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Shadow Chapter 18: First kiss
Amari POV :He kissed me !!!!!!!!!Ahh!! he kissed meOkay okay, I need to calm down I - just fuck!! okay, I'm calm I'm definitely calm.Touching my lips for the hundredth time today my lips spread into a cheesy smile. Every time I think of last night's kiss all I feel are butterfliesHis such a good kisser that all I want to do is kick my feet and just go back. I don't know what got over me really I guess he looked hot and those muscles in that tight-fitting shirt just make me want to... Turning over in I grab a pillow and I scream into it. I miss Bella I really need to tell her this instead of having an imaginary conversation with myselfShadow POV:Fuck that can never happen againWhat was I even thinking- exactly I wasn't thinking because I kissed a minorRunning a hand through my hair I sigh. I really need to stop whatever is happening fast because I can't. It took everything in me to not bend her over that desk and have her-Keep it together Xavier"Boss you wanted to see me,"
Last Updated : 2023-09-08Shadow Chapter 19: The Drug
Daniel POV:I woke up in one of the cells and all I've been doing is just staring at the wallHearing footsteps by the door I walk toward them"Your badge number" I ask"Sir I can't tell you that""As much as I am in here I am still your superior, badge number" I bark out"0012," he saysWhose 0012 fuck think ...I need to think oh yes bingo"Luke I need you to warn someone for me " I sigh thinking about Amari"Sir I-""Listen to me Luke fuck all the I'm a mafia man bullshit I need you to warn someone for me," I say sternly. The other side goes quiet for a while"Luke" I call out for him and he sighs"Shit okay uhm who am I warning""There is a girl in the right-wing just after the kitchen ....Amari is her name I need yo-""You don't need to do anything," Xavier says cutting me off and I curse myself"Luke take 5, " Xavier says"Yes sir" I hear Luke say as well as his footsteps retreating "You know Daniel you're like a brother to me, we've been best friends for 25 years, and yet I stil
Last Updated : 2023-09-10Shadow Chapter 20: Date
Amari POV:I’ve been staring at all the dresses not knowing which one to pick because they are all so beautiful but I was running out of time so I decided to go with the white one that was less revealing even though it had a thigh slitWaiting for him to come downstairs I try my best to just stand still and look unfazed even though my nerves are going on full blast. Hearing footsteps I fix my posture and look toward the door"Sweetheart...wow" he behind me and I turn to face him. Blushing I look down as he makes his way towards me. I should be saying wow to him. He looks amazing. He's wearing an all-black suit and his hair is still wet which adds to the outfit perfectly"You’re too beautiful to shy away, tsvetok" he holds my chin up so that our eyes meet. Going in to kiss him he brings my chin down to kiss my forehead"Shall we go?" he says bringing his arms out for me to hold. Slightly embarrassed I nod and he guides me through the house. We stop in front of a door that’s new to me"
Last Updated : 2023-09-12Shadow Chapter 21: Aftermath
Amari POV:Waking up startled and not knowing where I am, my eyes land on a silhouette. I let out a scream when it stood up"You're safe Amari, don't worry I got you, sweetheart," he says nearing me. He sits on the edge of the bed by my feet. It's a man. Bringing my legs closer to my chest I look around one more time. I don't recognize this room it smells like a man's room"What's happening....where am I," I ask him. His jaw twitches and he tries to reach for my hand but I pull away. Who is he and why does he keep trying to touch me"Sweetheart, you have been in a mini coma for 3 weeks," he says looking worried. Coma for 3 weeks what the hell happened and where's my mom"Okay but who are you" I cautiously say not wanting to offend him since he clearly knows me"Sweetheart it's me, S-Xavier" he stumbles on his words. Looking at his body language his all tense"Am I supposed to know who you are" I raise my eyebrow at him. He blows out a breath whilst running his hands through his hair"
Last Updated : 2023-09-14Shadow Chapter 22: Mirror
