"You look back Alena, at what Max did. The words he used to make you sleep with him after he would beat you. Look back and see how alike to him you really are, then, maybe then I will speak to you". She looks at me nodding; I hope she listens."Can we go to bed? Talk tomorrow I will get Georgina to come to collect them". I look up at her."You can go to bed, but there is no way in hell I am getting in that bed with you. I will sleep in a guest room.""Punish me then, a real punishment, I did something disgusting and against your wishes, so punish me for it." Does she really want to be punished?"I don't think any punishment would suffice right now". She looks at me, nodding."Then a punishment every night until it does?". I want to say no, but if there were ever a time, she deserved a punishment, it would be now. Not only did she go behind my back, but she hurt people I loved."Ten whips, then you will do the penny hold until you are so tired you drop it". I look at her, and she nods.
I need to get out of here; how can she not see the pain he is in? I feel like I am been ripped apart hearing him."Okay, in ten years, a guy speaks to Isabella, you know one of your daughters, right? He sits there and tells her to remember when her nana died that he can see it still hurts, and he can help her if she just lets him until she cries and then he kisses her, that's fine then yes?" I lower my head, praying she answers this right because if she doesn’t, I am taking the kids and running."I didn't mean it to be like that Marcus, I swear, do you really think I would do something like that after I know how it feels?". Finally, now, she realises? It took him mentioning our girls for her to realise?"Well you did Alena, I may have been big enough to push you off me, but what if it was the other way around? What if that was Liam reminding you of when Jackson was meant to be dead when I died, and he took sex, then what?""Marcus, I swear I am sorry, I didn't realise". She should hav
Walking in Alena is sitting waiting."The kids are outside playing, sit please" I nod looking at her."I'm leaving. After Christmas. I am going to go to England, back to my dad’s. I need space to sort my head out. I asked Marcus to have MJ more while I am away" I nod."I think that is for the best; I need space to think, to decide if this is even worth the effort of fighting for. I don't recognise you anymore Alena, not a single bit, you have changed, just like Caroline did. I can't love you, not when you're like this, I always said the lifestyle was bad for you; this just proves it". I stand up and walk out, shouting MJ I get him in the car and drive to Marcus's. Walking in he looks at us and smiles, MJ shouting daddy and running to him."Why don't you go play with the new cars I bought you while we talk?" MJ looks between us and nods before walking off."So, Alena wrote me a letter. She said she is leaving?" He looks at me and I nod."Yeah, I think right now, it is for the best". He
"Can I give you some advice, Jackson?". I look at Anaya, confused."Sure, as we dance". I walk to the dance floor with her."Don't let Alena go to England". I look at her."Why not?""Because I know the ending. She goes to England, she doesn't want to come home to have found out she lost you, and then the kids are split between two countries as she refuses to come back here.""That would be her choice." I am done fighting for someone who doesn't love me."Can you just speak to her? You really need to talk to her before she leaves.""Why?" I look at her, why does she want me to speak to Alena so badly?"Jackson, please, I spoke to her, and you need to." So, Alena spoke to her, and I am guessing she gave her a sob story."Anaya if you know something, just tell me, I'm not playing games anymore". It takes too much effort."She loves you, she told me everything, and trust me she has realised she fucked up. I am not saying to forgive her and go back to normal, but don't walk away." She kno
Walking up I go into the bedroom, Alena following me, lying in bed we cuddle. Tomorrow is Christmas Day; I want it perfect for the kids. I fall asleep, wake up I see Isabella looking down at me."Happy Christmas Dad." I smile at her, my arms wrapping around her."Happy Christmas my little Dumplin" She rolls her eyes."Don't call me Dumplin Dad; it makes me sound fat." I laugh and nod."I promise it doesn't mean your fat, just sweet.""Which is even worse.” I nod, laughing, sitting up."I'm guessing it's time to get up?" She nods, smiling."You look like you slept better, though." I did, we needed that talk, we needed Anaya to get involved."I will be down soon Dumplin, let mum know." She nods and walks out, and I get dressed. Walking down, everyone is there other than Marcus and Anaya. My phone beeps."Alena" I call her other, she looks at me confused."Marcus just text me, he and Anaya are at the hospital. I am going to grab the presents from theirs, so they may be a bit late." She n
We are all sitting together."Marcus" I look up, seeing one of the men from the church."I'm Darren. I just wanted to say hi and shake your hand" He holds out his hand Marcus takes it and shakes it."I only knew him for a year; I don't feel like I have a right to call him brother. I know how upset I was to find out he had died, so I can't imagine what you must feel. Anyway, I will leave you and your family to it" Darren turns to leave, so he is Jacobs's brother as well."No rush sit down honestly. You were his brother as well". Darren looks around, sitting at the table he looks uncomfortable."So, other brothers and sisters?" Darren looks at Marcus."Troy, Alex, Jackson. They are like my brothers, from the navy, that is Liam, Jackson's brother, and their partners. This is my wife, Anaya.""Hi." The poor bloke looks like he is ready to bolt."So, who here do you know? I know those at this table and one other person". Marcus looks at him, where is he going with this?"I know Jake; he is
