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Will you still love me tomorrow?
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Secrets Volume 1 Taking Chances
The letter – Eos' letter – did well to me, I guess. Ang akala ko lang ay sakit lang ang hatid niyon sa akin pero habang tumatagal ay napapansin kong nagiging malaya ako. I realized that I don't have to be stuck in his memories anymore, that somehow, he wanted be happy and he wanted me to move on with my life.Isa na lang siyang distant memory sa ngayon and he will stay that way for a very long time. Isa na lang siyang magandang alaala. Iyong sa Greece, iyong sa prom – lahat ng masasaya, iyon na lang ang tatandaan ko."So, why are we shopping again?" I was with Perseus that morning. We were in the mall at ibinibili ko ng damit si Mama, si Papa at pati na rin siya. Gusto ko lang na magmukhang tao si Perseus even once in a while lang tapos si Papa siyempre, given na gwapo na ang Papa ko, mas gagwapo pa siya dahil sa mga suits na ito."Because you need to look like you're worth something." Mataray na sagot ko. Napakamot lang siya ng ulo. I saw him made a face kaya sinapak ko siya nang pab
Secrets Volume 1 Twenty-eight
"Is he going to be okay? Pakiramdam ko ang dami nang nangyari simula nang bumalik ako para idemanda sana ang asawa mo, hindi naman natuloy."Ngumiti si Bathseeba sa akin habang nakaupo kami sa chapel nang ospital kung nasaan si Ares Consunji – ang asawa niya. She was holding my hand tapos sa kabilang kamay niya ay may hawak siyang rosary. Mugto ang mga mata niya, sino ba naman ang hindi maiiyak dahil sa mga nangyayari sa ngayon?A week ago, I was inside this chapel, bargaining to the Lord abve to save Ares so Bathseeba will be spared the pain. Hindi ko kayang makitang masaktan nang lubusan ang babaeng itinuring kong kapatid sa napakahabang panahon. Isa pa, naging mabuting tao naman si Ares sa halos kalahati ng buhay niya. He was a good man, he became a good man because of this woman beside me and for that I adore her more.Sinong mag-aakala na isang tulad ni Bathseeba ang magpapabago sa lalaking minamahal naming dalawa.Yes... naming dalawa. After all this years, I realized that my lo
Secrets Volume 1 Always him
"I'm betting on it! Ako ang magiging prom queen!""Laide, third year pa lang tayo, hindi pwedeng prom queen ka kaagad."Mahinahon ako habang sinasabi ko kay Laide ang bagay na iyon. Kasalukuyan siyang nakaharap sa salamin habang suot ang gown na gagamitin niya para sa Junior and Seniors Prom ng high school namin. She wanted to be the prom queen already pero parang mahirap iyon dahil junior pa lang namin kaming dalawa. Ang swerte na nga ni Laide, maraming lalaking gusto siyang maka-date sa prom namin, everyone asked her - the jocks, the nerds, the SSG officers pero wala siyang pinili kahit na sino. She's going to the prom alone.Alam kong kaya niyang dalhin ang sarili niya sa prom night. Laide is very beautiful. Sa murang edad niya, napakarami na talagang nagkakagusto sa kanya. Hinarap niya ako."Ikaw, Sheena, may kasama ka ba sa prom? Tinanggap mo baa ng alok ni Ceasar?" Kinikilig na tanong niya. Umiling ako. Wala naman akong tinanggap na imbitasyon. Hindi ako inaya ni Ceasar. In the
Secrets Volume 1 One rainy night
"I can't tonight, I have a paper to write."That was what Mercedes Samson told me that afternoon while she was lying beside me inside my condo unit. I asked her if she wanted to have dinner with me - it was a surprise. I actually want her to meet my mom. I figured that she has to meet my mom because I'm in love with her. I grinned at myself. I'm in love with her and somehow she doesn't know that. I'm trying hard to make her feel that pero wala. Hindi ko alam kung manhid si Mercedes pero wala talaga siyang nararamdaman.She took a quick shower and just left. Ganoon naman kami. We don't cuddle. We don't hug, we just fuck and yet she penetrated right through me. Pinanood ko siya habang palabas siya ng unit ko. I realized now that I don't know much about her. It's only her name, where she lives, her birthday and her blood type. Maliban doon wala na. I don't even know her friends, where she goes when we're not fucking. I grinned again.Last week, I found out that she was always inside the
Secrets Volume 1 That moment