Daniel POV:She jumps out of the water and wraps herself in a towel"Amari where are you going" I ask puzzled"Shadow would never do and if he did he had his reasons," she says walking out of the bathroom. I follow her into her closet"Amari, are you serious right now, no, I tell you that Shadow ruined your childhood and you find a way to defend him?"I scoffed. What the fuck is happening maybe she didn't hear me right"Sometimes love has sacrifices and if that means I have to sacrifice my childhood again just to be with him I would" she barks at me. Stunned I just stare at her, going back into the bathroom I grab my suit jacket. Marching to the door I swing it open and pause"Sometimes I tell myself that I can save you from all this bullshit but Shadow was right you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved"I sigh shaking my head "Come to think of it...you guys are perfect for each other. This world was really meant for you unlike me I was born into it. Not exactly my choice b
Last Updated : 2023-09-16Shadow Chapter 23: Sorry
Shadow POV:Walking towards Amari's room I find Daniel walking out whilst buttoning his shirt."Before I jump to conclusions what the fuck where you doing in there" I whisper yell at him"I know how it looks but it's not the case, she had a mental breakdown yesterday and I was here helping her as you requested" he states walking awayWalking into her room I find her still asleep. Going towards her I gently remove the corner of her duvet. She quickly realizes that she's completely naked and the only piece of clothing on her is Daniel's suit jacket. I turn around to leave and then I feel her grab my arm"He didn't do anything, he slept on the couch and I slept here" she whispers but that doesn't justify anything right now. Going towards her I tuck a strand of her hair behind her ear. I realize that her hair is shorter"You cut your hair?" I question her and she swats my hand away. She sits up slightly moving away from me."I did," she says tucking both sides behind her hair. Before it w
Last Updated : 2023-09-17Shadow Chapter 24: Training
Amari POV:We've been sitting in my room talking for who knows how long. I'm just glad that we are having an opportunity to just talk. I’m mad not so much since we aired it all out"I still can't believe you like choc-mint ice cream," I say chucking a pillow at him and he catches it"It was all my mother ever bought so I learned to love it but you sweetheart like vanilla which is very boring if I must say" he smirks as he shrugs"Not really cause with vanilla you can turn it into any flavor you feel like and that is amazing to me," I say falling back into my bed. Feeling contentment for the first time in a while I turn to him"Xavier" I whisper out"Don't push it" he says warningly"My bad, Shadow," I say rephrasing it"Yes sweetheart""I still know nothing about you or your childhood I just know the basics like your favorite book is The Laws of Power, your favorite ice cream is choc-mint, you love your mafia and you like me," I say resting my head on my arm facing him completely"Ah
Last Updated : 2023-09-17Shadow Chapter 25: Warehouse 233
Amari POV:It's been 36 hours of doing nonstop training and Shadow said the reason I'm controllable now and I quote is because "now I know the truth". I guess it helps but it hurts turning into 'obsidian' Well that's what the men here call me behind Shadow's back cause my eyes turn pitch black"Amari are you ready" one of the men says as they knock on my door"Yeah uhm I just need a second" I shout back.I don't even know if I'm wearing this suit correctly but at least it's on. Putting my earpiece on I go towards the mirror and I must say I look so badass. Now I know what it feels like to be one of those action movie characters. This is exciting as much as I am shitting myself but that's not how winners talkI've been hanging out with these men way too muchWalking out I'm greeted by people shoving guns into their gears."Amari, Boss wants to see you," one of the men says and I nod. Going towards Shadow's office I stand in front of his door. Breathing in and out I knock on the door"C
Last Updated : 2023-09-18
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Shadow Chapter 50: Our Amari
