I could hear the voices around me. Someone was talking but I just didn't know who. The voice was familiar but I did not know what they were saying. There was a repeating sound in my head, images of an image of the beastly nature of my mate and the repulsing thing that I had done just a few moments ago. I could still feel the blood of that made at my feet. A pool of blood that I almost tripped at. I could feel the paralyzing fear of when Ryan was first turned bright red and the man I knew was gone. I was talking that moment and it was crippling words where the maid begged for her life and tried to plead because she had a family she needed to look after. A mother word has been loyal to the alpha all her life and siblings who looked up to her for survival. All of that just ended in a Snap and if that wasn't enough he had to reap out her heart and throw it at my feet.A wave of nausea suddenly washed over me, and I felt my stomach churn. I tried to ignore it at first, hoping it would pa
Alpha Ryan’s POVThe weight of my mistakes bore down on me making me feel like I was dragging my feet around as I walked. I felt guilty for the turmoil I had caused our relationship and I wanted to make amends. I wasn't sure whether Taylor was going to forgive me but I was sure as hell going to try. I should have trusted her for crying out loud yet I just trusted the word of a servant over my own mate. as I stood in front of our bedroom door contemplating on whether or not to knock, I suddenly understood why other people felt so undecided. As an alpha I have never had to feel that or hesitant at anything I did. I always charged straight-ahead consequences be damned. but Taylor made me feel weak and vulnerable. She made me understand just how much our relationship was one dribble and what was really at stake.Instead of knocking I decided to just enter the room. I stared down at the floors and realized that everything had been cleaned up. That part at least made me smile because I k
Ryan's POVAs we walked towards the pack boundary, I had a lot on my mind but that didn't mean that I didn't notice the awkward uncomfortable silence between Phillip and I. Even though he usually didn't have much to say today was just unbearable. “Come on.’’ I spoke up.“Pardon me?’’ he said in a serious tone.“You're not usually this quiet on duty.’’“ I'm only doing my job Alpha. I believe that without any possible distractions and we'll be able to accomplish…’’“ What's wrong Philip?’’ I interrupted, feeling that something was nagging at him but he was holding himself back. “ Nothing is wrong Alpha. everything is perfectly fine.’’ he argued as we continued walking through the forest. “ I can tell you're lying and I can also hear your heartbeat. you don't need to be coy with me, Just be flattened tell me what's bothering you.’’He remained silent for a short while avoiding my eyes. I took the moment to scan her surroundings making sure that we weren't being followed and that no
I spent the rest of the day feeling numb, the weight of what had transpired in Ryan's office pressed heavily on my heart. I couldn't shake the image of his stern expression and the disappointment on the faces of the other Alphas. It felt like I had been reduced to an inconvenience, a burden to be brushed away. I wanted to go talk to Ryan's grandmother since she was the only person that seemed to give me comfort. but after today I feel like a burden to everyone. I did not want to bother her and I did not want her to see me as the queen who cannot and does anything and who has to keep running to her for a shoulder to cry on. I need to be tough but I couldn't do that without my mate. I couldn't do this alone.Ryan was my strength. That evening, I sought solace by the lake, hoping the surroundings would calm the storm inside me. But as I sat there, the hurt and humiliation I felt overwhelmed me, and tears streamed down my cheeks. I had opened my heart to him, offered forgiveness despite
Taylor's POVAfter my talk with Ryan down at the lake, I came here in the pack garden, hoping to clear my mind and listen to my heart. I hoped that Ryan would not follow me here. that he would respect my request for some space and time and this time he would actually follow-up to his actions. I don't know if I could take any more heartbreak. I didn't want to think about it anymore. but the thought of him just kept popping up in my head. From the garden view I looked up at the pack house and at the top corner window where I saw Mrs Monroe watching me. I knew that she was angry from how I agreed that they are back in our bedroom but I wasn't going to apologize for it.I took my stand in what I believed in and I was still hurt by how she was quick to judge me but different Ryan for his wrongdoings.As I sat lost in my thoughts, I was startled by the arrival of Alpha Mark, Whom I have not even noticed approaching. He greeted me with a warm smile and took a seat beside me. his presence r
I walked at the side of Anita, there was no way I could pry myself away from her iron grip. She smiled at me as she led me into the pack house. Two other women, who I remembered to be mates of some of the alpha’s as well, walked behind us while whispering among themselves. I got the unsettling feeling that they might be talking about me. The way that they talked in Low tones made me feel uncomfortable. But maybe It was just difficult for me to trust anyone anymore. I was not sure what to think About it so I just remained quiet and let them lead me towards the entrance.I was led into the packhouse, still feeling shaken up by what had transpired with Ryan. My skin tingled with the aftermath of when Ryan held me and tried to pull me with him. The fact that thinking about Ryan terrifies me, is what truly heartbreaks me. “It’s nothing coffee or tea can’t fix.’’ A feminine voice breaks me out of my trance. I looked up at Anita, who had just walked into the kitchen with me. She walked to