"Come on Jackson." I turn and face her."I can't Alena, I have got so used to having that part of me, I can't switch it off just like that." I look at her, her hand stroking along my back."I feel like I am losing myself, who I am because I am fighting so fucking hard not to give you something you want, that I said no to." She nods, looking at me."Then use the business, go use the business, Jackson, even if you have to go there once a week, we can't have a marriage if you can't touch me." I can't use the business either, it wouldn't be right."Jackson, please, don't lose who you are in this battle with punishing me, you want to punish me then fucking punish me, but please, I am begging you to find a way forward.""I have an idea if you will let me at least try it?" I look at her nodding, as long as it does not involve her getting what she wants I will try. She walks out of the room, a few minutes later walks back in with restraints."Alena, I said no" She knows I won't say yes to th
The next day I pretend everything is fine, smile and play with the kids. Falling asleep in Alena's arms, my phone wakes me. Sitting up, I look at it, why is Marcus calling?"Marcus?""Jackson, I don't know what to do, I can't lose them." I look around me confused, Alena looking at me."What are you talking about Marcus?""Anaya, she had the baby early, but she won't even come in and see her, she refuses even to see her. I am losing her Jackson." I look at Alena.“Jackson she is tiny, smaller than my fucking hand.” My head lowers."I am on my way, send me the details." Hanging up, I get dressed, Alena staring at me."What's happened?""You happened Alena, that's what." I grab my shoes; she pulls on my arm."What do you mean I happened?""Anaya went into labour and had the baby, no guesses what caused it, more than likely that fucking crash you caused." I walk out, rushing to the hospital, walking in, I find Marcus."She's small Jackson, I have never seen any baby that small." I nod and
"You two look amazing together." I nod smiling at Marcus."Thanks, I'm still waiting to wake up, the last five years, just flew by." They did, and we moved into his spare house and settled down there. In 9 months, she was pregnant, and a few months later I proposed."So, we are all still waiting." I nod and laugh."Soon, let her finish the dance with Ethan, then Star will pop the balloon and you will all know, including me." I look at the balloons."There is no indication, trust me I tried looking, but you can't see what colour the confetti is, inside them." I nod and laugh."It will be a boy." I have a girl, so I can hope for a boy. He pats my shoulder and walks off."Happy wedding day Uncle Demitri." I turn and smile at Katy."Thank you, Katy, where is Jacob?" I can't remember seeing him."He is sorting out Jackson." I laugh, why would he be sorting out Jackson?"Oh, baby Jackson, yeah, my bad, that is taking some getting used to." I laugh shaking my head."Barely a baby Demitri, he
My foot taps as my eyes stay fixed on my hands, the sweat building in my palms. The faint muffled sound of talking comes from all around me as I try to stay calm. The music begins, my heart racing faster than before, I feel like running and fast. I feel the slight tap on my shoulder, turning I smile seeing Anaya walking towards me. Star by her side, holding up a wooden heart.Daddy, Mummy is coming! The words make me smile, she walks towards me, stopping Anaya smiles as Star hugs me before sitting down next to Anaya. I look at Jackson and Marcus standing next to me, the music continuing as Luna and Alex walk down together. Reaching me they both hug me, my eyes watching as they sit down. I try to calm my breathing my eyes watching the door, seeing the white moving slightly.I smile feeling the tear fill my eyes as she stops at the end of the aisle. Her brother by her side as she begins walking towards me, my smile growing as the tear falls down my cheek, Analise reaches me, her brot
"We're here Kitty." I open my eyes, and Marcus is smiling at me."Can I just go back to sleep, Master?" I laugh looking around us."No, come on, get your arse in there. Everything is sorted, we just need to unpack personal stuff. Then have food, and plan." Nodding I open the door."Plan what Master?" I was hoping for a lazy day today, I guess not."You will see, I took the bags in, the kids are playing." Nodding I get out and start walking towards the house, the fields seem to go on for miles."Right come on." Nodding I follow Marcus around the house."Like the last one, kitchen, however totally separate from the dining room, the Dining room is here, kids game room is here, utility room, living room, second living room, office, storage." I nod following him around."Right upstairs Kitty." I nod following him up."Luna's room, MJ's, Alex's, bathroom one, storage. Bathroom two, our room with bathroom, our playroom, and second playroom, spare bedroom for the next baby we have." I stop an