You are the love of my life.Everything I am, and everything I'll ever beIs because of you...I remember that mantra my mom used to say to me every night before I go to sleep. She would caress my face and look at me dearly as she waits for me to fall asleep. But that night was different. She was lying in a hospital bed with oxygen in her nose. Her eyes were closed and all I could do was hold her hand and wished for this nightmare to stop. Sana magising na ako. Sana maging okay na si Mom. I want her to get well so we could go to the places she likes to go. I don't want to lose my mom. She's the only relative that I have.I have a step father. My mom married him when I was ten years old. Mabait naman ang asawa ni Mom pero alam kong hindi niya ako mahal tulad ng pagmamahal sa akin ni Mom. I have two step brothers - they're twins. Si Marco at Gus - both have different worlds at an early age. Kahit na nandyan sila at kahit na mahal nila ang Mom, hindi ko naman sila itinuturing na kapatid
Secrets Volume 1 Dreams
"Sheena, will you be okay?"Isang tango ang ibinigay ko kay Laide para makaalis na siya sa table na iyon at makapagsayaw na siya kasama si Antonio Cendera - ang date niya para sa Junior at Senior's Prom night na iyon. Sino ba naman ang hindi gugustuhing isayaw si Laide? Isa siya sa pinakamagandang babae ngayon sa lugar. Hindi man nakaayos ay talagang napakaganda na niya. Iniisip ko na dahil iyon sa dugong kastila niya - kaya lalo siyang namumukud-tangi sa lahat.Habang nakaupo doon ay tinitingnan ko si Adelaide. Masayang-masaya siya habang nakikipag-sayaw sa mga batch mates namin. Habang ako, nakaupo doon, tahimik at hinihintay na matapos ang gabi. Hindi ko alam kung bakit walang kahit isang lumalapit sa akin. Siguro ay hindi ako ganoong kaganda para sa kanila Siguro ay hindi sapat na inayos ko ang sarili ko. Ordinaryo pa rin siguro ako para sa ilan. Hindi sapaat ang kagandahan ko para isayaw ng kung sino.Nakadama ako ng pagkainip kaya tumayo ako at naisipan kong maglibot sa venue. N
Secrets Volume 1 For the first time
Some say that to see is to believe. I' m not so much of a believer. I'm a realist and people like me do not believe in miracles or the things that the eye cannot see. But when I see it, no matter how much I don't believe something, I will surely believe it.Buong buhay ko, mag-isa ako. Maagang namatay ang mama ko. Matapos mamatay ng kinalakihan kong ama ay pinatay. Kinuha nila sa akin ang nag-iisa kong kapatid at nang kunin ako ng tunay kong ama ay wala siyang ginawa kundi ang pahirapan ako.I never knew what love meant, I never knew the feeling of being love or loving. I stopped loving the moment my parents died and my sister was taken away from me.After that incident, I redesigned my life. I learned to live my life now and love the way it works. Everything in my life right now is about power and money. Natutuhan ko na lahat ng bagay makukuha ko basta may kapangyarihan ako at iyon ang naging motivation ko para planuhin ang lahat ng bagay na gagawin ko sa oras na bumalik ako sa Pili
Secrets Volume 1 And I with you
"Not all evil men are evil, some are evil men willing to do good, baby..."I closed the story book as I watch my little girl close her eyes while I read a bedtime story for her. I tucked Hyan to bed and kissed her forehead before looking at the crib next to her to check if Haley ---- my three year old baby girl is asleep. I smiled as I look at my best girls.Pinatay ko ang ilaw at lumabas na ng silid nila. Hindi ko isinara ang pintuan para madinig ko kung anoman ang mangyayari sa loob niyon. I went to the boys bedroom where I found my best boys --- Hyron, Hunter and Heath. Hyron is already asleep when I entered their room but Hunter and Heath were still playing doctor who and they only stopped when they saw me."Momma's here! She caught us!" Heath yelled at his younger brother. Namaywang ako."Didn't your dad tuck you two?" Nakataas ang kilay na tanong ko."Dada did but we played him!" Heath said proudly. "Kunwari we sleep na. Kuya Hyron was supposed to be with us but he really did fa
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Secrets Volume 1 Twenty-eight