As I made my way back to my room, my mind was still reeling from the ugly encounter with Ryan and the Alphas in the garden. The weight of all my emotions made me feel overwhelmed and just buried in too much anger. I hated the way Ryan behaved, I hated the way he acted and how he was now treating me. I felt like an object in his hands. A property he thought he had ownership of. Anita had made me feel a little better. I was honestly not surprised when she told me that all the other alphas had at some point behaved in that manner. It seemed sensible that an Alpha, who has had to go to battles from a young age and take the lives of fellow wolves would be a little broken. Yet I could not understand the cause of Ryan’s behavior. It did not make sense that he’d suddenly just decide to start behaving and acting as possessive as he did today, or the day before that. Was it fair that he would always push me away then pull me back in whenever he was out of his crazy moods. I need to teach him
I carried the small bucket of supplies towards the middle of the packhouse and down to the east side where I met charity and the other women waiting for me. When I set down the bucket and sat down on a large Rock next to the well, Charity came to sit beside me.“You don't look so well.’’ she said as she smiled and took my hand. “ Is it pregnancy hormones.’’“I’d wish.’’ I confessed, “I'm just a little worried because of the arrival of all the other Alphas and whether this alliance is going to pull through.’’“Well there's nothing to worry about their my queen because they will be lead by our Alpha.’’ she said reassuringly as she rubbed my back.“And what about me?’’ “What about you, Luna?’’ she stared at me confused trying to figure out what I was saying.“What about me Charity, do you believe in me? does anyone?’’ She stared at me for a long moment. I tried to bury the pain behind my words clenching my fists as I pulled my hand away from hers and tried to contain my emotions. I felt
Taylor's PovWhile I stepped out of the dungeons, my heart still remained back there. Scared and wondering whether bad things will happen. Charity threatened the life of my unborn child, and it wouldn't be long till I brought them into the world. What happened now? How could I stop her if I did not know what I was stopping to begin with."That bad, huh?" Philip spoke as he greeted me at the entrances. He bowed his head, showing respect as I stood in front of him."She won't give anything up." I let out, feeling frustrated. '"Should we have a go at her?""Even though I would not want that, I'm beginning to think I have no option." I quipped."My Queen, there is something you need to see. " His tone is urgent, indicating that something really troubled him. I nodded my head, allowing him to lead the way."How has Nina been?" I asked as I walked with him."I have not yet gone to see her, Luna." His tone mild rises, showing a level of irritation for the name."She's your mate.""Who betra
Taylor's POVI stood there, feeling frozen in time. Uncertain yet, completely sure that this had to be one of the worst days of my life. “We’ve been friends since I came here,” I said, stepping forward as I stared at her. “Why?’’Charity stepped forward, her eyes mirroring a rage I’d never seen before. “I should have seen it. How fucking stupid…”“NO! You were not stupid. I just had to play stupid to make you believe you were winning.” My answer was clear, as precise as I would have hoped. “All this time we’ve spent talking. All the times I’ve given you advice on your bastard of a husband and that curse growing in your womb. Why would you think I care about you?’’ she let out, eyes meeting mine at a distance. Her words hurt me. The trust I had put in her was shuttered at this moment. Why does everyone I trust always end up hurting me?“Why did you do it Charity?’’ I repeated. “Why do you do the things you do?”“For the ones I love.’’ I affirmed. “For the ones I love.” She mirrore
Ryan's POV“We should do something,’’ I said as I paced around the office. “ We cannot let her go out there on her own. That woman is dangerous.’’ I run my fingers through my hair as I try to overcome my frustrations. The thought of my mate being hurt enraged me. it invoked the wolf inside me making me feel out of control. Taylor was everything that I had.“ You have to trust her, man. You've already told her that you believe in her now it's time to show it. let her do this. I believe she can.’’ Philip reassured me.“ You're awfully calm. Do you not understand the magnitude of the situation? This is fucking Charity. the conniving b**** that once tried to break up my parents marriage.’’ I spoke feeling anger rise inside me.“ You need to understand that sending Taylor out there was our best option.” “This is not about options here Philip, this is about my mate. who is carrying my child. this is about the reckless decision that we have made to send her out to a powerful and dangerous
