I am nervous and tense as fvck while waiting for Vraxx's parents to arrive. Kaya nang malaman na nandyan na sila sa baba, atsaka pa lamang ako kumalma. After I learned that his Parents are coming today, hindi na ako napakali pa simula nang sabihin niya iyon kahapon.
I wore a black turtle neck top and denim short shorts. Disente, kaysa sa palagi kong suot. My parents and my relatives taught us a proper etiquette on how to deal with some visitors in our house. Kabilang na roon ang damit na isusuot sa tuwing tatanggap ng bisita.
Because of my premature principles, following that kind of manner was a bit hard for me. Syempre ay hindi ako ganoon kakumportable na sumalungat sa sariling persepsiyon. I only know how to follow my own rules.
But now that I needed to get along with Vraxx's parents, siguro ay kakailanganin ko na munang isantabi pansamantala ang sariling opinyon. I don't want to impress nor please his Parents, but I
I am the Apprentice of the next Commander. Meaning, the next higher position after the Commander. Even me, myself doesn't know why my Uncle, the current Commander picked me as the Apprentice of his son, Kenzie. Masyadong mataas ang posisyon na iyon, at ang mapasabak o maisalang sa isang nakakalulang posisyon ay masyadong nakakapag pakaba sa akin. I don't know if I am good at all. Usually, female and women in the Organization always belittled by the Agents men. Masyadong nakakatapak ng pagkababae at pagkatao ang mga kalalakihan lalo na't pag dating sa pakikipaglaban. They always see us, women, as an ex baggage. Gender inequality indeed. I am so tired of hearing some shits about the gender roles in our society. They will say you are a man, so you should be like this, you should do this. You're a woman, so don't do this thing, you should only do this, hanggang dito ka lang at hindi ka maaaring lumapas doo
We're currently here at our Mansion to talk to my Parents, but it didn't went good. Nadatnan pa namin silang nagfu-food tasting at nag titingin ng mga bulaklak na maaaring gamitin sa kasal ko. Kasal ko. Fuck. The thought of it makes me cringe and grimaced in disapproval. Hindi pa rin nag babago ang isip ko. I am certain that my mind would never change just because I already let them did this to me. Hindi ko man sila tuluyang mapigilan, then so be it. Huwag lang nila akong itatakwil kung may hindi maganda akong gagawin sa magiging pamilya ko kapag nagkataon. They already knew in the first place that I never liked this idea. Kailanman ay hindi ko gugustuhin ito. "I like these flowers," Harriet pointed at the black roses on the brochure. Hinablot ko iyon sa kanya para ako ang mag hanap ng kung anong matipuhan at pumasok sa panlasa ko. My brow keep on curling in disgust. "You don't really
Umawang ang labi ko habang uhaw na nakatitig sa labi niya. This is actually the first time that I feel so thirsty for someone's lips. I've never been kissed before. Kabilang iyon sa mga prinsipyo na ayaw ko talagang tibagin at baliin sa akin. I would never let someone pleasure me. I can do it on my own, but now.. while looking and staring at Vraxx's reddish and wet parted lips, makes me want to break my own principles. What the hell? Kailan pa iyon pumasok sa isip ko? I swallowed hard and gathered myself up. Hindi napawi ang ngisi niya, dahilan para mas lalong mag wala ang natatarantang puso ko. "I'm waiting Xiania," he wryly chuckle. I unconsciously licked my lips, sinundan iyon ng paningin niya kaya't mas lalo akong kinilabutan. The atmosphere inside my room feels hot and heavy at the same time. What is this feeling? This is not me, Xiania umaayos ka. My teeth keep
After that freaking dry humping with Vraxx Caldwell, nabuhay na yata ang katawang lupa ko.I know that I never had a not so active sex life. What I did for the past years are nothing compared to what we did yesterday, though it was just a simulate sexual intercourse together, but it literally made me insane to the point that until in my dreams and even in my imaginations, his touch, kisses and moves are still there.I couldn't take it off from my mind. Paulit ulit na parang sirang plaka iyon na nagpe-play sa utak ko. It's really driving me crazy. Umaabot pa sa punto na kapag titingin ako sa kanya ay iyon na kaagad ang maaalala ko.Fuck, so pervert of me!"Your thoughts are too deep, Xiania. Miss mo na ba si Vraxx?" I just got back from my reverie when I heard Ira's voice.She is wearing her usual oversized shirt and denim shorts. Kung ako ay puros revealing ang suot, siya naman ay terno. K