"Is he going to be okay? Pakiramdam ko ang dami nang nangyari simula nang bumalik ako para idemanda sana ang asawa mo, hindi naman natuloy."Ngumiti si Bathseeba sa akin habang nakaupo kami sa chapel nang ospital kung nasaan si Ares Consunji – ang asawa niya. She was holding my hand tapos sa kabilang kamay niya ay may hawak siyang rosary. Mugto ang mga mata niya, sino ba naman ang hindi maiiyak dahil sa mga nangyayari sa ngayon?A week ago, I was inside this chapel, bargaining to the Lord abve to save Ares so Bathseeba will be spared the pain. Hindi ko kayang makitang masaktan nang lubusan ang babaeng itinuring kong kapatid sa napakahabang panahon. Isa pa, naging mabuting tao naman si Ares sa halos kalahati ng buhay niya. He was a good man, he became a good man because of this woman beside me and for that I adore her more.Sinong mag-aakala na isang tulad ni Bathseeba ang magpapabago sa lalaking minamahal naming dalawa.Yes... naming dalawa. After all this years, I realized that my lo
Secrets Volume 1 Taking Chances
The letter – Eos' letter – did well to me, I guess. Ang akala ko lang ay sakit lang ang hatid niyon sa akin pero habang tumatagal ay napapansin kong nagiging malaya ako. I realized that I don't have to be stuck in his memories anymore, that somehow, he wanted be happy and he wanted me to move on with my life.Isa na lang siyang distant memory sa ngayon and he will stay that way for a very long time. Isa na lang siyang magandang alaala. Iyong sa Greece, iyong sa prom – lahat ng masasaya, iyon na lang ang tatandaan ko."So, why are we shopping again?" I was with Perseus that morning. We were in the mall at ibinibili ko ng damit si Mama, si Papa at pati na rin siya. Gusto ko lang na magmukhang tao si Perseus even once in a while lang tapos si Papa siyempre, given na gwapo na ang Papa ko, mas gagwapo pa siya dahil sa mga suits na ito."Because you need to look like you're worth something." Mataray na sagot ko. Napakamot lang siya ng ulo. I saw him made a face kaya sinapak ko siya nang pab
Secrets Volume 1 Will you still love me tomorrow?
"Kapag naka-italicized ang mga letters, feeling ko ang tahimik noong nagsulat ng letter na iyon."Napangiti ako, heto na naman si Yana at ang mga weird thoughts niya. Nasa bahay kami noon at nakaharap siya kay Mommy. Si Mommy ang kinukwentuhan niya at ako ay nakikinig lang. Panay lang nakangiti sa kanya si Mommy, may times na hinahaplos niya ang buhok ni Yana tapos ay ngingiti at titigan lang ito. I guess she really likes Yanessa.Who wouldn't like her? Kahit na panay siyang hindi mapakali ay nakakatuwa naman siyang kasama. Ang sabi ni Yohan sa akin noon, kailangan daw ni Yana ang palaging may ginagawa para hindi siya maging restless. She needs to get busy kasi ang taong may ADHD madaling mawala ang focus sa isang bagay.I don't know if Yana still undergoes therapy but she seems fine now with Mommy."Tapos nababasa ko iyong snail mails ng Lolo ko sa Lola ko, nakakatuwa lang po kasi ang tawagan nila Honey samantalang iyong Mymy ko at Dydy ko, naririnig ko po, Abnoy at saka Bobo minsan
Secrets Volume 1 Years from now
Alam mo iyong sa mall? When you break it, it is considered sold. Apply it to my sister and then the saying "kapag ang baso nagkalamat na hindi na mawawala iyon." Apply it to our friendship.Hindi iilang beses kong narinig kay Yohan Consunji ang mga pahaging na salitang iyon tuwing kausap niya ang isa sa nga kaibigab namin na nagkakagusto sa nakababata niyang kapatid na si Yanessa.Para siyang guard dog na nakakaamoy ng lalaking nagkakagusto sa kapatid niya within twenty blocks. Sabi niya, tingin palang daw alam na niya at kailangan niyang salagin lahat ng lalaking iyon dahil iyon ang tungkulin niya bilang isang "Kuya.""Dude, hindi ka ba naiilang? Binabara mo lahat nawawalan tuloy sila ng gana sa'yo bilang kaibigan."Nagkibit - balikat lang si Yohann sa akin. Kasalukuyan kaming nasa entertainment room ng bahay nila at nanonood ng Inferno. Assignment namin iyon sa Literature at seryoso si Yohann sa mga pangyayari."I frankly don't care, Alester" Matabang na wika niya. "As long as Yanna
Secrets Volume 1 Something in the air
The letter broke my heart into tiny million pieces. Ang buong akala ko ay makakalaya na ako sa oras na mabigyan ng tuldok ang nangyari sa amin ni Eos Demitri but I was wrong. I love him and the fact that he thought that our love wasn't meant to be shattered my hopes of us being together.Bakit mas masakit ngayon? Bakit ba kailangan kong magmahal ng taong hindi naman para sa akin. He said he did love me. How can I be sure of that now?"Tia, what are you still doing here?"Bahagya akong nagulat nang marinig ko ang boses ni Perseus. I looked at his direction. He was standing near the glass house's door. He looked as if he just got out of bed. Tiningnan ko kung anong oras na sa aking relo. It was almost four am, and yet I am wide awake. I hate sleepless nights like this. It makes me want to question my judgment. Mali ba na minahal ko siya?Perseus sat beside me."What's happening to us, T? Why do we love the people we can never have?""I guess Mama's karma is bouncing back at us."Perseus