Daniel POV:It's been 6 months since Amari died and when Xavier pulled the trigger I was more than glad to find that the safety was still on. A part of Xavier died that day with AmariThe man that we still see today is merely a ghost with a broken heart He's been in and out of the facility and today I'm driving to fetch him Pulling into the driveway of the facility I see Xavier standing outside the doors with a cigarette in his hand and a duffel bag in the otherWhen he sees me he throws the cigarette on the floor crushing it with his foot. Parking in front of him I open the window"Hey," I say and he nods opening the car door. Climbing inside he opens the cubby hole and takes out a folded picture"She looked so beautiful," he says looking at their wedding picture"Yeah, she did," I say staring straight ahead. It still hurts to talk about her but today we have too "Turns out there was nothing we could have done. A while back the doctors predicted she wouldn't live past the age of 18
Shadow Chapter 49: Please
Xavier POV:"Are you serious right now the wedding started 40 minutes ago" Daniel says as I stand beside him at the altar. Damn, why is he so uptight?"I had to take care of something" I smirk fixing my suit when I think about what just happened in her changing roomEven though Daniel and I aren't close at all, for Amari's sake I made him my best man. The music starts playing and all the guests stand up. Smiling I straighten up when see Amari by the archway. There’s a bunch of audible gasps when they see her. Suddenly feeling out of breath I wipe my hands down my suit pants. She looks breathtaking. She makes her way through the doors and my eyes widen even more Fuck me After Amanda falling in love was never in the cards for me. I had trust issues and ever since then, the girls I've been with were just there to suppress the hurt I have accustomed myself to. Practically a means to an end When I met Amari I wasn't looking for love it was a simple interaction that had to happen cause i
Shadow Chapter 48: His Wife
Daniel POV:Too many days have gone by and every time I try to talk to Amari about the cure something or someone distracts her from the conversationIt's her wedding day today so I had the gift hidden under the gifts table for safekeeping. I wanted to tell her one-on-one but now I'll just tell her when everyone is in the same room this evening"Daniel you look handsome" Turning I see Bella standing in the doorway looking every bit as stunning as she is "Thanks, Bella", looking at myself in the mirror I have to say having the girls wear caramel and the boys wear Mocha was a nice touch to the weddingAmari wanted the wedding to look like a coffee drink. According to Bella the last three months Amari has been obsessed with Starbucks so you can imagine there is even a Starbucks pop-up shop at the reception"You look beautiful, Bella," I say turning to face her and she smiles doing a complete 360. Wow just wow. Walking over to her I stop in front of her "Thank you" She hooks our hands an
Shadow Chapter 47: Pregnancy test?
Chapter 47: Pregnancy test? Snuggling closer to him, I plop some butter popcorn into my mouth. A scary scene comes up in the movie and I hide my face in his chest. “Is it gone? Tell me it’s gone” I ask, and he chuckles resting his head on the top of mine. “It’s gone, Tsvetok,” he says. I take a slight peak to find the scene gone. This was my first time watching a horror movie. I haven’t had much time to watch movies lately, so Shadow advised we watch his favorite horror together. Mama. It’s about a dead woman who adopts these two little girls after their father tries to kill them. I thought it was going to be cutesy, but instead, she started killing people and refusing for the little girls to go back into humanity. “I don’t like this anymore” I sob, watching the youngest girl getting pulled closer to the edge by the demon lady. Shadow turns the T.V. off and turns to me. “No more, see,” he says. I blow out a breath and I shove a handful of buttery popcorn into my mouth. “It was s
Shadow Perfect fit part 2
Amari POV: "Hey you can't go in there," the shop assistant says. Turning we look at very out-of-breath and exhausted Daniel"You came, "I say smiling. He scans me from head to toe and smiles "I saw your note on my bed and I just couldn't miss this. Roza, you look incredible" he says nearing me. The tears I thought wouldn't fall start to fall one by one"Aww roza don't cry," he says bringing me in for a hug"I'm sorry"I whisper and he plants a kiss on my forehead"Don't be I'm glad I'm here" he says squeezing me tighter"I am too, "I say embracing his warmth"Okay well enough of the shit show we should get going," Bella says clapping her hands. Daniel chuckles and he breaks the hug. Fixing myself I go back into the fitting room and take off the gownWalking back out Daniel already has my dress on a hanger. He hands it over to the lady and she takes the price tag to the counter"Oh I am so glad you found a dress," the shop assistant says scanning the tag"I loved every piece but this