"Okay, I understand." That's what he have said after I talked to him last night. Ngayon, tanghali na ngunit hindi pa rin ako nakaka tanggap ng panibagong tawag o text man lang galing sa kanya. It's not like that I'm waiting for it, though. "New mission, Xiania..." Kenzie began after I answered his sudden call. Napaahon ako sa gulat at nakatuwid na umupo sa sofa sa sala. My eyes widened a bit. I didn't expect that. "P-pwede na ako ulit?" I almost raised my voice because of excitement that spreading inside me. I heard my cousin's chuckle. "Yes, though mabilis lang 'to, but I know you will like this. Ganito mga gusto mong misyon eh," makahulugan niyang sabi. My brow lifted up. "Does the Commander know this?" I just wanna make sure, ilang beses inulit sa akin ni Tito Harry na hindi pa kami maaaring sumabak muli sa anumang nangyayari sa Organisa
I almost passed out while heading back towards our suite. My knees wobbled in uneasiness and my hands are also shaking and slightly sweating in nervousness. "Lagot! Hindi na nag paalam, kung ano-ano pa ang ginawa—" Iri murmured but I quickly cut him off. "Shut up!" Napangiwi siya. Ira laughed beside him. "You look constipated, Xiania. Kabado bente ba?" I rolled my eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?" "Na ano? Na pupunta rin siya dito?" I nodded. Ira pointed at Iri beside her. "Ask him. Nag sumbong 'to panigurado." Iri's eyes goggled. "Lady Nia, concerned lang naman ako!" I glared at him. "Concerned? Baka awayin ako ni Vraxx!" "Are you scared?" Ira's eyes squinted. Natigilan ako at napaawang ang labi. I quickly tore off my eyes away from her. "N-no, I was just..." hindi ko na nasundan pa iyon dahil pum
We're both laying down on our bed. We're still both naked, halos iilang minuto pa lamang ang nakalipas matapos nang ginawa namin kanina. Vraxx buried and huddled his face on my neck. Ang mga braso at hita niya ay nakaalalay na naka dagan sa akin. Damn, clingy. I just let him do whatever he wants. I felt his hot and wet kisses on my neck, dahilan para lalong pumungay ang mga mata ko. These past few days, I admit that I couldn't understand myself. Minsay ay winawaksi ko na lamang ang mga bagong napapansin ko sa akin, ngunit ngayon ay hindi ko naman magawa iyon. I just let a man touch and pleasure me. This isn't the first time, but this is actually the second time that I initiated the action! What the hell am I thinking? I am not even slave of my libido, then why am I acting like this when it comes to Vraxx? I already started breaking one of my principles. Hindi na ako magtataka pa kung sa susunod na mga
"Really? What do you know about love?" I asked, ridiculed by his sudden confession. Vraxx's face fell, kita ko ang panlulumo ng mga mata niya at ang pag bagsak ng balikat niya dahil sa sagot ko. A flicked of pain attacked in my system. I couldn't understand everything. Hindi ko alam kung ayaw lang ba talagang tanggapin ng utak ko iyong sinasabi niya, o baka talagang ayaw ko lang sa kanya. I released a wry chuckle. "That's not love, Caldwell. It's just probably lust—" "What do you fucking know about my freaking feelings?" he snapped. Halos manlamig ako sa mariin at biglaang paglakas ng boses niya, tila'y kulog na siyang dahilan upang lalo akong mangilabot. The salty cold sea water hugged our bodies. His eyes are now flaming with an infuriated fire. Ang mga kamay niya ay mahigpit na nakahawak sa magkabilang braso ko. I winced in pain. He probably noticed my reaction, t
Xiania's Point of View."Are you really sure about this?" nag-aalalang tanong ng bawat tao na sasabihan ko ng pinaplano.I nodded confidently. "I already made up my mind, I'll do it."Actually, deep inside me... I am still afraid. I won't deny that. It's okay to feel scared sometimes, ang mali ay ang magpalamon sa takot, dahilan upang mapigilan tayong gawin ang mga bagay na dapat ay sinubukan pa rin natin kahit na walang kasiguraduhan.Worry was evident all over their faces. Hindi nila maitago ang pag-aalala, syempre dahil sa ilang taon na rin ang naka lipas, tapos ngayon pa ako biglaang magkakaganito."Thanks to your Girl, Wright." Binigyan ko ang pinsan ng isang matamis na ngiti.He smirked arrogantly. "She's not just my girl, Xiania."Umirap ako, heto nanaman siya. "Wala akong pakialam."Wright scoffed and just ignored what I've said. Our cousins remained silent while watching us. Maging si Vraxx na kasama ko ay tahimik din.