Standing I take my top off, the door opening as Marcus walks in.“Behave, I mean that.” I look at him laughing as he pushes me back.“Fuck behaving kitty, I have unfinished business, and I can’t get the way you looked in that corset out of my head.” I moan as his mouth presses against my neck.“The kids Master, we can wait, we will land in like an hour.” I feel his head shake as he continues kissing my neck.“Kids are sorted, happily occupied with someone, now shut up and let me fuck you.” I moan as he continues kissing down my body his hands removing my clothes. His head stops between my legs as his tongue begins to tease.“I thought you said you were going to fuck me, Master.” This isn’t fucking me. I scream as his fingers push inside me.“Shh Kitty, this place certainly isn’t soundproof and hearing you scream just makes me want to do more.” I moan nodding, his tongue continuing to tease as his fingers play, pushing me to orgasm, he stands up, my hands grabbing his clothes and remov
Walking downstairs after getting the kids in bed, Katy and Issy have left along with Georgina."Right, just adults now." Jackson looks at us as we sit down, I guess tonight me, and Marcus don't get alone either."Now they have gone. Everything is booked for the day of moving, I will be telling Liam he has a year to sort a place out. Katy is only 15, but she will want her space once the baby comes. I am hoping we can keep her at home for a year until she is 16, but if not then they will need to find a house quicker.""She is a child; she has no choice but to stay at home until you let her leave Jackson." Marcus looks at him like he is crazy."And you're right, but having a new baby is hard as an adult, never mind as a child with the thoughts of if their parents are watching their every move, plus, I want Jacob to feel at home, so it will be his house as much as Katy's" I stare at Jackson."No, I don't want anything from you." Jacob looks at Jackson shocked."No arguing, she made you pa
"Your pregnant?" Georgina appears behind us after a few minutes, Katy crying and nodding. Georgina moves and cuddles her."You will be fine, your mum and dad will be fine, just shocked that is all." Demitri escapes into the other room, sitting an hour passes as me and Georgina talk to Katy, Alena and Jackson coming back with Marcus."Okay, I am calm. I am angry as hell Katy, but I still love you. You're my baby girl like Issy." He hugs her and I see her relaxing as she cries, Marcus sitting next to me, his mouth at my ear."I calmed him down and explained she could drop any time so he should be gentler." I nod, she has months yet, I hope."Right, so I am not sure what your mum will say, but I think the way forward is to get you checked out and make sure you are okay. Then go from there, no more ignoring this, and that includes telling Jacob." Marcus smiles like something has happened."No Dad, he will hate me." Katy looks at him as the door opens, and Jacob walks in."You may need to
"Okay, so I guess I will start with part one. Katy lied to Jacob about her age, they knew each other yeah, but he wasn't sure of her age. She told him she was 16, and as you said, Katy looks a lot older, so he didn't question it." He nods listening."So, they did sleep together. She then realised her mistake when it came to her birthday. She realised he would see her cards saying 15 and see she lied, so she told him a few days before her birthday that is when he swore never to touch her again until she was 16." He looks at me confused."If Jackson and Alena paid attention, they would see her card from him has 17 on, he bought it before she told him.""Right, so that is what this is all over? She lied, okay Jacob isn't to blame I can see that, Jackson and Alena will as well, so we tell them and clear it up." I shake my head."Marcus that is part of the story, just listen you swore not to tell them." He nods, this is the part where he flips."So, I assumed like you this was all over th
Sitting I think about his words."Someone needs to talk to her Master." This can't keep happening."We have all tried, if you want to there is nothing to lose, but honestly, I can't see anything calming her, except one thing which is bad to think of Kitty, but that is the one thing that will scare her into realising she can't do this and not get hurt.""I will try, I know her a bit, not enough like you lot so maybe she will tell me? Maybe she won't but it is worth a try Master. You're all clean, go get some sleep." He needs to."I can't, Jackson is coming, and to be honest Kitty even if he wasn’t, I can't sleep. Not until I know Katy is okay, she was a mess after the fight." I nod.Making us a drink we sit down, about an hour passing as we talk about last night, Marcus telling me I was right for making him go.The door opens as Jackson walks in, Katy following. Jackson looks at Marcus shocked, I am guessing he didn't see him, he turns back to Katy."Jackson don't." I look at him, shou
Standing I wash the plates, a few minutes passing by in silence."Really Kitty?" I turn and face Marcus, what did I do? Or what have I done that he found out?"What Master?" I place the last plate on the rack and begin drying my hands."You actually were just going to do that? Wash up and go to bed and quit?""You said you were worn out Master, I am trying to behave." I am for a change."Come on Kitty, really? You didn't even question it, or mention what you had planned, nothing? Just okay." I nod, I don't want to push him if he doesn't feel like doing certain things."I am sure I did that before Kitty, you laughed at me and said like hell are we going to bed. Come back to me please Kitty." I move towards him, his head shaking."You know what I meant, if I was worn out and you laughed and said like hell are we going to bed, I would have made sure you know I meant it. I miss the crazy woman I used to have before all this, the one who would have jumped across the table and teased me for