Killian's POV.Finding out that my mate already had my brother as her first chance mate ruffled my fur in ways I couldn't begin to explain. It was painful having to watch the two of them from the sideways and I knew not what to do but to allow myself to feel the pang of disappointment.It was painful that she belonged to my brither first. But what was even more painful to watch was how devastated she was when he rejected her. She had cried to me, she had tearfully asked me what having a mate meant and she had tears in her eyes for my brother and I could hardly move past that. Her heart belonged to him first and as it seemed, she still longed for him despite me being there for her.I had always wanted a mate, someone strong and precise enough. Someone who knew what she wanted and so would try to get it. What I didn't see coming was to be mated with a teenager that knew nothing about herself, a teenager that was already mated to my brother, a teenager that will definitely not be mine.T
Esmeralda's POVI couldn't feel anything other than the void of sadness and the heart shredding feeling after what Killian had said to me. He had treated me like a pile of trash, throwing me out of his room like I was worthless. I cried so hard I could hardly breathe, my senses were failing me and I felt a frailty in my bones and body.I was too weak. He made me weak. He made me too weak with his words. It was the same with Mikel. He had rejected me and I am left all alone. Even the woman I grew to love as a mother treated me like a monster and she sent me away from her life like the years I had spent with he as her daughter didn't mean a thing, like she never truly cared for me.Maybe she never really did and I was just something she used to gain merits in life. Bringing in an orphan and showing her care and love, pretending to love me so she would look good in the eyes of the public. Everything had been fake, the love I received from her was fake, the life I had been living was fake
Killian's POV.Seeing her standing there with those tears running down her eyes were causing heartbreak to me. I felt my heart aching so much I could almost not breathe, I was scared about how suffocating I was feeling inside as I watched the tears roll down her eyes.I couldn't help it, I walked to her and placed a hand on her shoulder in a show of comfort because at the moment it was all I could offer. My wolf was too savage, it wasn't enough for him, all he wanted was to take her into his arms and mark her as his own, he wanted to feel her skin against mine and hold her so close that he could hear her heartbeat without straining his ears.He wanted her body and soul and I was fighting to keep him sane.The principal looked at me, I knew she was surprised by seeing me there, she must'nt have expected that I would be here but I didn't care. I was too focused on my hand that was on Esmeralda's shoulder."What are you doing here, Mr Rollins?"I cocked an eyebrow at her in smuggery "you
Esmeralda's POV: I was shocked when Killian had told everyone present that I was his mate and fated lover. I froze for a minute and my heartbeat quickened, I looked up to him whilst feeling his strong hand on my shoulder. His eyes met mine and I could not breath. However, I knew he was lying. Him and I were not fated lovers, my mate was Mikel and he har rejected me. A part of me knew Killian was just trying to appear nice and saintly to people around and he didn't mean what he had said, that he didn't mean to treat me like trash the other day. Still, I could not stop my eyes from weeping bitterly the minute I locked the door to my room. I was devastated and i cried heavily as I felt my heart breaking. There was a lot going on at the moment and I still found it hard to believe that the woman that i loved as a woman could call me a monster in front of everybody. That she didn't want to raise a monster along with her family. It was crazy. I was crazy. Everything was my fault, if I
Esmeralda's POV I stood there just watching the two of them, unable to answer Killian's question. The woman entangled with him looked at me, she wasn't smiling nor was she frowning, her expression was unreadable. "Who is she?" She asked Killian. Her voice was soft and powerful, it was lovely to the ears but I was irritated by it. My gut was churning as I looked at the both of them. I was angry but not the anger that I normally felt, this one tasted bitter and more intense. Itvwae jealousy. I didn't knkw why I was jealous. Maybe it was his hand on her waist or how he wasn't repusked by her skin touching him like he was with me or maybe it was the fact that he wasnt sending her out of hus room instead he was hospitable to her. I was jealous. Envious even. My eyes darted to Killian as I watched as his mouth was unmoving. She had asked him who I was and I waited to know if I was anything worth explaining to her. But he wasn't saying anything, he was only glaring at me obviously expe
Killian's POV: A gentle caress of a hand I knew was not mine jolted me up from the nap I was having. Without checking to see who it was, my thoughts went to the possibility of the person being Esmeralda but I knew too well that she was too shy to be able to make such a bold move to come to my room and even caress me at that. It was also impossible that if it was her my wolf would not feel it. He would have ran made from feeling Esmeralda's hand on my body. So I quickly turned over to where the person laid. It was Paula. She had a small sultry smile on her lips. I felt my wolf groan from disappointment but I said nothing. We both had our preferences, it wanted Esmeralda but I preferred Paula. Still, it didn't mean she could just barge in and I would fall at her feet in submission "what are you doing here?" I asked her, allowing my voice to carry the shock I felt on seeing her. She didn't say anything and her silence was substituted by a movement of her hand. Her hand trailed up my