Xiania's Point of View. "Vraxx..." I've been thinking about this for almost half of a year now. Matagal na rin mula noong trahedyang nangyari sa amin ni Ira... Sa akin. Magmula noon, hangga't maaari ay iniiwasan ng lahat ng naka paligid sa akin ang magbanggit ng kahit na anong maka pagpapaalala sa akin ng nangyari noon. It traumatized me a lot. It took me so long before I recovered. Until now, I wasn't sure if I am already fully recovered. Tingin ko, sa pinplano ko ngayon... Iyon na ang sagot sa paghihirap ko. "Do you need anything?" tanong niya habang nakatutok ang mga mata sa laptop. We're here inside our room. Kakatapos ko lang patulugin si Volt, ngayong kami na lamang dalawa ng Ama niya ang gising, tsaka ako nagpasya na kausapin si Vraxx. "Ah, ano kasi..." nangangapa kong panimula. I don't know if I can do this. Baka pa mamaya ay mas lalo ko pa na ikapahamak 'to. Sa pambibitin ko, naagaw ko ang atensyon niya. Vraxx worriedl
Iri's Point of View: "Crush niyong dalawa 'yong magkaibigan na 'yon?" tanong ni Wright sabay nguso sa Pinsan niyang babae katabi 'yong babaeng gusto ko. Vraxx panicked. I saw how his eyes widened in fraction. "Tanginamo, ingay!" Sinuntok niya nang mahina si Wright na ngayon ay natatawa lang. I chuckled. "Takot! Ano naman ngayon kung malaman ni Lady Nia na crush mo siya?" "Crush amputa," napaismid siya. "Mag bestfriend nga kayo, pareho rin ang tipo. Sige, basted din kayo riyan pareho. Friendship goals!" Humalakhak si Wright at pinag-aasar kami. I frowned as I darted my sight to the two ladies in front of us. Nasa field kami sa loob ng Atlas Organization kung saan kadalasan nagaganap ang pageensayo ng bawat Agents. Usually, dito nangyayari ang mga pagpapraktis kung papaano ang tamang pagbabaril at pagpapana. Just like what they're doing. Lady Nia and Agent Ira are practicing how to properly use the bow and arrow. Samantalang kami
Ira's Point of view: (Flashbacks)"Oh, shit..."My eyes circled in surprise the moment I heard Iri's moans when I walked towards the bathroom.Iisa lamang kasi ang bathroom dito sa Barn. Maayos naman ang bahay at may sarili naman kaming silid, pero pagdating talaga sa Cr, palagi kaming nagtatalo."Oh, open your mouth baby..."Halos kilabutan ako sa narinig. Sino ang kasama niya roon? May kasama ba siya? Are they doing something strange inside the Barn?My body stiffened, I couldn't move with that thought.Kuryusidad na siguro ang nagtulak sa akin upang buksan ang pintuan at kumpirmahin ang nasa isip. I couldn't even think properly, I just realized what I did the moment our eyes met."Ah!" we both screamed at the top of our lungs.Shocked was written all over his face. Hindi maipinta ang mukha niya, pero tingin ko'y ganoon din ako.My eyes lowered down on his... Damn it!"What the hell, Iri?!" sigaw ko.He's
"I'm sorry..." I said in almost a whisper.Kararating lang ni Vraxx ngayon sa kwarto namin. We were about to make love awhile ago, but I suddenly had an anxiety attack. The reason why he had to left me alone, because that's what I always want. Kung mananatili siya rito, mas lalong hindi ako kakalma.I thought I was fine already...Hindi pa pala.Vraxx slowly went towards me. Nanunuyo ang mga mata niyang nakatingin sa akin, tila sinasabi niya mula roon na hindi niya ako sasaktan at ligtas ako ngayong nadirito na siya."You don't have to apologize, alright?" he softly said. "Can I sat down beside you?" kita ang pag-aalangan sa kanyang ekspresyon.I nodded and gently pulled him beside me. We are now laying down our bed. Sumiksik ako sa kanya at niyakap siya nang buong-buo. He chuckled when he felt how tight my hug."You don't have to force yourself if you really can't do it... I can wait," he said in an assuring tone.Umiling ako.
