark brown hair. He was smiling at Reagan in a way that made me uncomfortable. Instinctively I pulled her closer to me. If I thought she was tense before it was nothing compared t
“As you wish, no special treatment tonight.” Issac laughed enunciating “special”. I didn’t like the way he was looking at her but Reagan ignored him. She gripped my hand hard under the table where no one else could see. I could feel her shaking slightly. Yet the rest of her seemed very composed. Everyone ordered, Isaac gave Reagan a wink before he left and she just rolled her eyes at him but I felt her shudder. No one said a word. All eyes were on Reagan as she pretended to check her phone. I noticed that Steven was calling her, she sent him straight to voicemail. Finally Tanner spoke up. “So what’s you’re usual seat?” Reagan looked uncomfortable. My hand started to go numb from her grip. “I’m really sorry about that, I just... sometimes bring business clients here. I usually take them to a quieter area is all.” I could tell she’s not being completely honest, there is more to it than what she’s saying but now is not the time to ask her. “So who do you work for?” Krista asked. Reaga
Riggin Did she just say she wanted this to be something more? I’m not sure I heard her right, I think my heart just stopped beating. I can tell she’s nervous she keeps biting her lower lip. I let go of her hand and get out of the truck running over to her side. She’s twiddling her thumbs in her lap even though I can’t see them I can tell. I open the door and she jumps. “I think I need some clarification here, you want to know if I want more than a business relationship?” I turn her body so her eyes are level with mine leaning in close to her. The smell of her perfume is intoxicating but I need to think straight right now. “As in you like me and I like you in the traditional sense of the words” It comes out as a whisper and I’m not sure why. “Yes that’s exactly what I was meaning but never mind it was a stupid idea anyways.” she says putting her hands on my chest and trying to push me away. “I just thought that if I was seeing an ex like you are it would be easi