Amari POV:"Leave your message after the beep" I sigh holding the phone closer to my ear. I dig my sock-covered feet into my plush carpet trying to ground myself "Hey Shadow it's me again I know it's the 200th time I've called you in the past two weeks but please pick up I - I can't lose you ...not again" I whisper sounding as desperate as I feel. Hanging up the phone I bite back a sob as I lay back downShadow hasn't been answering my calls since rescuing me from Jonathan’s. I can feel a piece of my heart chip away every time I get sent to his voicemail. I honestly don't understand why his ignoring meI just want to hear his voiceTo see him ... is that too much to ask. I feel like screaming and then crying all over again "Amari come out it's time for dinner" my mom spoke from behind my bedroom door"I'm not hungry," I say and she sighs“Amari you need to eat something I’m worried about you” she tries reasoning with me “I’m not hungry” I mumble grabbing a pillow to cry on “I know
Daniel POV: Walking into the facility with a bouquet of flowers I head straight toward the receptionist"Hi I'm here to visit Amari Carmichael," I say looking at the old lady with chapped lips"She's not taking any visitors at the moment," she says not paying any attention to me. Instead she's focused on whatever she’s knitting"Can you please tell her it's Daniel ...Daniel Peters" I say and the lady raises her head slightly. Rolling her eyes she picks up the phone in front of her and starts dialing a numberI could easily go down the halls and find Amari myself since I practically came here every day when she was admitted at 9. I know this place like the back of my hand but I’ll be professional since I’m here as a visitor, not an owner "Uhm we have a.... "She pauses clearly forgetting my name"Daniel Peters" I answer her with a smile "Daniel Peters here to see a patient..." she looks down at her books "- patient 007""Okay," she says into the phone before she places it back down"
Amari POV:Waking up under duvet covers I try to adjust my eyes to the dimly lit room. Moving around I rub my neck trying to ease out the uncomfortable sting"My men injected you with Propofol. The sting should be gone in an hour or two" a deep voice says in the darkJumping up startled my mind takes me back to when I was 8 I was sitting in this exact position talking to him"Your here" I whisper out and he chuckles sending tingles down my back"You're actually in Berlin now" he shifts in the dark. I can't see him but I can see the outline of him"What do you mean" I chuckle awkwardly maybe his joking. How long was I out for to be in a completely different country?Looking around this unfamiliar room I know I'm supposed to be scared but I'm not cause I know he'll protect me like the first time he protected me from the bad guys jumping into my window all those years ago "You're becoming impulsive, sweetheart," he says. Actually listening to him speak I pick up a Russian accent in his
Amari POV:I've been in my room for the past three days not that I can't leaveI just - Shadow honestly wants nothing to do with me at this point. So I don't want to bother him that muchDaniel on the other ha-"Knock knock," he says whilst knocking Speak of the devil"You can come in" I yell. He walks in and sits on the edge of my bed"Look Amari about what happened the other day whatever you heard I do apologize," Daniel says whilst pretending to crack his knuckles. He's been apologizing since and if I’m being quite honest I didn’t know what they were talking about but I knew it had to do with me so I stopped them from arguing "Daniel you can stop apologizing quite frankly I don't want to be here I haven't taken my meds and my insomnia has kicked in," I say clutching onto his arm way too hard causing him to wince"Sorry," I say pulling away. I really really need my meds now “Do you remember what happened last night?” Daniel asked and I looked at him puzzled “Uh no” I answer and
Amari POV:Walking into the kitchen I find two guards throwing stuff into the trash bin.They lift their heads up and when they see me they quickly raise their hands in surrender. They say a few words in their native language and I frown walking past them .....I don't know what that was aboutFollowing Daniel's directions I finally reach the double door with boss written on it. Knocking I use the lion door handle. There is no reply for a few minutes but eventually, he speaks"Come in," he says in a raw Russian accent Pushing the door slightly I walk into the office to find him with his head in between paperwork signing and flipping pages over Looking at him I honestly can't get over how good-looking he is ..... I mean the voice should have been a given but it wasn'tHis shoulders hunch over as he focuses on what his doing. He looks like a beast in his own territory with how big his desk is "For fuck sake tal-" he barks as he lifts his head. He cuts himself off when he sees me stand
Amari POV :He kissed me !!!!!!!!!Ahh!! he kissed meOkay okay, I need to calm down I - just fuck!! okay, I'm calm I'm definitely calm.Touching my lips for the hundredth time today my lips spread into a cheesy smile. Every time I think of last night's kiss all I feel are butterfliesHis such a good kisser that all I want to do is kick my feet and just go back. I don't know what got over me really I guess he looked hot and those muscles in that tight-fitting shirt just make me want to... Turning over in I grab a pillow and I scream into it. I miss Bella I really need to tell her this instead of having an imaginary conversation with myselfShadow POV:Fuck that can never happen againWhat was I even thinking- exactly I wasn't thinking because I kissed a minorRunning a hand through my hair I sigh. I really need to stop whatever is happening fast because I can't. It took everything in me to not bend her over that desk and have her-Keep it together Xavier"Boss you wanted to see me,"