"I c-can't do this y-yet..." Xiania looks like she's in pained the moment she avoided my face, when I tried to kisa her.Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa narinig. I quickly get off from her. Nang tuluyan akong makalayo sa kanya, tsaka pa lamang siya naka hinga nang maluwag. Kitang kita ko kung paano siya napa singhap at naghabol ng hininga."Baby..." I whispered.She's trembling so bad. Hindi ko iyon napansin kanina nang magdikit kami at sinimulan ko siyang halikan. We're in the middle of our honeymoon. We were so fine awhile ago, but then... This suddenly happened.I don't know what happened...Dahan dahan ko siyang pilit na inabot. Kahit na natatakot, sinikap ko siyang hawakan. Ngunit agad din akong napalayo nang para siyang napasong lumayo sa akin. She looks shocked and scared at the same time.It hurts to see her like this.Later on, she cried furiously. Yakap niya ang sariling tuhod at doon yumuko.My lips quive
"Ano ba ang dream wedding ni Xiania?" Wala sa sariling tanong ko habang tulala sa kawalan. I'm currently here at the Flint's mansion. I'm with Xiania's cousins. Kami ang naiwan dito ngayon dahil si Xiania ay nagpa-check up kasama ang Parents niya. Naiwan sa amin ang anak ko, smantalang ang mga pinsan naman ni Xiania ay sinamahan ako sa pagbabantay kay Volt. "Gago! Wala nga sa plano ni Xiania 'yon, tapos tatanungin mo kung ano ang dream wedding niya?" natatawang sabat ni Diveghn. Natawa naman ang iba pa nilang pinsan kaya't napasimangot ako. Oo nga pala... "Bakit? Payag na raw ba talaga siya magpakasal sa'yo? Sure na 'yon?" Kenzie asked dubiously. I glared at him. "Oo nga! She was the one who proposed!" They all laughed again. Parang pinagkakaisahan naman ako ng mga tanginang 'to. Ba't ba ayaw nilang maniwala? Is that too hard to believe that Xiania fell inlove with me? I bit my lip to stop myself from smiling. Agad naman akong
"Vraxx, magtimpla ka ng gatas!"I pursed my lips as I make Volt's milk to his baby bottle. Bahagya akong sumulyap sa gawi ni Xiania at nakitang abala siya sa pagpapatahan sa bata. Volt has been crying since earlier today."Ano na? Pakibilisan naman!" she irritatingly said.Napangiwi ako at kaagad na iniabot sa kanya ang bote. She looks so tired. Lagi naman kaming ganito magmula noong nanganak siya. Yes, we're fine and happy... Well, I can say that."Shh, baby... What do you want?" halos maiyak na niyang tanong dahil umiiyak pa rin si Volt.I sighed. "Give him to me..."Xiania looked at me pleadingly, like she wants me to make him stop crying. Nang mapunta na sa mga bisig ko si Volt, parang nagkaroon ng magic na bigla na lamang siyang tumahan.Xiania's face was too hard to read. Para siyang nakahinga ng maluwag, pero galit at the same time."Oh fine! Ayaw mo sa Mommy mo?" Humalukipkip siya at parang inaway pa ang bata.I
"What happened?" Mom worriedly asked as soon as they arrived at the Hospital. He's with my Dad. Sila ang nauna ko na tawagan nang itakbo ko si Xiania kanina rito dahil sa manganganak na raw siya. Of course I was so nervous. She's just 8months old pregnant. Delikado iyon pag nagkataon. "She's currently inside the ER." Pinasadahan ko gamit ang aking mga daliri ang buhok na nabasa dahil sa pawis. "Manganganak na raw ba?" I nodded anxiously. "Sabi niya..." "Diyos ko! Buti sana kung pitong buwan pa lang siyang buntis!" Iyon nga ang nasa isip ko. Syempre ay inaral ko na iyon nang mga panahong nagbubuntis si Xiania, at malayo ako sa kanya. I still want to understand her, and also take care of her even though she doesn't wants me to. Sabi na nga ba't magagamit ko iyon pagdating ng panahon. "Calm down, anak... For sure kakayanin ni Xiania 'yon at ng anak niyo." Dad tapped my shoulder to gave me an assurance. Wala ako sa sariling