Esmeralda's POV: I stare blankly at the sky watching the clouds gather and disperse. Watching how they exist by just fleeting through the sky. They floated around with no worries, no heartaches but simply pure beauty. I wanted to be like that. To have no care in the world, nothing but just existing. However, humans were tasked with the responsibilities bestowed upon them by the society and biblically, the actions of the first humans, whether they liked it or not. They had to do some things, experience unfavourable sufferings and go through the hell called life. It has been made especially harder for people like me who came to this world only to be abandoned. We are expected to course through life alone and loveless, rejected left and right by people we care about. And we're expected to make something good of it. Wow. This was a nightmare I wouldn't wish on anyone. Weeks have gone by and still, I am nowhere closer to finding out about my origin. I have not the faintest clue who
Esmy's Pov With the paper in hand I waited for the ride I had booked, I could understand that the delay was because Killian's house was a little far from the public so with no other choice I stood there and waited. There was the choice of going back and waiting in the living room but that could mean I would probably stumble across insufferable Paula or Killian who had no freaking clue about anything. About what? I wondered too. About how he was making me feel anytime he came home with Paula or about how demeaning he makes me feel. Well, it was better if he knew nothing about that. He shouldn't know how many times I sulk because of him or how his mood swings affect me. No matter how much I wished he knew so maybe he would desist from doing it or even tuning it down a little, I could never look him in the eye if he found out things I can't explain to him. The way I feel for example. The ride was taking forever and my patience was running out. The lazy part of me was already yellin
Esmeralda's POV.I had told Killian that I wanted to ride in a convertible and the man went ahead and got the deal done.About twenty minutes after I told him what I wanted, I saw myself in a red convertible, sitting in the passenger seat. The hood of the car was tucked in the back and my hair was caught in the wind and I was laughing hard.After what happened in the hotel room, we both got dressed up. Well, I got dressed up while he watched and when I finished, we went to a boutique to get him some clothes and that was when I told him that I wanted to ride in a convertible.I was caught off guard when we walked out of the boutique and a red convertible was waiting for us and not just that, there were four wrapped up weeds waiting for us in the glove box.He offered them to me along with a lighter.When he gave them to me, I was surprised. He really was listening to me and he really had the contacts for everything and everyone.The minute I took them, I laughed so hard because I found
Camille's POVI had been worried sick ever since Killian brought home my son. He was not healing but he was alive and what was more excruciating for me was that he was in pain.I had never known a time in my life that I had been through such a thing before. I had never seen someone else undergoing this ordeal. It was all too sudden and new to me that I didn't know how to feel, nor what to do.The only emotion I could recognize when I thought things through was worry. I was undeniably worried about my son. I was so worried that I started to doubt if it was a good idea to bring him back. Killian had claimed that he was treating him and from how confident he sounded, he seemed like he knew exactly what he was doing and what was going on.I didn't. The person who even talked me into doing this was nowhere to be seen. I couldn't guess what Paula got from this game of hers. Paula had called me one evening and told me about where Mikel was and how he was fairing. I couldn't have guessed t
Killian's POVI laughed as I watched her laugh. Esmeralda had such a beautiful laugh.Coming to Berlin was impromptu, I was just in a hurry to show her that she was wrong to think life was so simple, that with me, this was the least of things that she would enjoy.Everything was perfect. The night was perfect, when I walked out of the bathroom, when I saw her naked on the bed, she was perfect.On her knees, doing a bad job at sucking me off, she was perfect.Everything felt like a dream, that for once, I get to be happy, I get to accept Esmeralda.What I couldn't stop thinking about was when she said those words to me.When she told me that she loved me. I had been busy staring through the window, looking at the city and how amazing it looked. I was happy that I brought her with me. Berlin was a beautiful place and it was one of my favorite cities and being here with her was perfect.I could've taken her to Paris but I wanted to go to my favorite places with her. I wanted to leave a
