I scoffed angrily. Was this still the Felix White I had known for 19 years? He had no conscience and such misguided principles. He was a jackass!When did I provoke Lilac? When had I ever given her an attitude? What other made-up offenses were he going to pin on me?This bitch deserved Felix the jackass!"I really don't know what to say about you, Felix White. You have a brain, so why don't you go back and think things through for yourself? "I'm tired of talking to both of you. Kindly leave my house. Thank you for visiting, but I'm afraid I must decline your kind gesture. Now, please leave!"Felix pulled Lilac by her hand and left the house fuming. I was left alone in the large living room, standing there like an idiot.Before stepping out of the door, Lilac shot me a look. The glee in her eyes was clear as day. I wanted to scoff.Lilac was only so bold because Felix spoiled her.But I neither wanted to fight for his affections nor steal them from Lilac. It wasn't like Felix
"That's enough. It's pointless." Felix's tone was annoyed. "I'll say this for the last time, Mom. Luna is, at most, only a sister to me, though not by blood. I will never have romantic feelings for her as long as I live. I'm going back inside. You can work on this yourself."I crouched outside the fence, crying while thoughts ran through my mind. I really needed to get rid of this eavesdropping habit.I thought I had shielded myself enough, but the moment I heard Felix say that he would never like me romantically and that he only wanted to marry Lilac, my tears fell uncontrollably.If he didn't want me, then I didn't want him either!I told myself again and again—I needed to get over Felix for good!…It had been several days since I'd seen Felix. I quietly enjoyed my vacation time without interruption.Felix came knocking on my door Saturday afternoon. I didn't really want to see him. What happened the last time he was here still remained fresh in my memory. But Mom quickly ope
Felix's implied meaning was basically—I'd dote on my girl no matter what, including taking the blame for her mistakes.In other words—come at me if you had a problem with her, not her!When I still refused, Felix began lecturing me about life values. It was irritating.So, in the end, I changed my clothes and went out with him.It was just a barbecue dinner. It wasn't like Felix could do any harm to me. If I insisted on not going, it'd only make me seem like I hadn't gotten over that matter.So I went!Mom gave me an umbrella before I left. She told me to come home early in a less than happy tone as it seemed like rain was coming. I had just recovered, so it'd be best not to get caught in the rain and catch a cold.Felix promised he would take care of me, which put a smile on my mother's face in return.I changed into a white dress and let my hair down. I then put on some light lipstick. Mom said my hair looked healthy and was most suited to be left falling down along my should
Felix placed the meat in his mouth and chewed.I didn't have much of an appetite. I ate a couple of mouthfuls of beef before stopping. I then waited for him to finish eating.My mind couldn't help but wander off as I looked at Felix's mop of blond hair.I thought back about our time as troublesome little kids, how we spent our youth as teens, and everything that had happened between us for 19 years.Felix stopped eating after getting full. He glanced at me and gave me a tissue to wipe my mouth.He and I hadn't been so close ever since that Thanksgiving incident. His gesture came out of the blue, making me dodge quickly.Felix paused before retracting his hand with a smile."We've finished eating. What do you want to tell me?" I asked.Felix's brows wrinkled. The emotions in his eyes were complicated. I was unsure what was on his mind."Lili was wrong for what she said last time. I'm here to apologize on her behalf. But you were at fault, too. "She was deeply affected after w
I would've caved in immediately back then.But when I grew up and knew what love really was. I would find that the me in the past merely caved in because I hadn't let Felix go.Felix spotted the minute changes in my expression and smiled. He grabbed my hand. "I never knew you could be such a wildcat. You're pretty amazing."Right? It also got me thinking. I was committed to being his lackey back then and listened to every word he said. I never got my time to shine, that was all.We didn't really talk much after that. I mostly listened to what Felix had to say.He told me about his life in university, his loving relationship with Lilac, and his plans for their future. He spoke of so many things and different people, yet never mentioned me.I couldn't help but wonder whether Felix actually knew what I was thinking or if this was his way of telling me to stop holding out for him.It wasn't really a pleasant barbecue.Felix really was cruel to tell the girl who had a crush on him f
"No, it really is her," I said faintly.Lilac had supposedly returned home with her mother after several days. She was standing under a small kiosk by the roadside. She held a large umbrella above her as the rainwater splattered her short skirt, making her curves all the more apparent.Lilac looked like a fake flower sprouting in the rain.She placed her hands near her mouth again before yelling, "Felix!"Felix saw her this time. Light glowed in his dark eyes. He ran out into the rain like an excited child, his white sneakers splashing in the dirty rainwater. "You're back, Lili."Felix ran over and held Lilac in his arms. She giggled happily.I stood there in the torrential rain, not even noticing that my umbrella was off-kilter. My heart felt numb.Felix always managed to hurt me without so much as lifting a finger.The wind and rain swirled around me cruelly. My heart was colder than the weather right now.Lilac and Felix spoke to one another in the rain. Lilac giggled again
I told myself I could do it. I could still be that cheerful young girl named Luna without him.The torrential rain had caused a brief flood to rise above curb-level. I couldn't see the road or what was beneath my feet save for dark, muddy water.It was a perfect metaphor for my current state after deciding to let go of Felix and stay away from him. I still hadn't found a way nor knew what my next step should be.I carefully felt my way into the water, tears falling down my eyes and blurring my vision.I was aggrieved and angry. Why was I always the one left behind? What did I do wrong? I liked Felix so much and treated him like my everything. Why did he have to treat me this way in return?Was shame the only result of liking someone?I couldn't hold back the tears as they fell.I told myself not to cry. I had walked this street countless times that I could go back home with or without Felix.But I couldn't control my aching heart. Tears continued falling as I saw Felix and Lila
I was regretting my decision.I shouldn't have believed Felix's bullshit nor decided to eat that shitty barbecue with him.I cursed myself angrily. Had I never had a barbecue before? Did I have to make myself so pathetic all just for a barbecue?Yet I had barely taken a few bites before nearly dying in this damned drain! I really did deserve this!But I couldn't accept dying just like this!"Is anyone there? Can someone help me?" I cried out as loudly as I could, hoping some passerby in the rain could hear my voice and pull me up.I didn't have high hopes, but I didn't want to give up either.There was nothing else in the street besides the roar of thunder and lightning. Dread and fear swarmed me.I tried getting myself out of the drain several times with my own strength. It wasn't a large hole. I thought I could do it.But the walls were too slick to climb. My injured leg wasn't helping either. My chances of climbing out of here were basically nil.Was I going to die witho