Daniel POV:I woke up in one of the cells and all I've been doing is just staring at the wallHearing footsteps by the door I walk toward them"Your badge number" I ask"Sir I can't tell you that""As much as I am in here I am still your superior, badge number" I bark out"0012," he saysWhose 0012 fuck think ...I need to think oh yes bingo"Luke I need you to warn someone for me " I sigh thinking about Amari"Sir I-""Listen to me Luke fuck all the I'm a mafia man bullshit I need you to warn someone for me," I say sternly. The other side goes quiet for a while"Luke" I call out for him and he sighs"Shit okay uhm who am I warning""There is a girl in the right-wing just after the kitchen ....Amari is her name I need yo-""You don't need to do anything," Xavier says cutting me off and I curse myself"Luke take 5, " Xavier says"Yes sir" I hear Luke say as well as his footsteps retreating "You know Daniel you're like a brother to me, we've been best friends for 25 years, and yet I stil
Amari POV:I’ve been staring at all the dresses not knowing which one to pick because they are all so beautiful but I was running out of time so I decided to go with the white one that was less revealing even though it had a thigh slitWaiting for him to come downstairs I try my best to just stand still and look unfazed even though my nerves are going on full blast. Hearing footsteps I fix my posture and look toward the door"Sweetheart...wow" he behind me and I turn to face him. Blushing I look down as he makes his way towards me. I should be saying wow to him. He looks amazing. He's wearing an all-black suit and his hair is still wet which adds to the outfit perfectly"You’re too beautiful to shy away, tsvetok" he holds my chin up so that our eyes meet. Going in to kiss him he brings my chin down to kiss my forehead"Shall we go?" he says bringing his arms out for me to hold. Slightly embarrassed I nod and he guides me through the house. We stop in front of a door that’s new to me"
Daniel POV:It's been 6 months since Amari died and when Xavier pulled the trigger I was more than glad to find that the safety was still on. A part of Xavier died that day with AmariThe man that we still see today is merely a ghost with a broken heart He's been in and out of the facility and today I'm driving to fetch him Pulling into the driveway of the facility I see Xavier standing outside the doors with a cigarette in his hand and a duffel bag in the otherWhen he sees me he throws the cigarette on the floor crushing it with his foot. Parking in front of him I open the window"Hey," I say and he nods opening the car door. Climbing inside he opens the cubby hole and takes out a folded picture"She looked so beautiful," he says looking at their wedding picture"Yeah, she did," I say staring straight ahead. It still hurts to talk about her but today we have too "Turns out there was nothing we could have done. A while back the doctors predicted she wouldn't live past the age of 18
Xavier POV:"Are you serious right now the wedding started 40 minutes ago" Daniel says as I stand beside him at the altar. Damn, why is he so uptight?"I had to take care of something" I smirk fixing my suit when I think about what just happened in her changing roomEven though Daniel and I aren't close at all, for Amari's sake I made him my best man. The music starts playing and all the guests stand up. Smiling I straighten up when see Amari by the archway. There’s a bunch of audible gasps when they see her. Suddenly feeling out of breath I wipe my hands down my suit pants. She looks breathtaking. She makes her way through the doors and my eyes widen even more Fuck me After Amanda falling in love was never in the cards for me. I had trust issues and ever since then, the girls I've been with were just there to suppress the hurt I have accustomed myself to. Practically a means to an end When I met Amari I wasn't looking for love it was a simple interaction that had to happen cause i
Daniel POV:Too many days have gone by and every time I try to talk to Amari about the cure something or someone distracts her from the conversationIt's her wedding day today so I had the gift hidden under the gifts table for safekeeping. I wanted to tell her one-on-one but now I'll just tell her when everyone is in the same room this evening"Daniel you look handsome" Turning I see Bella standing in the doorway looking every bit as stunning as she is "Thanks, Bella", looking at myself in the mirror I have to say having the girls wear caramel and the boys wear Mocha was a nice touch to the weddingAmari wanted the wedding to look like a coffee drink. According to Bella the last three months Amari has been obsessed with Starbucks so you can imagine there is even a Starbucks pop-up shop at the reception"You look beautiful, Bella," I say turning to face her and she smiles doing a complete 360. Wow just wow. Walking over to her I stop in front of her "Thank you" She hooks our hands an