Taylor's POV It was the first time ever since my ordeal that I was leaving the Pack House. A lot of the Pack members have been caring and had left gifts at the pack house entrances. The doctor had told me that I needed to take care of myself and be less stressed. The truth is just that during this pregnancy I have really neglected myself. I was stressed about everything and anything. please have a tough time and I felt guilty for not being able to take care of my child well. as I walked through the Pack I noticed Philip on the other side watching me at a distance. I nodded my head giving him the recognition. some of the other warriors had been positioned at designated areas of the Pack watching me. Ryan was in his office talking to Alpha Michael, Alpha Luke and Alpha Mark about what had happened. Once I gave the go-ahead, then the Pack would be called to an emergency meeting where it would be announced that the alpha had finally given their support to Ryan. Surprisingly a lot of cal
“But my love, you have to rest.’’ Ryan insisted, trying to push me back into the bed gently. I understood that he felt guilty for what had happened to me but 3 days of bed rest was already enough. Alpha Joseph was going to attack the pack in less than 4 days now and Ryan knew nothing.“ I just want you to be okay.’’ he said politely, sitting on the bed giving up. I stared back at him. Every time I look at him I remember what he said to me. and it breaks my heart all over again.“ What happened to us?’’ I asked in a low tone sitting on the opposite side of the bed. He remained quiet. The tension in the room was heavy.“ I don't know.’’ his voice was low barely above a whisper. There was so much guilt and shame in his voice that it almost made me feel horrible. I felt like I was making him this way. But he has made a lot of mistakes and I still have not seen the real Ryan trying to surface. “ but I want to make it up to you. and I've been trying my best to show you just how sorry I am.
As we exited Philip's office, I could feel the eyes of pack members on us. Everyone had heard her screams and they had come to check up on her. somehow I suspected that both of them believed they had hurt her. The package was feeding me. They saw me as a monster. They saw me as a direct representation of my father. Even though I hated them for seeing me like this, I couldn't help but feel content that they would be ready to protect my maid even against me. “What happened to the queen?’’ one woman asked in a high-pitched voice. “Luna Taylor, are you okay?’’ a little kid about 5 or 6 years old as good as she tried to touch her amol I carried her through the people. the crowd of people only began to grow. each one of them murmuring and praying to the moon goddess that Taylor would be all right. Among the voices was a sample even asking whether I had hurt her. Another one said that the moon goddess was punishing me for the way I treated her. I wanted to silence my brain. I wanted to sil
While we all turned to look who it was, I couldn't help but clutch my stomach feeling overwhelmed by fear. I felt anxious. and I wondered whether alpha Joseph had decided to finally attack. We were unprepared. we were unguarded and no one would expect it. the traumatizing moments of when he and my father had kidnapped me into my mind. I felt the tears flowing from my eyes as I fell to my knees. “Alpha Ryan! What is the meaning of this!’’ Philip reprimanded Ryan as he stepped into the room with an ax in his hand. there was a sharp pain in my abdomen causing me to scream out in pain. all attention was turned to me. I felt as if my stomach was churning. I could feel the tears flowing from my eyes. it was as if everything else had quieted down. it was as if I was the only one in the world.“AAAHH!’’ I let out another scream feeling yet again the same search of pain in my abdomen. What the hell was going on? “Taylor.’’ Will someone call my name screaming my name? but I couldn't Place Wh
Over the past few days everything has been remarkably better. Ryan and I had not gotten the opportunity to talk about what happened. I avoided him while he tried apologizing. I was done with it. he had apologized enough times and none of the two seemed sincere. I had spent a lot of time among the people. providing food and upkeep while learning recipes from the older women in the pack. This was also my opportunity to try and learn as much as possible about the witches without asking people directly. I had gathered quite a reasonable amount of information. Everyone seems to have seen dust. There was a dark brown dust that had risen in the air the day before the battle and it came from the north side of the Pack territory. At first I had dismissed that information until I figured that more than enough people saw it. a bunch of people could not have hallucinated the same thing. they had to be credible to that story. I couldn't help but wonder whether the smoke was an indication that tha
Earlier today, Ryan's grandmother had summoned me into a room. She wanted us to talk about something. I knew what she wanted us to talk about, i didn’t want to talk about it but I still availed myself. and I wasn't wrong. “ Taylor my dear, I'm glad you could make it.’’ she said with a smile on her face as she stretched her arms welcoming me into an embrace. I did not hesitate, hugging her immediately as she held on to me much tighter than usual. Mrs Monroe had never called me into her room. I have only ever gone to her whenever I was troubled but after the meal I had shared with the pack members my heart had been feeling lighter and I was no longer so worried about everything.Ryan’s grandmother was sitting by the window and looking out at the pack grounds. Her expression was a mix of sadness and contemplation, as if she held the weight of the world on her shoulders. Sometimes I felt like she was lonely. sad. That is why I always took it upon myself to try and spend more time with h