Shadow Chapter 46: Perfect fit
Amari POV:Xavier and I ate breakfast then we took a shower together. He suggested we head into town but instead, he flew us to Italy. I should have known he didn't mean the local town in MoscowAfter landing he got us a car that dropped us off in a street filled with many boutiques. Turning to Xavier I looked at him in confusion. I thought we came to get the ring "What are we doing here," I ask and he smiles pecking my lips"Shopping spree," he says climbing out of the car and waiting for me to do so. Grabbing his hand I jump out of the car. Still surprised and slightly confused I look at all the beautiful buildings. I knew I was homesick but being here now is making me realize that I missed Italia "We didn't have to go to Italy for this, "I say hooking my arm on his"Well you're half Italian aren't you so let's see if you're any good" he walks us towards a boutique with cute pretty dresses. Opening the door the bell dingles and the lady by the counter walks up to us"Salve, come p
Shadow Breakfast part 2
Bella POV:God, it's always the good-looking ones that are such pricks. Marching towards Daniel's room I start banging on his door and then I turn the handle "What t-" Cutting him off I march into his room and start my rant"I just can't believe Xavier is such an asshole not to mention you were right his not a good guy shit what is his deal" I scream flopping onto his bed bedside him. He is quiet for a while so I sit up to see him looking at me with sleepy eyes and bedridden hair "Bella what are you doing here" he groans in his morning voice and I only realize now that I woke him up. Oh shit "Shit I'm sorry I didn't realize you were asleep," I say and he yawns running a hand through his hair ruffling it even more. Why the hell does he have to be so sexy?"Fuck so Xavier's really here," he asked sitting up and resting his back on the headboard. Wait what’s that smell "Oh my god you reek of alcohol," I say pinching my nose. I was too busy ranting I didn’t even realize it smelled lik
Shadow Chapter 45: Breakfast
Shadow POV:I never went back to our room last night and quite frankly I just sat in my office drinking my frustration away. But it's 6 am now and I promised Amari I'll do betterSecuring my robe around my waist I walk out of my office. I walk down the hallway and the staircase and I enter the kitchen. Seeing someone sitting on the counter I pull out my gun ready to shoot but then I see the blonde hair. Oh it’s Bella"Hey," I say and she jumps off the counter clutching her cereal bowl in freight"Holy shit" is what she says when she turns around to see me"Fuckin in hell" she curses as she puts her bowl of cereal down"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you," I say opening the fridge and taking out the eggs"Uhm no ar- are you making Amari breakfast," she asked with a wide grin on her face and I rolled my eyes. I don’t know Bella or how to feel about her but she’s Amari’s best friend she can’t be that bad "Oh. my. god," she says smiling like a crazy woman whilst shoving a spoon of cereal i
Shadow Something of mine part 2
Amari POV: "What" I rasp closing my eyes shut when he reaches my lower abdomen. His lips hover over my clit and I fist the sheets the anticipation killing me."I'm sorry," he says kissing my inner thigh and I sigh not understanding where this is going"For what" I ask and he pauses"Look at me," he says growing serious. Rising a bit I rest my weight on my elbows so I'm looking at him"I'm sorry for how I acted back at the cabin I uhm," he says nervously, and now I sit up straighter so that I'm giving him my devoted attention"I have PTSD and I didn't take my meds," he says not even looking at me truly speaking I've never seen Shadow this sincere. I honestly don't know what to do. I’m shocked and relieved that his being vulnerable with me right now "A long time ago I promised myself that I wouldn’t and I couldn’t fall in love with someone but I can’t keep lying to myself about how I feel about you," he says staring into space and I go towards him. Grabbing his face I make him look at
