Until It's Reasonable; His Most Beautiful Art

Ava.

After the ceremony had ended by evening, Darwin had someone send me to my room and assigned me three maids but I sent them back to rest, insisting I wanted a private time to myself. After making sure to lock the door behind me, I immediately started to take off my dress and heels. I took off the marriage bracelet too and tossed it aside angrily. I stepped into the bathroom walls which were surprisingly demarcated by a drapery that looked almost too transparent. It was beautiful and seductive, yes. But I didn't have the mind to admire how much luxury he had spent to prepare this. I could only read much into why the room was soundproof like Arindam briefed me and why the full-sized mirror was adjacent to the ceiling-to-floor window that faced his bungalow. And why anyone in the room could see what I was doing in the bathroom. 

I turned on the shower and held the shower handle over me, letting it wet my hair downwards as my tears flowed helplessly, my chest tightening as I shuddered. I wasn't sure I could do this anymore, or if I wanted to. At least, back at home, I knew the plain truth and even when I was the most spiteful person in the pack, I still had those who loved me regardlessly and wouldn't do anything to hurt me. And in times like these when I have become totally shattered, I had people whose shoulder I can lean on and whose ear I could whisper my secrets too. But here, my pains and wallowing could only be known by these four walls. Outside, there are eyes and ears eager to see and hear of the actions I'll take, and lips ready to judge me if I am good enough to be their Luna or not. Worst still, I might indeed have a stronger nemesis who can only be occupied with schemes to use against me. 

I stood before the mirror after shutting the window and untied the towel around me, my nakedness entertaining my eyes as I stared back at the mirror. At just seventeen, I indeed had the body of an adult and was just as tall and seductive as any. But that did not change the fact that I was just a minor and couldn't be more unprepared for something as uncertain as the future. 

I stepped closer and narrowed my eyes to look at the tattoo drawn on my shoulder blade. It was perhaps the most painful one I ever had and the fading words read 'wolfless'. I had washed toilets to pay for it five years ago when I had refused to transform and everyone accused me of being a curse to the pack and called me a hexed member. That was one year before I met Zayn on his eighteenth birthday where his mate rejected him. We became close buddies right away and moved together. Eventually, he helped me draw my other four tattoos after that. But none of them was permanent so they had to fade over the years and wipe off.

Maybe I should find someone to help me redo them and have a new one. I touched the spot above my breast and thought of the words to write there. It was a decision I couldn't make, choosing between writing Luna there or YellBloodOwl. Luna had a very simple interpretation while YellBloodOwl would only try to pronounce some sort of pledge to loyalty and dedication, but the letters were beautiful in my imagination.

"I could paint you, you know. I could paint you as the most beautiful thing I've ever seen." Alpha Darwin's low voice traveled across the room as the door made a sound of being locked.

Again, he had appeared unannounced without making a sound. And that ought to be like a compliment or what, calling me the most beautiful 'thing' he had ever seen?

"I'm a person, Darwin and not a thing." I corrected, speaking what was on my mind, not giving him any chance to use his odd ability to his advantage.

But I was no longer sure I would give him the chance to paint me... in his bed or in his head. I collected the towel from the ground and wrapped it around my chest before turning to face him, crossing my arms. 

"I was not expecting to see you either." I continued, looking everywhere but into his eyes.

I could not manage to... the fear of him was ripping my soul and my whole senses apart. I was afraid... afraid that he might lose control this time and strangle me to my death and at the same time afraid that if I looked into his eyes, I would be charmed by its gorgeousness and be rendered vulnerable to their wills. 

"Is it like that?" Alpha Darwin asked, advancing towards me and stopping only some feet away from me.

I did not answer him but tried to move back to create a safe distance between us so that even if he tried, I would be able to run away before he gets to hit me. But he caught my wrist, stopping me in the process of action and I shuddered slightly, and fearfully. Indeed, father has made the right decision by sending me here and not Celia. She deserves a lover who could tie her shoelaces for her and kiss her for her mistakes, not this renowned abominable creature. 

"I haven't treated you right, I know. Let me make it up to you." It was a wonder how he thought a few convincing words and a fantastic session could fix it all. 

However, I did not let my fear show as I reduced the distance between us, leaving only about an inch in between our bodies. My safety strategy had already failed the moment he managed to grab my wrist and I can only allow myself to be lost in this realm that was conflicted with fear of him and the sinful passion to do things... that was dreadfully wrong but desirous. 

"I am not in the mood to see you tonight, Darwin. You should come back another time." I only dared to look at his face after refusing him plainly.

Even if it meant being punished by him and almost killed, I could not bear to miss the look in his eyes after bruising his ego. 

Alpha Darwin pursed his lips into a thin line and nodded, but it did not appear that he was taking a 'no' for an answer or that he was going to let go of my hand and leave the room that easily. And I was right. 

