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2023-05-04 16:54:52Some say that to see is to believe. I' m not so much of a believer. I'm a realist and people like me do not believe in miracles or the things that the eye cannot see. But when I see it, no matter how much I don't believe something, I will surely believe it.
Buong buhay ko, mag-isa ako. Maagang namatay ang mama ko. Matapos mamatay ng kinalakihan kong ama ay pinatay. Kinuha nila sa akin ang nag-iisa kong kapatid at nang kunin ako ng tunay kong ama ay wala siyang ginawa kundi ang pahirapan ako.
I never knew what love meant, I never knew the feeling of being love or loving. I stopped loving the moment my parents died and my sister was taken away from me.
After that incident, I redesigned my life. I learned to live my life now and love the way it works. Everything in my life right now is about power and money. Natutuhan ko na lahat ng bagay makukuha ko basta may kapangyarihan ako at iyon ang naging motivation ko para planuhin ang lahat ng bagay na gagawin ko sa oras na bumalik ako sa Pilipinas.
My name is, Helios Demitri - formerly known as Hector Santillan. I changed my name because a man called Sancho Consunji ruined my life and took away everything from me. His name was enough to make me angry. His name served as my motivation to empower myself and surpass him. Kukunin ko lsa kanya ang lahat tulad nang pagkuha niya ng lahat sa akin.
Umuwi ako sa Pilipinas nang maihanda ko na ang lahat. I got the plan on motion. Unti-unti ay pumapasok ako sa buhay ni Sancho Consunji at walang makapagpapabago ng plano ko. Dudurugin ko si Sancho. Ipaparanas ko sa kanya ang sakit na naramdaman ko nang kunin niya sa akin ang masaya kong mundo.
Pero akala ko lang iyon. Wehn I saw Sancho's youngest daughter - Yna or Leigh as I like to call her, I knew that my plan changed. I saw in her eyes my mom and I felt that sudden warmth I used to feel when my mom was still alive.
Nagbago ang plano. Kukuhanin ko si Leigh. Wawasakin ko sila at kukunin ko ang kapatid ko. Akin si Leigh. nasa poder ko siya dapat...
Pero ang inaakala kong madali ay napakahirap pala. The Consunjis are very solid. Hindi ko inaakala na ganoon ang klase ng pamilya nila. They stand up for each other no matter what happen and I just can't seem to penetrate to their defense so I had to rearrange my plan.
Nawala ako ng isang taon. Bumalik ako sa Greece at nag-isip nang mabuti. I was gone for a while but I came back and when I came back, bago na rin ang plano ko. Kung hindi ko makukuha si Leigh sa madaling paraan, babawasan ko sila, kukunin ko rin ang pinakamahalagang bagay kay Sancho at iyon ang asawa niya. I knew that he loved his wife very much, and that when I take her, he will do everything just to get her back at ang hihingin ko lang sa kanya ay ang kapatid ko.
Wala siyang magagawa kundi ang ibigay sa akin si Leigh. So, on that night, I ordered my men to take Sheenalyn Consunji.
Matyaga akong naghintay sa bahay ko. Hindi ako makatulog. I had my share of sex that night - still, I couldn't rest my mind. My mind was racing. Bukas na bukas ay makukuha ko na si Leigh, babalik kami sa Greece at ibibigay ko sa kanya ang buhay na dapat ay sa kanyaa. I will spoil her with everything that I can. I will give her everything that she asks for.
That night, I heard a van parking in front of my house. Halos takbuhin ko ang distansya niyon at nang kinaroroonan ko. Napangisi ako nang makita kong may hawak silang babae. Nakataklob ng sako ang ulo at nagpupumiglas. Lumapit ako. Mabils na mabilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
Dahan-dahan kong tinanggal ang takip sa ulo niya. My smile froze.
Hindi si Sheena ang nakuha nila kundi si...
"Yza Consunji." I grit my teeth. "You got the wrong girl!"
"Nanlaban kasi boss. Siya na lang ang nakuha namin. Wala naman sa sassakyan ang nanay niya"
"Pakawalan mo ako!" She said. I looked at her. Somehow, I felt mesmerized by her eyes. Her eyes were something. Then my eyes went down on her lips. For the first time in my adult life, I wondered if a woman was wearing a pink lipstick for her lips were so pink.
"Pakawalan mo ako..." Mahinang wika niya.
I smiled. I don't know why I was smiling. I just looked away for her not to catch my smile.
"Ipasok iyan sa loob."
I have stolen the wrong one and still I am very happy..
And I have no idea why.
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"Halika na, 'wag ka nang sumimangot diyan!"Pinanlakihan ko ng mga mata ang asawa kong ayaw na namang tumayo mula sa pagkakahiga niya sa kama. Imbes na mainis ako ay natutuwa lang ako sa kanya. I realized this morning that there are a lot of things to be thankful and to be happy about and waking up beside him is one of those things and the best part of it is I have forever to do that."Lukas Consunji!" Sigaw ko. Tumayo ako at umupo sa tyan niya. Hinigit ko ang sando niya tapos ay sinampal ko siya. Pero wala pa ring epekto. Namaywang ako. I grinned. "Ay, natanggal iyong bra ko.""Where? Let me see!"Bigla ay bumangon siya. Natawa ako bigla nang malakas. Napasimangot naman siya."Apollo naman eh! Ilang linggo na tayong diet! Tara na kasi!" Wika niya habang nakasimangot sa akin. Binelatan ko siya."Eh! Red flag nga kasi! Bumangon ka na at tumawag na si Papa Sancho. 'Wag ka daw male-late sa board meeting ninyo, babe kaya maligo ka na, lika na..." Hinawakan ko siya sa kamay. Parang bata pa
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