Chapter 47: Pregnancy test? Snuggling closer to him, I plop some butter popcorn into my mouth. A scary scene comes up in the movie and I hide my face in his chest. “Is it gone? Tell me it’s gone” I ask, and he chuckles resting his head on the top of mine. “It’s gone, Tsvetok,” he says. I take a slight peak to find the scene gone. This was my first time watching a horror movie. I haven’t had much time to watch movies lately, so Shadow advised we watch his favorite horror together. Mama. It’s about a dead woman who adopts these two little girls after their father tries to kill them. I thought it was going to be cutesy, but instead, she started killing people and refusing for the little girls to go back into humanity. “I don’t like this anymore” I sob, watching the youngest girl getting pulled closer to the edge by the demon lady. Shadow turns the T.V. off and turns to me. “No more, see,” he says. I blow out a breath and I shove a handful of buttery popcorn into my mouth. “It was s
Amari POV: "Hey you can't go in there," the shop assistant says. Turning we look at very out-of-breath and exhausted Daniel"You came, "I say smiling. He scans me from head to toe and smiles "I saw your note on my bed and I just couldn't miss this. Roza, you look incredible" he says nearing me. The tears I thought wouldn't fall start to fall one by one"Aww roza don't cry," he says bringing me in for a hug"I'm sorry"I whisper and he plants a kiss on my forehead"Don't be I'm glad I'm here" he says squeezing me tighter"I am too, "I say embracing his warmth"Okay well enough of the shit show we should get going," Bella says clapping her hands. Daniel chuckles and he breaks the hug. Fixing myself I go back into the fitting room and take off the gownWalking back out Daniel already has my dress on a hanger. He hands it over to the lady and she takes the price tag to the counter"Oh I am so glad you found a dress," the shop assistant says scanning the tag"I loved every piece but this
Amari POV:Xavier and I ate breakfast then we took a shower together. He suggested we head into town but instead, he flew us to Italy. I should have known he didn't mean the local town in MoscowAfter landing he got us a car that dropped us off in a street filled with many boutiques. Turning to Xavier I looked at him in confusion. I thought we came to get the ring "What are we doing here," I ask and he smiles pecking my lips"Shopping spree," he says climbing out of the car and waiting for me to do so. Grabbing his hand I jump out of the car. Still surprised and slightly confused I look at all the beautiful buildings. I knew I was homesick but being here now is making me realize that I missed Italia "We didn't have to go to Italy for this, "I say hooking my arm on his"Well you're half Italian aren't you so let's see if you're any good" he walks us towards a boutique with cute pretty dresses. Opening the door the bell dingles and the lady by the counter walks up to us"Salve, come p
Bella POV:God, it's always the good-looking ones that are such pricks. Marching towards Daniel's room I start banging on his door and then I turn the handle "What t-" Cutting him off I march into his room and start my rant"I just can't believe Xavier is such an asshole not to mention you were right his not a good guy shit what is his deal" I scream flopping onto his bed bedside him. He is quiet for a while so I sit up to see him looking at me with sleepy eyes and bedridden hair "Bella what are you doing here" he groans in his morning voice and I only realize now that I woke him up. Oh shit "Shit I'm sorry I didn't realize you were asleep," I say and he yawns running a hand through his hair ruffling it even more. Why the hell does he have to be so sexy?"Fuck so Xavier's really here," he asked sitting up and resting his back on the headboard. Wait what’s that smell "Oh my god you reek of alcohol," I say pinching my nose. I was too busy ranting I didn’t even realize it smelled lik
Shadow POV:I never went back to our room last night and quite frankly I just sat in my office drinking my frustration away. But it's 6 am now and I promised Amari I'll do betterSecuring my robe around my waist I walk out of my office. I walk down the hallway and the staircase and I enter the kitchen. Seeing someone sitting on the counter I pull out my gun ready to shoot but then I see the blonde hair. Oh it’s Bella"Hey," I say and she jumps off the counter clutching her cereal bowl in freight"Holy shit" is what she says when she turns around to see me"Fuckin in hell" she curses as she puts her bowl of cereal down"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you," I say opening the fridge and taking out the eggs"Uhm no ar- are you making Amari breakfast," she asked with a wide grin on her face and I rolled my eyes. I don’t know Bella or how to feel about her but she’s Amari’s best friend she can’t be that bad "Oh. my. god," she says smiling like a crazy woman whilst shoving a spoon of cereal i
Amari POV: "What" I rasp closing my eyes shut when he reaches my lower abdomen. His lips hover over my clit and I fist the sheets the anticipation killing me."I'm sorry," he says kissing my inner thigh and I sigh not understanding where this is going"For what" I ask and he pauses"Look at me," he says growing serious. Rising a bit I rest my weight on my elbows so I'm looking at him"I'm sorry for how I acted back at the cabin I uhm," he says nervously, and now I sit up straighter so that I'm giving him my devoted attention"I have PTSD and I didn't take my meds," he says not even looking at me truly speaking I've never seen Shadow this sincere. I honestly don't know what to do. I’m shocked and relieved that his being vulnerable with me right now "A long time ago I promised myself that I wouldn’t and I couldn’t fall in love with someone but I can’t keep lying to myself about how I feel about you," he says staring into space and I go towards him. Grabbing his face I make him look at