Alpha Darwin lowered his face, crouching slightly and he planted peppered kisses on my face, down my chin and to my jaw. He wrapped his arm around my lower back and pulled me closer when I attempted to dodge his kisses. I inhaled, struggling to suppress the moan that badly wanted to leave my mouth and subdue the extreme pleasure screaming in my brains. He was good, so goddamn good that the word itself should be considered too insulting and degrading. His lips brushing my skin slightly; his fangs grazing here and there in the most sensitive way ever possible; his palm caressing my hand up to my bare shoulder and the other one pushing my towel aside and cupping my rear. It felt...more like a fantasy but the pleasure was real. 

His tongue brushed past the roof of my mouth as he bit the corner of my lips. He led us to the bedstead and laid me on the bed, untying my towel only after that. And just as much as I would've wished to reject him, it seemed as if the right words to do that deserted my lips already. My breath hitched as he came closer, nuzzling my skin and idolizing every inch he came across with his warm breath. He pecked my nipples and dragged his hand up my thigh. I gasped, my back arching and I shut my eyes close, wanting to feel the whole of this moment_ this ardent exploration. His tongue swept my mouth again, just in time that he gripped my legs and wrapped them around him. He kissed my abdomen and below. I could sense the sweat dripping out of all my pores.

He muttered against me, his low voice reverberating in my head, "You have beautiful legs, Ayla. So beautiful that I can't wait to have them wrapped around me, entangling with my body as I take you." 

I breathed in sharply when his fangs grazed my opening. His tongue licked me open and I gasped, crying loudly, "Darwin... please!" 

My hips undulated, desperately wanting more and my hands reached out to the back of his head, my toes curling on their own. 

Darwin slipped a finger inside of me, his tongue still continuing his sinful assault and I moaned, my eyes rolling back into their sockets. It's so fucking... torturing and pleasuring at the same time but I did not dare succumb to the voice in my head and tell him how badly I want the whole of him inside me.

I moved on him, grinding my hips as he thrusted in and out of me. Darwin added one more finger and bit gently on me, bringing about pain and pleasure in me at the same time. I bit my bottom lip and fisted his hair as he increased his pace by the seconds, taking me to heaven and straight down to hell. He curled his fingers in me and rubbed my vagina intensely with his thumb that had me screaming out loud. Fuck those incitive fingers!

I dug my teeth into my bottom lip and arched my back even more, my chest rising as I tugged harder at his hair. Pleasure struck through my veins as I neared climax and my insides tightened, my chest rising and falling. Darwin withdrew his tongue and kissed me, to my neck.

He tilted his head against my neck and whispered hoarsely into my ear, "Cum for me, Luna." He said, increasing his pace even more and kissing my neck.

I groaned and squirted, the hot liquids rushing out of me, as I collapsed back into the bed helplessly. My heart thumped and I opened my eyes only to lock gaze with those charming gray eyes. 

Alpha Darwin brought his finger out of me and placed them on my lips, his eyes ordering me to open up and lick it. I did not dare to reject him and simply did as he said. He slid his fingers in my mouth, reaching for my tongue and curled them around it before taking them out. He crashed his lips with mine hereinafter and slid his tongue in before I could gulp it down. We exchanged saliva, our tongues tangling against each other and fighting for defiance. But he pulled away almost too soon and laid beside me. He held my waist and drew me closer in his embrace. 

I lifted my brows in confusion at his sudden calmness, not wanting to believe that was all he had planned to do. I twitched my lips, throwing my pride into the wind for this one time as I asked, "Is that it?"

Yes, right? He's so capable of making me go from rejecting him to wanting him within minutes. 

"What?" He asked cluelessly and I sighed, silently telling myself not to be enraged. Or not to show it, because I was and would be insane if he really wasn't going to do anything. 

"Is that all you're going to do? Are you not going to have sex with me on our wedding night?" I asked with a hushed voice.

I really wanted to nag him more than that but I did not want to sound too immoderate for someone who had rejected him, or I'd be yelling at him to fuck the hell out of me right now.

"No. I won't have sex with a minor. "

Oh, what morals! But he did wind up one.

"I am already your legal wife. How long are you going to wait?" I had two more days to turn eighteen and for the first time in my miserable life, I wished that day was the next second. 

Alpha Darwin drew his fingers in my hair and smiled thinly, his gorgeous eyes capturing mine.

"Until it's reasonable," he replied, "Until you're ready for me to mark you, then I'll take you and fuck you till you're no longer able to walk properly." His low hoarse voice blended with his unique accent and dirty lines, and gave a sultry effect, seductive and tempting enough. But I did not dare to imagine it_ to imagine that my first time would be so intense and exhausting.

I pursed my lips and kept quiet, at a loss of what to say. 

"Tomorrow, let me take you somewhere. Will you be free?" 

I ignored his question and asked curiously, "Where?"

If it was a good place, of course I could skip sleeping in and taking a palace tour to go.

"To see my mother. "

To see his mother? I did not know he had a mother. How come it slipped my mind? I must've imagined him too dreadful to be than the rest of us and hence, unconsciously created a backstory in my mind that he must've fallen from the sky. 

The discussion about his mother made me recall the matter with Olivia and I glanced up at him. "I will if you will answer my question. "

"What?"

I fired straight away despite not being sure if I was ready to hear the truth, "Who is Olivia?"