Esmeralda's POV I was suddenly overtaken by a sense of panic. I feared what it meant. I had never given it much thought before, I had never wondered what would become of my life since I developed these feelings for Killian. I had never worried much about anything. But now, the thought has succeeded in creeping into me, making my hands shake and my whole body spasm. I was standing in the middle of the room, Killian had excused himself, he wanted to make a call, probably had to do with the surprise that he was planning for the evening. I was left alone with my thoughts. I had never hated being alone, I had never hated being the one left in a whole. I didn't care about the loneliness, I didn't fear my thoughts because I always felt that they were just thoughts and there was nothing more to it. But here I was, overpowered by my thoughts. I kept thinking of what would happen to our lives, I kept thinking about how the trajectory of our lives have been altered. Killian has never men
Esmeralda's POVI bit my lip and realized that those words were dominating and as such, I was expected to be submissive.Killian was punishing me for whatever I might have done. He did mention that he was going to punish me but my brain has forgotten what I could've done because I was more focused on his finger that is buried inside me turning in circles, thrusting in and out in a slow motion.He dropped my leg that he had been holding, then he removed his finger from inside of me. I was disappointed because it wasn't what I wanted but then he took my hands and pulled it thereby lifting my upper body from the bed."You're not a pillow princess so don't act like one". He scolded."What do you want me to do?" I asked him.He guided my hand and placed it on his very hard and big erection. "Work for this".I bit my lip again. My finger grazed over the cap and the precum was waiting for me to feel its thickness.He pulled me closer to himself from my waist and buried his head into my ches
Esmeralda's POVI considered myself already kind of used to the kind of words Killian said and how he acted when he said those words but there was something different at the moment, maybe it was because we weren't in the same country anymore or because he and I had somehow become a couple.When he said those words I started to anticipate the second when we would go back to the hotel and he would take the dress off me. It became what I was ready for. Whatever he had planned for me even though I didn't know what it was at the moment, I lost interest in it. All I wanted for us to do was make our way into our hotel room and he would be pulling the dress off me.I looked around and found out that during the time I was spending standing in a spot trying to fathom just how weirdly those words affected me, Killian was already in the bathroom taking his bath so there was no one but me left to open the door for the person who was knocking.I was skeptical at first because I didn't want to open
Esmeralda's POVI ran my hand over my chest, giving him the sluttiest eyes I could muster."Oh Daddy"Killian almost lost it. He laughed so hard that he suddenly began to cough and meanwhile, k was wheezing beside him, about to lose my mind.We must've been such a pain in the ass of the driver because the second he stopped the car, he was outside holding the door open for me.I alighted the car with a warmth in my heart. I was happy. It was already nightfall and the wind was cold and the lights illuminated the city. It was wonderful. It looked wonderful.Suddenly, some fingers interlocked with mine accompanied by the smell of apples. It was perfect.He was perfect."We should get dinner"."Okay, but I'm still gonna smoke some weed or try molly"."Esmeralda, I don't have the contacts of people that sell".I frowned, "I thought you have the contacts of everyone?"He looked utterly confused, he took his hands back from mine and crossed them as he stared at me."Esmeralda, what could've
Esmeralda's POVStepping on the private jet, I had thought I would surely be so excited that I wouldn't sleep or even try to zone out.I wanted to see through the windows and guess alphabetically where we were going since Killian refused to let me know. Even though he didn't say the exact words, I knew he wanted it to be a surprise. I had a hunch that it would be Paris and if it really was Paris I certainly would be a bit disappointed.Paris was a beautiful city and known as the city of love but it was cliché. Every woman wanted to go to Paris, people went to Paris for honeymoons and all that and it was the spot for romance. I didn't want that. Sure I would love to see Paris one day but not because of a special event or maybe I was invited for a wedding there. If it wasn't the case, the case then I don't think I'd ever want to go there.It just didn't feel magical for me.Killian had no idea about all this. He was busy sipping wine and working on his laptop leaving me to myself. I wa
Esmeralda's POV.The last class of the day was literature. It wasn't a boring class. I loved the fiction and we were about indulging in the magic that Sylvia Path was.We were going to read one of her books and so we woukd be able to read the pieces of herself she left in the world.I had talked to the counselor about the major that was on my mind, she thought psychology was good for me since I had a passion to understand humans and the way they acted.The only issue became the college of my choice. She showed me a list of really good colleges in the country but I tokd her that I already knew where I wanted to go.She didn't seem disappointed to hear that I wanted to go the the states college. She thought it was a good choice and I was going to get accepted.Lucky me, it wasn't a long drive from Killian's house and so it was perfect. I get to continue living with Killian while I go to college.I had no desire to experience this or that, to meet new people or to have the full college e