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Chapter 43: I'm Not In Denial
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2024-10-29 19:42:56*Joanna's POV*
"Yeah, I figured you would do that." Elvis chuckled. "So how are you doing"
"I'm fine." I shrugged, and continued eating.
Seeing this, he gave mom a look which made me sigh and repeat what I had said "I'm fine"
"Hunie, you know you can tell us anything," Mom spoke as she walked over to pat my shoulders.
I swallowed what I was chewing and faced them, "I know you all think am in denial or just bottling my feelings up, but the truth is I'm not"
To this they both kept silent and stared at me, in which I chuckled before I continued.
"I won't say, it doesn't hurt, it really hurts so bad, but believe me when I say I feel much better now than I did yesterday even though I cried a river last night and screamed a thousand times though soundlessly." I voiced out, as I remembered the events of the previ
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