Secrets Volume 1 Some end
"You're avoiding me."It was more of a statement than a question. I realized that while I pretend to look at the painting of the girl walking under the rain in front of me. I didn't realized that Lenos Demitri was standing before me. If I only knew, I would've runaway by now."I'm not avoiding you..." I answered back. I saw him smirk."It's been three months, Eleithiya." He said again. "Hindi ka na nagpupunta sa puntod ni Eos. Bakit hindi ko maiisip na iniiwasan mo ako?"Muli akong napabuntong-hininga. Finally, I gained the courage to look at his green eyes."You kissed me." I stated. "You kissed me in front of him.""Don't be dramatic. We were on his grave.""That was my sanctuary. Now I can't even go there because all I can think of is that I cheated on the man who loves me."His jaw clenched."If he loves you, if he really did love you, Eleithiya, why did he choose his revenge to Eos over his love for you?"Well that hit a muscle. I couldn't control it anymore, I slapped him. I his
Secrets Volume 1 Something
I was never a fan of love and happy endings, but that changed when I met Eleithiya Makaria Consunji- VejarHindi ko siya pinagtutunan ng pansin kahit na madalas ko siyang madatnan na dinadalaw niya ang puntod ng kapatid ko. Maliban sa akin at sa anak ni Eos na si Chaos, ay si Eleithiya lamang ang nagdadala ng bulaklak, dumadalaw at umiiyak sa puntod ni Eos.Noong una ay palaisipan sa akin kung para saan ang mga luha niya. Was she crying because he died? Or was it because of regret?Alam ko kung ano si Tia para sa kapatid ko. Si Tia ang dahilan kung bakit kahit kailan ay hindi nagawang mahalin ni Eos ang ina ni Chaos. He was so much in love with this woman – he waited for her.Though Eos never told me about her – directly, hind naman ako tanga para hindi ma-figure out ang mga pangyayari. He was in love with her.She was his light.And I realized that Tia was crying because her love for Eos Demitri was genuine. Pero kahit na anong iyak niya ay hindi na niya maibabalik ang buhay ng kapa
Secrets Volume 1 Things Change
"Bakit hindi ka sasama?"Kinukulit ako ni Gonzalo tungkol sa field trip na gaganapin bukas."May family something kasi kami saka isa pa, birthday ni Uncle Hermes. Medyo may handaan kaya pass muna ako. Kwentuhan mo na lang ako pagbalik ninyo."Halatang hindi naman siya natuwa sa isinagot ko pero wala naman siyang magagawa kaya hinawakan na lang niya ang mga kamay ko at hinagkan ako sa gilid ng sentido ko. I smiled at him. Nasa bleachers kaming dalawa. Nanonood ako ng practice nila. Break lang noon kaya nakatabi siya sa akin pero sinesenyasan na rin naman siya ng coach niya."Babalik na ako doon." Ngumisi siya tapos nagnakaw na naman ng halik sa labi ko. "Pampaswerte.""Mora! Baka naman maubos ang labi ng girlfriend mo!" Namula ang mukha ko nang sumigaw ang coach niya."Humabol lang ng pampaswerte coach! Mahal ko ito eh.""Oh my god!" Iyon lang ang tanging nasambit ko. Loko talaga ito. Sinundan ko siya nang tingin. Hinati sila ng coach sa dalawang team. Siyempre, si Gonzalo ang captain
Secrets Volume 1 Sapat
Isang taon na lang ay ga-graduate na kami. Hindi ko nga alam kung paano kami naka-survive ni Gonzalo nng paganoon-ganoon lang. Naubos ang ipon ko pero para sa kanya ay okay lang. Wala naman kasi ang pera, ang mahalaga sa akin ay ang maabot niya ang pangarap niya. Sulit naman lahat tuwing nakikita ko na nananalo siya sa games at unti-unti siyang nakikilala bilang isang magaling na basketball player.Hindi naman perpekto ang relasyon naming dalawa. Siyempre, nag-aaway kami at ang madalas naming pag-awayan ay ang pera. Ayaw na ayaw niyang binibigyan ko siya. Hangga't maaari daw, h'wag na lang dahil iyong katotohanan na ako ang nagpaaaral sa kanya, ay nakakapagpababa na ng tingin niya sa sarili niya.Madalas ko namang sabihin sa kanya na wala lang iyon. Mas mahalaga na makatapos kaming dalawa. Ayokong iwan niya ang pangarap niya. Nakilala ko si Gonzalo dahil sa passion niya sa basketball and if that will be taken away from him, what will happen to his soul?"Mazikeen, kanina pa kita hinin
